Day#9
LBfH × 4:30
WB × 3 minutes
Listen to my stack at about 6am, then slept a bit more.
I keep having dreams that are violent, or themed around betrayal and deception.
Pain is slightly better than yesterday… yesterday I had a lot of pain.
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Still having a lot of pain, but some things are definitely moving for the better, which melted a lot of the stress away.
I was feeling very lonely and unsupported by my girlfriend, that made me feel very angry at her for whatever reason. Today I realized that I was the one pushing her away and then complaining about her not being there for me.
I also accepted that traditional medicine has absolutely no solution for me, so I need to find it somewhere else. The fact that theres no medical solution had me very depressed and feeling that dying would be the only relief from pain. I wasnt thinking about killing myself or anything like that… just projecting a long painful life ahead of me.
Now theres hope and a road to wellness I can follow. I made a whole list of changes in a whiteboard as a path.
I made my girlfriend part of the process by opening up to her about my plan to get healthy… I knew she was gonna fight me on that, so I was very reluctant and defensive at first… but then I just told her if she could be a little more understanding and supportive, that I knew she is stressed and afraid about my situation, but Im the one thats actually in pain, so I have the responsibility to find a way to cure myself back to health.
Subliminal wise… I believe its time for my Paragon-Elixir custom and Rebirth, with maybe a touch of LBfH.
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Day#11
LBfH × 3 minutes
Rebirth × 3 minutes
I woke up with significantly less pain, yesterday I started doing Wim Hof breathing, its super effective to treat inflammation, I dont know how Ive forgotten about it.
I will do it daily.
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Here we go again…
My girlfriend lashed out on me for the stupidest thing… now Im angry, stressed and sad.
I understand that shes stressed too and stuff, but she was focused on finding out what to use as an outlet to throw shit at me.
I was the same way for a week or so, so I understand where she comes from… but goddammit, I cant do this anymore.
I feel I can lose my shit anytime.
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So this girl I went to school with wrote to ask how am I doing, she was worried that I said Im sick.
After giving her a technical explanation I thought I should explain it to her in more relatable terms.
I ended my text like this “… So basically this means that living is painful”.
Immediately I went “Oh Shit!!! So thats how Im processing it.”
It was a very profound realization and it made me very emotional, a lot of sadness was brought to the surface.
I began revisiting my youth in my head and feeling sorry for all the pain I caused and realizing that I dont like the man I turned out to be…
Thats a very Rebirth thing to be doing… I feel I should just let it all come out.
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Well its 2 days now doing the Wim Hof breathing, 2 session a day, 3 rounds each.
Can easily do 2 minutes without breath in round 2 and 3.
Bought some CBD oil today and that combined with WHB got me super relaxed and the pain is significantly lower.
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I hope Revelation of Body releases soon. For both our sakes. Have been wanting to make a Paragon Complete Core + Revelation of Body Core custom for a long time. Am damn impatient for that one.
And for Paragon for Humanity. It’s Under Consideration according to the Roadmao
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I have high hopes for what RoB can offer bro…
Now that one would be awesome to have.
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Release it already!!! Lol!
I would just put the Core in a custom and walk into hospitals haha.
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Yes, I too am hyped to see what this will be about.
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Day#13
LBfH × 3 minutes
Paragon-Elixir × 3 minutes
Finally accepted that there is no other goal as important for me as healing.
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Man… I havent felt this good in a long time… just enjoying life.
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Excellent, man. Glad to hear it.
Enjoy!
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Thanks bro!
Ended up having a shity night because with all the emotional distress Ive experienced lately, my immune system took a hit and last night I could barely sleep due to all the coughing.
The important part is that Im feeling way better from my lower back and emotionally I am feeling very good.
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Day#15
Paragon-Elixir × 3:33 minutes
Rebirth × 3:33 minutes.
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Day#17
Paragon-Elixir × 2 minutes
LBfH× 2:12 minutes.
The flu is almost over and last night I slept better, Im still pretty tired though.
We had a short vacation with the girlfriend and we enjoy it a lot.
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The other day after introducing Paragon-Elixir I began watching chiropractor videos again and ended up finding out about SOT. So I looked for a professional that specializes in that technique.
Today I had my first session and the difference is quite noticeable, feeling way better.
She said Im gonna need about 6 sessions and to have a specific excercise routine to get better.
She also found another point of pain in my lower back working together with the inflammation of the SI joint, so she worked on both things.
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Lets see how those SPS modules shine when working with a chiropractor.
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I take pills with olibanum, curcuma, cinnamon, ginger
Helps with joint pain
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