Tale of the Dreamy Khan: Thermae of Love - a Wonders-full story

[Wonders]

This is my first Custom journal, the start of a grand adventure!
For this, I will be using a WDB name embed, a LB+Regen custom, and Khan, as detailed below.

Though I only have the Tales of the Dream Boy for now,
but I intent on buying the Thermae of Love by the start of March after two cycles, since Saint said we should have the Experimental Adaptive Scripting Module by then.

I would also like to thanks Layman for helping me stay locked in with Thermae of Love (also a LB + Regen custom), through his post, I identified a lot with his message and he’s extremely right in that.
I want to progress at work, but I need to regulate myself first, and through that I’ll be able to reach everything more easily and faster.

Tale of the Dream Boy ZPQ

Romance! Presence! Wit!
To know how to be and how to talk,
To tell stories and joke,
To be myself, simply.
Naked, with naught but my body and my words.
Authentic.
That is what I desire, presence and wit.
To find what at the depth of my core and pull it to the surface unashamedly.
I will run that name embed,
of Wanted Dream Boy and Synergy:Tale of the Dragon.

My goals with it are as such:

1. Become a great speaker
2. Be able to clearly communicate what I mean to
3. Develop into a magnetic friendly presence
4. Develop my charisma
5. Be reassured that I am enough, that people can love me
6. completely annihilate all thoughts of not being enough
7. annihilate all fear of abandonement
8. become authentic
9. become even more of a great lover
10. be more funny
11. find what to say more easily, both professionally and in personal life
12. improve how I present myself in the world
13. improve my style
14. burn away all fears and limitations regarding to being social
15. become someone who can help others fully, without being encumbered by fears of lack
16. Accept myself fully
17. Gain the faith necessary to surrender, to do what need doing with no lust for results.
18. To look outside how I look inside.
19. To f*ck more
20. To eventually no longer depend on s*x and become able to enjoy even without and even if denied.
21. To be surrounded by people who like me for who I am.
22. To feel safe and protected.
23. To feel accepted.
24. To feel loved.

Thermae of Love

The ultimate healing custom, love, care, smoothness.
The soft power to dissolve all that is not me,
The vision necessary to pull out the roots of the structures of fear
And the wisdom to keep what ought to be kept,
To build structures of love over the rumbles of what was.
To heal all that need to.
Lack of feeling loved.
Fear of abandonment.
The hauntings of the demons of the past,
Coming there and again to torment me,
Shall no longer be.
For they shall drown, in the depth of the Thermae of Love.

Modules used:

• Love Bomb Core
• Dragon Reborn: Regeneration Core
• ESSENCE: A Perfect Unyielding
• Synergy: Wisdom of the Ages
• Synergy: Subconscious Mastery
• Synergy: Venus Unveiled
• Experimental Adaptative Scripting Module
• Evolving Identity
• New Beginnings
• (maybe) Ardent Light
• Joie de Vivre
• Carpe Diem Ascended
• Naturalizer
• FEBRUUS

My goals with it are as such:

1. Know myself
2. Grow beyond my fear of rejection
3. Heal sexual trauma
4. Dare to go toward the type of person I like
5. Dare to reject the type of person I don’t love
6. Love the world and people even more
7. Love myself more
8. Have undying love for myself and the world in general.
9. Be able to see my emotions and accept them
10. Be able to hear myself more
11. Be able to hear other more, what they mean beyond words.
12. Heal any and all trauma really.
13. Forgive and forget more
14. Be able to take care of myself more
15. Love life
16. To love doing things for myself
17. To love serving others, when it’s not to my own detriment.
18. To be a more caring person
19. To be a more attentive person
20. To be a more loving person
21. To be a more relaxed person
22. To be a more confident person
23. To be able to put on boundaries
24. To embrace my life and all that happened throughout as a gift
25. To dare to live really, beyond any false walls and illusionary limits.

Khan

Power! Glory!
The wish of many people, but only few possess the will to aquire it, and the wisdom to wield it without destroying themselves.
Power, much like Wealth, its cristalized form, are multipliers and amplifiers.
They take what’s already here, and make it grow more and more.
Revealing it.

My goal with that title is ,above anything else, to reveal myself. to strip myself bare of all useless bagage and amplify the good at the depth of my core.
To be able to do what needs doing, when it needs doing, shamelessly.
To dare to be, and dare to be seen for who I am in my entirety.
To accept the whole of myself, knowing that it is me beyond all doubt.
All programming and external bagage, having been burnt, the residues infinitely small compared to the expanded self.Compared to the assumed Self.

