The Pleasure of Push n Pull

[Leandros]

I Am a Natural Daredevil
But my weakness was always a 1 to1 talk.

But to animate 100 people is easy for me

Also I did try Daredevil for a couple of months, even in a custom and I had no real gain from it(it was the only program I didn’t notice change) because I am already doing the Daredevil stuff with great Funn.

But holding the space and the connection with 1 person was always trouble for me. I try True Social Ultima 2 times and I knew that this is it.
So I put it into Primal Seduction.
Because
Primal Seduction makes me unable to have a conversation, I transform into a Beast that’ want to Gucks everything non stop for days.
With True Social in it I can also relax and have a conversation

[Leandros]

Day 1 Wanted Heartsong Love Bomb

@Leandros

I finished the first loop 10 min ago

I have a very warm feeling in my chest and I am walking on air

I update tomorrow what happens today, because I feel like it’s changing very much in me right now

Update

I sweat like crazy, it feels like Natural Mdma, my heart is producing waves of love and appreciation for myself

OK now I feel wanted, I feel that the ones I want, want me

A realization that I can like me until I love me

I have my mistakes but I accept me, nonetheless I can develop myself in the direction I want to go

Now something like pain in my heart arises
Now its getting denser, I think some energy is leaving my heart or soul
I have pressure in my head

I am completely OK and whole as I am, I don’t lack of something

@Leandros

Bro I did one and the first loop yesterday and I am still making changes.

I don’t want to be somebody else anymore , I like to be me
In fact I love to be me

I Am so calm and centered like never before

Also it’s still processing the whole time
I don’t know if I do another loop today.
Its beautiful

I start to own being me
I am valuable in many directions and it’s no problem if I am not good in other directions

Its the epitome of solid self esteem

Wanted is Genial

[Leandros]

Day 2 of Wanted Heartsong Love Bomb
After the 2nd loop in total I had 10 days a break so the last quote is 5 days after the last loop

@Leandros

Holy Moly I think this is Heartsong

Strong feelings of : they let me alone

Feels like a part of my childhood is reactivatet.

God bless I could realese it imedeatly

I screamed the whole energy out of me with power and in absolute silence.

Then I saw myself as a child. Left Alone from mother and father. I let the child 1 meter in front of me and started to talk to him/me - whatever. I sayd : lisen, in this unhealthy Form you are no use for me anymore, you transform now until you are: warm, gentle and loving towards me and only if you stay forever : warm, gentle and loving towards me, you are permitted to enter me AGAIN - SO TRANSFORM NOW.

I heard my old self apologize and I accepted
After 4 min I felt the energy of my old self/part of me, changed and reenter’s my body in a gentle loving way.

I Wright this in a bar and now after this outburst and a pineapple juice I am ready to leave the bar and wander around, curious what waits behind the next corner

@Leandros

Also I feel that I don’t need a relationship
I don’t need other people
I don’t need sex

But I like to have a connection to someone I really aprecheat
I like to enjoy a women
I like good company

This is new, very new. Normally I run around to have contact with a lot of people.

Thats very new🙄

I have to say that this is a very interesting custom.
Since I played the first loop I am constantly making changes.

Alot of healthy self esteem development is happening

@Leandros

5 days ago I did my last loop of wanted and I am still processing like crazy.
The next loop will be in 3 days.

It the first time I have trouble to describe what’s going on

But I try it anyway

I date a super super sexy Peruvian Dentist and I don’t give it to her in fact I let her do the move. She asked me if I like the Peruvian women and I told her : yes and no, yes because (keep in mind that iquitos is a Jungel city, the people here are different) it’s very easy to have sex with 18+ women, 2-3 women a day is possible. But they are like fucking Animals. They fuck like there is no tomorrow and then they leave, like they where in a fast food restaurant😂
I told her I like to have a connection with a women, I like to enjoy slow sex and expirience the women, i like to hear the women, smell the women, kiss her wohle body, kiss her slow for a long time, hold her afterwards, I want the women to honor my body, I want the women to seduce me and have a great time, I like that the women teach me what is right for her, so that I can be her great lover, I want Sensuality and I want her to be Sensual to me. Then I told her, if she ever want a good, long, sensual and sexual night/nights she has to give me a Call. Then I did what I wanted and she followed me the whole evening.

Normally I tell Women that I find them Erotic and I want to sleep with them right now. But somehow I put the decision in her Hands.

I am developing a solid healthy self esteem
I aknowledge my worth
I belive I am valuable
I see my flaws and kind of smirk about and tell me : so what, let’s use them for giving me an edge

During a walk I asked myself : how woud I behave if I can be however I want to be and still get the women I want.

