The Dice of Reality

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#61

GG 1:15

Was planning to go for 1 min, but listened more by mistake.

….

Something I haven’t noted on here is the clairvoyant dreams I’ve been having since the moment I placed in my order for GG.

Not my first time, been having dreams of this nature for as long as I can remember, it seems to run in the family.

However, anytime I use subs that concern spirituality, this ability becomes more consistent. Although, It’s not within my range of conscious influence but seems the gateway to the part of my self that houses this spiritual connection gets strengthened.

I’m not going to share them, but the nature of these dreams have shifted to be more direct/literal in a sense. Honestly, I still don’t like the implication of what has been revealed.

It’s the same message repeated over and over, especially in my waking life. And it’s one of the reasons I dropped RoS last year.

I think it might be time to genuinely enter the cave, for about a month or two.

Considering my stack, I’m most likely going to focus in on wealth by adding ASBR & RICH.

GG will be there for

  • Expanding my base/capacity
  • Regulation & balancing
  • Energetic development
  • Spiritual development
  • Self unification and mastery
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#62

Woke up this morning feeling disconnected, like I’m a couple steps from being in the very present moment in my reality.

It then extends further that I’m behind on the amount of growth I set out to have experienced by now.

Now, it feels like I’m stuck.

Recon.

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#63

I’ve been getting literal predictions of real life being used as symbolism in dreams. It’s kinda trippy but makes sense since the future is also just information that needs to be processed, so it can be used just like the events that have already happened (because in a way they already have).

No insight on the actual phenomenon itself, but it’s almost always when I’m actively listening to ASBR. Maybe an alignment of the sub and how one perceives their future reality?

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#64

That’s quite the interesting perspective. If you don’t mind, could you dive more into this.

I get this feeling particularly on ASBR, but this one is different. There is no intent or subconscious driver to perceive future reality. It’s more like I’m “being shown” because I’d satisfied a certain depth of connection.

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#65
Recon
  • I honestly can’t tell how I spent my time today, I wasn’t conscious of it.
  • Spent time lounging with friends
  • Some fears coming strong to the surface, particularly about achievement, growth and freedom
  • Been noticing some comparisons come to the surface of my mind recently. Just observing them and most seem to relate to health, physicality and sexual prowess.
Changes and sub expression
  • The above seem tied to the desire to be the best, a being very few can match. An experience that causes an inversion in somebody’s story, one you encounter and never remain the same. A conqueror, the Khan.
  • Despite all the fears and projections erupting from within, activity might not align, but the way I carry myself doesn’t falter. Well this has been the case for almost a year now, not really new but seems more stable.
  • Sexual arousal has returned to baseline, now I’m getting the urge to just approach beautiful ladies. Probably a revisit of PRIMAL, same way I went through other subs last week.
  • Noticing a level of bluntness/directness expressing in my behavior, I don’t even bother to soften my expressions anymore. It’s been there but suppressed and veiled for the longest time, probably cos I wasn’t comfortable expressing that way unless in a confrontation. Now it’s more integrated.
  • Despite the level of bluntness, I don’t seem to have a domineering/bitchy demeanor like how I was two years ago. Now, it’s still intimidating, but it feels open and sexy.
  • Been getting lost in my eyes while I’m in the gym. I just keep staring both during set and during rest.
Health
  • Two persistent health issues flared up today, got me shaken up a bit. Which then triggered more fear, frustration and then planning to resolve all health issues for good.
  • Hip pain from yesterday vanished.
  • First time in a while my body wasn’t tremoring throughout the day.
  • Got to the gym and my strength on all exercises were up, didn’t push till the failure despite that.
  • One health issue flare up died down after gym session.
General

If my strength still shows progress next week, I’m going to keep doing exactly what I did today no changes, till I get to my peak before I fell sick. By then I should have hit my wealth (focused) goals. Then I’ll reorganize my entire training approach to align with my actual health & physicality strategy, from the very basics. I can add The Engineer then.

Grooming and aesthetics

  • Tried to shower fast, but I just couldn’t. Took my damn time and loved it.
  • Shaved
  • Changing up my hairstyle.
  • Still interested in fashion
  • Still concerned about fixing my skin health.
  • Still tweaking my cosmetics.
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#66

After the gym today, something dawned on me

I need a practice, actually two—one to dive into my mind and another into my body.

I’m still subconsciously leaning more towards using these for transformation, but I want to wield them beyond that, for the purpose of exploration.

Practices up for selection

  • Self hypnosis for the mind. This opens a gateway for so many aspects and skills under this category, both for focused work and exploration. Also very transferable. Dabbled in it before, but wasn’t really successful due to very spotty practice. Was able to apply some concepts from here in my daily life though.
  • Tai Chi → Martial arts for body
  • Rope flow for body.
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#67

Outside of any specific “time isn’t linear” beliefs, it makes sense that there would be events that are highly probable to happen the next day. The predictions I’ve gotten are a mix of interpersonal things and just sheer reads that ended up correct.

