This is the custom I plan to build (current state) when my birthday comes, I still have more than a month so I will begin the creation/manifestation process, so its the ideal custom for my needs.
Paragon
Asclepius
SPS: Respiratory System
SPS: Nervous System
SPS: Renal System
SPS: Lymphatic System
SPS: Immune System
SPS: Fat Burn
SPS: Endocrine System
SPS: Cardiovascular System
A/SPS: Organs
Possible result enhancers:
Jupiter
The Merger of Worlds
Carpe Diem
Iron Frame
Inner Voice
Stress Displacement
Yggdrasil
Its a preliminary ideaā¦ I might take out 1 or 2 or 3, or it might never get build (wouldnt be the first time). For now its really not more than āthinking out loudā. @RVconsultant
How many APS/SPS would be a recommended max for an ultima?
I have 3-5 I really want to run and that I was initially thinking to put into my upcoming Stark custom. However, I think that it would give the Stark custom too many goals to complete at once, so Iām considering putting them into a ultima with Paragon or Legacy as core.
Ive been having a headache todayā¦ just a mild sensation early in the morning, getting stronger and now somewhat strong reaching the night. Its about a 5/10 in intensity.
Its clearly Reconciliation, the only thing I changed is that yesterday I removed Rebirth Ultima and replace it with my custom Gnosis of Dominus (GOD)
Its giving results immediately, but it feels strong. Maybe its not recon, but overloadingā¦ well who cares really.
I dont know if its Wanted, Stark or the Tribulus Im taking, but Im getting really tempted to add Spartan to my stack. I want to work on my body and maximize the workout.
Im not making another custom for a while, 3 is enough. My 3 customs are pretty tight and focused like a laser, thats why I think that instead of using ultimas as booster I might add Spartan to the stack and leave rest days to be totally free of subliminals.
Since I started GOD my libido and sexual thoughts have almost disappeared as my overall interest in sex.
I just want money.
I understand that with time things will balance in a perfect way for me, now Im reacting more to the new element in the stack.
Im pretty happy with the shift in conciousness though.
If I invest half the time and energy Ive invested in sexuality, into making money I can be rich. Let that sink in.
Im at a stage in which Im really comfortable with what Ive learned and achieved sexually, so its only natural for me to move my attention to other things like making money and building my body.
Now that Im writing all of this Ive realized that the healing part of the journey is over and Im entering the thriving part of the journey. It surely feels this way.
Its been a pattern for me to kind of obsess with something, like its the most important thing I can ever achieve, when I reach the point in which Im satisfied, then its not longer important for me and something else takes its place.
Time goes by and if I look back then everything makes sense, I needed that piece of the puzzle to move on to the next one, to keep evolving. That understanding almost everytime comes in hindsight.
Yeah I know how that feelsā¦
Fear isnt necessarily a bad thingā¦ I take it as a sign from my unconscious mind, from my inner wisdom that there is something of importance that needs to be taken care of. Once I stopped fighting fear and began listening to it, its has been a powerful teacher. Sometimes I still want to run away and hide of course, but sooner rather than later I go inside and listen.
I used to pursue āenough of itā and thought āitā was x amount of women, or x amount/type of sexual experiencesā¦ pure ego trip it was for me. It began to dissolve when in that pursue I discovered deeper levels of connection with a special womanā¦ the importance of the rest of āitā faded away. Just to avoid confusion Im still up for new exciting experiences, but under a new different light.
I realized I was looking for love, a type of love that is profoundā¦ looking to be loved above all things, but really looking to love and accept myself. I was looking through sex and thought āenough of itā might do the trickā¦ honestly it gave me lots of frustration on the way.
Im certain that I can rock any womans world sexually having the opportunity, but I only care about my woman. Theres a level of self confidence that only seems to come from that knowledgeā¦ of having experienced a deep spiritual bond through amazing, earth shattering love makingā¦ with that special woman. I was wrong about the quantity or I was really lucky that I got to experience the whole culmination of the process with the right woman. Who knowsā¦
Water