After not listening to NEmp this morning due to the lack of clarity in following the official listening pattern (microloops) or the experimental one (multiloops) , I got some pretty negative self talk reminiscent of the old version of myself.
It all started after the personal Training client of mine (which she become a friend) arrived late at the appointment and then, at some point in the training, she told me I need a friend like her because I’m too rigid.
That’s not the first time I have been judged as a rigid person by a female friend and this episode pushed a weak button of mine which I thought it was healed for good.
She told me something like that because she want me to have a proper girlfriend who will complete myself. She just wants to see me happier and she thinks I’ll be like that when I’ll be more flexible in picking up my future romantic.
I don’t know why I still keep manifesting friends which expose that weak spot and push me to get a proper girlfriend.
In other news she asked me that if I got a cold because my voice looked like Mario Biondi’s one. Yes, I felt my voice was different, deeper for sure but I don’t have a cold😉
People are treating me differently for sure and maybe they are acclimating to my new emerging version of myself. I’m also experiencing reality quite differently in the last days.
So in just 2-3 days I got several strange occurrences which pushed me to start asking very deep and unusual questions. Questions that I didn’t have the courage to ask previously or that I didn’t get the chance to manifest for some unknown reasons.
It’s a quite uncomfortable place to be in due to the disruption in the way I’m perceiving my life.,my experiences and my relationships.
That’s something that didn’t happen during a regular, recommended New Emperor cycle.
That’s why I’m torn between keeping up with the rational official recommendations (which brought way slower and surface-level results previously) or the experimental one which is literally shaking my old version out from my True Self.