Also my new custom came in yesterday
Essence//Depths//Unveiled
Khan St1
Khan Black St1
Synergy: Subconscious Mastery
Experimental ZP Anti-Recon
Omnidimensional
Mosaic
Deep State
I’ve gone through so many names trying to capture what I intend for this custom and they just couldn’t do it justice. The complete name just came now, as I was writing this post. I don’t even know if using the “//“ makes any sense conventionally, but I like it and I’m using it.
Current stack is
E//D//U + EB + RoS
I’d call it GENGHIS ST1 haha!
I thought about it, but you already took it😜
How’s your experience when you used GHENGHIS, also are you still using IT?
Lol! It’s fine by me bro. Use it if you like the name.
I really liked it although I need to run through the stages of Khan. I hadn’t done so after the NEW Khan update although I had run every previous version of it.
Currently am not using my GENGHIS custom but the aim is to get back to it one day. Right now there are other priorities in the way.
Frame of identity is being questioned.
“If you see yourself as ‘this’ way, why aren’t you ‘this’?”
“If you truly believe ‘this’ why isn’t it working in your life?”
In essence, “where is your evidence and why aren’t you living it?”
And then a voice screams from the shadows “You fraud”, like it waits for that moment to come, every time.
“The one that speaks, but never comes to past. If only you had an achievement for every time you spoke, you’d be the greatest man alive”
Writing this now actually cracks me up a little.
Hmmmm…. Turns out this one’s a bust.
I have no idea of the core thing I learned or changed within me. From a conscious perspective, I didn’t achieve my goal with this stack. However, it is time to move on for now.
Need more grounding and internal structure before I can properly engage this current goal in a safe way.
Note the sub didn’t cause any harm, just realizing I need more growth in another area.
Time to bring in my one of my fantasy stacks GLM + HERO: Earth
GLM for embodiment of self and masculinity through inner stillness, presence and joy.
HERO: Earth for mastery of my physical form and embodiment of rituals (silence, prayer, stillness, exercising, etc) mentioned in a previous post.
I’ve been hesitating on this stack for a while, keeping it for next January. I might not go in-depth as I planned to next year, but it’s what I have to work on now.
This is the general idea
Gaddamn, this shit is a multifaceted multidimensional web that intersects everything, with new at the center.
Digging too much into one angle/topic triggers everything. It seems I have to keep digging around the periphery consistently, while laying the foundation to handle more focus.
I wish there was a manual for this. But where’s the fun in that?
“It’s expensive”
One of the phrases I dislike more as I live, and, I mean it in every sense.
I keep hearing things like “oh, that’s the optimal path, but it’s expensive” from my environment and each time I hear it, I fight “wtf do you mean it’s expensive?” And I proceed to come up with a way to directly offset that expense. Till…
I found myself saying that save phrase this past week, and, you know what?
I am angry and I’m done with that.
Today is such a beautiful one. And I’m not e be n talking about beauty stirred by anything. It’s beautiful because I identify it as so.
Being feels effortless, not power from dominance, just effortlessness from being and self amusement. Last time I felt something similar to was on Primal.
I’m sorry HERO: Earth, WANTED has bounced you😭
I feel like a damn model