The Pleasure of Push n Pull

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#221

That was a strange/disturbing experience.

A girl who wanted to sell me a monthly membership for kids in Africa approached me.

I didn’t let her talk and did the strangest things with her for 10 min. I talked non stop and changed topics every minute until she was super confused. #Mee too

Today I learned that with Wanted I can’t put the pedal to the metal. I tried but failed miserable.

I walked away after 10 min and thought : I feel sorry for her, I waisted her time, then I burst out laughing.

That was the strangest interaction in my life.
Normaly I dominate with a good vibe and all kind of funny stories, provokative sexual statements, direct to the point and clear.

This was like a bird that’s chirping the whole time coupled with sprinkle water.

I have to calibrate this state.

Its like a new program is installed and I could not use it.

What I learned is this.

Less is more
Relax and enjoy
No need to dominate or steer the whole interaction myself.

I am gona learn a new system of operation now.
I do it slow so I can realize what’s going on.
It feels like a new start at the zero point

Let’s go slowwwwwww

#222

I realize that I am doing to much in social interaction. I was always the one with the good vibe trying to infect others.

Like a dominator of the space that sticks the sword in everything that moves.
I Forced a good time

With wanted I am more laid back/flirty
I am more like a fisherman
Just throw a little bait out and wait for the bite and enjoy my time while fishing and even if nothing bites I have a wonderful time

I start to get it
Now I have to adapt to this new foundation

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#223

Stood up and was in a very bad mood since yesterday.I mean realy bad borderline - suicide–victim-self pity passive mode.

Don’t worry about the suicide stuff- even if it’s there, it’s never an option, I am too strong for that kind of things.

So I did what I have to do and listen too my DR Custom and Chosen from Within.

Holy Moly I cryed a good amount and the started to work trough topic after topic.

I feel powerfull from Within but my face says: I am eating shit

Also I did start intermitting fasting yesterday and today after the first sandwich (17 hours no food) I nearly collabsed for 40 min.

In 2 hours I go for swimming.

I did work trough so many topics that I lost count.

Now I don’t want to give up, I am too deep into the whole healing story that it doesn’t matter what happen outside of myself.

I don’t feel good at all but I know it’s absolutely worth it.

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#224

I grow from a helpless baby into an powerfull adult.

Shit is this DR/Elixir/CfW Powerfull

Thank you Subliminalclub

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#225

Tomorrow is my last day of healing subs for this cycle

DR and CfW is on the menu

CfW is the key here, all I needed was a little bit of love and positivity towards myself.

I nearly drowned in shit after 14 loops of DR.

In 8 days I am going to a Festival for 3 days and I can’t be in this state. So tomorrow is my last listening day and then I do a washout.

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#226

Let’s go crazy hardcore!

How much are you listening to CfW?

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#227

@RVconsultant

I did this cycle

D1 Spartan + DrSt4/Elixir custom
D3 Spartan + DrSt4/Elixir custom
D5 Dr custom
D7 DR custom +Wanted
D9 DR custom +Wanted
D11 Dr custom +Chosen from Within
D13( tomorrow) Dr custom +Chosen from Within

I knew from the beginning that I need a couple of loops DR first and then in the middle of the cycle integrate Chosen from Within. It worked perfectly.

I am good and it’s very manageable.
Altought I don’t recommend this stack ( DrSt4 /Elixir custom +Chosen from Within) to anyone.

Only the custom is immensely strong. On Qv2 I had the chance to look away and do things to not focus on the shit that’s going on inside me. . That’s just not possible with this Zp custom.
Its brutal sometimes in terms of strength but heavenly afterwards.

But I like that. It’s very effective. The trick is to remember that it’s Dragon Reborn at work (I forgot 3x that I did Dragon Reborn and that’s the reason I feeling all this.

I made huge progress
The most important part was that It lead me into such a level of despair that I only wished to Heal completely and from everything. my wish was so strong and sincere that my system delivered energy into it and since then it’s self-sustaining and I heal in record speed.

Also this one helps tremendously in this process and I am back on using them again after 5 years of abstinence
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The trick here is : use the brown stone

:wink:

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#228

Did 1 loop of DR and I am very relaxed. It feels like I am in holidays.

Its also the 3rd day of intermitting fasting and its so easy to do.

I tryd fasting many times and the first 4 days where always hell,but now I don’t even pay any attention to it. In 1 hour I can eat and it’s ridiculously easy. I think it’s from wanted, I was last week swimming and I saw guys with a super body, I was jealous immediately and then I said to myself : shut up complaining, they worked they’re ass off for this, it doesn’t fly down of heaven. Then I just decided that I am going to do what’s necessary to achieve a super sexy muscular adonis like body.
3 days later I started fasting.