It is good to be ambitious, and I am. But ambition cannot be seized with frail arms and legs. we wouldn’t be able to carry it. so reinforcing myself is vital. and Khan seems like it’d be an excellent coach and driver toward Absolute Sovereignty, Absolute Acceptance, Absolute Domination over my own Self and circumstances.

and through knowing myself, loving myself, accepting myself, be free of all that is not good for me.
have the perfect soil to develop the most magnificient and grandiose of all gardens.
My own.

Please mind, I don’t intent on being an angry khan, controlling and domineering, forcing themselves on others. Anger is useless raw, too explosive, it is better used as fuel to drive change, transmuted into Willpower and Desire. Desire to Control others come from Fear and is something that’s very useless, since we cannot control anything that is not ourselves. it is better to use that energy and strength toward building the Self to better handle the circumstances, such that Fear itself become ridiculous, and is revealed to be the illusionary limit it has always been, obstructing the path between where we are and where we want to be.

And so, I will run Khan and become a magnanimous friendly ruler over myself.
Expand into who I am beyond all illusionary limits.

How will they act together? What’s the big idea?

Well, from my perspective, regarding my goal, they seem highly synergetic.
They seem like they’ll be able to all participate in bringing me to my ultimate goal, while making the journey as pleasant as it can be while being just destabilizing enough that I don’t get stuck in habit and keep a momentum of change going.

My ultimate goal for myself with that given stack being to feel accepted, to feel loved, the elimination of all fears, trauma, and imaginary limitations to being loved and being loving, and to being and expressing myself. and to be able to do so in a way that properly convey what I mean and what I need, in a way that is accurate and in line with who I am beyond all conditioning. To reveal to myself and the world, and dare to step forward shamelessly.

#ThePlan

I will start with Tale of the Dream Boy, RotNW, and Khan ST1 (which I already ran in the past for a cycle, being able to take up to 3mn max of its girthy self.) this stack will last two cycles, running the titles on Mondays and Thursdays, from 02/02 to the 16/02, and from 23/02 to 09/03.

My vacations will be from 23/02 to 10/03 so it might be really fun and interesting hehehe
Even more so with a colleague that plan on inviting me to his place next week-end or the week-end after so I can meet his family, including his daughter though she’s 18 so she might be too young with me being 32. meh doesn’t matter, I’ll help her overcome her depression and give her advice in any case, she’s autistic like me so I can help her overcome the struggle of socialisation, and get her to open herself more to the world, hopefully.

aaanyway, RotNW and Khan ST1 on Mondays, Tale of the Dream Boy ZPQ on Thursday, both starting at 30s. I would have loved to do the opposite so Khan + RotNW would be more prominent on the week ends, but I haven’t received the name embed yet. Well, I’ll see how that goes, it should be really fun in any case

and then starting on the 16/03 I’ll replace RotNW by the Thermae of Love custom and continue onward for a year

[Antares]

@Wonders

Dope.

[dead]

Really cute journal. The art too! Khan is really fun. I wish you good luck with it.

[Wonders]

Thank you dead, Antares

Well, I ran 30s of RotNW, 30s of Khan, and immediately met my CEO, a director, and a manager on the way to get a sandwich lmao, though I just said hi, wasn’t inspired to say more at the time.
Though it may have been an opportunity presented by my subconscious to develop status more.
Or otherwise make myself more seen.

I really should get on dating apps and get myself out there more too.

[MAkh]

This is such a cool intro post to a journal, bravo

[Wonders]

Thanks Makh ^^

Also, while eating I got to overhear a group of girl talking about going to Thailand (my next vacation in 3 weeks), and saw a man drawing an architectural building right after talking about ecological buildings innovations in the Chosen idea thread.

Manifestations are out of this world lol

It was a good evening, I loved it. Everyone was friendly and smiling. I am less obsessed with women asses than on my first cycle of Khan so we can really see the healing that Regeneration, AoH, LBFH, and Chosen have done in the last 4 months lol

[jelly]

Very excited to see how you start expressing the title, both the sub itself and the build. Seeing someone else’s results and expression helps so much with understanding how it may be working, since we’re all affected in different ways. (Plus in trying replicate a cool result I think is cool LOL)

[Wonders]

03/02/2026 - morning of rest day 1
Yesterday evening I had some disturbing cartoonish imagery during my meditation, but I was extremely calm.