Instandly pressure dropped off me, a sence of: I don’t need to pretend to be something I am not

And I started to play and joke around with everbody

And somehow I see every attractive women as an opportunity to have funn In all directions

I started to accept myself for who I am and I like to be me

I start to love me more and more

Yesterday I had a little down for 20 seconds where I felt unloved but I told myself : OK it’s true that I don’t have someone to love but until I find someone, I can love myself and start there

A couple of sad states arised ( Heartsong for sure) that had to do with:left alone in the world

I had 3 days to work on my heart but a good amount of these sad states are no more inside me

The sense of : everyone who leave me or mistreat me is just plain stupid

The sense of I am a desirable Man

And much more.
I update later

[Leandros]

Day 3 of Wanted Heartsong Love Bomb (yesterday)
3 loops in total

@Leandros

Today I lisen to the 3rd(since I startet 10 ago, so it’s the 3rd loop in total) loop of this custom

And I am sitting in my chair like I took some extacy pill.

It completely blown me away for 3 hours

@Leandros

Now I get the notion : I can lett women come to me and I feel the pull very strongly.

Like a giant magnet is in me

That’s so fantastic

@Leandros

Now, nearly 24 hours after the loop I get the feeling of : I don’t need a relationship, I don’t need sex, I don’t need a women, I just don’t need it

I like to have it but I don’t need it

And this is 180 degrees from my old state.

Now I have to aclimate this new feelings

Its great, a lot of pressure in my heart is disolving.

This is the perfect sub for me

THANK YOU SUBLIMINALCLUB

[Leandros]

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[Leandros]

From Primal Seduction/True Social Journal
Start April 23.2021

@Leandros

First loop 5 days ago

Felt good, very light, then later on this evening I watch a tantric massage video and I picked up al the fine movements and integrated them instantly.
Also my Energy in my fun-zones are dense and available for me, they don’t spread out, that’s for sure inner Gasoline

I have the feeling : I am sexual, very erotic, very sensual, very powerful and very Raw at the same time.
I am in a very good mood and my stomach feels like a fire and that’s very pleasant.

@Leandros

2nd loop today

I feel like a ball of Erotic power in my pleasure areas is growing larger than I can Handel with my head.
Now the lower parts of my Chakras are dominant.
Feels like a relieve from my head

I like it very much.

1 of my goals with this sub is that I become so irresistible Arousing that Women Seduce me
Another goal is that I can choose whit whom I want to be intimate
Also I want the experience to be a effortlessly-powerful-sexual-arousing-magnetic-masculine Man

Its a Funn Journey

@Leandros

I know True Social Ultima V2 and as a experiment I added it to this custom.

It works pretty well and I like it better that way. the difference is, its very natural and dormant until I have a interaction, then it flows effortless and natural without needing energy to sustain that state.
TRU solo is like my brain is constantly in the Zone and needs energy to sustain the state.

@Leandros

I slept wonderful deep and start to imagine how it is when women cheer me on for me being sexual. After 3 min all of a sudden something in me closed down like an oister.
I saw how I pull back from the experience to “get hurt” when I am open. So I let every unpleasant feeling or imaginative scenario come up and after 5 min sitting with them I startet to laugh about. That’s it, no more than a little discomfort,I expirienced much worse things, a million times stronger than these little farts.
The realization that I am capable of expirience discomfort and then clean the shit out of me and upgrade my inner state makes the closing down obsolete.

So very naturally I imagine successful hot times with women I want.
I believe I can have that now.

Today I lisen to Sanguine Ultima and that’s it.

@Leandros

Holy Moly I am Fire

The Sexual energy is even denser
What a wonderful feeling
Now I can’t concentrate anymore
I want to Hunt

@Leandros

Stood up and I have no more willingness to do anything for a women I do it from now only for myself.
Also frustration is very dominant
It stinks that I don’t have the kind of relationship I want.
I am very near to shoot it al in the wind.

Lot’s of stuff to deal with

Let’s go

@Leandros

I found out something incredibly valuable.
I startet this PS custom this week.
Today it brought up some negative things, realy hard, so I lisen to 2 loops of DR st1 and it burned it away.

Thats my future pattern
Bring the shit up with subs then run st 1 of DR
It works fantastic

@Leandros

I lisen to the 3rd loop this week and tomorrow are break days.

Loop finished 5 min ago.

Somehow I feel Morose pretty strong, so I needed to exile this state, I don’t need it and it will never bring me any good. Also I detect a pessimistic viev about the whole sexual thing.
I have the belief or feeling of : it Wil not come to me.
I upgrade this in the next hours.
I mean : WTF IS THIS.
Obviously it was the whole time in me but now it’s time to evict this

Also I feel somehow powerless in my heart

Mutch to do

Let’s go

@Leandros

Since 10 days (4loops in total) I listen to my custom.
And somehow my heart starts activate and says: I want a relationship.

Lucky I ordered a :Wanted/Heartsong/Love Bomb custom

I see that I want the relationship more than fucking around. I also see that when I have the relationship I want it’s the right time to lisen to this custom again.

So that’s all the posts

The Journey begins now

[StateOfBeing]

@Leandros

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[Leandros]

Thank you State of Being

They will find it😁

[Leandros]

I have very very strong covid symptoms since 12 days. I lost my mind and I can’t concentrate and lost my power.
I can’t even Walk straight. And I collavs after 100 meter.

