I decided to start a journal to share my expierences and will try to filter normal events from events which are 100% related to the subs i am running.
Running subs since years from various vendors and stumbled across sc this year.
I was running KHAN ST1 ST2 700h+ in two months. Those two stages changed my perspective of my life deeply. I was questioning all kind of stuff during this run and after some turmoils in the private sector all calmed down and i reached a state of inner freedom i never had before. First time since years i put myself over the needs of others. I am running my own health care business and usual my clients are not healthy. Its my job to give my best to help them but sometimes its realy frustrating. Sometimes you can not help and over the years i begun to question the whole sin of life more and more.
I am working with old school medicine like infusions and injections but also with chiropractic and osteopathy. Some forms of energy healing stuff which i learned during my work.
Back to the impact of KHAN.
Since i was born i suffer with helper syndrom. Thats not good for many reasons.
After Khan ST1&ST2 it is much easier for me to maintain the necessary personal distance. I also reduced my private engagement. More often now i say no and not yes.
Feeling much more centered and focused on my own needs. Also not so vulnerable as it was before. For me it makes a huge difference. Needless to say that my whole enviroment had to adapt to my new personality. Its the beginning of a good journey to myself.
ST3 of KHAN felt wrong while i was following the Alchemy stuff on the forum.
Dont know why but i had so much benefit from ST1&ST2 that i had the feeling to move on.
I quit Khan ST3 after a week or so.
Now iam here with Alchemy and SxM2
Stack is 1:1
SxM2 for me and my wife and Alchemy to check it out.
I have no idea what Alchemy can do for me. So it will be a suprise.
Three days now with both subs. The first two days i noticed a strong anger arising.
I was nerved without any real reason. Also my wife was irritating me and i only had the wish to be alone. Alone with the subs. Today its much better and the bad mood seems to be gone. BTW: Since i started with Khan i am seeing those numbers on any clock.
2:22 3:33 5:44 and so on. There are two or sometimes three numbers who are the same.
I know that others are also seeing those numbers and i interpret them as a visual sign that i am heading in the right direction.