Tale of the Dreamy Khan: Thermae of Love - a Wonders-full story

[Wonders]

27/02/2026 Khan1 3m + RotNW 3m
listening day 10, cycle 1.

It was a good day
I don’t really know how to feel or rather how I feel.

So it was a fun day, doing snorkeling and chilling
There was no storm actually, the meteo app lied, and that’s good, because otherwise the boat and snorkeling and beach on beautiful islands might have been a bit compromised
I even got some sunburn despite the SPF 50 sunscreen lol.

There were beautiful women, across the groups of tourists we were part of coming to visit.
Three of them in particular, gorgeous.
Inattainable. most probably in part because I didn’t dare approach, but like they had this aura of divas and model, above the world.
Though I know that with these things it is often a façade hiding weaknesses and need of validation.

But yeah, nah, I stayed with my mom and sis.
I chose to run 3m still of each this morning since Monday and Tuesday I felt lot of processing from 3m so I wanted to give more time.
I should walk and do sport but I feel exhausted.
I’m tired

Edit: oh, also funny thing, but these days I get things double, for the zipline the day before yesterday the monitors put two harnesses on me (which made their colleagues laugh when they realised) and yesterday when I got an ice cream they put two cones instead of one lol
Maybe a sign that I’ll get a double gf someday?

[Wonders]

01/03/26 rest day 2 early morning

Well, this is something special the process.
Got the impression yesterday and today that I am alone through timings but that’s a lesson on self-love?

Because, yesterday was a chill day on the beach, when I went into the water my mom and sister went to transat, when I went to transat they went to the sea.
For 5 days I had no match and now that I leave the region I get two.

I read online that what we fear reveals what false belief we cling to.
That if we fear loneliness it might be because we believe to be incomplete on our own, because we believe we need someone else to feel loved and happy.

And it might be true for me.

Intellectually I know that happiness and love come from within and so I don’t need someone to feel love and happiness.
Because I feel love, I feel happiness, it’s only ever I who feel/create/am these emotions or others.

But in my heart, this is still not felt, this truth.
In my heart I still long to be in the arms of another, to hug, cuddle
Not even for the other person, but to not feel alone and abandoned, in order to reinforce the belief that if someone love me then I am loveable.

Though in my mind I know that I am loveable because I am lovely and kind, and brave, and many many things. Because I’m me.
I’m a human.
All humans are lovely and worthy of love.
All deserve love.
But there is still this distance between my heart and mind that I thought I closed.

And I know this, what I live, is a lesson.
Life is a lesson for the growth of our consciousness. And I need to learn this in my heart if I want to grow.
I need to gain this emotional independence if I want to find real happiness and love.

I anticipated this, hence why I planned for Thermae of Love custom (LB + Regen cores, GLM essence) next cycle
But yeah, I’ll need to be working on this already before then, won’t I?

[Wonders]

01/03/26 rest day 2 evening

Ok alright, I’m spent as heck.
So today we fetched our cousin at the airport, had a heated negociation with the taxi lady because my sister was rude against her, so we had to pay more.

My mom and I went to patong, my sister and cousin went to another town in phuket to go on a floating beach club.

My mom let me the key, I tried to negotiate when we meet up but she didn’t respond, I tried my first thai prostitute, the first prostitute in my life really, but like damn she was just like in my fantasies short, big perky boobs, a nice waist.

She topped me too which I’m sensitive too, I didn’t last long, a month of training retention with pee stopping exercise and breathing exercises didn’t help. My seed left fast after I put it inside.
The best part wasn’t so much when I was inside her though, it was before, when I fingered her with my face buried in her boobs and groping her.
The before, the teasing was the very best part.
I don’t like releasing.

And I was tired after, and felt my energy blocked in my lower abdomen, heating/eating me up, burning me.

I tried to circulate it to the rest of my body and could circulate some, most to my head area.
I bought some clothes at uniqlo and went for an actual real Thai massage so as to help reactivating my meridian and facilitating recovery.

It was awesome.
Though I soon saw that my mom left me a message 5 minutes into the 1h massage asking me where I am and telling me she’s tired and where was I because she wanted to go to the hotel.

When I saw this message was 1 hour later.
I tried coming back ASAP, calling her and my sis, they left a bag at the checkin desk, I took it bought it to the room, they told me they went to a flocking shop so I went half running, then once there they told me they went at another so once again I half ran there.
Full of half regret.

Regret for not having left the key to my mom or waited at the hotel since she didn’t answer me about a meeting point and so I should have kept myself 100% available.

Matthew 25:13

Watch therefore, for ye know neither the day nor the hour wherein the Son of man cometh.

But no regret on the massage itself, because it was a really good time and needed for energy circulation and recovery.

But yeah, I should train more on energy cultivation, energy circulation, semen retention, and being 100% present. On not expelling.
I really really need way more intensive training to control my own body.

Edit: but yeah, damn, lot of “full body massage” women heckling me damn, one even throwing herself on my path lmao (this was very funny but I was omw to get the key to my mom so had no time)

Edit 2: lmaooo
I told my mom about how I was getting a massage when her messages arrived (the second medical/traditional/normal one lol) and she asked me if it had happy ending she asked in front of my sister and cousin!! Well of course I told her the truth that it’s a normal one, carefully avoiding mentioning any of the first one with the short stack thai prostitute, but I did tell her that it’s a cheap one (250 baht) and a good one.

Maybe I’ll mention to her the thai “massage” lady throwing herself on my path when I was coming to the flocking shop for funzies lol

Edit 3:
I finished fast because my heart was beating hard
My heart was beating hard because of anxiety
I was anxious because I didn’t know what to expect or how it would go… that’s not a real reason for anxiety, this would be a reason for curiosity.
I was anxious because I feared I’d do things wrong and because I had performance anxiety.

Even now just looking on maps, the anticipation, the illusion of a future where I wouldn’t be performant, make my heart beat fast and paralized me.
Though the future doesn’t exist and I’ll just sleep.

But even with that my heart still beat hard.
Because I’m not in the present. I’m in the illusion of a possible future and this make me scared.
And because of that, my fears realizes.

How to grow beyond?
How to be more present?
How to live with curious childlike presence and wonder?

These are keys I want to find
I want to find the happiness and love within me
I want to grow up
To be more independent
To witness fears without becoming fearful.
To see the fear without taking it.
To see what my mind thinks, and what is, find the delta
See life, now.
Not what could be. Not what was.

