The Waves with ZP

Journals - Major Programs
#61

Ran Chosen and Rich this morning. Now comes the five day bloom.

I felt so pretty the other day when my partner said I looked like an angel that I went out and bought some cute things for myself. I hadn’t felt like buying myself anything recently.

I met a woman about two months ago who seemed to dislike me back then, I could even see the hardness in her eyes. I saw her today and she was genuinely happy to see me. She was genuinely appreciative when I thanked her for something and she even put her hand on my shoulder and called me her friend.

I keep seeing really handsome guys staring at me.

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#62

I remember some of the good experiences in my life. I remember when I’d be in high states and was still keeping to myself because I was getting so much hate. Every once in awhile there’d be people who would recognize the goodness and let me go ahead in line or just be nice to me and do favors maybe get free stuff or something. So I take it that Chosen makes you one of those people who maybe brightens others day by doing that kind of stuff for others and even just energetically. The world certainly needs more of that and Chosen is really helping that out as well. Thank you for sharing your experiences.

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#63

I appreciate your kind words @ABC333 . What Chosen is doing really is amazing. I think that I’ve only just began to scratch the surface with this sub. It’s hard to go through life experiencing hatred from people. Just remember that if people hate you when you haven’t done something to hurt them, then it’s never about you. The hatred is always about them, and they will never grow and get better as long as they’re hating on you. There needs to be something in you that will always rise above the haters so that you can succeed in spite of them. Chosen is a great sub for that because it even helps you to stop the negative self talk from your own self. Are you using Chosen? Have you started a journal?

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#64

A girl that works at a restaurant where I go often came over and introduced herself to me as if she wanted to get to know me better. I like the approachability of Chosen.

My partner says I still have the angelic look. I’m not seeing it anymore, but I’m so glad that he can see it.

I also saw the summer crush and Jacob within minutes of each other. It was very interesting, my heart began to race out of nowhere a few minutes before I realized that the summer crush was around.

There has been a lot of family drama these past few weeks. I’m seeing that the person causing the drama is my partner. Some weird wth kind of stuff even happened. My doorbell rang by itself during the mist of some drama that my guy caused. lol That was a first. I can’t wait to at least go back to the gym and get some sense or normalcy.

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#65

Ding Dong!

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#66

Did you troll us with your superpowers? :grinning: :smiling_face_with_three_hearts: :smiley: :thinking: :upside_down_face: :smiley_cat:

#67

lol no. If there are superpowers the funny thing about them is that they’ll come when you’re not even after them. Some say they’re even a distraction from the ultimate goal. I can’t even think of any of my funny experiences like that, but yea it’s like those things just happen when you hit a certain flow or something.

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#68

Too bad, I ready to high five you! It was both so weird and funny that it happened 3 minutes before midnight. What a funny way to end an unusual day.

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#69

That actually reminds me. One of the first books I got on audiobook is called Training the Mind by Chogyam Trungpa I think it’s about Buddhism. But I remember this practice talked about. The book said people who have Siddhis it will take them away and for people who don’t have siddhis it will awaken them. Siddhis are those supernatural powers and abilities.

But back then I didn’t think anything of it because I always thought that yea if I had Siddhis I wouldn’t want to lose them. But now I’m like well, maybe that’s something I need to try. The thing that was recommended was a form of meditation called Tonglen. Basically it’s imagining taking the other persons suffering and replacing or transmuting it to love. On an inhale you are taking their suffering and on an exhale you are breathing out that light or love.

“Tonglen is an ancient form of meditation that focuses on compassion: connecting with it, developing it, and learning how to apply it in everyday life. The practice centers on imagining that as we exhale, we are sharing the light of well-being and its causes with everyone who needs it. As we inhale, we are relieving others of the darkness of suffering and its causes.”

