Happy to hear you’re rather good.
Crazy dream. Our subconscious is really powerfull. Even if we don’t understand it often.
About the pain. What helped me with root canal treatment (without anesthesia) and renal colics was to embrace the pain. To tell the pain that I love and welcome it. Tried to become one with the pain. As long as the pain isn’t to strong and you can still concentrate it enabled me to reduce the pain tremendously.
Tough day today, but nothing as bad as yesterday…
Hopefully tomorrow I’ll be back home.
In the morning I couldnt move or sit down in the bed due to the pain, now I can walk by myself to the bathroom. PROGRESS!!
Hell yeah!
I did some KB st3 and Paragon… let it work its magic.
Im going home!!
Im on day 5 of this cycle and did KB st3 × 3:33 and Paragon × 5 minutes.
Im feeling pretty good overall, just a bit tired from all the healing of the body and with some pain in the right chest area. Nothing to worry about, just the obvious and expected post surgery discomfort.
Today Im gonna go out for a walk in the sun.
Last night I was able to sleep laying on my left side as I usually do, the pain is fading away.
Im doing breathing exercises to recover my lung capacity and stretch my thoracic muscles, for now they are a bit harden and swollen.
The overall haze and diziness induced by all the pain killers and opiates seems to have faded away completely and my mind is clearer and sharper.
I walked for 30 minutes and climb some stairs to regain my breathing capacity and test my heart.
Everything is developing ok.
The doctor gave me 2 pain killers one to take every day and the other just in case the pain was too strong.
Today I realized that Im taking half the dose of the first one and Ive been feeling ok, so I guess my evolution into health is quite solid.
Ive been contemplating my life after contemplating the possibility of dying for a couple of weeks and going through a quite important surgery and I can see my priorities changing right in front of my eyes,
Im gonna take this week until I see the doctor again to let the process develop at its own pace.
What is clear to me is that something of importance is moving inside.
Last night and this morning I had some difficulty breathing and some chest pain, so I took the stronger painkiller. Not being able to breath properly is not fun.
The pain went away, but those pills gave me a lot of anxiety, so maybe next time I prefer the pain.
Looking forward to listening Paragon tomorrow.
KB st3 × 4:30 and Paragon × 4:44, 9 days into this cycle.
Feeling very energized and optimistic today, nothing like the angst from yesterday.
Challenged myself a bit by climbing stairs and I might repeat that in the afternoon.
Pain is mild, but I can breath almost normally… almost, but I feel I need at least 7 to 10 days to be breathing as I should.
Whats the difference between having a strong intuition coming true and having manifested that outcome?
I mean was I really having an intuition or was I manifesting that thing everytime I though about it happening, with a strong feeling of certainty?
This cycle with KB st3 and Paragon has been pretty quiet.
What I mean is that my focus has been inside, into achieving healing and my mind has been peeling away some layers of noise, until I reached a level of silent comfort, just right to let myself go and live the process.
Today I have an appointment to the doctor so he can remove the stitches and tell me how my evolution is going.
I feel pretty good, just some minor discomfort in the stitches areas, I have kind of an alergic response.
I still cant sleep laying in the right side, because it hurts, more like a discomfort in breathing than actual pain, but still the area is a bit swollen.
It feels like someone kicked me in the side of the chest some days ago and Im recovering from the impact, uncomfortable.
Anyways Ive been going up and down stairs everyday to regain breathing capacity and to expand my thoracic muscles… Gaining back some cardio too.
Yesterday the doctor removed my stitches and let me know Im done, just need to go to a control in 3 weeks.
Im only taking a very mild analgesic till the swollen tissues go back to normal, but since the stitches are gone the inflammation is already going down and the itching is gone.
Im sticking to KB st3 until the end of the cycle, but Paragon already did his thing so its gone.
My plan is to eventually move into a SB, PS and LB stack and use that for a long time, until I feel like creating a custom.
Im gonna do KB st3 and PS for the rest of this cycle and in the next one Im changing KB for SB… later adding LB.
I have no intention of doing KB st4, the plan was always to do until st3, 2 cycles per stage.
Very glad to hear it!
Yes brother!! Im ready to rock!!
I added PS 3 days ago, today was the 2nd day with it, and of course Im stacking with KB st3.
PS has already given me an important shift in consciousness, in a subtle yet very deep way PS changed my self perception and what I feel I deserve.
It was a paradigm shift that happened in a very curious way, just a small piece moving from one side to the other initiating a reframe of my outlook on relationships.
You know those kind of things that you understand rationally, but doesnt reflect on your behavior, because your Unconscious mind is running older software?
Suddenly you click the update button and you see things differently, then your emotional/behavioral responses become naturally different.
You cant pin point the exact thing that changed, but its undeniable that something is not as it used to be.
Now its time for exploration of the world and noticing, experiencing, enjoying whats about to be uncovered.
The most interesting part is that I feel no rush and no fear… just curiosity and a sense of balance.
Finished my cycle yesterday, now washing out.
After 3 or 4 days, you know what… make that a week of anger and sadness, I thought I was becoming a very cynical man, specially towards woman, but quite in general.
Yesterday I came to an understanding, I wasnt becoming cynical, I was resisting a rude awakening from the nightmare of naivety.
Today I feel better accepting the fact that people lie and manipulate and thats an undeniable fact, its only a matter of frequency and degree. Sure theres a lot of reasons for those behaviors, but really not that many, they just want to get their way in the only way they feel they can.
Im not saying that I dont manipulate or lie, of course I do and admitting that to myself without judgment, was part of the awakening out of naivety.
Run away from people that say they dont! More often than not they are the worst.
Very interesting results from my first loops of PS, maybe with some blooming from LB.
Day# 1
LB × 5 minutes
PS × 5 minutes
Feeling great starting this new chapter!
The last couple of days Ive been taking huge steps into achieving true 0 contact with my ex, by that I mean cutting ties in the physical realm as much as in the mental and emotional. You know little, apparently harmless things can carry a lot of weight. Its not the thing that matters, but the principle behind it.
I feel the freedom running through me.
I have such a good intuition about this stack that Ive already designed a custom around it, if it works as intended Im gonna build it.