Exposure, experience, helps lower anxiety, because it builds certitude, because it shows that it is safe.

But that’s not really the path here is it?
Because certitude and feelings come from within, comes from beliefs structures and certitudes, perspectives.
These can only be changed from within, not by anything external.

The external may only confirm or infirm the inner if we let it do so by taking things personally, by listening to our mind/ego opinion.

The mind/ego is there to protect by anticipating and evaluating what’s risky or safe based on past experiences.
But that’s mistaking the map for the territory.
We always lack context and data for anything other than us.
Hence we may very well have an entirely mistaken interpretation of past experiences.

Only the present feeling don’t lie
How do we feel right now?
Happy?
Sad?
Tense?
Anxious?

If we know that, then we can use the logical mind to ask: why?
Emotions are guides, they show what we may work on; what works and what need more work.

Not to avoid the bad, as the mind/ego wants to.
Not to avoid fear, anger, lust, greed.
But to find its source and uproot it.
To grow so that events no longer trigger such emotion.
[Edit4: To transcend them. Go through the fear illusion and fake walls.]
So that only the underlying joy of life remains.

We always find what we seek, as long as we truly want to.

[Wonders]

02/03/26 TotDB 3m

So I quickly listened to 3m of TotDB, it was great, not as butter smooth as usual since around 2:12 in I felt the need to check my phone.

It was great still
So I bought my mom to see the sea in the morning, then we got the laundry and grabbed a grub to Rassada pier, a small Harbour in the suburb of the old town from which all ferries to other islands depart from.

There is not much around, but since we were hungry and had some time we went to a small family restaurant nearby
All was written in thai but we had the translator app, and one of the staff (the family adult daughter probably) spoke English really well so we could order some drink, and in the end ordered from the pictures.

It was so delicious! I took care to thanks the staff (in thai) and tell them it was very delicious.

One of the rare time when they put some spices in the meal, the dream.
I like spicy food.

We then went to the ferry and there we go, for a 2 hours cruise to Phi Phi Don we’ll stay one night there and tomorrow we’ll leave for Lanta
But all will be in time, for now I’ll enjoy where I am, then I enjoyed where I was and there I’ll enjoy where I’ll be.
There’s only the present, so might as well enjoy it while it last

Edit: on the way, I got the news that a girl I helped by sending money to just got drugged and had her daughter r-ed next to her.
I tried to be a listening ear on WhatsApp for her.

And though I can do nothing to soothe the pain, I empathized with her. She’s very Christian so I quote up some appropriate verses from the Bible to reassure her that they’ll have to answer for what they did in due time that they won’t stay unpunished.

Sometime earth can feel like hell, full of pain and suffering.

Here on the other side of the globe it’s a whole different picture.

Lots of sun, smiles, streets that look like they come straight from an Ubisoft game.

Tight narrow neon bright streets with massage parlors, food stands, tourist stores,

Hiding the less savory parts behind the curtains.
Wild places at the turn of a tight narrow unsigned alleyway.

There are lots of couple which slightly triggered some envy, which I replaced with happiness for them and enjoying the present, when I realised it.
It is silly to envy couple when I was the one who broke things up the two last times.

I relaxed and meditated while waiting for food.
Enjoying the atmosphere, the buzzing energy, the lights, the form the store sign took across the night sky, slightly visible in between.

Later when I got a massage with my sister and cousin I relaxed really well, I was smiling throughout, I appreciated every instant.
It wasn’t the best massage, she missed a couple acupoints, notably on the back, she remembered way better the acupoints in the foreleg, but it doesn’t really matter.
She was very soft, very gentle, delicate even, making sure I have a great time, doing her best to please me, and that’s all that matter.
when I opened my eyes to look at her, massaging my head, I smiled and she giggled.

We were both very comfortable and relaxed, it was a bit dreamlike.
At the end I thanked her, she asked is that all?
I know she wanted my line, or me to ask her name, to give any indicator of interest and she would have jumped in my arm on an ice cream date after work, or maybe a Netflix and chill at her place.

But I leave tomorrow, and didn’t have my phone anyway (no charge), and was with my sister and cousin, and share the hotel room with my mom, so I just said thank you for the nice time and left to my hotel.

I really need to get my own room, at least one night, maybe I’ll do so on the last night in Thailand so I’ll have some more memories to carry

A couple things, meaningless bs, were a bit annoying at first, being sped up by my mom to check receipts, plan for tomorrow departure
But I realized I’m extremely lucky for these to be my “issues”.
These reminder that I still have my mom to heckling with, about silly stuff like me wanting to relax in the now and her being in the tomorrow planning our trip to paradise.
What a boon to be in this situation.

Some people live hell on earth, other live paradise on earth.
Some are lost in a nightmare, others in a dream.

I would love to help her somehow, but idk what I could do, being on another continent even from my own country.
I was thinking maybe open a business, bring her to france and recruit her? Though idk what her skills are in, or about the logistics of it, even legally.

Nevermind the investment needed to bring her here, find her a place to live, have her learn the language while fighting trauma, and all that in the time between when she start working and when it’ll be profitable.

One asset I have that could help is agricultural land, she could live there, tend to the land, live off of it and sell the excess to pay for her and her daughter, and eventually me too for the investment if possible, even slowly.

But yeah, that seems wild, even for me.
I am but one human.

I am exhausted I’ll sleep now.

[Wonders]

04/03/26, 2am 48

Ok so yesterday was rest day and a bit wow, in a not bad way

At the beginning of rest day my mom mostly argued with my sis, didn’t tell her hi in the morning and complained about how we can’t do activities while waiting for the ferry “because she didn’t want to plan yesterday”

my sister wanted to enjoy spending more time chilling with mom rather than run about there and there to look for activities and ferry tickets.

Even though mom had trouble sleeping because of hard party sound in the distance and was exhausted. She wanted us to do activities still and blamed sis for sleeping.she said even if we napped throughout we would still see good sights.

My mom felt attacked when my sis told her that mom could have waken her if she wanted to go early to a boat expédition together. She felt hurt because she feared that my sis would be upset about being woken up “because you’re always angry and grumpy in the morning” as she told her daughter.

Despite my sis not saying anything bad.
She tried to tell mom that with how she’s always put down and attacked it’s normal she get upset
But mom felt vindicative.
Mom then pursued putting down my sister, as a kind of defense because she doesn’t want to feel controlled by my sister, though this doesn’t have much of anything to do with what’s happening.