One of my first that I had two years ago, had me meet a specific PhD student at my school twice as coincidence. And after the second time, I had a vivid dream involving her. I obviously didn’t think much of it back then and don’t remember the specifics of the dream, just that she was prominent and I was confused why. About 7 months later, when the head of this department was helping me join a lab, this PhD student just so happened to be the one that wanted another undergrad.

I consider that one more of a sheer read with my subconscious weighing the fact that I would want to start working in a lab soon with a person it could somehow tell was open to me working for them, despite neither of us knowing it at the time.

An interpersonal one would be a few days ago when before I went to bed, I started thinking about a meeting I had the next day and how it would be “logical” for it to be moved to a specific time. When I woke up I remembered it and thought it sounded stupid, since there was no actual “logic” I remembered following. About 10 minutes later I get a text asking for the meeting to be moved to the exact time I thought it should’ve been moved to the night before. It turned out one of the people had a list minute appointment they needed to go to.

That I chalk up to being more interpersonal, with there being more “easy” subconscious communication to pinpoint it to. Me and the other person were communicating subconsciously the night before without realizing it. I get this kind of thing a lot where I will get a message in my sleep before I get it for real the next day, so I kind of group that kind of thing together.

Although you could make the argument that both of those point to the same phenomenon, I feel like one is distinctly more probabilistic and involves infinitely more factors. So while they both may be subconscious communication, one has an immediate medium of expression (getting a text) vs one having one a few mediums away (me needing to reach out to this specific professor at the exact time this specific PhD wanted an undergrad).

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#68

GG 2:00

Increasing listening time. I normally test the upper limit of the amount of recon I can handle within my usual 2-3 day processing cycle. This way I know what to expect and then can adjust my input as needed. Sometimes, I also intentionally retest my upper limit to observe how the recon changes over time.

Today was the second time I felt any sort of processing effect on this custom. First was on my first ever loop and then, today.

Quick moment of lightheadedness followed by a rapid transition to mentally feeling the weight of the sub, like I usually do with other subs. Then mood dropped for about 2hrs then returned to baseline, then a headache set in for most of the day till night.

Focus was very high throughout though.

Then started to process some duality stuff, particularly about where I am now and finding balance.

Let’s see how the following day goes.

I went to an event on Thursday and I felt Khan kicking into high gear. All was good but classically, I found it so hard to smile, I had to put in so much effort, that I just let it be in the end.

Then it just got to a point where nothing interested me anymore, I got bored. Actually, I was bored throughout the event, but stayed till the end. I gave my greetings and then left on a good note.

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#69

It was raining outside, the thermostat set too low for comfort, an oddly cold summer night. The bed offered less warmth as time wore on and it was getting too cold to continue my beauty sleep, even under my blanket.

However, waking up at that moment wasn’t an option to be taken, so I let my body do its thing. Legs crossed and torso unwound like a stretched coil. Somehow I felt warm again.

Woke up this morning realizing that my legs were crossed again while asleep. This has been getting too frequent within the past four months and it’s been so, regardless of environmental temperature. It has also spread to my daily life where my legs naturally cross whenever I lay on my bed, after stretching or in some social situations.

It was the first thing my awareness went to as I woke up this morning and there’s a nagging feeling that it’s a sign. A desire for warmth, and me closing up to feel that warmth. It reminds me of being with my baby cousin and letting him fall asleep on my chest, listening to my heartbeat.

However, this desire for warmth has conflicting signals underneath. I see this is bodily regulation, but what drives this rapid increase in frequency?

I don’t know if I feel lonely, hurt or unsafe deep down and trying to pacify myself.

OR

Something too stimulating to cope with.

OR

If I’m just embracing myself.

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#70

Yesterday I was chilling at the bus stop, I felt the desire not to use my AirPods. Then I it dawned on me.

This is the best way to not get results and fail. Don’t test properly and do what you’re supposed to do. Keep throwing last ditch efforts on a time crunch and expect them to land. Perhaps, you’re coping with dogma thinking you’re actually learning.

I had been subconsciously considering dropping my skincare research and going back to store bought ones, which were basically just copium to cope with my skin issues.

A voice has been really vocal consistently reminding me “you’re wasting money, this is not the time for all these experimentation”

The voice that refuses to give up because it knows it will find success chimes in “and so? Price of the learning curve. I’d rather pay it now, be able to create highly tailored skincare for the rest of my life and know I don’t have to keep coping.”

The first voice replied “okay, how about we drop this for now, focus on the money (we both know we’ll hit it big) then actually higher an expert. We’ll have the products s as soon as possible and shorten the learning curve, by a lot “

And the first answer I wrote above was the reply I got from my one voice when that conversation got fully conscious :joy:

Truly, if you ask me “What exactly did you test?” “What exactly did you learn?” Well the line gets blurry. I can’t really call what I do “testing aligned with my goal of being able to craft what works for me every time, as required.”

