Ok Ive reched the end of this journey!!
The healing from DRR was a rough ride, very hard at times.
Ive gained a lot of insides and many emotional clearings.
The most impactful lesson from st3 is that to stop struggling with myself, whether you want what you say you want or you dont.
The struggle came from a lack of self love and a feeling of undeservedness. From the tendency to hold on to the past and the story I wrote of who I am, the need to honour that character I built for me. Ultimately being unable to write new characteristics into it, because they were out of place.
Now the time comes to focus on whats next and how to build new things.