I ordered my Sex Mastery/Libertine/Diamond custom.

I needed 5 days to build that ( normal speed woud be 20 min) and now I saw that I didn’t pay for Libertine and Diamond Ultima.

How can I be so stupid when I order a custom.
Its the 7th. Time I make a fucking mistake in this Q store.
Now I am realy pisst.
200 dollars for 2 sex Mastery customs for nothing.
7 fucking customs for nothing
How the fuck is this possible that I don’t can order a custom like normal fucking human.
How many time do I repeat this shit.
And only in the Q store.
Fuck I hate it so much
Now I need for the 3rd time order a sex Mastery custom
I don’t want it anymore Lik my ass Sex Mastery

That’s plain stupid

Thats Umbeliveable

No more customs for me.

Thats over

[summit]

@Leandros

I have very very strong covid symptoms since 12 days. I lost my mind and I can’t concentrate and lost my power.

That’s rough man. I just had it too. It’s not fun.

I’m using a custom Paragon ultima and it helps. Looking to mitigate any long term effects. Maybe try adding Paragon to your stack for a bit.

Hope you have a speedy and full recovery!

[Leandros]

It’s realy hard stuff.

I had it 5 months ago.
And it was a joke in terms of symptoms

But this thing now wants to kill me.
It searches for my weak spots, got into my lungs for 5 days, I stop breathing for 30 seconds, I collapsed a few times, then It got into my hands, knees and shoulder and made me pain where old injuries where.
I can’t concentrate, no TV is possible, I lost my mind, I forget names of things like
Couldn’t eat or drink for days, lost my sense of taste
And on top of that my Pcr test are Negative for the 2nd time

And then I come to the glorious idea to build 2 Customs

1 is fine the other I forget to pay for the modules(Libertine and Diamond) I desperately wanted in my custom

Now after my 10 min outburst of shit I reorder.

Funny thing is: I already planed 2 other customs

But that I let slip now

First I get better then I order again.

@summit I can’t lisen to subs at the moment, my tinnitus is exploding since days

[Leandros]

OK I reordered

I Coud buy Alchemist, Khan and 2 programs for this Custom

May it work incredibly good at minimum 3x better than it works on everybody else

[Tobyone]

Damn man,

Praying for a speedy recovery This sickness and pain must really have something importent to show you Better show em who’s the BOSS

I would say, that you in this state of despair an pain chose to go for the betterment of yourself and ordering customs makes you a man on a mission, a man with a purpose!

Lol that sounded cheesy, but that doesn’t make it less untrue

[Lion]

Do run Aegis Initiative: Covid 19 for a while. It is still in Qv1 so you can run 3 loops every day and take 2 days off on Sat, Sun.

You will get well soon, bro!

[Leandros]

Thank you Bro.

I had covid 5 months ago
I have at home my own medicine arsenal.
It was a 3 day event
1st day it knocked me out
2nd day I took a couple of thing from my arsenal and it was over at the 3rd day.
No problem

But this bitch is for sure the mutatet delta Variante

My Frend had it to 2 months ago and it knocked him out for 2-3 weeks and he needed 3 weeks more to recover and be in power again.

He predict accurately how I feel and what’s coming.

He said it’s attacking 3 times after that it’s over.

Lucky me the 3rd wave started 3 days ago and today is the first day I have a clear head and I can think straight again.

Now I have to power me up and use my Arsenal of medicine.
I was to weak to look for myself for 13 days.
I never expected that is was so strong.
The dam Pcr test do not even recognize it
I had hallucinations for 13 days
Now they stopped, no more space bending

Phhhhhhuu

Thank you Bro

I survived it

[Leandros]

Thank you Bro

I did listen to that a couple of times

The first time was horrible, I was laying flat on my bed and it pusht me so hard to take measurement for the next couple of weeks.
I was going to buy everything I need and remove everything that stands in my way for a toilet run. Prepare every number I have to call in case it’s an emergency and so on and so forth.

After then on the 2nd. Loop I heard myself repeatedly say: I build antibody for this sickness until I completely kill this virus

I could feel it working nonstop and I am Thankfull for that

I did it a couple of times and it helped tremendously

Thank you Bro

I am nearly trough

[Leandros]

Also I apologize if I was disrespecting someone here on the forum.

I just don’t know what I did the last 2 weeks

[RVconsultant]

Just focus on getting better. Thank you @Lion for recommending the COVID subliminal. Also, @Leandros do you have medical care available? Are you back in Switzerland?

[Leandros]

Bro I am trough it.
I return to normal
I feel my power coming back
Still abitt groggy
But daammmmm this was hard.

In the last 2 weeks I asked a couple of stupid questions and I did a couple of stupid things

See my last 6 above posts then you know what I mean

Now its getting better realy fast

Thank you @RVconsultant

[RVconsultant]

No worries about the posts. You were likely very ill and probably not in your right mind.