Also, stack update. I realize that the ST3 versions of the programs are very important. ST4 is just all 3 combined. I want to focus on the main meat of the programs.
This means: Khan ST3, QL ST3, Dragon ST3 and possibly Emperor ST3.
8-6-2023
Last night: My brain was primed for women. Had the most amazing connections with a couple girls in the night. I was hugging, high fiving, spreading the love. Girls were attractedā¦biting their lips. I didnāt hesitate much as the night progressed.
Today: Very odd things are happening. Just walked out for a brunch. Saw a girl staring at me waiting for my order. I was eating outside, another girl again, glancing, we made eye contact. Iām walking home from the diner, a girl in a van watching me walk. We locked eyes until the car pulled awayā¦
and finally, near my house. A very hot black girl just slowed down, stood by the sidewalk and we just locked eyes. I felt the fear rush up. Damn she was hot. She was looking at me like I was a snack. I was just walking relaxed.
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8-6-2023
Gentlemen, I will be putting myself through hell. Emotions will be high. Overwhelm will be high.
Goal is 4 hours of work on data sci/job apps/projects. Setting the timer now.
Iāve said a quick prayer. Time to enter the trenches.
8-8-2023 Update
Only managed to get 1 hr of work done before the emotions kicked into high gear. Will try again tomorrow.
My job interview today was also cancelled. I wallowed in feelings of failure for a good 8-10 hours. Then meal prepped, and got my shit together to the best of my ability.
I meditated for a good 1 hr. Learned that behind the dragon of emotions lies the treasure of gratitude and determination.
Onwards.
8/9/2023
To hell with the world around me, my insecurities, fears, doubts, anxieties.
Iām going to get some work done on my goals.
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8/11/2023
I was in a low conscious mental state last night. Lots of feelings of failure. I gave my brain homework before I went to sleep. I have to analyze these emotions and extract productivity from it.
DREAM: I dreamt that I was in an orgy with 3-4 girls. I was having sex with one and my mother walks in. My behaviors immediately change and I go from a happy fun loving guy into someone who is closed off. I was trying to fit into the behaviors and expectations that were set by my mother when I was a child. I woke up here and pondered.
I came up with this picture while showering.
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8-13-2023
I found a new depth of grief that I did not know existed. A new emotional realm which laid hidden from view and consciousness. thank you Dragon St3
It seems I have some repressed emotions expressing themselves at last.
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8-14-2023
Been telling my brain āhomeworkā every night before I sleep. Last night, it was to work on honing my intentions to razor sharp, and leveraging all feelings of failure into productive action or converting feelings of failure to gratitude.
Cleaned up the house a little more this morning. Off to work.
I spent around 6 hours playing video games yesterday. I enjoyed it. It was a reprieve. Focusing on one thing for a long time. I can definitely sit down and work for 6 hours straight.
8-16-2023 Ozmandias Protocol
The brain sleep homeworks have been quite fruitful. Not going to martial arts class today. Packing. Traveling tomorrow to meet friends in Boston. We are going to hit the bars and lounges and talk to as many pretty girls as we humanly can.
Khan may be working. I ran into a girl I see every week when I was walking to the store. She tagged along with me to shop for clothing yesterday. Had a fun convo. Iām learning more so what not to do rather than trying too hard in the conversations.
Iām exhausted. Working more to make up for the time that I have off. Cleaning the house. Grooming. Sleeping early.
I realize that the next level requires intense focus on one of the 4 goals that I have. The next level will require an immersion of all knowledge related to that goal to give it as much life and time as possible. doing 15 mins a day etc is cool and all, but im older and splitting my focus is a young manās game.
Everything is happening exactly as it is supposed to if you embrace the journey.
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8/22/2023
Met a wonderful high quality girl over the weekend. Miss her already.
Applied to 5 jobs. Time to get ready for work.
Body is sore. Slept 11 hrs.
The world is filled with opportunity, but I have to seize it.
8/25/2023
Pad is cleaned. Organized. 1 hr practice done, 30 mins job applications done
Failure is a powerful motivator when harnessed.
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8/26/2023
I dreamt that I was waiting in line to a very exclusive club. The bouncers loved me, I went in and saw people dressed in pink suits. Models walking around, dancing like ballerinas. I felt such a surge of excitement that I woke up from the feeling.
A girl bought me a drink last night. Another had a boyfriend but did not want to bring it up. Flirtatious vibes all around. Its been over a week since I ran subs. They are running in the background.
Additionally, alot of ācoincidencesā have been happening. As if I dreamt of doing it before.
8/26/2023
I had a very interesting day.
After a night of drinking, I usually get sleep demons sitting on my chest at night. People call it sleep paralysis. Iāve always had it since college and it is usually followed from moderate drinking + sleep deprivation. I grown accustomed to accepting it as a part of my life. Usually I would hallucinate surrounded by bugs, or a dark demon sitting on my chestā¦some variations of that over the years.
