Damn, too long!
What country are you from?
I had this classmate he would train his shin by taking a stick and warm thin towel and wrap around it. Then he would best his shins with it. It made his shin feel like steel 
I always thought it was crazy, but now I think it may be normal Muay thai circles.
Hope you recover fastš
Canada.
I wouldnāt say ānormalā, but itās definitely something that is done. Thereās simpler ways to condition your shins though, what I do is just kick the heavy bag repeatedly for as long as I can.
Speedy recovery to you! Keep us updated.
Forgot to run subs yesterday, so my pattern is all messed up right now. Reason why is 'cause I wanted to run Paragon before sleeping but I completely forgot 'cause I was studying for an exam. Guess Iām going to change up my stack for the rest of March, and only run Paragon+Mindās Eye until April. Keeping it light until I begin QL on April 4.
The mornings suck for my foot but other than that, healing has been going well. My biggest issue is having any weight be put on the outside of the foot (where the fracture happened), and itās making me tentative when it comes to training again.
My initial idea was to go back to training last Thursday for a boxing session but I didnāt feel up to it when I woke up at that day. I think Iām relying on my foot as an excuse, because Iāve trained before with worse pain. Iām more afraid of hurting my foot again if anything.
Iāve got an appointment with the physiotherapist on Monday, think Iām gonna try to train afterwards. Canāt keep waiting, especially when I wonāt be training much in April.
Ended up not training because the pain increased after the session with my physio (he had to press my foot in multiple places to identify the problems after all). He was able to identify a muscle strain related to the metatarsal fracture I got, so that also clears up the picture for me.
Iām going to try again tomorrow to see if I can train at least one last time before April begins.
Thinking about my plan for the next few months, as tomorrow will be the last day I run the Paragon/ME combo for my foot. At this point Paragon has done as much as it can I feel, and there isnāt as much of a day-to-day improvement as there was when I first started Paragon. I feel like Iām out of the acute stage of the injury, so I can finally get back to my sub plans.
So next month my idea is to begin QL ST1 with Wanted, I just want to keep things light for April. I also want to use Wanted because I want to do some physical shifting while I drastically change up my diet. When May begins Iām going to reintroduce Stark back into the picture as I feel that is the best sub for me and my personality. Iāve heard about the anti-social effects of QL which seem a little concerning for me, so I want to balance that out with Stark. Maybe running Daredevil would be a better idea, who knows.
Regardless, I want to run Stark/Daredevil, QLST1 and Wanted until end of May. When June begins, Iāll swap out Wanted for my Shang-Chi custom. When July begins itās going to be time for QL ST2, plus Shang-Chi and Stark/Daredevil.
Just came back from the gym for the first time in 3 weeks. My cardio was complete trash. My form was trash. Made me realize how important consistency is.
Wasnāt able to do anything except box, but afterwards I was on my way out and I just saw the next class doing clinch work. I stayed and just watched people work the clinch, and it made me wish I was able to be working the clinch with them too.
Gotta focus on the healing.
So I decided to run QL ST1 with Paragon and AM for this cycle. I picked AM over Wanted because the new objectives showed that AM had physical shifting involved, so I said why not. After listening to AM it gave me a lot of motivation to start exercising again, basically almost immediately. AM is the GOAT sub for a reason.
Havenāt felt shit yet from QL unfortunately. Just gotta wait and see how it goes, I know the Limitless subs tend to take time for some so Iāll be okay.
Injured my arm from a fall, and itās badly bruised. Really pissed me off, and was quite depressing.
Honestly been feeling real depressed from not being able to train. I need to figure out how to manage and overcome this feeling. Just havenāt felt like myself lately.
Also had a crazy vivid dream. I was part of an experiment with a group of people, I donāt remember the details but we were all installed in a large school campus and everyone in the group was tasked with hurting themselves. Yes, fucked up I know.
When we got into the school I had completely forgotten about that objective and for some reason, I knew that there was a girl I used to know who went to that school so I went looking for her. I literally asked the first guy I saw if he knew her and he said that he did, and I asked for her number so I could message her to let her know I was at her school. He said he knew her number but didnāt know her, which was odd until he showed me text messages with her phone number; the situation had something to do with him getting treated by a girl/girlfriend to have a threesome/orgy situation, and her number was one of the people suggested to him by his significant other. I took a photo of his screen and thanked him and walked away to text her to let her know I was coming to see her. Keep in mind that this girl was someone I spoke to basically every day when I was 14-15, but never afterwards. She was the high school crush of my best friend.