Ego fighting yet finding ways to coordinate so that everyone got the feeling they wanted to get at the same time.
God/All There Is/The Whole is good and respond to all demands, no one is shut down or rejected

So I tried to show her the good sights we see from where we were the entire bay, with turquoise waters the sun glimmering on the sea

The jungle in the distance across the water, the longboats going to and from a beautiful beach.
But still, she was mourning the loss of an imaginary timeline.

Things got up when we booked kayak to go see a beach with plenty of monkeys in it it calmed everyone.

Then we left for Lanta Yoi last evening
Things fell perfectly, we have two rooms let’s say 1 and 4

I gave the choice and sis + cousin got the 4, I and mom 1

Though 4 have a big bed and a separate bed, while 1 only had a big bed, so mom left me the room for myself, for the first time in the travel.

The perfect occasion I thought! Life is good and generous!
But since it was Magha Puja day there was no alcohol, so the bars were empty or closed
So I just got some joint at a nearby dispensary, one of the very few non-restaurant place open.

I asked for 3 (1 for me + one for cousin and sis)
He gave me one free we lit it, talked a tiny bit, he asked where I was lodging, and then if I walked there and he was so kind to just bring me there he’s awesome! And his weed is damn good quality wow I didn’t get that high in a while.

Accelerated inquiry about my thoughts, my thoughts pattern, where they come from and why?
Not an angry why that shut the ego and feelings, but a open why that invite answer into the comprehension of self

Why do I see things when I close my eyes when I should see dark?
Why do such or such feeling go through my body, what create them?

How the different timelines of future or alternqte timelines from past imaginary alternate situation resonate together or not, are reinforced or not.

Not actual reality, but our imagz of reality in mind.
It build scenario of what if, and so it create an alternate universe out of this what if, an alternate timeline that can grow further the longer we dwell on it
And the central core plexus of where we put most attention. And the more subtle branches, yet uncountably numerous and complex.

The oldest most neglected pathways being dissolved while producing fresh future ones.
Unlimited creation from unlimited alternate universes, each grown through imagination and attention, some rootless, the roots having dissolved, strands of beliefs and imagination unrooted, floating could be dissolved

Ton of activities within
Notably a concentration at the deep center of the brain as well as the hypothalamus.
Continued inquiry of patter and source of pattern, and source of the pattern of pattern of belief.
All that built upon which and why.

Why attention seeking?
Why do I have desires?
Is it purely for external validation?
If so why, what does that bring?
Why I admired such or such character?
What did they have that I desired that I thought I lacked and they filled?
Why did I like the show that I liked? What did they bring to my mind?

How I create links with alternate imaginary timelines (imagined past “memories”, imagined alternate present “what if”, or imagined futures) across by awareness and thinking about it.
Is there a synchronisation of feeling across time?
If I thing back while feeling happy and proud, do I send them some happyness and proudness across? And do I get their own feeling at the time back?

Or is that all the imagination of the present still building the giant bright central pathway of timelines with most attention?
Weed is a good teacher.
There’s a lot to digest but I’m sure I’ll suceed.
Lots of work within.

Also, if a woman ask “how can we have fun” at 2am that’s a good sign right? Lol
Though she’s far and it’s been more than 1h of me writting this report.
Wow.
But yeah
Good weed man.
Lots of progress

[jelly]

@Wonders

If I thing back while feeling happy and proud, do I send them some happyness and proudness across? And do I get their own feeling at the time back?

I personally think so. It doesn’t happen often, but I still think about when I got a dream about my future self that I eventually became. Or back when I ended my washout when it felt like I was getting directly spoken to by a future self that I still haven’t reached yet. If there’s so many unconscious influences we can’t pinpoint or define, surely a few of them have to be ourselves during certain points in time. My past self manifested this moment, so who’s to say that my current self didn’t manifest a past self’s decision through my resonance with a current moment?

[Wonders]

04/03/26 7m Khan1, 7m RotNW

Good day, very full,

Relaxing, despite me saving my sis from a monkey she confronted because he was stealing our money and phone (and water, probably that he was stealing the cash to buy water too)
I ran right behind her, she went unarmed just against him, he tried to jump her and she fell, so I grabbed a coconut and threatened him,
He shown teeth, I didn’t move.
He know that if he attack he might get a coconut to the head and it’ll hurt, bad.

Monkeys are intelligent enough to perform risk/reward calculations for a given situation.
2v1, with one of the two armed, is too much risk for a single monkey.

Especially for things like play or curiosity, maybe even for water. The risk is disproportionate compared to the potential rewards.

So he left.
The rest of the day went nicely
With beaches, a market
Biking under the sun.

My sis fell on the bike, she got some scratches and the bike too, but nothing too bad thankfully. I told her that she should put some cream on it.

I was very tired on evening, exhausted.
Yet my mom wanted to buy tickets for tomorrow trip, but not the cheapest, or the quickest, or just any, no she wanted a very precise ticket, so I had to search while she was pressing me and while I had next to no charge (so slower phone)

She’s in panic always, listening to her fears over listening to reality.
Even on bike, she’s had a bad bike experience where she fell and it really hurt her leg and since it’s like it erased the many decades of happy bike experience and confidence she’s had before. She’s terrified of falling of bikes.
And yet we were all day on two bike, with mom terrified in the back whenever we went over 30 kph

This is fine I guess, this is her path.
I try to guide her to realize that her fears are inside her and there’s nothing external restraining her but she refuse to listen. She reject anything anyone could tell her “nothing you say will change anything” then so be it, live in fear if you so desire.

Exhausting day.

05/03/26 rest day

Sometimes it feels like this present moment is a memory or a dream about something that already happened.
Sometimes feeling like I’m floating in water or on a boat, dreaming that I’m on a vacation / remembering a vacation.

The same neural pathways activate when we imagine doing an action and when we actually do an action.

Same electrical signal interpretation, same emotions feelings, when we imagine or dream than when we’re awake.

This morning, my mom panicked again.
I woke up on time at 9, yet she was pressing me “go wash, go get dressed”, “I want to go breakfast” “we have to get ready” as soon as I woke up and checked my phone.
so I went to wash, and no sooner had I closed the bathroom that she asked “how long will you take?”

Ok damn bro can’t even wash?
Well ok I’ll just get some clothes and tada ready happy?
She left to avoid confrontation and to go to breakfast. Dropping everything her shoes, clothes all, telling me “come whenever you want you’re angry, I can’t tell you anything”
I am not angry just bewildered and annoyed that I do all she say and yet I’m met with raised shields from someone I care for and consider my ally, my mom. As I told her, but she insist, to her she thinks I’m angry qnd so she flees, leaving me everything in a mess.

