Something sexy!
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Man… sadness is really kicking my ass since yesterday.
I miss having someone to share my life with and Im not willing to share it with just any woman.
Theres a void inside of me and DDR3 is having no mercy poking it.
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Heartsong! And manifest someone into music & analog saturation (tube) 
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I have complete faith in you, dude!
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Thanks dude!! Sometimes I get a bit emotional, but Im ok.
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This is gonna be a long night… The feeling of loneliness is unbearable, I want to go out get drunk, do drugs and have no one to do that.
Im gonna stay between four walls like a madman.
Theres a holiday in my country and everyone is out having fun… Havent spend a holiday alone in years.
I cant deal with the void I feel inside.
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Im trying to fill a void with noise and alcohol, but that only make it worse in the long run.
The void is a lack of love, self love. The sooner I accept that, the better.
I didnt take into account that Im listening to LB in my custom. Lol
I want to be held and cry endlessly, but honestly that wont fix anything, I gotta learn to be at peace by myself.
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It’ll get better my friend. Stay strong
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Thanks my friend!! Venting out is helping me process.
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Im looking for someome or something to believe in, something that gives me hope, cause I cant believe in myself.
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Hummm Interesting… Ive forgotten about this, it seems to me that Im perfectly attuned with my goal.
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I sympathize. A while back on Khan, I tried alcohol to deal with reconciliation. It just made it worse.
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Yeah… just a momentary release, followed by sinking lower than before.
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Tomorrow is the end of my DDR3 cycle and of my healing adventure.
Then a nice washout, followed by my custom and Primal Romance.
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Still processing a lot of emotions, like grief and sadness, but instead of locking myself up in my room, I came to a park and Im sitting under a huge tree.
Its calming me down…
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The purge has been constant, lots of sadness and loneliness. I had to take a nap.
Now I feel more rested, but I cant stand silence.
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The more I think about it, this trip is a search for meaning. Ive been analyzing and taking apart the narrative of my life and how I used that to decide who I am.
Just like a journalist, I interpreted my experiences to satisfy the “Official Narrative” instead of reporting the facts.
I been feeding myself a shit ton of fake news.
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This stage is called “The Awakening”
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Bursts of good mood and optimistic attitude… Feeling grateful
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