Thank you my Friend
After this cycle of DR I jump back on my sweet customs I have prepared.
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I nearly kicked everyone out of my life because of mistreatment or abuse of my boundaries.
Then I had a dream last night, I opened a door and there was a table with people sitting in chairs. 2 of them stood up and gave me a hug. They where 2 of my old friends. I was perplexed because it didnât came from me. It was their intention to forgive me for dropping them.
Then I wake up from the dream, and I am still wondering if I should contact them again.
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have boundaries ,tell true , travel , move cities, make new friends , do you mate, but no need to keep hate . even those who bring you down or do bad
send love and light if possible
I say this is you healing and you have started to open up for forgiveness. Sooner or later we have to let all these grudges we have towards people in our lives go if we truly want to be free.
I used to remind myself that its not really them Iâm foregiving, but myself for letting it happen. Care what other people think of you and youâll forever be their prisoner.
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@kingofpersia Thank you
@Tobyone Thank you
Looks like itâs over with holding grudges, I have forgiven everybody 2 weeks ago and now itâs coming back at me from the Spiritual side as well.
Its a nice feeling
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This cycle of DR/Elixir custom +Limit Destroyer feels very smooth.
After the first loop l had maybe 3 intense hours.
After the 2nd loop only 1 hour
And since the 3rd itâs smooth sailing.
Yesterday after the loop I was relaxing in the hamoc and had the feeling of my cardiovascular system is collapsing any moment . Itâs a feeling I had constantly. Then I asked myself : why?
I saw that it is from childhood trauma. It was fear of being Destroyed by my father. Fear of being destroyed.
Then I somehow laughed inside and tell myself : but it didnât happen and it will never happen. Finally my brain understands that and disolving the whole state. Then I saw how I hold this state alive : its the feeling of : I need this fear to survive. So I told myself : itâs untrue, I donât need it any longer. And the whole state crumbled to dust. This knocked me out for 3 hours in a very good way. For 3 hours I became my energy back.
Since then I have finally the feeling : I am safe here and in my body, also my root has finally warm energy.
The whole process was so ridiculously easy and fast.
Thank you @Fire for creating such a Masterpiece. Youâre a true healer and you created something thatâs far superior than anything else in this world.
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2 days since the last loop of DR.
Everything is smooth since then.
Now thatâs progress
Next loop in 5 hours
Did a loop 15 min ago for 10 min.
During the loop I felt my stomach clenching and I heard a part of myself saying : no more self punishment.
Then I watched this usless behavior in the eye and told myself: there are other ways for me to learn something, letâs try love and encouragement instead.
Then I saw and felt in my minds eye that I have my hand over my heart and rubbing loving energy and words of encouragement into myself.
I adopted this new way immediately.
Thank you Subliminalclub
Yesterday I had out of the blue the notion : do Survival Instinct.
I did
Best choice ever. I smoked weed afterwards and saw how my system is working nonstop.i watched the process of removing people from my heart and set new boundaries. The quality of people that will enter my heart space from now on has to be super good.
I was going trough everybody I have connected in my life and shoot them out completely. Only a few remain.
Then I had this one experience with my father thatâs stil stuck in my heart and gives me somewhat of a cardiovascular attack, it goes like this, me 16 years old entering the apartment of my Father and play backgammon with him, having a great time ( one of the rare moments) heâs complimenting me about my game and being nice (also ultra rare) until I feel good and open my heart. I patted his back and was happy that he was nice, then he stand up and says: your so useless I should wrap iron chains around your feet and throw you into the lake.
Thats only one of hundreds of evil things this pice of shit told me.
But yesterday I could realese this particular memory and the impact it had on me, with the release of this memory other memories followed, for 30 min I vomited evil shit into the direction of my Father. Then I made the same process with my family.
I came to the point that they are valueless and shooting them out for good. I saw how I want to grab them and hold them inside myself but I told myself : I loose nothing that I Am gonna miss.
And there they go 
This was very good.
I did yesterday Survival Instinct at morning and DR custom at night.
Its incredible how easy I remove people from my system now.
I had problems with letting family go.
I had banished people from my life, sayd good bye, removed the strings, cut the chord, break contracts and cut the connection in the Spiritual realm but inside I didnât want to let them go.
Since these 2 loops of Survival Instinct I had seen the influence my father had on me and how ugly this affects my life. With little bit work I have him finally completely out of my inner life.
Same goes for my Mother,yesterday a memory poped up and I realized how unable this women realy is and how much of an impact it has on my life/mental/emotional state. I could let her go without resistance.
My Brother is also removed.
It feels very good.
I stood up today and feel alot of pain (since yesterday) but in spite the fact that I at the moment nowhere close to making a connection with someone else I expirience that I am fully ready to have a relationship.
Very interesting that this comes from Survival Instinct.
I thought Dragon Reborn would do that.
Seems like Dragon Reborn enhances the Healing part of other subs very effective
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Ohh wow now a system is cristalizing before my eyes.
Running 2 loops of DR ST4 and along the sub of choice to have the Healing component exequted and then dropping DR and proceed with the sub of choice only.
This should work perfectly
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Yesterday I left my apartment to go to a salsa party.
In the train I get a panic attack and at the same time I remained super calm. I watched the fear in the eye and told the fear : show me the reasons, show me the Dangers now.
Nothing happened and in 1 min the whole state crumbled to dust as if it never existed.
Thats incredible healing at work.
Thank you Subliminalclub
Today I woke up and have fantasys about being in war zones and everything is exploding around me but I am so calm that I have time to notice whatâs happening around me. Itâs like I take a super relaxed walk in the most unpleasant scenario.
Then I hour after that I see myself defending against attackers in slow motion. I have time to see all the possible spots to hit when someone is attacking me physically.
I can slow the attack down or freeze it and see where the spots are. Itâs like training in my mind.
Survival Instinct is incredible
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Did Survival Instinct only yesterday.
Did smoke today double of my normal dose.
I generate strength and courage
I donât get it
Its the first time I am scared of Dragon Reborn.
I destroyed my traumatic states and I have no more interest in healing titels at the moment.
Its like I have done whatâs needed and i can move on.
Letâs go
Itâs decided, I stop Dragon Reborn.
I canât bear it any longer.
7 weeks of tiredness is enough.
Will do another round when needed.
Time to put my customs to test.
Washout starts tomorrow.
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This is crazy.
I know I need to do more healing.
I am very close.
I just canât be tired and vulnerable all the time.
Its too much. 8 weeks brought me to my knees.
I need balance now. Time to feel something good
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Nothing like good music to start feeling something real good. You deserve some balance now!
Gonna finish this cycle with Alchemist st 1 for the last week.
Letâs go hardcore!
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