This morning I got slightly angry when two cars passed me by my right using a merging lane (while they were behind before). I asked myself why I was angry - feeling of injustice. I then asked myself if I could do anything about it - No, I don’t see a way to change things. Then, getting angry at the thought of injustice is useless and better used as fuel to work and stay awake through the early day meeting.

It was right to start with 30s and go slow, I might only up the listening times 15s more next week, when I next listen to Khan + RotNW.
I’ll prob stay the full year on khan ST1 anyway as it is the most synergetic with the other two for my goals.

Edit: Also thinking of maybe adding Ardent Light to Thermae of Love to help fight food and sex cravings and any kind of impulses really, though I have been well purified through practice and angelic intervention, and though they should naturally lessen with love, healing, and wisdom.

One can always get more pure, there are generations upon generations to purify, enough for a lifetime or twelve.

Though idk if it would be too heavy or not, there’s a lot in it already. I’ll have to think more on it, I got a whole month for that.

[Wonders]

04/02/2026 rest day 2
Yay! I got the Tale of the Dream Boy custom in time for tomorrow!
Also, yesterday plenty of people, men and women, where smiling at me when I went to the store to buy some activia kefir and “endurance” trail mix, (for gut biome and good protein ), a grandma asked me to help her get home so I obliged, she talked a lot! she probably needed someone to listen to so I did, though she was tired, and so was I.

Yesterday’s morning meeting was early because of a colleague in Taiwan, and the topic was talking about a machine built by the UK branch of the company. However in the end, there were only contractors, my French colleague, and I… The UK side didn’t come at all, neither the one actually in the UK nor the one in Taiwan! We were able to advance but of course some subjects we couldn’t since we don’t have details. Later the one who planned the meeting sent a mail telling us “people in the UK will never attend a meeting prior to 8:30.”, well alright then, it’d have been nice to check beforehand lol. otherwise the day was smooth.

Anyway, on to this morning! A female colleague who happen to be single and really beautiful came to my open space desk isle with three male colleagues to do a security presentation on substance use, she was a bit exasperated with the colleagues not being serious and praised me “if only everyone was like you”, I joked about how she reminds me of my cousin, she got the same name and same personality, and I told her what I meant by that since she asked (it’s positive, she doesn’t hesitate to go clawing at things if needed to make them advance, very dynamic and proactive), she responded that she would have loved to be my cousin as it’d have been fun.
at the end we joked that we could meet altogether at an afterwork bar nearby, but she has to go get her daughter this afternoon/evening, though she hesitated in bringing her to the bar.

So yeah, great fun all around

Edit: was thinking about manifestations, how things I think or feel tend to fall into place, even just how this morning I read the Paragon thread and on the radio they were talking about health protocols lol, and I heard a somewhat female robotic voice in my head saying something to the tune of “don’t complain, and it’ll be perfect”

Edit2: Yeah, I can definitely feel both Khan and RotNW working, I definitely think much more of people extracting nectar than before lol, and I’m ever so slightly more straightforward if only in thoughts, but actions follow thoughts, when we think a certain way or about certain subject it tend to reflect and happen…

Though yeah, 30s is 30s, I can see how reducing listening time reduce recon, and while it does provide many results, it does so in a way that’s not as destabilizing as higher listening times.
I did a nice afterwork with a few colleagues in the end, it wasn’t planned (I didn’t receive the invite) but it was good, though I didn’t talk too much, didn’t find things to say.

Tomorrow I’ll have 30s of Tale of the Dream Boy and I’ll see how it goes for the weekend, I want to try the effects this weekend, for real this time. Not just canceling going out because a friend didn’t answer like last weekend, that’s boring. I’ll prob make a dating app profile too, I got nice pictures.

[Wonders]

05/02/2026 WDB 30s

Early morning
I woke up and did my daily routine, that night I had a somewhat slightly disturbing dream, where a girl tried to kiss me on the cheek but every time she got closer I started barking happily and she was very disturbed by that.
I didn’t quite get the message, but then I read that post by SwedishBuddha and it clicked!
I am being overly excited and it’s a turn off/disturbing, it would be better, more natural, and get more results to be relaxed and chill!
There is nothing wrong with being happy, but like I shouldn’t act like a starved dog to whom we dangle a treat in front of.

