I find they have the most to teach, if we recall enough and take the time to do self-inquiry about them.
Why we acted such and such way, what it felt at the time vs what actually happened, what can we learn about us and our environment which is part of us?
But yeah, as they are deep and complex, there are many many layers to unfold.
Kinda like life.
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This has also been a running thread in my deans for a while now
There are specific parts where multiple āliteralā meanings jump out at me and theyāre usually contradictory/paradoxical in nature/to themselves.
But then it feels like thereās much more meaning lying beyond what was revealed to me. And even if I try to draw connections, it feels like Iām shooting at the wind.
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Thereās still some from months ago that Iām still trying to wrap my head around. It feels like the kind of message made for multiple people, spoken in layers. Like a teacher giving a nugget that students at different levels will all understand differently, yet provides wisdom to all.
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Exactly this.
Before I used to have an Abstract section of my dream journal where I try to decipher the dream based on impressions, sensations, past experiences and daily experiences.
But since my run of RoS, I just stoped because the dreams where getting too long and complicated that I get confused just trying to note them down.
Now on ASBR, thereās another addition, every single dream has been right on the barrier of me being lucid, like it unfolds itself yet I can somehow influence them. Sometimes it feels like Iām living a story Iām directing
I start forgetting them immediately I wake up and within 20 mins most of the details are gone or put beyond conscious memory. They donāt come back even when I try journaling
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It might be me getting esoteric, but Iām convinced thereās something deeper in ASBR. At least in the sense of informing us on the deeper nature of reality. I literally had a dream experience of reaching into the void and waking up to a manifestation, right after I said I felt really good about something. Itās difficult for me to grasp onto though.
I can also relate to the memory thing, I had a ton of dreams last night, yet nothing the moment I opened my eyes. Only vague sensations left. Meanwhile other days itās actual paragraphs of descriptions.
Iām trying to get better at using dream imagery right back at my mind. I just had one of me looking for someone, and I just consciously figured out a person in real life who fits the requirements. Iāll go to sleep imagining myself walking with them and see what happens. Although right now it feels like Iām jumping through hoops I canāt understand and remaining a step behind. I guess thatās just how it is sometimes.
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I tried to count to 100 breaths with no thoughts
I was able to get to 56 this time until I lost count due to anticipating that a bus driver might worry about me (on the second one, since I had one stop to ask if I wanted him to bring me somewhere less than 30s before the second bus)
I learned the following:
- Any judgement, even just the feeling of it, is distracting. (And stopping it at the feeling level is less so)
- Any anticipation of future or dwelling in past, even a breath away, is distracting.
- Any worry on illusions, what others could feel or think, is distracting. (Answering to what they do in the present is less so)
- Any thinking of movement is distracting, feeling of movement is less so.
- Any assigning meaning to things is distracting as it falls under the worry on illusions.
- Doing is less distracting than thinking.
I will succeed eventually.
And in the meantime, Iāll learn more about the mind and the world.
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Looking at the new rich, I think thereās elements of ROW in there as well. In a way that serves rich.
Not sure if u have ROW the title but u could always run a few loops of it. Itās the kinda title that gets you thinking and introspecting hard on just a few loops so u donāt necessarily neeeed to run it in a custom long term unless u try it and love it.
Iām running RICH + CC right now and RICH really adds this alignment that seems similar to some of what ROW must be trying to induce - at a smaller scale
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You have to buy Q modules and Q cores before putting them into a custom 
But only once, and then theyāre available for all future customs.
Also with a name embed you can only do one core and one module.
So you can do RICH and essence: alchemy of money (which is what I thought you were referring to)
But you canāt do RICH + ROW as two cores/titles
After you order them in a NE they appear as already purchased under your account. Saint also said weāre able to do 2 titles/cores in a NE.
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THATS SO FREAKING EXCITING LETS GOOOO
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Excited for ur Thailand results if any come
No pressure 
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Yeah Iām excited as well, no matter what happens itāll be fun ^^
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21/02/26 Rest day 1
Smooth day so far, I donated blood this morning and there was a cute lady also donating blood that kept checking me out and smiling, so I checked her out and smiled at her too, though I was training my breath work and pumping my blood out at the same time lol
We walked a bit together toward the car park
Many other people were agreable to me and friendly, women especially so.
Aside from that, I listened to my mom side of a conflict she has with my sister. Iād love to help them, both need empathy, time, love, and to be heard. My mom is worried that if I talk to my sister sheād feel even more hurt than she already is.
Idk what to do really, remotely isnāt practical, Iām much better face to face.
This evening Iāll go to a small party and have fun with people I never met, (registered through a friends app), the host ask me if I could drive her (female) friend to her place on the way back so I said yeah of course
Weāll see how things go, but I know that as long as Iām loving, centered on my life principles and values, everything will be as it should.
Edit: another cute smiling lady seen on my daily walk, I feel blessed 
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22/02/26 rest day 2
Well, the day has been quite full, so in the morning I rushed to get all the cat stuff, my luggage, and the cat in my car toward my mom estate, I left the cat there, one of my momās tenant that she get along with will be able to take care of him and keep him a bit company during my 16 days long holiday.
His meowing were a bit heartbreaking in the car, though I focused on breathing while driving, I was able to reach 100 breathing with (almost) no thoughts ! I only had 3 light thought, around 56, 72, and 87.
Iāll keep training my focus more.
Especially since this afternoon when I was doing my attention and memory brain exercises, I got distracted when my mom asked me questions at the same time and it affected my performances, I should be able to keep up performances even while answering people.
So, in the afternoon I helped with construction, well, rather breaking a badly done stairs for the pool of the farmhouse we rent out (though I wasnāt able to since the jackhammer didnāt work, my uncle got another but heāllbring it tomorrow, the day we leave), and drawing the plan for how we actually want it to be
We got to that situation because my mom was offended that the usual professional she collaborate with wanted to also come with a labourer to help him, because she thought he could pour a concrete staircase by himself, so instead she hired another that she usually use for other non-masonry work.
Well, he did a terrible job at that thing which is not his usual job. And now she has to not only pay him, but go back to her usual worker (much more skilled in masonry) to recruit him and his laborer to not only build the stairs, but also to break what the former unskilled worker did.
A costly mistake, done by trying to get it done cheaper, and because of wanting to āget backā at the usual worker for wanting to bring someone else to assist him.
While we were buying materials for the stairs, she was in contact with him. She got angry because he took time to respond. Despite my mom acknowledging that he might be working on another job, and despite it being Sunday.
She told me when that happen she has only one desire, to tell him that sheāll go with someone else.
Going with someone else on impulse would be more costly as I told her.
Impatience causes mistakes.
Well, he called her so all was fine.
She doesnāt thank people much, so I added some thanks for her when she asked me to text them questions.
That was a very full day.
Today was kinda exhausting.
I did reach new heights with push-ups, I did 74 today.
22 straight, the longest I can go at once
And 52 across 5 set
I reach quad 1 back too, though itās damned hard. Quad 1 back was already quite hard, but now the 2nd one? Yeah
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