I’ve got a question,
Do we have to buy both cores when we do a name embed or only the module core?
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We don’t have to buy either. That’s why it’s so appealing. Just the flat $100 for any combination you can think of plus the name embedding. The modules and cores get automatically added to your account too, so you can use them for future customs without having to license them. It’s genuinely such a good deal.
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That’s awesome, thank you!
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19/02/2026 Rest day (end of the day)
I’m drained.
I didn’t sleep much last night, I lasted most of the day through will and sexual energy, by sneaking in pelvic floor training and small stretches throughout the day.
since I had a day-long meeting, 9am - 6pm.
and now I gotta do a presentation for one of the two meetings tomorrow.
I lasted energy wise until I saw I did a f-up by using forbidden-words in a slam I wrote on another thread. since most (2 out of 3) were self-referential I thought it’d be fine, it wasn’t.
then my mood and energy dropped and I became heavy.
so I wondered, why?
why am I affected when I agree with the decision, true I shouldn’t have it doesn’t serve anyone but me to put a slam down on here and the words are forbidden so everyone can feel welcome, allowing them even in art form would set a precedent that cannot be allowed.
and the answer is simple, it’s because I still have that fear of rejection.
I am aware of it. I’m aware that it has no basis on actual reality and is based on false limiting beliefs, on illusions.
I haven’t yet found a way on how to address it.
The custom Thermae of Love should help guide me on how, hopefully?
along with WDB?
yeah.
So, this morning I was training on doing pelvic floor contractions while doing belly breathing as part of my sexual energy training while my boss was presenting one of the project that gotta be done this year to the managers (mine and the one assigned to the project), as well as the contractor.
and at a couple point I caught sight of the PM and her eyes widenned up with a smile.
later on I saw she had a ring on so I didn’t try to search her with my eyes anymore.
still it was quite an ok day, despite not sleeping much (between 5 and 6 hours). Sexual energy transmutation truly is a boon.
I’ll sleep better tonight.
two more meetings to go tomorrow
and then I’ll be on holidays.
Yesterday the blood donation contacted me, they need my type, so I’ll donate some tomorrow, that’s the last chance until 4 months from now due to going to Thailand so I gotta do it, but hey I reserved the time slot so that’s fine 
This morning I turn 2m to go weight myself then got back to my breakfast and caught my cat nose first in my activia. I yelled at him to get down from the table and took away his food as punishment.
He even got some activia on his nose, what a clown. How can anyone take him seriously like that? I installed instagram and posted a story to shame him, finished mactivia/fruit bowl promising myself to never let him lick the bottom of my bowl ever again (I used to set the bowl on the ground after finishing eating it, so he can clean it a bit before I actually clean it), cleaned my bowl without giving him a lick more than what he had when I had my back turned, and gave him his bowl again. After all shaming him online and not letting him clean the bottom of my bowl is punishment enough.
it’s 6h40 pm, I really gotta get on that presentation seriously and send it tonight
I went back home, and immediately went for a walk, which I’m still doing. I done a meditation, the theme was my values
So i was present and did inquiry.
Reflected on how I was at my best.
What I truly valued
Authenticity
Connection
Enjoy every moment
Love
Love
LOVE
Love is vital to me
And the more I thought of my love for people and the world, and the love people have for the world, hidden in every action, words and needs, the more I felt loving.
The warmth within my chest, the sun in my heart expanded.
A cloud of fluffy warmth envelops me and warm me up all throughout. Love.
Spreading from my heart, flooding my body from my head to my legs.
My spine ignited.
Love.
Thank you.
Edit2: While ordering te RICH+RoW I saw RAIKOV in the dropdown…
should I go for RICH+RAIKOV instead? I was thinking that with ascension + khan2 + rich I need a way to build skill too since I’m planting the seed for the 3rd year growth, though I didn’t want index, despite being a soft engineer technically, a “dev” (hehe a dave, that’s not my name though, but a dev named dave would be fun)
how would they interact?
though RICH+RoW is straightforward, both boosting one another to find the essence of what money is within and outside and align onto the wealth current onto opportunities hidden in plain sight
but RICH+RAIKOV?
RAIKOV being able to model abstract systems and idea on top of regular mentors, it could give interesting synergies. especially if I get in mentor-like programs like the school of hard knocks. along with accelerated financial training itself being modeled? idk it calls me, more than RICH+RoW
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20/02/26 TotDB 30s early morning
So that night I had a dream (though I don’t recall it fully) where I was a student, but I often went to the nightlife part of town by going by scooter next to the river
At one point aftzr the regular club closed I went to one closer to the river that looked like it did karaoke, it had a scene and bar and seemed a bit more cheap at first sight but I didn’t care, I had fun.