Here I am feeling good being on the Journey of losing fat and build a body I like.

During the loop I saw how resistant I am to forgive and I couldn’t allow myself to have this resistance any longer. Resistance lost all his power immediately and I forgave everyone. This time it felt right.

Yesterday I also had resistance to love myself, I felt the love in me but the gate of acceptance was closed the moment love came in contact with myself. 5 min I had a conversation with : the gatekeeper and telling him: it does not hurt me in any way to love myself. The answer was : If I let this love enter my being and accept it the many bad thing will happen and coming to the surface.

I understand why I couldn’t let love into my life now. It’s just a protecting mechanism.

Then I sayd to the Gatekeeper : OK I Am prepared for that and accept whatever shit is crawling to the surface and I am gona heal it. Then this beautiful love passed trough the gate into my Core and I get lost in love for 10 min. Then I had to run 3 x to the toilet and vomited hard. Since then I feel and expirience that I am emotionally stable.

I needed that.

I also smoked hashish yesterday evening to test where I am at. To my surprise I was just confortable the whole time. No topic or fear appeared, no pain or oversensitiv, no paranoia, I was just stoned.

So I 1started to play on myself and masturbated my self happyly into sleep

:joy:

NOW its time for me to go out and play my game
Its time to live for me.
I have done what I needed to do.
I am proud of myself like you can’t imagine.
I healed myself with the help of many tools and an iron will.
I am strong from the inside.
The first time in my life I feel NORMAL, unhindered, ready to put the pedal on the metal, live life on my terms, ready for Alpha Subs. Ready for action. Ready for relationships, ready to explore life once again, to learn new thing and grow bigger and better, to sum it up: I stand at Point Zero

LET’S GO

#229

Uff this combo is deadly to all that plagues you.

DRst4/Elixir! Chosen from Within

I will continue next cycle with that combo and clean even better.

I made changes and healed from so much that I don’t want to list it here anymore.

Let’s just say : the list is long.

But
Its done.
Its fucking done
Its incredible effective
It takes courage
Big bold courage
But it’s so worth it.

Fresher life is waiting for me now.

LET’S GO AND HAVE FUN

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#230

Tomorrow I test my new Custom

Wanted
Godlike Masculinity

Charisma and Flirting automatic Improver
Deep-sleep
Deus
Divine Self image
Direct influencing aura
Energetic Development XI
Entranced
Gorgeous Manifestor
Information Releaser
Inner Gasoline
Khronos Key
Natural Winner
Naturalizer
Power awareness
Power Unleashed
Pragya
The Merger of Worlds
Voice Master

I am eager to try it right now but I wait until tomorrow.

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#231

Let’s go for swimming and then it’s premiere time for Wanted /Godlike Masculinity

:blush:

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#232

First loop finished 2 hours ago.

Ufff what a blast until now.

First I felt a surge of power
Then I saw how I diminish every attempt to be powerful. Then I somehow stopped to surpress my power.

At the same time I was in the train to a very nearby city. They have a city fest going on this weekend. When I arrived I saw that it is over and the people are going home. I one corner there was still loud techno music playing so I ended up in a backstreet outdoor bar.

I stood there without movement (the sound was very boring and only for people on cocaine)

Then a guy behind the dj desks is coming straight into my face and tells me : I can smell you from 1 Kilometer, you are not welcome here, go back to your police academy.
I told him his nose isn’t working
He told me I am not a raver an I have to go.
I stood there and prepared my jet punch.
He left
Another guy from the dance floor approached me and we had a simple conversation, we figured out that I know his brother, because his brother lives in the same little area I live.

2 min later the other guy returned and they had to stop him physically.

Again he putting his stupid face into my and started to talk nonsense.

I told him that he is stupid and laughable to the core.

Turns out he is the owner of the club/bar.

He returned and tell me to dance right now
I told him that there is law to dance, specially when the Musik is so monotone.
He jellied again: everybody here knows who you are, everybody sees that you are the police.
He nearly flipped inside so I grabbed him and pulled him towards me.

Its a funny picture I am 163 cm and he is 1 head above me and very trained.

I open my tabak bag an hold him 2 strains of weed and 1 pice of hashish into his face and tell him: first your nose is broken, second your delirious.

He still insisted that I am the police

:joy::joy::joy:

Then he vanished and start to shot with a water pistol in my direction. I had the phone in my hands and it get wet.

That was the moment I burst out laughing about this stupid being.

He reload his watergunn and I turned away.

No need for violence.

Then I walked on the streets and suddenly I change into Wanted mode, total Nonchalant, stopping completely to look and run after women.