I then started listening to the Tale of the Dream Boy ZPQ, I was inspired to run it now rather than at lunch as I usually do, and boy it took me from being half asleep to fully awake in the first 5 seconds. Immediate clarity.
I felt like I could have run more than 30s, but I better take it slow since it’s a ZPQ/Terminus Squared. I’ll see how it’ll develop

Edit:
When I see myself in the mirror, I can see I have a pretty face, though a teensy bit larger than what I would like.
I also see hints of a 6 pack if I suck my belly in.
Maybe in a year or two of working out I’ll have a dream body and face? That’d be nice hehehe, and it’s doable. I don’t want a muscular athletic body, but a toned one would be great, instead of the average I got here.

Edit 2: Saw the female colleague again today, since I had to go to the other building, she brightened up as soon as she saw me, I think maybe she like me a bit? tho idk maybe she just like me as a colleague, nevertheless I’d love to go have a drink with her someday, just idk if I’ll dare approach, I never did any flirting or approaches in my life.
… Which may also explain why I don’t have much experiences in my dating life…
Also yeah, the 30s of this morning were easier than I thought it would be, even easier than Khan monday, even though TotDB is a ZPQ, name embedding really smooth things out wow.

But yeah, I’m someone who never did approaches, never had a dating profile on an app, don’t have any experience flirting with someone or things of the sort, so it’s gonna be interesting, lots of things to learn lol.

I am pretty good at making friends, I can talk to people when I meet them and when I connect over something, but dating? flirting? idk how to do that. The two times I was in a relationship I kinda fell into it by accident and accepted it. The few ONS I had in my life was initiated by the other party and I just jumped in.

But yeah, no experience dating, so well it’ll be interesting seeing how it goes.

I know that people can be attracted to me, but yeah idk how do someone go and seduce someone else? Seem like an alien concept to me. I do speak to people, but like is it just that? Chatting? but even then, while a couple women invited to sleep in the same bed in the past, idk how I could have taken it further, in the end nothing happened we just slept. It seems to me like chatting just unlock friendships, but idk how to go the step from friendship to relationship.

So maybe there’s a difference between chatting and flirting?

Because if I were to make a dating profile, it’d just be me talking as usual probably, and like of course I know I could get a date, or even going to an event together, but like I feel that if I keep doing as I was doing before it might just keep repeating the same result, aka making friends.
and like I don’t have anything against making friends mind you, that’s already a good thing, but like I would also like to take it further sometimes, maybe FWB? but this seem like a distant dream for now. I actually did take it further with a friend once, who wanted “help” overcome her period pains, but like that was a one time thing and ended in simple foreplay (though I made her finish like that)

…Now that I think about it, I have a lot to be grateful for concerning my dating/love life, given that I don’t know how to flirt, never tried, and never approached.

[Wonders]

07/02/2026 rest day 2 post TotDB ZPQ

Wow.
Just wow.

Looking back, it’s impressive to see all the profound change from 30s. I’m reading the new instructions and might need to dial it back to 15s next week.

So, as you can see day one of listening was a lot internal, though I did install dating apps on my phone, as well as apps to make friends or meet people.
The day after (yesterday) I took the time to groom myself in the morning, put a bit of perfume, nice clothes. Khan seemed far away, shrunk as if I was looking at it from a skyscraper.

During the day I set up a simple dating profile and registered for a couple activities on the app, though I thought how I was a bit lacking in the photo department, I am not used to taking many pictures. When I got back after work I made myself ready to go to the club, I wanted to have fun.

I put on some eyeliner, perfume, even tried a bit of pheromones for the first time in my life (a pump of nude alpha gel in my neck, a drop of A1 on each of my wrist)
I felt super sexy and confident in front of the mirror.

So I went to the bar first to get in the mood, there I met an old friend, though he was a bit perturbed and had to leave fast, he told me he is a bit depressed and haven’t gone out in a while, maybe it was too noisy for him? Then I went to the club, they had a halloween theme night! It was super cool, I drinked, and danced, and complimented genuinely multiple beautiful people. Loved it. It was a good evening, but like I drank a bit too much and so at the end couldn’t stay. I haven’t got drunk to the point of vomiting in years, and I haven’t even drank that much? Like 4 pints total? I’m used to being able to take on more. I’ve already got my drink spiked once in that club in the past maybe that’s that? While dancing and looking around I seemed unnaturaly alert and clear-headed. Idk what happened, but hey in the end got drunk and tired, went out, vomited, gone to my car on the back seat to wait it out half-asleep(?), a bit out there? I don’t recall but I was seated on the back seat, and in the morning at 7am I was cold and clear headed enough so I drove home and slept.

