9-1-2023
Took 3 shots, cleaned up my house. Loaded dishwasher, did laundry. contemplated my next move.
Watched 2 hrs of Alex hormozi.
9/1/2023 Ozmandias Protocol
I had a very hard conversation with myself for the past 2 days. I was frustrated with my progress in data science and dating.
List of frustrations:
- I am not learning enough
- I am not practicing enough
- My methods and strategies are inefficient
- I am not managing my time effectively
- I am not studying the review material
- I am letting my coach down
- I am spending too much time on youtube
- I am a failure
- I am not working out enough
- I am not making enough money
The inital kneejerk reaction was to jump to other opportunities. My brain came up with a thousand reasons why I should quit.
I realized the following:
- Failure is my best friend. Means I am trying and failing.
- If I feel deeply failure, i can feel deeply the thrill of success.
- There will never be a perfect time to do anything
- I care about the results I can output rather than the time spent
- I will have an asymmetric sleep cycle
- Expect to be tired all the time
- Expect to not have the highest energy
- My time management and focus will be asymmetric in order to get higher level results in each category. 20 minutes a day etc wont cut it. I need to do deep work
- I need to get my chores done whenever I have a few minutes here and there
- I will have to do a daily practice in order to move up in levels
- All these goals are uncomfortable. Expect to be uncomfortable.
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9/2/2023
its 6:24 am. brought a wonderful girl home. had some fun.
thank you khan st3, ql
goodnight
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9/11/2023
Ran a full stack yesterday. Everything.
Pad is a mess. Need to clean. Improving in datasci.
Really pushed my limits in conversations with girls. Been getting feedback that they love my vibe.
9/11/2023
The more I code, the more Index Gate unravels itself in my calmness of understanding.
The more I clean my room and study my flashcards, the more QL ST3 lives its spirit and gives me energy
The more I go out and fearlessly talk to girls, the more Khan ST3 gives its treasures
I’m having recurring dreams. I’m having “coincidences”. Like these results were supposed to happen.
About goddamn time.
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9-12-2023
I dreamt that I was being chased around a large house by these large robots with guns that would immediately shoot anything which it’s lasers would touch. Family, friends, anyone who gets in contact with the laser would get shot down. i would tell them to duck for cover. the lasers went through walls. Someone helped me get up stairs which was like running up the wrong side of an escalator. He got shot down. I felt fear.
Outside there was a force of people getting ready to shoot out the lasers. But then, my father was some stone golem and went and kicked the robots asses. The people with their big guns stood down. His thing took care of the threat. All was well in the world.
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Hungover. Regrouping.
Menu today:
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Harbor no quarter for your goals, for death will harbor you no quarter.
That is mental, you feel no recon listened to all those?
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He uses the iron head meditation
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If I execute, there is no recon. Besides, I’m hungover. Already have a headache.
lol of course 
Alright, I guess it’s true what they say, if you’re not taking action you will suffer.
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9-17-2023
Handling business. Self care routine complete. Looking good in the mirror. Bought some new dress shirts to rock in the office tomorrow. Cleaned up room.
God, I just love this scene.
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watching this guy’s videos. I’m learning about how to learn
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The universe is responding back to my sacrifices. Never had this happen to me. Pretty cool. Even if it it might be suspicious. Harbor no quarter for the goals. Death will harbor me none.
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9-24-2023
Emotionally purged. Hell of a week. Feel like I got all my energy back.
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9-25-2023
Ran the whole stack today: QL ST3, KHAN ST3, Libertine, Index Gate, Paragon Sleep, RICH, Dragon ST3, Beyond Limitless, Diamond
So much energy recovered from the purge. 72 hr water fast scheduled for 9/28/2023 - 10/1/2023
House is cleaned. Everything is set out for tomorrow. Alarm set, brushed teeth, meal prepped.
This morning I was hungover. Emotionally holding onto some serious grief.
After the purge, things are getting back to normal. He is back baby.