I go back another night, it is somewhat on a shortcut I think? To go to another part of town. It seemed a bit more underground and darker than last time, the owner invite me to sit at his table and asks me to play that night,
I say yeah ok why not, I had a song ready after all,
That night I played at the club and they seemed to have fun, at some point I felt the need to leave and so I did.
The next day going alongside the river early morning I stopped in time to not have an accident scooting into someone, I slalomed a bit and arrived to the part next to the river, I saw food on a bench and I thought, “oh nice, food for the homeless, if I gotta sleep on the streets I’ll be able to go early morning next to the river”, well I continued then. I wanted to go through the club as a shortcut, the staff let me in after asking the boss, the boss wanted to see me.
I was a bit scared, it seemed even darker and underground than last time.
The boss invited me to a table and seemed way more shady than last time I had bad gut feeling. Three guys muscled staff member were at another table. I sit on the ground
The owner asked me what I was doing, I thought I’d put me lower than him to assuage in, he told me I can just sit on the chair, so I did.
He then asked me why I left without saying goodbye last night? People asked where I went, it wasn’t nice leaving like that without saying goodbye.
I felt a touch of shame, it’s true I could have said goodbye.
He asked me to play another time that night to make up for last time.
I said I cannot, I do not have anything ready for tonight! I’d be going empty handed and improvising!
He said he really want me on the scene tonight and people have been asking for me.
So I said ok ok, I’ll try putting something together during work hours for tonight.
He said thank you and let me through the shortcut
Then I had some music going through my mind flashes of me on scene and my alarmed ringed.
Lots to think about, but I think it refers to my bad habit of leaving whenever I feel a bit slighted or tired.
Me being scared of facing consequences, to face the people I may have cause to feel bad or at least confused afterwards.
Me being ready for the worse even when there’s no hint it might happen.
My fear of being rejected of people being upset with me being unfounded as people unexpectedly like me
Me being capable of way more than I think.
I think that’s it, there is probably more but for now they don’t pop to my conscious
Edit: Yesterday after the day long meeting I wanted to plan today’s meeting, but in the end did sport, meditation, and sleep.
which I really wanted to do
guess I’ll prepare this afternoon’s meeting during my morning meeting lol
Last day before my holidays!! yay!!
I felt ready for the 30s yesterday already, and they went smooth, it shows how I should have started at 15s lmaoo
so this week I did one title per listening days and a listening day every two days, it went really smooth. next listening day is monday (I take the weekends so I got the same days every week)
This is the third week of the cycle so far, I listened 3 times to TotDB, 3 times to Khan, 3 times to RotNW, over 7 listening days. So there’s 23 listening days remaining to the cycle.
Maybe next week I’ll try grouping Khan and RotNW again? I’ll see how that goes?
it’d go:
w4- KST1+RotNW 2, TotDB1, 3 listening days
w5- KST1+RotNW 1, TotDB2, 3 listening days
…
alternating like so, 6 listen days over two weeks, listening to 3 times per title over two weeks, so 1.5 listen per week instead of 1.
…
w10- KST1+RotNW 2, TotDB1, 3 listening days
w11- KST1 *1, TotDB *1, 2 listening days
giving me a 4 days break clean until the following monday…
it’d end April 15th, instead of in May, allowing me to continue by rotating RotNW with Thermae of Love, the one title per listening day would then maybe be more appropriate than grouping two, but right now with RotNW and KhanST1 being standard, although Artisan, it doesn’t feel necessary.
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I say give it a shot if it does. RICH + RoW was more my idea because I like the idea of a Revelation title being complemented in the same subject area. Also from a student’s perspective of figuring out the ways in which I want to approach wealth.
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These kinds of dreams are always harder to interpret. They also mess with my memory a bit where I’ll get flashbacks and think they’re actual memories until I try to recall more details. I think the meanings can be more direct and easy to interpret, but I always feel like I’m missing some greater symbolism because of how well-crafted the worlds are.
EDIT: Realizing I contradicted myself but I still think both statements are true.
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I find they have the most to teach, if we recall enough and take the time to do self-inquiry about them.
Why we acted such and such way, what it felt at the time vs what actually happened, what can we learn about us and our environment which is part of us?
But yeah, as they are deep and complex, there are many many layers to unfold.
Kinda like life.
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This has also been a running thread in my deans for a while now
There are specific parts where multiple “literal” meanings jump out at me and they’re usually contradictory/paradoxical in nature/to themselves.