Ok
So I prepare ALL the luggage, take care of bringing to the reception, returning the two rental bikes after putting fuel in it.

And then when I’m back I’m met with critique, why did you do that? I wanted to brush my teeth
Well too bad, I wanted to wash and go get breakfast with y’all, but sometimes we get exactly what we need (want inside) and not what we “want” (want outside)

You were in a panic and so I took the weight off your shoulders and put it on mine,
You can go continue to play on your phone on a relax chair, washed and filled with fresh fruits, while I carry 3 luggages not having eaten or cleaned myself or done anything I wanted just for you.

And she’s still ungrateful, defending herself “oh I just wanted you to tell me you’ll take 5m” then next time just say that just say “I am anxious that we won’t be ready in time, please tell me you’ll only take 5m”
I told her such and she was still saying “I couldn’t know!”
Bro just say what you need. I took your weight of your shoulders and you’re still ungrateful and complaining for what?

Now we’ve been waiting for an hour doing nothing. Your luggage isn’t done, nothing is ready or done, even though I got everything ready by 10 no one followed.
Lots of panicked gesturing and babble, little action taking.
I took action and meanwhile those who were panicking just stay scrolling on their phone.

I guess it’s my fault too for having any expectation, I don’t even get a thank you for taking on the work of 3 people to appease her, this is wild.

I shouldn’t have any expectations of any sort for any people other than I.

Only I can act on anything I desire so it’s useless to desire anything that is outside of my direct control. Outside of what actions I can take right now, both inside and outside.

Sometimes other people meet me where I’m at, when they desire too.
But I can’t depend on these coincidences, on these external factors, if I want to build myself and the life I desire.

[Wonders]

05/03/26 rest day, afternoon

Ok, in the last couple of days I was really able to notice Khan1 influence.

Through being way more assertive, while staying respectful of course, but having boundaries on what I accept people say and what I push back through giving them inquiries in why they act like that and what they expect.

That’s really really cool.

Also likely from RotNW I feel like sexual gratification when I feel glad? Lol?
Also lots of long lingering looks

Nice.

Looking out to do what’s best for me and my fam including the world )

The Slave, Candide

I am not a genealogist, but if these preachers tell truth, we are all second cousins

But yeah I also had a good long discussion with my mom, she needed it. She needed to talk about her mom, my grandma, who doesn’t have long remaining, about her taciturn brother (my uncle) who never talk about what he feels, to the point that my grandma feel shameful to ask for help from her son.

Yeah, they really need to get together and talk about the untold, each others fears and needs.

They should enjoy what time they have left together. Time and Life goes fast.

Because, I know they all love one another, but if they don’t enjoy the time they will suffer needlessly, way more than they would otherwise.

7m TotDB tomorrow, it’ll be fun lol

Edit: also another result, I’m horny af lmao but like horny for love and care? Not in the needy and love the world way like with mdma but more like… I want to hug and suck and lick another woman and be hugged, sucked and licked back?

But not in a needy way, in a we take care of each others pleasure kinda way, in a way that I feel the other person’s excitement in my body, if she’s excited so am I if she’s not so am I not.

But I am prevented in many ways from buying sex anymore than the one time, so this is not to be the way. (Prevented through external and internal event)

Maybe the world and my subconscious prepare me for something better? One who would accept to share a moment of pleasure with me for me, even without having to pay?
I like on apps but people don’t answer.
And most of the time I’m with my sis, cousin, and mom, so women don’t come close.
Maybe the world and my subconscious want me to do semen retention and don’t think I can retain quite yet? (Though retaining should be controllable since based on internal workings)

So idk what might happen or how.
Not sure how important it would be though.

As I said earlier, I know full well that I can’t control what I can’t control and how other people feel or see me is outside of what I can control.

And if I can’t control, then why should I ever let it bother me?
I like me.
I think I’m sexy.
I like how I am, what kind of person.
And I know I’m getting even better with time.
And maybe that’s all that really matter.

Things I don’t control will have to sort themselves out by themselves. I trust they will.

[Wonders]

07/03/26

Yesterday after my post I did some muay thai training, it was good, though I have good arm training, probably from doing some boxing in my childhood.

But I lack coordination, and I lack leg techniques.
Though I have more powers in my legs than in my arms, but if I don’t have proper form then that power is dissipated.

But I learn fast.
And I can see the coach is harsh because he can see potential, and he want me to be more assertive in my posture.

Today we planned to go watch elephants in a sanctuary but ended up going too late, and since no one searched anything about the place we were going we kind of wasted the morning. It’s above the budget we have remaining anyway, once again lack of planning/searching leading to being less efficient/inefficient.

Still, I enjoy the day

I read the forum and am reminded once again to do inquiry.
Do I feel some results are lacking?
Well, I am far from having a girlfriend or being proposed in any way.
But why?
What’s the delta between my inner state and outer self?
What even is my inner self?
What do I identify with?
Do I even desire this?

From experience, everything that I live and go through is an opportunity to learn and grow.
If it would be detrimental to my development, then it would be impossible and wouldn’t happen.

I had wifi connection inexplicably drop in the past to protect me from scam.

A few days ago I went for the first time in my life to pay for sex, to see how it would go,
This is a great experience to mine for data.
I have been prevented to pay for sex since, either by national events, personal exhaustion, or circumstances.

Which mean that this one time it happen is enough for me to learn what I have to learn from such experience, if I do the inquiry on it.

And I hear my cousin fighting with her bf once again, because she was in one piece swimwear at the beach. He’s extremely protective, want her to be isolated, only for him, but he don’t even like her, as she told me, he like the image of the two together, of him with a woman like my cousin, and so he hurt her trying to preserve this image, this illusion.

And she feel the same way.
She realize he hurt her and she don’t like him, but she don’t want to imagine her without him because she like the image, the illusion of the two together as a happy couple.
There’s a delta a difference between the image she has of her couple and what is. As I tried pointing out during a blazing session with her the day before yesterday.

What do your mind sees? Then, what do your eyes and ears sees? Do you like the image of the two together or do you like him?
If so, isn’t it unfair for the both of you to stay together?

And she knows it too, but the step is hard to make.
I know however that she’s strong enough that she’ll be able to take that step and do what she need to do.
She hung up with a raging yet sorrowful yell.

