Lots of fun socializing today. People seemed to enjoy my sense of humor even more than usual. More IOI’s from female coworkers. Women either stared at me as they walked by or would look down when I looked their way.
My manager pulled me to the side this morning and was sure to tell me that Monday I’ll have the check that includes the pay for my missing hours. Later on in the day she also wanted to take a picture with me for the office pot luck that we held, shrug
Had a situation piss me off earlier in which I felt my child’s Mother was neglectful and I had to take 2 hours off work in the middle of the day to get the situation resolved for my Daughter’s sake. When I asked her a particular question about the situation via text, I never got a response. She called me 7 hours later and offered to buy me dinner which she did, I’m not sure if she did that out of guilt but I still plan to address this situation when I see her face to face, since it seems she won’t respond via text.
My social confidence was pretty good today overall but I realized that after leaving work that I still have certain fears that revolve around women and relationships. I’m not terrified, it’s more like past bad situations I had that had more of an effect on me than I had realized and so I meditated and did some energy work to release the negative energy.
Yesterday and today, I notice that I’ve been extra helpful in regards to my job, as far as increasing my productivity and not minding doing overtime.
Between Thursday and today, I was up for 23 hours, got 5 hours of sleep afterwards, and my energy levels stayed high for the a majority of the day.
Last thing I’ve noticed over the past couple days is that I feel uncomfortable as hell when I’m not doing anything productive. I get anxious and keep feeling something inside of me push me until I get up and start getting things done again.