But then it feels like there’s much more meaning lying beyond what was revealed to me. And even if I try to draw connections, it feels like I’m shooting at the wind.
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There’s still some from months ago that I’m still trying to wrap my head around. It feels like the kind of message made for multiple people, spoken in layers. Like a teacher giving a nugget that students at different levels will all understand differently, yet provides wisdom to all.
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Exactly this.
Before I used to have an Abstract section of my dream journal where I try to decipher the dream based on impressions, sensations, past experiences and daily experiences.
But since my run of RoS, I just stoped because the dreams where getting too long and complicated that I get confused just trying to note them down.
Now on ASBR, there’s another addition, every single dream has been right on the barrier of me being lucid, like it unfolds itself yet I can somehow influence them. Sometimes it feels like I’m living a story I’m directing
I start forgetting them immediately I wake up and within 20 mins most of the details are gone or put beyond conscious memory. They don’t come back even when I try journaling
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It might be me getting esoteric, but I’m convinced there’s something deeper in ASBR. At least in the sense of informing us on the deeper nature of reality. I literally had a dream experience of reaching into the void and waking up to a manifestation, right after I said I felt really good about something. It’s difficult for me to grasp onto though.
I can also relate to the memory thing, I had a ton of dreams last night, yet nothing the moment I opened my eyes. Only vague sensations left. Meanwhile other days it’s actual paragraphs of descriptions.
I’m trying to get better at using dream imagery right back at my mind. I just had one of me looking for someone, and I just consciously figured out a person in real life who fits the requirements. I’ll go to sleep imagining myself walking with them and see what happens. Although right now it feels like I’m jumping through hoops I can’t understand and remaining a step behind. I guess that’s just how it is sometimes.
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I tried to count to 100 breaths with no thoughts
I was able to get to 56 this time until I lost count due to anticipating that a bus driver might worry about me (on the second one, since I had one stop to ask if I wanted him to bring me somewhere less than 30s before the second bus)
I learned the following:
- Any judgement, even just the feeling of it, is distracting. (And stopping it at the feeling level is less so)
- Any anticipation of future or dwelling in past, even a breath away, is distracting.
- Any worry on illusions, what others could feel or think, is distracting. (Answering to what they do in the present is less so)
- Any thinking of movement is distracting, feeling of movement is less so.
- Any assigning meaning to things is distracting as it falls under the worry on illusions.
- Doing is less distracting than thinking.
I will succeed eventually.
And in the meantime, I’ll learn more about the mind and the world.
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Looking at the new rich, I think there’s elements of ROW in there as well. In a way that serves rich.
Not sure if u have ROW the title but u could always run a few loops of it. It’s the kinda title that gets you thinking and introspecting hard on just a few loops so u don’t necessarily neeeed to run it in a custom long term unless u try it and love it.
I’m running RICH + CC right now and RICH really adds this alignment that seems similar to some of what ROW must be trying to induce - at a smaller scale
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You have to buy Q modules and Q cores before putting them into a custom 
But only once, and then they’re available for all future customs.
Also with a name embed you can only do one core and one module.
So you can do RICH and essence: alchemy of money (which is what I thought you were referring to)
But you can’t do RICH + ROW as two cores/titles
After you order them in a NE they appear as already purchased under your account. Saint also said we’re able to do 2 titles/cores in a NE.
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duuuuuuuuuuude
THATS SO FREAKING EXCITING LETS GOOOO
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Excited for ur Thailand results if any come
No pressure 
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Yeah I’m excited as well, no matter what happens it’ll be fun ^^
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21/02/26 Rest day 1
Smooth day so far, I donated blood this morning and there was a cute lady also donating blood that kept checking me out and smiling, so I checked her out and smiled at her too, though I was training my breath work and pumping my blood out at the same time lol
We walked a bit together toward the car park
Many other people were agreable to me and friendly, women especially so.
Aside from that, I listened to my mom side of a conflict she has with my sister. I’d love to help them, both need empathy, time, love, and to be heard. My mom is worried that if I talk to my sister she’d feel even more hurt than she already is.
Idk what to do really, remotely isn’t practical, I’m much better face to face.
This evening I’ll go to a small party and have fun with people I never met, (registered through a friends app), the host ask me if I could drive her (female) friend to her place on the way back so I said yeah of course
We’ll see how things go, but I know that as long as I’m loving, centered on my life principles and values, everything will be as it should.
Edit: another cute smiling lady seen on my daily walk, I feel blessed 
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