In the meantime, I have my own reflecting to do on my situation.

What do I want?
And then, what need lays beyond that want, what do I truly seek through it?

Connection.

The moment in between the formal massage, the formal “massage massage?” Question, the formal negotiation, and the formal PIV

That instant, that breath in between these very formal acts, is where the connection, forms.
Not through the acts but in the prelude between these acts, the tension, the teasing.

When the hearts and desires melt as one.
Union of souls through exchange.

That’s something that excites me.

[Wonders]

08/03/26 Early rest day 2

Yesterday I did muay thai once more
A tiny bit better than yesterday.
Sports builds form, technique and strength across time and repetition.
The more we do, the better we do. Step by step, we reinforce the muscles, strengthen the neural pathways, build a body and identity as someone who do sports.

I kinda like it and actually got a somewhat renowned muay thai dojo in the city near where I live.
Though idk how I could park there if I went, or find time after work to go.
Shadow boxing might be good, but nothing beats someone who reminds you of posture, of stepping up, of maintaining guard, of throwing the arm back when we throw a kick, to twist, all small details on form that together build power and reactivity.

Maybe there could be something to do there? An AI coach that look at you through camera shadow boxing or boxing a sand bag and give you advice on form as well as what you should execute?

One-two, right hook, uppercut, elbow, step, right kick, step, right kick, left kick, block, front knee, front kick

But still, hard to work on maintaining distance, footwork, and blocking without an actual coach. It is extremely valuable.
I have the video of both training sessions, I’ll be studying them.

At the dojo, I got to meet a belge woman, L, I talked to her a bit and so did my mom, sis and cousin.
At the end we invited her to dine with us.
Though she’s don’t usually accept she did, she also exchanged her insta with my sister and cousin.

We then went to prepare for dinner since we we’re all full of sweat.

During dinner we discussed jobs, L is a lawyer and got lots of interesting stories, she travel alone to dissolve stress from her busy work days, she got lots of interesting stories, too bad she didn’t ask much on mine after she heard what kind of machine I work with, I got stories of my own even with the technical side stripped up.

We talked about love life too, how my sister got her stalker ex who come at night in her bedroom uninvited while she isn’t there and call her angrily to ask where she is, wild stuff like that.
Of the possessive bf of 6 years of my cousin.
Of L ex who was too possessive of her time too and didn’t respect her want/need to work.
Quick en passant with me mentioning my ex who’s now in a psychiatric hospital.

Yeah, when we’re passionate about the things we do, we give the best of ourselves and want to continue doing the work making history by building what comes next. The foundation of the future.

She told us multiple stories from her job, and since my sis said none of us got legal trouble I mentioned the story of how I got some legal trouble while saving two friends from a guy who wanted to murder us.

Mostly L communicated with my sis and cousin, she got along great with them.

Afterward we went together for ice cream and a feet massage and though she got along great with my sis and cousin there wasn’t much exchanged between us, despite my mom insistence (on me) that she liked her.

But hey I can’t and don’t wanna try to force anyone.
If she doesn’t vibe with me she doesn’t and that’s ok
I still made the massage therapist giggle without saying a word.

My mom think I made her scared with the story of how I saved two friends and I from a murderer. (Which might be true, idk I’m not her)
She then told me that it’s intimate and I shouldn’t speak about it.

Girl you wanted me to sleep with her, explicitly, and this is what you call intimate? So sleeping with someone is not intimate but something very publicly accessible like a court case is? Lol

Seems like everytime I wear my lucky underwear (golden chainmail underwear) I don’t “get lucky” lmaoo though I do believe I am lucky and blessed.

Anyway today I’m off to patong once again with the family, tonight is planned to be an airport hotel, followed by tomorrow a half day in proximity to the hotel.

Idk what I’ll really, especially since it’ll depend on what finance we got remaining.

My fam leave tomorrow early hence the hotel, but I only leave tomorrow afternoon.
Couldn’t I stay a night in patong for fun? Or should I go with them to the airport hotel and see what I’ll do tomorrow ?

[Wonders]

09/03/26 Khan1 15m, RotNW 15m, blaze it

In the end, just slept with fam after going to 7 11 get some stuff for this morning in place of breakfast since they got up at 5 to go to the airport in time

Morning, I wake up slowly, after a maid tried to come clean saw that I was in, and left saying “sorry! Sorry!”.

I admire the fact that I’m there, I appreciate.

I drink some water with nootropics supplements, put 15m KhanSt1 followed with 15m RotNW

Put on some sunscreen and put on my bathing shorts

I go in the water it’s a bit fresh relative that usual, maybe 26 or 28 by feel

I look at the cat and little critter, we are all at our level the kings and gods of the smaller.

The cells in our body have their own intelligence yet might not realise the greater organism they’re a part of, how cells being healthy and doing as they will as they should, as their little wee body dna spell dictate them.
For mytochondria to burn nutrients to produce heat energy. For Natural Killer T Cells to continue their hunt for cancer cells (T stands for Tactical)
To our benefit but our benefit is also theirs
It’s an exchange between the world and ourselves similarly.

Mutual beneficial exchange, Nature.

The hotel manager see me in the pool and say “maybe check out time for you I think na? Sorry ka”
I say “Ok”, happy
This too is a mutual exchange of energies, of viabe from experience to experience.

Being both in and out, music passes through me, but I pass through music, you know? There is no inherent border, even the barrier of skin is but an ensemble of mostly void that repel themselves or stay united through ensemble of magnetic spin up or down, magnetic union between cells and air molecules.

Similarly we witness both the outside, the cat, and the inside, the tought, feelings, the observer ego.

I leave go get dressed and go out, I get a protein+ milk and whole grain carrot bread on the way and go to a blaze loundge for a sesh

They’re growers, and on google there were nice reviews
Since my plane leave in 7 hours, I have 5 hours in front of me easy.

The taste is mellow smooth

I don’t feel it at first,
But then it raise me, slowly at first and then faster and faster even higher and higher.

It wasn’t the rocket ship of last time who led me to seeing my patterns reconfigure in front of me.

While I was in the pool I felt full of Khan and RotNW, not in a bad way, less than when I overlistened to TotDB,
More like when I eat kind of a lot but not too much and feel the digestive process.
And now I feel fluid, lots of activity mostly on the side and temporal cortex.
Ondulating left to right.

Writing this journal entry.
This is good weed, we don’t feel it much at first but it sneaks, and then you fly for more than an hour.