Today was different. Iām a very logical guy. Spirituality is not my forte. I like engineering and all things logicā¦but there are things I cannot explainā¦like what happened today.
The factors that came into play:
- Had 3-4 drinks last night.
- Had a full redbull worth of caffiene around 2AM
- Body was in adrenaline mode when I woke up after 4 hours and I got home and got chores done with vigorous energy.
What happened:
Around 10:00AM, I set a time for 4 hours and got into bed in an attempt to sleep. the caffiene from the red bull was still coursing through my veins. I was slightly dehydrated and I still felt slightly buzzed from the alcohol. May have been psychosomatic.
I laid into bed, laid still. The temperature of the AC was around 65 degrees. I had a very thin fuzzy blanket to allow air flow while I slept.
I closed my eyes and focused on breathing. I told my brain to do everything it needs to do to get to sleep. I laid still and focused on breathing. About an hour went by. My body went into the āfrozenā state. I knew that sleep was about to comeā¦
I felt a very loud buzz. My whole body was buzzing. My mind was blank. the buzzing got louder and louder. Very heavy vibrating sensations on my body. And thenā¦umā¦I āspirit floatedā from my body. I felt like a balloon. I knew what this was. Astral projection or out of body experience. I floated towards the door. The reality around me was slightly contorted. Everything was the same but everything was not the same. I bumped into my door like a balloon would bump into a door. I couldnāt get through it. I was like a helium balloon bumping into the door.
My excitement took over and I woke up, back in my room. I felt the vibrating still. I was still in sleep paralysis modeā¦I closed my eyes again and waited for the vibration to take over. This time, it was much more powerful. I soared out of my room up through the ceiling. I flew up outside of my houseā¦my house was brightly litā¦and there were fuzzy colors that I can see through the walls. i saw a yellow fuzzy color of a human laying down, which was me. I saw blue and red fuzzy colors of the 2 giant plants outside of my houseā¦life energyā¦and then I saw all the little blue and green fuzz specks through the walls all clustered togetherā¦what was all that? I flew closer and closerā¦and it was all the fish in my fish tank. I felt immense love and excitement. I love my fish. I woke up.
I felt my spirit was far away from me. I waited with my eyes closed for a minute or two and the vibration hit again, felt like I was getting back into my body.
I watched my ego light up. My thoughts turned on. my brain turned onā¦my whole body turned on again like a computer booting up.
Iām a very logical guy. Studied engineering. This is surreal. Surrealā¦
First OOB experienceā¦
More to come? Who knows. Maybe I should find some Astral projection subsā¦I seem to have the aptitude biologically.
After this, I made food, had my datasic class, cleaned my house, and now heading out to the bars to talk to pretty girls.
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8/27/2023
Last night was pretty unreal. My conversations with girls improved tenfold.
I was playful, rubbing a girlās nose with mine, it was hot.
5 more days till Friday.
Applied to 7 jobs today.
8/27/2023
Khan ST3ā¦I think it is working. Took another nap just now. When I closed my eyes, the light became hallucinations of women having sex with me. I would go into more detail but it was graphic. It was alot of different scenarios with women. As the dream deepened, it became more vivid with more steps. I was walking into different layers of my dream with different scenarios. Seeing powerful people at play, and women doing different sex kinks.
Love it. canāt wait for next Friday.
I think this is my washout period. So far, Iāve learned the subs need time to work and āunfoldā
8/28/2023
7 jobs applied. Will review datasci notes today for 1 hr
Didnāt sleep well. will sleep early today 9PM
Started a 48 hour water fast from 7PM yesterday.
8/29/2023
33.5 hours into water fast.
My dream was reminiscent of my past life 10 years ago. The insecurities and hesitation I felt.
Later on into the nightā¦I had a visitorā¦a dead mentor showed up and gave me some advice. It was all too real. As if his spirit took a seat in my body and gave me encouragement. I startled awake in the middle of the night.
Iām spiritualā¦but not this spiritual. Still, pretty cool stuff.
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8/30/2023
Observations of 48-hour fast
- The resources I used for eating and digesting became available for productive action
- After I broke the fast at 48 hours, I immediately noticed a shift in energy and resources towards eating and digesting.
- Dreams were on a completely different level during fast
- I was far more relaxed when body was in ketosis
- I was far less sleepy on ketosis
- For some odd reason I was more charismatic in the office - didnt tell anyone until the end of the 2nd day
8/30/2023
Ran Khan ST3, QL st3, Index Gate, RICH
Dreamt that I lost all my data. All electronics was lost. dreamt of the anger toward smy father. Dreamt that a girl was attacking me with knives but she was under some drug influence and I was fighting defensively and trying to stop her.