The Conqueror’s Bliss: Prelude

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#141

Also my new custom came in yesterday

Essence//Depths//Unveiled
Khan St1
Khan Black St1
Synergy: Subconscious Mastery
Experimental ZP Anti-Recon
Omnidimensional
Mosaic
Deep State

I’ve gone through so many names trying to capture what I intend for this custom and they just couldn’t do it justice. The complete name just came now, as I was writing this post. I don’t even know if using the “//“ makes any sense conventionally, but I like it and I’m using it.

Current stack is
E//D//U + EB + RoS

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#142

I’d call it GENGHIS ST1 haha!

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#143

I thought about it, but you already took it😜

How’s your experience when you used GHENGHIS, also are you still using IT?

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#144

Lol! It’s fine by me bro. Use it if you like the name.

I really liked it although I need to run through the stages of Khan. I hadn’t done so after the NEW Khan update although I had run every previous version of it.

Currently am not using my GENGHIS custom but the aim is to get back to it one day. Right now there are other priorities in the way.

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#145

Frame of identity is being questioned.

“If you see yourself as ‘this’ way, why aren’t you ‘this’?”

“If you truly believe ‘this’ why isn’t it working in your life?”

In essence, “where is your evidence and why aren’t you living it?”

And then a voice screams from the shadows “You fraud”, like it waits for that moment to come, every time.

“The one that speaks, but never comes to past. If only you had an achievement for every time you spoke, you’d be the greatest man alive”

PS

Writing this now actually cracks me up a little.

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#146

Hmmmm…. Turns out this one’s a bust.

I have no idea of the core thing I learned or changed within me. From a conscious perspective, I didn’t achieve my goal with this stack. However, it is time to move on for now.

Need more grounding and internal structure before I can properly engage this current goal in a safe way.

Note the sub didn’t cause any harm, just realizing I need more growth in another area.

#147

Time to bring in my one of my fantasy stacks GLM + HERO: Earth

GLM for embodiment of self and masculinity through inner stillness, presence and joy.

HERO: Earth for mastery of my physical form and embodiment of rituals (silence, prayer, stillness, exercising, etc) mentioned in a previous post.

I’ve been hesitating on this stack for a while, keeping it for next January. I might not go in-depth as I planned to next year, but it’s what I have to work on now.

#148

This is the general idea

#149

Gaddamn, this shit is a multifaceted multidimensional web that intersects everything, with new at the center.

Digging too much into one angle/topic triggers everything. It seems I have to keep digging around the periphery consistently, while laying the foundation to handle more focus.

I wish there was a manual for this. But where’s the fun in that?

#150

“It’s expensive”

One of the phrases I dislike more as I live, and, I mean it in every sense.

I keep hearing things like “oh, that’s the optimal path, but it’s expensive” from my environment and each time I hear it, I fight “wtf do you mean it’s expensive?” And I proceed to come up with a way to directly offset that expense. Till…

I found myself saying that save phrase this past week, and, you know what?

I am angry and I’m done with that.

#151

Today is such a beautiful one. And I’m not e be n talking about beauty stirred by anything. It’s beautiful because I identify it as so.

Being feels effortless, not power from dominance, just effortlessness from being and self amusement. Last time I felt something similar to was on Primal.

I’m sorry HERO: Earth, WANTED has bounced you😭

#152

I feel like a damn model

#153

I’m finally able to go back balance.

This entire ordeal for the past 4-5 have been like going from drinking with a straw, to a pipeline just pouring down my face. Expanded inflow of information, expanded perception, hiked pattern recognition, yet not being able too make proper sense of, talk less of application and embodiment.

Within this ordeal, my legs gradually left the earth, and I was being pushed around by different currents, rather than flowing towards harmony.

I desired something—an embodiment of my truth and that of reality. As a matter of fact, I still desire it. I knew that the upheaval was the way forward, I welcomed it, hoping it will resolve eventually.

Now, I’ll say something controversial, and I hope not for misinterpretation, but I can see how great minds fall into madness. Imagine someone with similar traits, yet greater mental capabilities than I, I know they exist. Now, imagine them going through this same ordeal, but not finding it within themselves to stop and realign. There you have it. A gradual yet more enmeshed descent into madness.

#154

I got something. I got a framework on who I want to be. I can put it in one sentence, the concept is clear, now to iron out the details.

I also clarified the gift I want to give the world and it ticks all my boxes. My endgame endgame, the thing I’ll work on till my last breath.

The man I want to embody, is simple, yet very broad, larger than me, and, rarely experienced. I will need to set very solid foundations.

Current focus

  • Digging into my depths to unveil essence (not the spiritual kind🙂), with my E//D//U custom. Basically more Total Breakdown with sexual and energetic healing from KB.
  • Building up internal world, with GLM & Wanted.
  • Expressing developing internal state through my body—health and attractiveness.

My current focus serves to

  1. Ground me in what I engage and develop both mentally and physically. HERO: Earth world have been better, but that Wanted internal frame is too good.
  2. Build my up more internal solidity (a more solid “self”) in order to engage my more abstract spiritual (expansion) goals properly.
  3. Remove more gunk hiding in my subconscious.
  4. I love being wanted
  5. In summary, I’m just doing more foundation/prep work, and it’s going to take a while.
#155

I’m using the new listening instructions as a framework, but I’ve found taking two rest days, rather than one works better for me.

I tried to use one rest day, but something happens and I end up skipping one extra. I only noticed this happening from my listening log, I’ll let it be.

And the results have been in since day one, especially Wanted.

#156

Shit, the desire to create a YouTube channel is back. And it’s growing stronger.

I haven’t even added ASBR back into my stack😭

#157

Lately, I’ve been observing something I can only describe as a form of inspired action.

It’s mostly focused around the way I communicate - overtly and subconsciously. It started since my run of Khan St2 last October.

Discovering different ways to smile, to shift eye texture/qualities, angles, body positioning, vocal and visual projection, tonality etc. It comes in four stages

  • First, It’s like I just want to experiment with my expression in free form, and I do so, even without a mirror.
  • Then, I find out later that some extra expressions are more consciously accessible.
  • Then, the desire to evoke those expressions and practice them during conversations.
  • Then later, I find it became subconscious already.

Now, it’s increasing again on Wanted.

#158

Overhauling my diet completely. New groceries in today.

#159

The past week it’s like my brain has a damn autocorrect, the kind that sees potential and comes up with the actual way to correct it. Right on the spot.

I’m seeing potential in people, websites, equipments, tools, behaviors, habits etc

I don’t know if this is presults from my planned run of ASBR & NR, Beyond Limitless or from something else.

#160

Decided to read forum posts after a while now, only to see the campfire policy has been updated 5 good times :joy:

Are some people coming on here just to throw hands meaninglessly?

Oh well, we move.