Right before flying for real lmaoo

I understand now why people call joint ash “boulettes” balls, because they form small balls after!

This night I had a cool dream though I don’t quite recall.

But gods were playing in a mythological world, pvp-ing each others, but like this was a filmed event for a movie too?

At one point a flying dragon serpent was ravaging the world after escaping the ocean, other gods were discussing like,

“hey, we gotta do something it isn’t funny if it’s always roar destruction,”
“We should send them”
“Who? Ringa?”
“Yeah”
“People of south east asia are going to be pissed that we killed one of their god”
“They’ll have to deal with it for the balance of the story.”
(Tracing with her finger the shape of a huge hook from the left temple down the face)
“You can go Rory Rorerei Rorerei Renga”

And that was when I woke up this morning.

[Wonders]

10/03/26 rest day

Well, that was exhausting,

25 hours across airports and planes,

I met some interesting people, one of which tought I was older than I am and said "it’s rare to find people as enlightened as you at your age, and precised she worked with energy healing I just smiled, I got nothing to prove but this is an interesting woman, she’s bethrothed though so nothing would happen.
I helped multiple people across airports, mostly managing the phone charge or helping them with informations.
Now that I’m back I bought my cat home
And I have to unload stuff still.
And check my emails maybe
It’s only 16h49 here but it’s like if it was 23h49 for my body.
Still, I need to last at least until 21h if I want to find balance back

I’m proud of myself though.
Beaming.
Bright.

Edit:
I read the Napoleon Hill book too, Think and Grow Rich while across planes.
Though I gotta take it slow and really impregnate myself off it.
Desires, thought.
Intense desire and acting through that desire to reach a goal.
What do I desire exactly?
I never really stopped to ask.
I got many tactics, shaping my body, refining my mind, meditating, instructing myself, but for what strategy?

I guess becoming a god, or at least partnering with them on an equal stance is one goal and desire though one that seem far away.
But a worthy goal, to serve the entire world, to hold the consciousness of the whole, to listen and deliver to each by organizing happenstances and guiding.

What else?
I don’t really have much desires to be honest. To improve myself? That’s just a tactic for the former to hold more of consciousness without falling into madness.

I guess I have worldly desires, but these are surface level to feed the ego.
Have sex? That’s just wanting union and love, which I can acquire whenever without going through any struggle.
Becoming rich? Money is a tool, what do I want to do really? I can do anything I set my mind to.
Material is temporary, ephemeral, skills, knowledge, and experience are eternal.

Becoming president of a Mars mining colony after acting as director of R&D program at ESA whom I got to by leading the lunar autobuilt village?
It would be a fun goal and one I already thought about.
I even met a former project manager at ESA, project management could be a doorway to director of R&D programs.

Maybe I should refine that vision, it would serve as a step toward helping humanity realise it’s potential and thus accomplish my mission, the test, and prove myself worthy to myselves across all spacetime.

And especially, act toward it with my full desire and intent, and use everything at my disposal for it.
Have anything, from my job progression and mission to my skills and talents serve that higher goal.

[Wonders]

11/03/26 TotDB 15m

This morning I tried starting my workout routine again since I had kind of lost the habit with the holidays.
Also since I woke up way early I cleaned the fridge a bit.
I have a lot to do to make my home worthy.

I listened to 15m TotDB.
First impression is that it feels like taking possession of an empty skyscraper.
It’s huge, vast. Filled with treasures. Maybe I should go back to 7m first? Maybe an in-between 10 or 12m? Because wow 15m is grandiose.

Edit: it was a great journey, both in scope and experience, well, lots of work to do, I solved a problem this morning after travelling a flooded road after one of my colleague texted me that there was an issue, though it turned out to be a simple issue to solve.

During the day, I had lot of people attention throughout, I felt like reading the WDB copy and did so, thought to myself that if there is even proto adaptive scripting then there is a possibility to direct the feature, felt some activation and energetic activity both in my body and my brain while reading.

In the end finished late without being able to create a last minute feature for something that was to be delivered today.

Earlier I had registered for a free bachata and salsa evening in a nearby big city but I finished so late that I’d have to rush there and not eat and I didn’t feel like it, so instead I went to a nearby restaurant that had a good rating and meal that could complete my nutritional goal for the day.

Well, many women joined in the tables around mine and it turns out there was a karaoke night, I love karaoke!
I sang my heart out and became the star of the karaoke evening.

Though I left at 11pm to go home because I’m awake since 5 and tired af lmao
And tonight I’ll have to go to work kinda early too to see if I can help with debugging the machine for shipping

That was a good day

[Wonders]

12/03/26 Rest day

Yeah, I might not need to reduce as next totdb listening day will be monday, but I’ll really need that week to digest, and then some more lol.

I find that telling stories is easier

Also, this noon I wondered where I was going to eat, and I met colleagues on the way to a pizzeria, so I asked where it was and joined,
it was organized by a former colleague that left the job, it was fun to eat pizza together.
at the end I jokingly thanked the former colleague for inviting me, he told me I just crashed in! we both laughed, good times (sicne indeed I had no invitation)

in the past, through my autism, I might have been affected by not being invited or being told that I crashed in, though I would probably just not have gone and then be sad, but it’s easier with age, experience, and confidence, to just go with the flow and joke about it.

Also digesting information on the nature of action and result at the same time, how duty is easier to fulfil through power and money, though power and money come from selfless righteous actions and a good mindset. right action at the right time with the right mind.
awareness shining light onto our own power to create the life we ought to.

I feel tension in my hips, compression or expansion? maybe just strain from dancing? but I didn’t dance that much?
Maybe strain from conscious and unconscious kegels/PC workout?
Maybe physical shifting some?
though the face seem to be the easier to change, since subtle changes there influe so much on vibe

Edit: Holding the vision for what to accomplish allow directing life and actions.
single laser-pointed focus toward the goal orient the body across spacetime.
Similar to how turning the head to look at something whether walking or driving, we naturally tend to go in that direction we look at.
hence, holding the vision of what we want, it become easier to see what fit and what doesn’t. what ought to be done, and what ought to be witheld.

Edit2: Also, I’ve had a runny nose ever since I came back from Thailand, probably from a mix of tiredness, the thermal shock from going from 35C sun to 16C rain, and the mold and dust from my home unattended for more than 2 weeks.

