The Conqueror’s Bliss: Prelude

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#231

E//D//U is an absolute monster.

There’s always recon, like 24/7, no rest, no plateau.

Habits have not been the best, actually took a dip, some minor “suboptimal” decisions like eating/sleeping late, eating out etc, lack of focus when it comes to cognitive aspect of executive functioning, body constantly shaking/tremoring.

But all are within acceptable range. Nothing affects my quality of life. The other subs in stack have made it seem like a mild discomfort beneath the surface.

Social life and work life jumping levels, even under recon.

#232

Just ran E//D//U, let’s see how tomorrow morning is.

If the breakdown/live life cycle continues, then this’ll be my new listening strategy.

Need me that GLM grounded in your body feeling that people been talking about.

#233

Woke up this morning. The breakdown is here, don’t feel like doing shit right now.

Let’s move and see how it turns out.

#234

Leaving this here

#235

I have an observation—if you can perceive a connection between the subs and express that connection, then any sub can be stacked.

The issue now is the rate of embodiment of the concepts discussed in each sub.

#236
#237

Let your philosophy guide your path

The way you live an embodiment of your philosophy

Your skill the expression of your entire life.

But never restrict yourself to philosophy, keep growing, forever boundless.

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#238

Umm this didn’t quite work out as expected.

No drive to do anything, I just want to be lazy and be taken care of by someone. Didn’t accomplish the goals I set out today.

No lethargy, no fatigue, no energy drain, no running emotions. The breakdown feeling is still in the background. But the feeling like my energy system taking a hit is very prominent, it’s the second dominant feeling I usually get on TB, haven’t felt it in quite a while.

Just not in the mood for anything.

Still hit the gym though. Time for a really hot shower.

All is well.

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#239

External results are so numerous, I almost don’t consider them “results” anymore. It is simply my reality.

Goals that aim at accomplishing things or hitting targets are being classified as achievement markers.

Actual change in my perception of life, how I engage with life experiences and shifts that improve my quality of life are now considered results.

#240

Today I told my friends about one of the shifts I’ve had regarding my physical body. And it seemed like some sort of regression happened.

Wanted directly contributes to this shift and I’ve mentally noted it since my second week on it. I’ve been trying to make this change through exercise and stuff, but never made it a habit. Wanted just made it almost autopilot, so I don’t just have to exercise for it, I live it every moment and permanence develops with time.

Immediately I shared the result in detail, it’s like I immediately snapped out of that loop.

I’ve noticed this pattern numerous times—sharing the result externally in detail currently brings about some immediate regression or test of that result. The same also holds for internal results.

This seems like a limiting pattern to me, so I’ll test it again, and on something that has become my perceived baseline.

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#241

Delayed on my shower last night.

Cleared out one stuff I had delayed for some time.

Then had my shower and went to bed.

Woke up late today, still didn’t feel like doing shit, but I got moving. Hopped on calls I had delayed all week, then went straight into work mode.

It’s like the barrier to action is being slightly disentangled from my state in that moment.

I just had to get the stone rolling by starting the first phase of the work last night and this morning sorted itself.

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#242

Been trying to study but couldn’t focus for the life of me.

Working on school work since the term started has been through almost extreme willpower. Now, it’s exam period and I can’t let this continue.

I thought this time will be different with GLM, but same as last year, I’ll have to take TB out. So E//D//U will come back mid December.

#243

Short summary of my evening.

Tried to get some work done.

Felt hungry, extremely hungry, the tire that cause dizziness. Got some food, but felt like throwing up, even while hungry.

Forced myself to eat, then started overeating.

Quite the rollercoaster.

#244

Before I took up more food, I was quite conscious of what was going on.

My ‘one voice’ asked me “is this the decision you want to make?” I know it’s the wrong decision, but went ahead.

My body rejected by bringing my awareness to my thirst, to drink water and patch up whatever space left, but I refused to be stopped.

I just wanted to stuff myself with more food. I wanted to stress eat.

Started eating, then decided to stop.

#245

I posted the previous posts, told myself I’ll rest and then get back to work again

Next thing I know, I’m dozing off :slightly_smiling_face:

Might have to sit tonight out, but let’s wait a bit.

#246

Stayed around my current friends, just being in their presence, watching reels, with music in the background.

Seem to have been reset to baseline.

Time to give this work one more try.

#247

One is the best because he seems to be in endless flow, he has always been that way. Effortless excellence, he doesn’t know what it is to be subpar.

The other, the best because he can’t see a reality where he isn’t so, he is the best because he decides it as so. Excellence by will, a balance of obsession and belief.

What happens when the lines between these two are blurred?

Something beyond these two paradigms is born, Something only you can define

The Self-Embodiment of Perfection

#248

Well that didn’t work out. Stayed up late till the next morning, couldn’t sleep and couldn’t work either.

Today, had about three naps, with breaks (1-2 hours) in between. Woke up, chilled some more, and then, I was finally able to work, got most of it done.

Either I really needed sleep or it wasn’t a day to participate in anything that I don’t consider as self care.

Maybe both.

#249

Got an ambitious idea of a result enhancement custom.

Actually I’ve tried executing this idea, but it didn’t quite work the way I wanted it to.

But with the new tech and Limitless:Raikov coming up? Oh boyy!!!

#250

Extremely reluctant to change my stack now.

But something has to change, even for a short while. Currently in a mini experimentation mode.

First was Wanted + ASBR on Monday night.

Social

Superb, both blended and enhanced each other—wits, playfulness, attraction, presence, fame, effortlessly leading the group. Like I effortlessly pierced through social situations. Little bit more withdrawn on the self amusement of Wanted though.

Cognitive

Focus and comprehension came back online almost immediately. This aspect has been hard for me to engage since this phase.

Internal Dominance -> Resilience

Kicked in immediately too. It was channeled into generating outcomes (productivity) and getting myself back under control—internally, externally, financially.

External Dominance -> Ferocity

Way easier to wield. Usually with ASBR, I get this internal feeling of being “a massive force in motion piercing through anything.”

Expressed outwardly as sharp demeanor—Eagle-like expression, minding like a bullet. Overt expression of displeasure.

This time the feeling came out in the process of productivity. A flare up(overt expression of displeasure) started and I cut it almost immediately. Slight conflict in my walking step—model vs bullet.

Recon

No resolution or containment like GLM. The resilience just helped me create pockets to power through it. I pierce through anything, recon is no exception. It can be there, but won’t stop me.

Superb expression, it’s like I naturally flowed between expressing the more suitable sub for the right moment.

Going to work today, let’s see how that turns out.

Note: all descriptors used in my journal are used to describe my own experience and may not be completely similar to your own experience.