Wanted is killing my neediness

Now I feel sexy, powerful, alive and very hot, I am just enjoying myself

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#233

Maybe more rest days.

Do you have a projector as well?

#234

It’s ok, I am very fine, I can handle it and take it,

I am very proud of myself that I have done another great job at Healing.

This round I was fully prepared and it was the most successful one.

The only reason I made a break at day 13 was because I am going to a 3 day Psytrance Festival next Friday so I have to stop healing titels.
Can’t be there in a healing state.

Also: the brown one boost the process 100 times
And yes I have a projector as well
I Thank you @RVconsultant

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#235

Today I stood up and I have this beautiful love for myself.
I don’t want to be somebody else.
I am perfect
Its fantastic to be me.

Also procrastination is of the table
Just doing things.

Wanted /Godlike Masculinity is the perfect combination. I am happy to run this title for a long time.

The pendulum method was spot on.

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#236

Yesterday I had the most relaxed day in years.
Thanks to Wanted I don’t run around anymore.
I chill and enjoy myself
I have time for myself
Since the first loop of Wanted (not in a custom)
I started to intermittent fasting.
I do this since one week without a problem
I feel desired and sexy
I know the good stuff will come to me and I can be relaxed

From Godlike Masculinity

The feeling of being a man is the best feeling ever
Centered, unapologetic, unpenetratable, in control, standing like a mountain
I feel strength in me
My discipline raised greatly
My swimming time yesterday was super lengthy (1 hour straight)

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#237

This Wanted /Godlike Masculinity custom is something else.

I am so relaxed.
Before Wanted I always jumped head over heels into situations and was always engaging in conversations.

Now I am just there and enjoy my time, enjoy being me.

No push, no search, no need to do something to get a rewarding feeling, just layd back,knowing that everything will come to me.

On the same time I feel more Masculine than ever, I feel power, I feel centered, OK with myself.
I have love and appreciation for myself.

Then I feel Unpenetratable to my core.
More discipline
More sense of value
More polar ( women notice me)
Everytime I want to run behind a woman, I stop and have the notion of : its not worth, stay here and enjoy yourself.

I feel sexy and hotish attractive.

Then I realize that I expect that women jump for me for nothing in return from my side, I don’t give them something to respond and have a good time. I changed that immediately.
If I want Sexuality I have to play with my Sexuality and let them decide to jump on the wagon.

I am flirty all the time and I have very warm feelings in my chest. It’s such a wonderful feeling.

I told a girl today a couple of sexy things and waited for her to respond, she did energetically and had a very warm and sexual vibe towards me but couldn’t open her mouth and respond. So I let her go. Normaly I would never do that when I sense her energy is pulsating inside her, but I realy did that. I just thought : if you can not met me or give me something to play with I am not gona play anymore with you.

Its extremely liberating.

And the best thing is that I have the Naturalizer module in my custom. Change happens Effortless

Thank you Subliminalclub for this excellent piece of Art you have created

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#238

Since maybe a month I am confronted with limiting beliefs like : can’t do it, can’t do that etc etc.

Yesterday I was getting angry and put 10 min of Limit Destroyer into my soul.

What a relief

Instant I felt that it’s not right to limit myself and then a cascade of weaknesses getting dissolved very quickly. I had this pattern for years that every time I could level up to a powerful state something in me surpressed my new gain power immediately.

Not today

Today I just laughed about this weak stat that tells me : it’s dangerous, it can hurt people if you are powerful.

I just couldn’t buy this anymore, it’s ok to be powerful, it’s the best thing in the world. It’s ok to hurt someone who hurt me or try to make my life miserable. It’s better to be in power. It’s better to be powerful and have a great time with people who behave respectfully.

Then 30 min after the loop I felt overload so I took fulvic acid. In 2 min overload was gone and my brain function in hyperspeed mode.

All in all Wanted/Godlike Masculinity catapults me miles ahead of where I was 8 days ago.
Its like my foundation is rewritten with a powerful worthy upload that leads me to an outstanding human being

Thank you Subliminalclub

Now its my time

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#239

Let’s go hardcore!

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#240

Today is my second day of washout and I am wondering if I should do another round of DR.
It wasn’t even DR that fucked me hard, it was Chosen from Within.
It was really horrible but the benefits I expirience is tremendous.

I want to avoid another round, specially Chosen from Within but let’s see what happens the next couple of days.

Also I had the worst recon from yesterday to today until I tried @Sage_Ninjistic tips and started to sing for 10 min.
In 10 min recon was manageable
Did another 10 min of singing and recon was completely gone.

Thank you buddy.

I gona wright about things I deal with now.
when I am back at home I wright about that stuff here.

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