I must be getting spoiled! 
Have you tried Libertine with Wanted?
He explained that this look says that I will only have sex with the highest males. Thatās great.
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Yeah, yesterday there was a 28yrs old girl txt me to come to her place to play mario kart hahaha (like I let take the lead and all)
Sheās got the vibe of a hot party girl so Iām still hesitant to meet her as I am not in a horny phase during the winter and more of a cuddle phase 
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Bring some hot chocolate and some Hershey Sāmores or just roast some marshmallows. Sit on the couch and cuddle, maybe make out. See what happens, she will understand if you want to take it slow. Maybe she has some friends that you will like better.
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I went out for a walk and when I came to this one house, I was hoping I would see the guy who lives there. He came out of his house right as I was getting close and he was really happy to see me and was really nice. Heās alright, he does have a beard. I realized when I was on Heartsong that I really like guys who have a beard. I had never in my life liked that look before.
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I know why I want to grow a beard right now 
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Oh my god 
I could not do that! But she looks very in shape and her face is totally my style, Iāll just have to see personnality wise!
Yeah, Iāll see, chocolate to share would be cool
Iām a little bit confused, are you in a relationship? I see you talk a lot about other guys you are spotting, are you in a open couple?
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The relationship is complicated. While I do love him, he has repeated the same pattern of behavior for a few years now and I know heās not going to change. Time to keep my options open and start experiencing a higher level of happiness.
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Oh oh the quest has started! Really gives some context to all of your journal!!
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Iām Native American so I could definitely test out the beard growing in Wanted. I grew a beard this year and itās all patchy and now I have to shave it because itās all patchy and really all I can do is like an abe lincoln and in no way can i do one of those long fancy twisty moustaches. Like all I can really do is like a Dimebag Darrel Metal head goatee.
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trust me, WZP does help 
maybe add minoxidil with it and youāll have a sexy beard in no time.
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Ran Chosen with Libertine this morning.
2021 went out with a loud bang and 2022 is looking to be a very interesting year for me.
Being with the relatives left me dehydrated and Iām going to use this weekend to hydrate to get back to the gym on Monday. The gyms get flooded this time of year with newcomers to the point that itās hard to get any machines. Iāll probably go there at a time when there arenāt that many people around. Not the greatest time to test Libertine, but Iām seeing that Libertine is doing an internal growth about my views about sexuality, so Iām really glad about that.
My partner thinks I look flawless with tons of glamour. He said this first thing in the morning after I got up.
He is seeing Chosen shine through on a massive scale in terms of leadership.
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I am really enjoying and loving my femininity. It started yesterday, but Iām seeing more of this today. Iām loving my curves, my sexiness, my face. This must be LIbertine doing internal work.
I was one of the youngest children in a family with a lot of girls. When the oldest of these girls was barely one year old, she tried to hurt her baby sisterās green eyes with a metal object, seemingly out of jealousy that her baby sister was getting so much attention. This same girl, who was 8 years older than me led the other girls in the family to try to tear me down for many years because of my physical appearance. This did a tremendous amount of damage to me. I never enjoyed my body and face because of it.
Seductress Q and Qv2 were really helpful in this area. I didnāt expect to get these type of results from Libertine ZP. Now Iām really curious about what this program can do.
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I just came to the realization that my partner cares more about this project heās involved in than he does our own lives. Thereās a lot of information that I would have to leave out for the sake of privacy, so Iām not even going to attempt to get into details because itās just going to come out weird.
I gave him some suggestions about the situation and the next thing he does is heās stealing my ideas saying that he said this was his plan all along, and that I never suggested it. No saying āI appreciate your thoughts on thisā. Just stealing my ideas. wth
He later explained that the old part of himself has fears and that these are his fears coming out.
These subs are really helping me to not be manipulated and hurt emotionally. Iāve known for a long time that weāre not in this together, I just didnāt think it was this bad, so there is no point in doing things just to support him. I have to support myself first since itās obvious that he does not even have his own best interest, let alone mine. Heās not where he needs to be in his own growth in life, and Iām choosing not to make it my problem anymore. I just wanted to leave this here to keep an order of events in case I get better understanding about it later on.
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Youāve created a monster!
Thatās one reason I donāt share subliminals with people. Most people wonāt even read a book, though that could be a limiting belief on my part.
When I used to do delivery Iād have these ego maniac co-workers who thought if theyād get on their hands and knees for the wealthier people we delivered to that theyād give us huge tips. In fact they didnāt give us tips at all. I knew that so I watched him without judgement just seeing what was playing out. I told him after, I donāt know if he ever realized it himself. Weād deliver to people not so well off and they were more than happy to tip us.