So I’m going to relisten to that book now. :smiley:

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#70

My partner surprised me when he told me this morning that I’m getting a nymph look to me. In the dream I mentioned 13 days ago, the look I had was "enchanting’. I had the same dream twice that same night. I asked my partner this morning if I have an enchanting look, and he says “no”, but nymphs are enchanting creatures, aren’t they? Maybe I just need more time for the look to be further developed.

I felt the aura for a long time last night and this morning too. No idea why I would feel it so much at night when I’m not even being social.

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#71

I’m not noticing any differences in the way that people are treating me during this bloom. They are still treating me great. Me however, I am back to ignoring the cute guys and making them feel bad. I’m not as social with anybody. I feel like I have cabin fever always being around the relatives. Hopefully this is the problem and I’ll go back to enjoying being outgoing again.

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#72

lol. I don’t mean to laugh but that was funny to me. I am back to ignoring the cute guys and making them feel bad. lol

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#73

Thanks for pointing out the humor in that :upside_down_face: :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

#74

Christmas day was full of love and positivity, even the difficult relatives were really nice to me and loved being around me. I have a cold that I got from one of the relatives that loves to be out in the cold. This was the only gift that relative gave to a few of us. I feel so happy, I feel like big changes are coming in 2022.

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#75

I’m about to talk about something that will get real dirty, so turn away now if you don’t want to read about these things.

I got sick with the cold but then I also ate something that didn’t agree with me. I listened to Chosen and Rich in the middle of the night, then I fell asleep again. I started having this dream where someone was coaching me, and I remember them telling me that I was going to rinse my mouth with mouthwash. Then right before I woke up, I woke up to a dream of hearing all these people cheering and celebrating happily for me. I then got up and made it just in time to the bathroom to throw up. Even that was a positive experience, as I was telling myself that it was good that I was getting this stuff out.

I think next time my body gets sick, I will just run Chosen. lol

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#76

I’m going to run Chosen and Libertine for the next few weeks. I’m sticking with Chosen and I am so curious to see what Libertine will do. My partner said that I was starting to look like a cute sexy nymph, so I’m hoping that this will amplified by Libertine.

I saw that summer crush the other day and I ended up blowing off. I had mixed feelings about this, but he deserved it. For some reason this guy gets really attracted to me when I’m on Libertine, but he keeps his distance. Then seems to get even more attracted and approaches me with his random advances when I’m not on Libertine.

I’m managing the most difficult relative a lot better lately. I’m setting boundaries, they’re trying to stomp on them, but those boundaries are not coming down.

#77

I ran Chosen and Libertine in the middle of the night and I went back to sleep.

This morning my partner tells me that the angelic look, cute sexy nymph look, and the dreamy look is gone. He says I now have sexiness and glamour. I’ll take sex appeal and glamour, but I’m not sure I want to run Libertine every other day if I will miss out on the other looks I had.

I did have a very interested dream that makes me consider keeping Libertine as a regular sub for the next few weeks. In the dream, I was talking to a coach who was talking to me about the ideal sex life I would like to have. How many partners and how often. That would be great if that sex life gets manifested as a result of including Libertine in my stack.

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#78

Nothing really new to report. I just want to keep track of my listening times. I ran Libertine with Chosen this morning.

My partner says that I look gorgeous, that I have a regal look to me and a structured sexiness that comes across as very formal.

He has never said anything like that to me before and I’m not sure what to think about it.

I’m still not back to my regular routine and I haven’t come across any good looking guys lately. There were two guys that kept talking to me the other day after I ran Libertine. One was nice and let me go ahead on the line. The other guy actually made a scene that literally stopped traffic.

I’ll just keep running the program and see what happens when I’m around more people.

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#79

Excuse me, miss? These two statements contradict each other. :joy:

Dude stops traffic just to talk with you, and you’re just like, “just another day in the life of @lrw.”

And somewhere out there, someone is reading this thread and thinking pLaCeBo!!!11

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#80

Oh mate, I wish I could get there with Wanted hahaha (well, for a girl, if a guy stops the traffic for me I don’t think that’s positive)

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