@Davisnwc, I like that one! I am going to apply this technique right away! By the way, before starting using the subs ( AM, Sex Mastery and PS) I was an horn ball as well always feeling the urge to bing watch porn and masturbate and I must say as well that just like you this bad, self-esteem lowering habit has been completely eliminated!
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I’m not fucking disgusted at your ex. Just like I’m not disgusted by someone who just got here to this forum and has started using subliminals and wants to make an improvement. She has a lot to learn, and I agree that you dodged a bullet, and that the more healthy boundaries you put up, the better. But you gain NOTHING by putting down the mother of your child. Just do better than she does, and leave it at that. Your child’s going to need a solid rock. Your ex’s not really that. But the man you’re becoming will hopefully be able to be that rock.
She’s making some irresponsible moves and some big mistakes. But, man, if dudes could get pregnant by having sex, we’d get pregnant so much more often than women do. And that’s the damn truth.
More power to you, brother. Wishing you continued ever-increasing strength and wellbeing.
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Incredible, I guess the scripting in those programs guides one to conserve their sexual energy and direct towards women that they can physically use it on? Has that been the case for you @KingR?
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I’m disgusted because she knows better but it is what it is. I know I’m wasting time and energy by dwelling on anything she does, which is why I just made the decision to quickly get over what I can’t control.
Thank you for your words of encouragement @Malkuth. I wish you all the best this world can offer brother.
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@Davisnwc I would definitely say that it is so! Even though I haven’t had sex yet with a new woman since I started using the subs about a month ago mostly due to logistical circumstances. I would also say that the sexual energy is also transmuted in other venues. For instances these days ( since I started looping Ascended Mogul on a daily basis) I started feeling more power at my current job! I derive a lot of pleasure from getting shit done!
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I will reiterate and emphasize that fact that these programs are pushing me past fear. When I feel even slight fear, either positive emotions surge up to replace it or I’m simply driven to do what is causing me the fear in the first place. Over the past few days, I’ve proven to myself in smaller ways that fear resides mostly in the imagination. I’m sticking more to the process and detaching from the outcomes.
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Downloaded V2 of Emperor and re-added V3 back to my pure power playlists. I’ve been missing the feeling of relentlessness towards getting things done. Haven’t used V2 at all so this should be interesting.
V4 is great, the best way for me to explain is that it gives me the results of productivity, IOI’s from women, but not the feeling that much is happening. It’s a bit challenging to explain.
Did EV4 for 6 hours overnight and woke up ready to tackle the day. I’m currently looping PCC at work, and I’m feeling aggressive while PCC is playing for some reason.
On another note, I know it’s pretty soon to be saying this about Regen/Elixir but I feel like my emotional wounds from my past are completely healed. I’ve been emotionally healing for the past 2.5 years anyway but it’s amazing how the combination sped up the process. It was like the last 10% of healing that was missing has been gained back after only a couple weeks. I’ll still Keep them both in my stack. My subconscious is very large and there may still be things that haven’t been touched upon.
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UPDATE: bear with me as this may be the kind of day where I update in real-time.
I just had a decent sized lunch at work and instead of feeling sluggish, I feel jacked like I’m surging with testosterone. This must be the result of the different versions of Emperor playing back-to-back. I’m also being highly productive and literally staying ahead of schedule with my tasks.
My new Pure Power playlist is:
Emperor V2
Emperor V3
Emperor V4
Power Can Corrupt
Sanguine
Godlike Masculinity
I can’t wait to add Commandant. I’ll be adding both the supercharger AND the silent subliminal bonus when they’re released. As of Feb 1st, 2020 I plan to focus on the pure power playlist exclusively for around the last month of my Emperor run.
I’ve also made a list for my own personal subliminal roadmap for the rest of this year, and all the way until 2023. Of course, it’s tentative because there’s no telling what my needs/goals will be, or what subclub will release in the meantime.
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Hmm ok seems like the extra energy boost begins to become balanced out once emperor V4 kicks in. It’ll still be there but the difference in the energy boosting feels worlds apart between V4 and the previous two versions.
I’m also finding that the impatience I felt with version 3 is coming back. My daughter is slow poking with cleaning tasks I’ve given her and although I’m not yelling at the top of my lungs I’m kind of in drill sergeant mode with her. Internally I also feel like a lion ready to pounce on any idiot I come across.
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love that feeling and description hahahahah 
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Woke up after 6 hours of regeneration overnight and a x2 play of elixir for a morning meditation. Got up feeling rejuvenated on every level and ready to experience the world today. This feeling is akin to when I woke up on xmas morning as a small child ready to see that the day would bring.