As I was writing the text (I was walking down the steps of a library) I looked up and through the glass windows of the floor above, there were desks and people studying but one of them was looking away while stabbing herself in the arm with a pencil. She then saw me and the expression on her face was pale. I keep walking down steps and someone throws themselves on me, to attack me but I simply push them away. I find myself in a basement 'backrooms"like place, and one of the girls in the experiment is rocking herself in a corner crying. She sees me and lunges, almost like she didnāt want to but was forced to attack me. I fend her off and continue walking down the corridor, which looks like Level 2 of the backrooms (google it). Thereās a light and an exit that leads to a street and I see people, and I think I see a monster of sorts. Iām not sure, I think I saw a car being hurled by the monster, I donāt know, I donāt remember. But that was when I woke up.
Havenāt had a dream like that in awhile, they really only begin when I start a new sub.
AMās productivity boost is incredible, a true night and day difference really. Nothing gets me off my ass more.
How was MTMX? If you get a chance to do so, PM me a score of 1-10. Be honest and if you did get results, send any ideas on how we can improve.
Running AM has made me seriously question some of my beliefs in money, wealth and my general spending habits.
I love the feeling I get from Stark, but I think itāll be worth it for me to run AM just a little longer.
Updated Custom list:
Cores:
Muay Thai Mastery X
Mindās Eye or Spartan, havenāt decided
Subliminal/Stack booster:
Deus
Unlimiter
Carpe Diem Ascended (motivation & happiness)
Berserker (fighting stack booster)
Manifestation components:
Fortuneās Favorite
Physical shifting:
APS: Legs
Serum X
Harmonic Singularity (relaxation of tensions in body, directly impacts physical and mental)
Elegance (graceful movement)
Mental skills:
Extreme Exercise Motivation
Ego Adsum (shifting focus into the present moment)
Submodel Alpha
Technical skills:
All-Seeing (sharper senses & perception)
Masterās Coordination (hand-eye coordination)
Physical skills:
Equilibrium (flexibility, agility, balance)
Inexhaustible (stamina)
Blink (speed)
Thunder (reflexes)
Last remaining decision to make is between using Mindās Eye or Spartan. Also contemplating a custom with components from Mogul, Stark and Wanted but I think I want to test out more subs before I decide.
I havenāt been enjoying QL Stage 1. I havenāt felt any cognitive boost, and I suspect the healing element is giving me recon but with no tangible benefit yet.
Itās a little frustrating, Iām kind of in space at the moment with QL Stage 1 because it doesnāt feel like itās doing much for me. Iām gonna stick to running it until the end of May, my initial plan was end of June but itās felt so non-eventful that I think moving to Stage 2 where the action begins is where I will begin to reap the benefits.
Decided to look into the shop description of QL to better in-grain what I should be expecting in terms of change:
"Before unleashing the power of Quantum, your whole nervous system (and not just the brain) needs to be in an optimal condition. This means extensive repairs of physical damages, rebalancing of hormones and nutrients, restoration of optimal functioning, rewiring of existing neural patterns for higher efficiency, preparation for new, even more optimized neural connections, strengthening of existing areas and creation of new connectionsā¦
Furthermore, Quantum Re-Balance will free you from limiting beliefs and emotional trauma, remove and release any creative blocks you might have, as well as pave the way for the development of rapid and easy understanding.
And to achieve full balance, both of your hemispheres will become closer, enjoying a much more rapid communication between the two sides of your brain, while also bringing closer together your conscious and subconscious mind.
All parts of your brain and mind will come together to one unified, extremely powerful, whole."
I underestimated the amount of physical shifting that needed to be done to progress out of Stage 1. Happy to see that to be honest, I feel like it gives me a better idea of what I should be consciously guiding.
The meaning of my full name:
Soldier, clever, brave, physically strong and praiseworthy.
Have I demonstrated these qualities in my life? Yes. Do I always? No, at least not enough.
My biggest issue has always been my perfectionist mentality, itās hindered just as much as itās helped me. I just need to focus on my name to understand what I need to commit to, because striving for perfection will always leave me unfulfilled.
When I am clever, brave and physically strong, I am praiseworthy.
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