I decided to start a journal to share my expierences and will try to filter normal events from events which are 100% related to the subs i am running.
Running subs since years from various vendors and stumbled across sc this year.
I was running KHAN ST1 ST2 700h+ in two months. Those two stages changed my perspective of my life deeply. I was questioning all kind of stuff during this run and after some turmoils in the private sector all calmed down and i reached a state of inner freedom i never had before.
Back to the impact of KHAN.
Since i was born i suffer with helper syndrom. Thats not good for many reasons.
After Khan ST1&ST2 it is much easier for me to maintain the necessary personal distance. I also reduced my private engagement. More often now i say no and not yes.
Feeling much more centered and focused on my own needs. Also not so vulnerable as it was before. For me it makes a huge difference. Needless to say that my whole enviroment had to adapt to my new personality. Its the beginning of a good journey to myself.
ST3 of KHAN felt wrong while i was following the Alchemy stuff on the forum.
Dont know why but i had so much benefit from ST1&ST2 that i had the feeling to move on.
I quit Khan ST3 after a week or so.
Now iam here with Alchemy and SxM2
Stack is 1:1
SxM2 for me and my wife and Alchemy to check it out.
I have no idea what Alchemy can do for me. So it will be a suprise.
Three days now with both subs. The first two days i noticed a strong anger arising.
I was nerved without any real reason. Also my wife was irritating me and i only had the wish to be alone. Alone with the subs. Today its much better and the bad mood seems to be gone. BTW: Since i started with Khan i am seeing those numbers on any clock.
2:22 3:33 5:44 and so on. There are two or sometimes three numbers who are the same.
I know that others are also seeing those numbers and i interpret them as a visual sign that i am heading in the right direction.