I slept until around noon, 1pm
In my dream my subconscious told me the processing queue got full and was really excited.
I felt like it wouldn’t be an issue to do only that WDB ZPQ for a year. I wondered if Monday wasn’t too soon for another subliminal input.
I felt a bit dizzy still, all day I felt my brain processing hard and a bit dizzy when I do too much effort, a bit like right before a seizure (I used to have epileptic seizures in my youth/teen), but the feeling pass when I relax and don’t force too much. I’m thinking maybe the alcohol screwed me bad, reduced my capabilities and so the processing feel bigger. I don’t know why I didn’t stop drinking before then, why I didn’t feel the drunk coming. Maybe vainglory? Maybe because in the past I used to only feel confident enough to talk to people and dance when drinking and so came to associate party and alcohol? I’ll have to dissolve that association, this hurt me more than it do me good. I don’t need alcohol to talk to people, to joke, to laugh, to dance.

Talking about jokes, I was better at bantering than usual yesterday at noon with the colleagues! It was fun.

So yeah, today was a day of resting, chilling, not forcing much (though I still did my routine of supplements and workout)
I updated the dating profile to make it way better than the quick profile I made yesterday, though I still need to write the bio (I’ll have to do it in Obsidian tho, the dating app profile editing UI is awful, it cover the text so I don’t see what I write)

In the afternoon, my mom called to ask me for help, my sister got her bike stolen last night. I told her I’m coming. I stopped by the library first since some books I ordered on tantra and energy work arrived, then drove there.
I was a bit scared in the car since I haven’t checked the oil in a while and it felt like it absolutely need oil, and I’m not that close to my mom (one hour drive, and I took the highway to go faster so it wasn’t easy on the motor) I warned my mom and it turns out she got oil so I’ll be able to put it in tomorrow.

So once I arrive I checked the cctv to see if we find the thieves, unfortunately most of the cameras are too close to the wall so at night they don’t see much of anything due to the ir light reflecting on the wall and “blinding” the camera.
We only saw my sister coming out and in at night, and my sister ex boyfriend that came into our yard between 5am and 6 to go knock on her window, he saw that the bike was missing and so he warned her that her bike got stolen.

It’s a bit sus that he stayed 56m total imo, but we have no proof that he helped people steal the bike.

They came by scaling the surrounding wall, and left by lifting the bike on the chicken coop and over the wall. We can see it with the wall having an impact, the grass being folded on the way from the coop to the kennel door (we repurposed that part of the yard as a kennel), they didn’t close that door too.

So the thieve(s):

1. Know we let the dog inside at night
2. Know my sister has a bike
3. Know where my sister hid/stored the bike, in the old barn
4. Know my sister’s address
5. Either don’t know there’s cameras or knew which don’t see much at night. The recorder is at my grandma’s, in the living room, which is another house than my mom/sis on the same property.
6. They must have been multiple to lift a cross bike above a wall, at least two.
7. Only my sister’s cross bike got stolen. My mom had her bike with the key on it also in the barn. So it was targeted.

That’s a lot of data, though idk if enough.
I saw the cat at 2am fleeing from the kennel/coop area, spending an awful lot of time looking back, more than 10s, stopping twice to look back on the way. So maybe it happened at 2am.

Anyway, I’m sleeping at my mom’s and have been invited to a family friend’s birthday tomorrow.

[jelly]

@Wonders

a drop of A1 on each of my wrist

The feeling more internal might also have to do with this a bit. It’s definitely influenced by ZPQ, but A1 is famous for making people in their own heads, insecure, etc by the end of the night. You said you’re new to pheromones so I’m not sure how much you knew, if you already know then my fault for repeating what’s already known.

@Wonders

I haven’t got drunk to the point of vomiting in years, and I haven’t even drank that much?

I also had a close call during my first week with drinking and listening in the same day. I think your mind just has to get used to the subliminal input for a little while. It resolved itself after a few weeks for me, and strategically listening while drunk actually became something viable. Since I’m more honest with myself about my desires, listening while in that state helped me to clarify the things I wanted and the things I had to let go of to get there. Just anecdotal, not encouraging you to do this, lol.

@Wonders

In my dream my subconscious told me the processing queue got full and was really excited.

Love these kinds of dreams.