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Currently up in the middle of the night as I can’t sleep, which seems to be developing into a regular occurrence when I play a stack or program overnight. Ever since last night I’ve felt myself becoming frustrated because it feels like although I’m actively trying to make things happen, every area of my life is getting stagnant.
If there’s one thing I hate, it’s the feeling of the lack of progression in life. I’m here starting to think of ways that I can “spice things up” in my life without being reckless.
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Managed to go back to sleep for about 3 hours. Woke up with an idea in mind which I didn’t know already existed. It’s called the 52-week money challenge. There are a couple ways to do it apparently but basically you take whatever week of the year it is and match that dollar amount to put into a savings account.
For me the idea is just to get used to the habit of actually saving money on a consistent basis. Hoping this will help tighten my financial discipline even further.
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Forgot to mention it the past couple days, but I’m being internally guided to maintain an internal and external POSITIVE sense of dominance at all times.
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Turns out the lady at work I mentioned a week or two weeks ago is not interested which is weird because there were IOI’s there but whatever. In the past this might’ve affected me but I don’t even care.
Manifested a conversation with my oldest sister which kept me from making a terrible decision in regards to my moving situation. A move that may have put me in a situation where I was miserable and possibly even manipulated, she revealed factors to me that I didn’t know about. Speaking of which, I have 3 options for changing my living situation, and when it boils down I realize that all of them are less than ideal and the ppl involved have not so altruistic intentions. Seems over the past few days that PCC is really opening my eyes up to human nature, almost like it’s being shoved in my face. I can see the truth beyond the subtleties.
I’m starting to feel guided just to walk around wearing a mask (figuratively speaking) and showing no one the true me. I’m starting to see that it’s more important to have a mindset that guides one to protect their well-being more so than they protect their possessions or circumstances, although ppl are taught to do the opposite of that their whole lives.
I’m changing from an optimist into a realist. While this is happening, I’m battling every emotion in the spectrum. Shit, I didn’t underestimate how tough this journey would be but I definitely didn’t see it being this challenging; and yet I know I’ve come too far to turn back now. I know that if I don’t keep moving forward then I’ll end up becoming the type of man I fear being the most, an average one. It’s been years since I even admitted that fear to myself.
It feels like a battle to keep my sanity while experiencing joy, self-love, anger and depression all in the same day and even in some instances, at the same time. It’s been like this since January 1st and I have no idea how I’m managing to stay even remotely grounded. It’s like feeling strong and vulnerable at the same time.
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Felt better from this morning after I got to work and socialized. Never thought I’d see the day where being around others actually made me feel better since I was born with more of an introverted nature.
The woman I mentioned in the previous post actually revealed to me moments after I got to work that she’s seeing someone and so she was being hesitant. Stated she’d like to be respectful of her relationship, which I of course had no problem with, either way I had already let the situation go.
I may soon be manifesting a job in the IT field, funny thing is I thought it was already too late to get the job. Turns out they still need 3 people.
Got my powerbeats pros back today. Apparently they couldn’t “replicate the issue” I had with them so I ended up sending them nothing, but at least now I have 2 pairs of wireless sports earbuds to keep with me on the go, so that means far more listening time for subs. Between the two pairs, I can get up to 21 hours per day of battery time from a single charge of each one. Probably won’t be listening that much but it’s great to know that I have that option.
Now I’m currently waiting for commander supercharger to drop.
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IT LIIIIVVVEESSSS!!!..Finally my Sovereign and pure power playlists are complete with both the commander and admiral & commander superchargers. An added bonus is now once i begin my khan/eog journey i’ll have both those and PCC to accompany and enhance those titles.
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Just used the commander supercharger. I love the music, and imagery. It’s the most powerful and masculine meditation I’ve ever done and I felt a massive surge of energy and power. Feels like I can truly conquer whatever is before me with this in my sub arsenal
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Running Regeneration x6 loops while at work, which reminded me to document the fact that with the elixir combination, I had deep internal injuries in my right shoulder and both my feet that I’m no longer feeling pain from at all. The injuries in my feet were there for over three years and and the pain in my shoulder had been there for 5 months. All of it is now gone through the use of elixir.
Side note: had a female supervisor state that my level of masculinity drives women wild. Comment came out of nowhere lol.
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Hearing you loud and clear on that one. Most of us are in the same boat, fighting our own demons and trying to stay afloat, but have already come far in our journey.
Do keep at it, brighter days ahead.
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