Also, not all last ditch efforts are equal. The more alignment, the better the chances.

Well there it is. Back to the drawing board.

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#71

Finally accepting that a kitchensink approach product for skincare isn’t really feasible, even if it’s personalized and self made.

To get the best results, it has to come in highly specialized stages, with there various cycles and revisited for seasons.

Take my time doing what I’m supposed to do, if it’s something I want to improve.

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#72
Potential connection manifestation

Met a guy today, sat beside me, engaged me and then we got into conversation.

Talked about entrepreneurship, what we both do, current situation, future plans etc. Then propositioned us working together, along with a potential introduction to his mentor, with the intention that I also come under his wing. Then we exchanged contact details.

Being that, there are two things I find interesting

Firstly, was my level of vulnerability and publicity. I answered some questions that I deem personal in a very open, authentic, yet unfazed way. My voice loud enough that people heard all I said and kept staring. There was no internal pressure, sense of danger, limit, or fear to push through.

Secondly, was the experience itself. It felt like I needed to have this experience. At a point, I asked in my mind “who sent you here?” Which was kind of unusual.

The journey continues.

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#73
Sub expression

DoR is the topic today, I can tell because it’s basically the same results I had when I was on it. Except now it’s getting expanded to actually match the social expression I wanted from it.

  • Articulation was very “on” something very consistent whenever I’m on ASBR. With more time I don’t think public speaking will be an issue.
  • Celebrity effect—mesmerizing, staring, continuous engagement, gifting, connections being proposed etc.
  • Interest in fashion, grooming and self care
  • I get more open to fun which spreads into my social expression.
  • Ambition way up.
  • Then polarization of focus - fun vs ambition

Expanded Expression

  • Gradually including entrepreneurship related social development. Three people now. Soon it will be unto the big dogs in my school and city.
  • Easier to shift between seriousness and playfulness
GG

It seems I’m not just revisiting and reintegrating subs, it’s becoming more like executing certain aspects of them when I actually need it. Think of revolving doors but for subs.

Calmness entwined with euphoria continues. And from this flow is born, a balance of execution, relaxation, control and surrender.

I’m also able to lock-in and have fun, both in rapid succession, and, almost at the same time. It’s like one continuous flow.

Sexual arousal increased today, unlike the return to baseline yesterday. This time it was more like a rollercoaster consistently hitting and spending more time on the peaks.

  • There was a moment where I just willed it to drop, which it did, then came up again. Just intent, I didn’t have to go through my usual process to get to that outcome.
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#74

About this

I was on a call with my family today and I started yawning very deeply, stretching in all kinds of ways and sighing very vocally. It hit me, this was down regulation and release, in the presence of people I’m safe with, on a call. This happens EVERY TIME, ON EVERY CALL, FOR THE PAST YEAR, regardless of how rest or hunger levels. Only with my family, when I’m alone and most recently (past 3 weeks) with my friends.

How the hell have I missed this for a whole year?

Also, I’m not sure if the specifics, but seems all these cases were true

I’m not exactly sure the source of the overstimulation or what my body is trying to process and release.

However, it is failing to complete the cycle towards releasing completely and closing the loop. If it actually is releasing, then there is a lot actually going on under the hood somatically and I currently don’t know what they are.

There’s also the possibility of the stress originating from the impact of my health issues on my body.

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#75

DoR 1:10

Testing to see how much I’ve improved in steering it.

Just a few result updates

Openness

People are very open, sharing things that I think are private enough to not be shared on the first encounter.

The frequency and scale of this is increasing gradually. Now, it’s almost every new person I actually engage in an interaction with.

Forgetting names

This is very rare for me, but recently it’s been happening A LOT. After a brief interaction, I find that I’ve mostly forgotten the names that were exchanged. Then, I find myself saying “well they didn’t stand out to me.”

I took a closer look and it just so happens to be true, I actually remember those that stand out.

I value the experience of the interaction, but somehow, I’m assigning way less value than before to the person(s).

The expression of this being that I’m open and can have fun mid interaction, but if perceived value doesn’t really change, I forget the person. There’s lots of layers of analysis that goes into consideration and most of it is subconscious.

Well that’s a new one—A recognition that everyone is inherently valuable, but some are more valuable to ME, and that is fine.

Just gonna let that marinate.

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#76

For what does it profit a man if he gains the whole world, and forfeits his soul?

I was 10 mins into cooking and the dropped into my mind. With the string of revelations that followed, it became clear that this was about my current growth hurdle—sacrifice.

…

For the first time in my life, I’m truly beginning to open up, my social life is unfolding the way I’ve always wanted it to and my relationship with my family is deepening.