The difference in mentality was that for the typical hard working man he feels good about tipping. While the wealthy man doesnāt even consider tipping and even if he did consider it he felt like he was doing us a favor by not tipping us. Letting us work harder I guess lol. Not that wealthy people are bad, but a lot of times they live in a different world where they get things for free.
From where I am I still feel like if I had money Iād help people. But then itās the same thing why people might not want to help homeless, thinking theyāll just buy drugs or booze. Me, Iād like to offer them a book that helped me with money tucked inside, but would that really help? I donāt know.
I donāt know what the point was there but itās what came up. Oh, and something else the wealthy teachers will tell you. Money doesnāt solve all your problems. In fact it will amplify them. So if youāre good with money when you have none, youāll be good with money when you have a lot and vice versa.
So that gets back to me not sharing with friends. Iāve lost all my friends as I improve and grow. All along my journey I wanted to learn all I was learning so that I could share with others. Then at some point I realized I have to do my work and forget about the others.
We can only give away what we are, what we have. So even though I could see how it would help them, they werenāt willing to do the work.
So itās probably the right direction when it was considered to recommend Regeneration to be the first sub that people run. But at the same time, most of us would rather skip that part and go for the other titles causing ourselves more problems and at least hopefully learning from those problems.
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Are you a teacher? You sound like one and you have a really good sense of humor.
Weāre both imperfect people, but Iāve tried to help this guy and all he has done was brought me down so that I donāt leave him.
Youāre very wise to realize that you have to do your work and forget about the others. Itās so true. Iāve loved him more than anyone and we have such a strong bond. Itās been a lengthy process, but Iām finally letting go of him, mentally and emotionally at the very least.
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Iām seeing that Chosenās warm, positive, attractive aura is not to be mistaken by shady characters.
I knew a few weeks ago that I never wanted to see that summer crush again. I was very firm about it. What does he do? He picked the wrong day to boundary stomp and pull his nonsense with me. The guy has some nerve. I let him know that I was angry at him and he regretted getting so gutsy with me.
Yesterday, this crazy neighbor whom Iāve told many times not to come over, came over anyway. One of the relatives felt pity for and opened the door. She said it was an emergency, she missed her ride and needed to borrow my phone. Not my problem you refuse to wake up on time. I heard the words āno, no, no, no, noā coming out of my mouth and I shut the door on her face. She said āyou closed the doorā then tried to guilt me about my religion and then says āMY god is going to get youā. This reminded me of a scene from the witch of The wizard of Oz, and I bursted out laughing .
Then there is this whole issue with my partner that keeps snowballing. He came home yesterday to a very warm welcome from some of the relatives and I. Then his phone rings, and before he even gets a chance to take his coat off says āI have to take thisā, and walks off to talk on the phone for the next 15 minutes. Typical rude behavior for him, but I was so bothered this time. I told him that he was really cold, and he acted like he didnāt realize he was cold. He has always been very cold and I think that being on Wanted is influencing him to be even colder. I already spoke to him about Wanted and that itās not recommended for someone who is in an intimate relationship for these same reasons. He knows what he got himself into, and has the intelligence to choose his own behavior. I told him that he treated us as less than, and that if someone looks down on me, I will look down on them, I donāt care who they are.
Something is definitely changing with my relationship with this guy and I know that this will bring about changes in my social life. I feel like this is only the beginning.
I used to have trouble saying ānoā to people, and now I donāt even have to think about saying it, I just do it.
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The alpha part of Chosen is coming out.
I think the alpha part of Chosen has to do a lot with what we believe in to be an ideal or ārightā.
Take Saint for example, he hates bullies, so Chosen gave him some recon and Iām sure that he would go above and beyond to deal with bullies while on Chosen.
I had a similar thing, I hate people who mistreat animals, when I was Chosen, I saw a guy from gym kicking a cat away from the stairs (thereās a cat that always rests at the start of my gymās staircase), and guess what did I do?
His car was parked next to mine, his door was open and blocked my door from opening, so I kicked it to close it, when he got pissed, I told him āyou feel bad about a machine but not a living animal?!ā, letās just say the embarrassment + the inspiration from Chosen made him start feeding the cat every night, still not friends with him though 
Basically my point here is, what youāre experiencing is standing up for what you believe is right and not letting anyone go against them.
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Youāre right, thanks for narrowing it down. The summer crush has connections to powerful people and I never use to stand up to him. I really didnāt care about who he was this time, and I can see by his demeanor that he feels bad about it. I even had a dream this morning, where I saw the event. He saw me driving on the road and decided to follow me. What wasnāt clear to me was the reason why he followed me, but the dream revealed it to me. The dream showed me that getting angry at him was the normal, healthy response.
The way you treated that guy convicted him to change his behavior. That is really huge. Have you always been this courageous?
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