I really ought to take the time to care for my home
though I say that and do 10 hours workday.
to the point I couldn’t go get groceries yesterday.
I ought to take care of me and my home, even if that implies going home “early” (on time)

Though I have had times where I didn’t have runny nose, particularly when I was erect. When erect my breathing become powerful and free again. Sexual energy works maybe?
Circulating energy to clear channels

[Wonders]

13/03/26 (yesterday) 15m Khan1, 5+15m RotNW

Very full day, full of work and full of understanding.

5+15 because I didn’t have time to finish the full 30m of the two subliminals, so I stopped at 5m of RotNW when I was at 5m and listened to the 15m later lol

at lunch I got a call from someone I know in common with the blue-head C that I was the best friend of, then got into 2 or 3 years ago, bqck then I tried to help to the best I could, had fun with exploring the French south, and got into legal issue by saving her life (from the consequence of her lifestyle).
Then I grew and got over her, there’s no future for I there.

She’s doing worse than ever nowadays, back to taking C, bqck to being friend with a girl that steals from the guys she fucks to pay for C or H, getting herself into gang bangs, filmed with the video spread all across the villages she goes to, she forged herself a reputation that night everyone that is in the bar scene knows, from young men to old grandpas.

Well, that’s the life she chose, and she get the direct consequences of her choices, so who am I to judge or condemn? It’s a display, not sure sad, happy or neutral? most neutral I’d guess, though her dad and mom are sad for their daughter, it matter little what people think of another person’s life.
One should just own their own life, if they expect to ever get a hold of it.
But that person I know in common was really sad and distressed, he even cried seeing the videos. So I heard him and empathized with him, to help him get over this distress, anger, and other feelings that may not be aggreable.

Later in the day, I had yet another opportunity to help.
my boss was kinda on edge most of the day, angry at bad work a former colleague did lat year that still nowadays cause trouble.

When I told him about an incoming dinner that he was invited to with the contractors, he confessed that he was a bit distressed because his sister have trouble with her pregnancy and might give birth in the 6th month due to a problem with the placenta, the doctors are doing all they can to help develop the fetus’s lungs and to try to slow down the birth to at least the 7th month to increase the likelihood of survival of the child.

well, though never I could have said might help with that, I understood instantly that he was so focused on work and so on edge today, because he use work as a way to escape worrying. So I just assisted him to the end, staying until late in the evening until he was satisfied with the work we did and helping him with tools throughout.

though I may not have the words always, I can always be a supportive presence.

14/03/26 rest day 1

Today I woke up after a kind of somber dream, though I don’t quite recall, I know that I helped solve issues that were rather dark, and lived through some dark stuff myself in it.

but when I woke up, this life seemed more boring in comparison with the distress felt and handled in the dream.
why did I feel like that, when I am the one who build reality? if I want intensity, I can always have intensity,
if I want quality, I can always have quality
but to get quality intensity, takes energy, takes work.

maybe this dream was another life, maybe this life is another dream, but in all case, by night or day, I continue to grow and learn. I continue to experience new events, that I may learn from sooner or later.

Today I want to take care of home, even though I feel somewhat overwhelmed by all there is to do.
I feel desire to escape into games, but this escape should be productive as well, should teach me qualities or skills that I might yet lack, because though I want to escape and play for once, I also don’t want to waste energy and time.

[Wonders]

14/03 and 15/03 rest days

This week end I mostly gamed though I did buy groceries and go vote, I was proud of doing my duty voting.
There was recon, emotional reactions, recognition that the reactions were disproportionate.

Recognition of how much it affected me, terrified me, that people have tried to murder me and recognition of feeling of injustice and pain that I am the one ending up being punished for defending myself.

Really afraid of being rejected because of that.
Really afraid of not mattering at all, over people not listening to me.
Though intellectually I know this happens less and less.
But yeah I tried to help someone get unbanned from years ago on a server I am an admin on but haven’tjoined in years, and teaching people about forgiveness and fighting division and fears at the same time, and mods chose to remove my post and act upset in staff lounge.

They didn’t understand my message, listened to their fear and prejudice and removed it. Precisely what I talked about in the message. Still relevant as expected. I explained myself in staff lounge but they still went "you should have asked us, no one know about that guy from 4 years ago anymore! And then contradicting themselves or being unable to explain what was wrong aside from I should have asked them before talking.

In the evening I tried a jrpg porn game and tried to self cultivate, to orgasm without ejaculating, circulating energy, tensing the PC muscles while slowly building arousal.
Using the million dollar point firmly and swiftly when nearing/at the point of no return.
In the end, only spilled a tiny amount of seed, felt powerful for a short while afterwards, if I feel powerful even with an incomplete retention, how powerful would I be with full retention?

16/03/26 TotDB 7m

Still feel quite busy, I only listened to 7m in the evening, still feeling recon from the 15m last Wednesday. I have become way better at telling stories, I have two weeks with the client and I am getting along well, they seem to mostly look at me in group discussions, and I activate attention when I talk, though I don’t do useless talks, I don’t talk that much but when I do I do it in a way I am listened to, convincing, and telling good relevant stories.

It’s hard taking care of home in the few hours I got, or even just preparing dinner, I haven’t eaten dinner in days, I’m tired, I game.

Why do I game?
To escape, cheap dopamine that don’t use much energy.
Why?
Because other constructive dopamine that build the body or mind, reading, walking, sports, cooking, use more energy and I don’t have that energy.
Why?
Because I don’t take the time to cook and eat.

It’s a vicious cycle of escape.
Due to simply feeling overwhelmed?
But then I just need to act to overcome that.

17/03/26 rest day

Lots of thinking this morning.
I also took some time to sort a bit my home, clean my environment.
Train my mind slowly to do small things every day so as to overcome possible overwhelm.
It don’t take that long to sort things out.
Even working 10 hours a day with more than 1h in transports.

Also thinking on how I could have more money by canceling my phone and internet subscription and taking a cheap mobile subscription, I searched around and can go from 70e/m (what I currently pay) to 7e per month. If I use my phone internet at home.

Though it might require quite some work, energy, and time to cancel with all the obstacles they put.

What are you doing SFR! If you want to retain clients make a service worth buying, don’t hold client hostage.
Build a good service and proposal and clients will come.

[Risky]

Nice self reflection. Just some thoughts, you’re running a powerful sub, Khan. Make sure adjust listening duration and rest days accordingly to keep recon at bay.

Khan is awesome, but challenging.

[Wonders]

Yeah, although I got more wdb recon with fear of not mattering or people being pulled away from me, I might have some khan recon alongside, I’ll prob also drop listening time to 7m tomorrow to make sure.