Why cut out everything that just started expressing? Why trade something that isn’t fully mine yet?

For the sake of delayed gratification, hoping that following my set plan is better? For things that actually don’t follow a plan?

Conversely, I can see how consolidating this level will help what I want to cut it out for. Which begs the question

Am I trying to sacrifice the right thing? Or is this another elaborate scheme to avoid facing myself?

I realize this isn’t just an issue of sacrifice, delayed gratification or trusting myself to rebuild, this is jumping the gun

The work just started here, I think I’ve cleared the stage already and I’m trying to leave without consolidating it.

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#77

Also, I have to admit it that I bit off more than I could chew with DoR. The components are highly synergistic on paper for me, the story I created and the skills I intend to build, but each component requires more depth and consolidation.

….

Firstly, Wanted is the most aligned with me, results on each objective are extremely easy, but that very way is being hasn’t been consolidated to the point where it’s exactly how I am, perceive the world and live.

Secondly, ASBR. Results also easy, but limited because I haven’t learned to steer this beast exactly the way I want to use it. On one hand, I express the resilience, dominance, cognitive enhancement, fame and popularity. The other aspect wealth, vision, ambition and resourcefulness are blocked because they require signal I currently can’t support. The defacto way I do this is by painting everything in my current reality as mediocre, not aligned with my vision and therefore not worth my attention. Implying that I have to sacrifice them, regardless of how important they are to me. The issue now is how long will I continue till sacrifice all of to sustain this?

Thirdly, BL. Beautiful sub, the cognitive aspect is aligned with the way I naturally operate, but almost all other aspects need more focused time to develop.

I’mma have to revisit my approach to sub use.

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#78

Two pillars, one support. One for expansion & foundation development.

Another for directed development, leaning strictly into the major themes being worked on now—social life, school, wealth and health.

BL was to be the foundation, a deeper depth directed towards the major themes. Now, time to go as direct as possible. Consolidate what is already delivering, after, I can revisit this idea and go deeper from there.

So for expansion, GG is a staple.

Then the Dice Man for directed development

Originally, proposed two years ago as The Sensation. It is what became the framework for DoR, and the two cores stack with some unreal synergy, giving the best of both worlds. Now, updated with latest tech. Still under development.

ASBR
Wanted
MDFY: Conscious Guidance
Experimental ZPU Anti Recon
Experimental ZPU Adaptive Scripting
Void of Creation
Synergy: Divine Dominion
Execution Override
Carpe Diem Ascended
The Academic
Pragya/Mosaic

Support will be for very focused development to support either of the pillars, usually as a boost. So this slot is to be empty most of the time.

…

For my health and physical mastery plans, customs might be on hold till GG is cycled out. Wanted will cover this for now, as it has its track record of doing so.

Will go ahead and make tweaks on lifestyle extremely slowly, unlike the unsustainable upheavals I’ve been making in the hope of transformation. I want this to stick for as long as they serve me. There might be a time crunch, but if my basics are not there, then I’ve built a house of cards.

As for Summertime/RICH, I might use either of them as support. Going further, the custom concept might be broken down and integrated in either an upgrade of Dice Man or Vessel of Form for more specialization.

#79

Ran Wanted 00:15 before bed.

Dream

Taking a stroll in what seemed like a school and wandered into a chapel.

Finished exploring the outer areas and tried to leave, only to realize that it was within a hostel for girls—naked, playing around, even bathing. Thinking about how this situation would be interpreted by the school, it was certain there would be a grave penalty for “sneaking here to peek at girls”

Well time to escape. Kept trying to figure out this maze, while avoiding getting caught, and kept failing to do so. The pressure mounting exponentially and eventually, I got caught.

However, the girl was nice, took me through a safe way out. Halfway through the journey, she was a couple steps ahead of me like we were taking a leisure walk, then starts posing and taking selfies of us.

My pov then shifted to the third person—her phone was mounted on a stand, camera on and I was watching through it. She had successfully convinced me to race her, multiple times. I let her have the first one, which she teased me about.

I decided to win the rest and from the third pov, it was hard not to troll her about her losses, laughing and teasing her back. Suddenly I got focused, something in the phone caught my eye, ME.

Through the blur signifying how fast we were moving, some fog began to lift and my body became clearer. Lean, mean, powerful, hot as hell and shining with a sheen beyond compare, exactly what I desire. And this spread to the other videos.

Then I woke up.

This was interesting because the foggy and clear races were the exact same race, but the clear one still seeming to happen after the foggy one. I can’t explain it well, but it’s something closer to a revision of sorts. They are both the same, and, different.

Then me being in two places at once, both cheering and racing.

Then the themes of the dream itself.

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#80

Omnidimensional with ASBR also helps a ton for school. Makes it easier to guide all of the objectives to an academic setting.

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