Edit: for instance of what could be due to Khan recon, is yesterday when going to a business dinner, I got upset as someone who was stopped as a green light, and then later to someone who was stopped at the entrance of a roundabout. Both had no one in front but stopped still, maybe because there is traffic and they don’t like traffic? Idk.

I still accelerated to overcome them, even though there was no emergency and no urgency to go to the business dinner, I wasn’t late, in fact I was a tiny bit early compared to the rest of my colleagues.
Why did I get upset that people were in front, blocking me for seemingly no reason?
I could have taken it as a sign and moment to relax but didn’t.
Hence why, it may be Khan recon and worth investigating.

I didn’t feel threatened or fearful.
Though I did feel upset and pressed to overcome them to arrive at the meeting point asap.
But then why?
As of now, I have no clue, maybe if I asked myself in the moment I would have had a clue.

Still, yesterday I did what was needed to get off of my mobile and internet subscription, so next month I’ll be able to take one way cheaper, I’ll be saving 60e per month which is enough to pay for a new phone (reimbursed in 5 months) pay for the stopping the internet subscription (reimbursed in a month) and then have money left over afterwards.

I had some apprehension, some expectations that the subscription call handler would be annoying but it wasn’t the case at all, the process was smooth and both her and I were pleasant throughout. She still went through the script as is to be expected but didn’t insist when I said no thanks to the counter offer.

So yeah, productive day.

Also C contacted me to ask how to change an event announcement image for a bar she goes at, I suggested her to use ChatGPT

Still, why was my heart beating fast, why was I restless and apprehensive there too?

It would be easy to just say its recon here as well, it is likely the case, but why is there recon?

Recon is a mismatch between inner world and outer world, then if there is recon it means there is a mismatch, and therefore something needs to be corrected.

[Wonders]

18/03/26 Khan1 7m, RotNW 7m, mid afternoon

my lower back is killing me since I arrived to work this morning.
really, my whole body, legs, back.
it might be psychosomatic as I didn’t do anything that warrant that bodily reaction.
I feel broken, physically.

this morning on my way to work there have been more cars stopping in the middle of the road, and me overcoming them.
and then since I arrived I was in a meeting, translating, negociating, discussing between 3 stubborn actors from 9 to 14 without stopping to eat.
also got angry at some point because people kept interrupting me.

they felt I was angry, triesd to “calm” me by talking over me repeating the same things we have been talking about for hours that I was trying to explain. even going against me when I was trying to form arguments in favor of their point of view to convince the other party.

Classic Khan recon, defensive and defiance behavior coming in reaction to khan dominance scripting, and khan recon causing frustration.

though I was able to articulate my point and to explain y reaction.
I try to translate between people, not only english/french, but also between viewpoints, because we all have different perspectives, habits, and viewpoints here, so it is important to be able to form a baseline for collaborative work. and that’s what I try to do, bring people together.
I almost cried explaining that I don’t feel listened to when people talk over me, that I feel as if what I say doesn’t matter.

at some point into the meeting when the contractor was explaining process graph by they come together, then separate, then come back together, I couldn’t help but think of how it could be a nice romcom to have something like thatwhere someone explain work stuff and another interpret it as romantic, because I had a romantic feeling somewhat, WDB result I guess.

I don’t have my headset so it’ll have to wait until tonight for listening but I’ll drop the listen time to 7m.

it’s the second day in a row that I get these two effects:

• People stopping their car in front of me for no reason and me overcoming them, regardless of possible risk, being frustrated with people not just continuing on their way
• People talking over me or otherwise silencing me when I’m trying to help them, and me being frustrated and feeling as if what I say doesn’t matter

I know these are recon, and that recon is trying to tell me something, there are things to learn from that.

right now I just wanna escape, game, forget life, sleep.
though I slept 8 hours tonight but I’m sleepy.
I feel kinda like a kid. I asked for these responsabilities, I wanted them, why do I act as such now that I have it?

I want people to rely on me, or rather to be reliable, because only then will I be able to act on the world? though that’s quite an assumption isn’t it?
being reliable leads to being relied upon certainly but why would that be a goal?

it reminds me of a discussion I had with a colleague yesterday evening at the dinner, he improve himself for the sake of it, and I am envious of that part, because I improve myself to serve other goals, but then if I could satisfy myself by improving myself for the sake of it, then goals would serve me rather. I wouldn’t be slave to external factors, I would have freedom.
that’s what I said too, self improvement bribngs freedom and possibilities, but isn’t that an external factor also, than to say I need to improve myself to be free.
an asssumption, a belief, limiting.

freedom come from within, self improvement may not necessarily brings freedom, but a person even in prison, even without books or coaches, may feel free.

I feel there’s a lot to work upon still, a ton.
even though I have been on Khan1 for 3 months in total.
But I progress, I advance, things are bought to the surface, and things bought to the surface may be broken/dissolved.

Edit: in the end, I didn’t look too much at the time and ending up listening to 11m40 of Khan and 11m30 of RotNW, interestingly both instinctual nudge to look at the time remaining were around the same time stamp, I’ll see how that goes

[Wonders]

19/03/26 rest day

I still felt broken as if I was ran over, it was hard driving to work because of the pain in my legs and back, notably while shifting gears. There was traffic on the way, more than usual, so there was more gear shiting than usual.

Thanksfully a colleague at work wanted to become a physiotherapist when he was younger, with my permission he manipulated me and the unbearable pain became much less, bearable.

the day was long, at lunch I had really good discussions with colleagues, and in the afternoon there was lot of install-uninstall, compilation, and some hardware malfunctioning and programs malfunctioning,

So I spent the afternoon searching for alternatives to a car, I’m thinking maybe I should sell my car and buy an electrical scooter instead, it’d be way cheaper to run without the gasoline, be easier to park, be better for the environment while being good for my wallet too.
I also thought about electrically assisted cargo bike but my job is too far for that, though it mght be good for going to buy groceries.

in the evening at home I believe they finally cut the internet,
same for my mobile too.
So I’m now officially in the bardo between my old ISP being cut and my new sim card coming.

Not much to report other than that.

20/03/26 TotDB 7m, morning
Well, today is the last day before the weekend,
Still a bit broken, I can’t lean forward,
if I see the colleague I’ll ask him if he can unstuck me once again
today I’ll do 7m TotDB, right now in fact.
and try to remember how to get an OPC UA server and client running
and try to install an addon on Machine Expert