Since I’ve been doing a minute thirty seconds of my custom, I’ve been sleeping harder and longer and dreaming more.
Like today I got a solid ten hours of sleep but really would’ve liked to get more sleep. I have noticed that people are smiling at me more again. I don’t always feel at ease around people sometimes, but still getting the work done. Other times I pretty much have zero anxiety.
I have my new custom lined up but I’m not sure now on adding Ascension. I was sure but after doing it I’m having some doubts about whether or not to keep it just to one core LBFH.
On the other hand, I do plan on doing Ascension and I’d want to run it for at least 6 cycles. The name embedding would help. But I’m leaning towards making it just LBFH custom which I would just continuously run. Then I could swap out one title as needed. I’m also leaning towards going with Chosen From Within as my second custom core with LBFH. I think that’s what I want more but I think I do need to try out ascension before i go back to CFW. I have plenty of time, 3 months until I’m planning to have my next custom.
Update: after reading through Ascension threads and gaining some clarity. I’m set on swapping out DRLD with Ascension. I’m on my third DRLD cycle but because Ascension is so foundational, it might be best to finish out the year and head into the next strong on Ascension. Then I’ll really know what I want to do with my custom because I’ll already have a baseline with Ascension.
I do expect some recon with Ascension but maybe not. I’ve done time with CFW and Chosen and LBFH as my previous titles.
Listening to 1:30 LBFH and DRLD and 1 minute of Ascension Chamber since it’s Friday.
I slept on it and think I will actually finish out the year with Primal as originally planned.
Yesterday I did some hip and back mobility movement. It must have unlocked some energy in the body. I was feeling pretty anxious yesterday. I used to live in anxiety and I don’t know how because now when I have some anxiety it’s like how was I going to work and being around shitty people and doing that every day? Well I also had moments of highs as well as I was releasing the whole time and that’s what kept me afloat kind of like a Sanguine effect, eventually I had to get out and away from the environments, the people weren’t going to change and the onslaught was overwhelming me. I had to be the one to say, okay you win, I won’t live like this, I can’t do it anymore.
So Primal with its anti-anxiety, and solidness, and groundedness is why I bought it. It has some fun elements. I expect some recon as it demolishes any dating/sex beliefs/limitations. But I think it’s definitely the right decision for me. So the new plan is start Primal next cycle. Definitely keeping the loops to probably 1:30 again.
update: so tired today. I guess I am reconning. slept 8 hours last 2 nights. I was sleeping like 10 most days. It’s not easy to complain about when people are like I wish I could sleep 8 hours! ahaha.
I’m now bouncing back and forth between getting back on CFW or Primal. Yet I think primal will win because I want that lack of anxiety and groundedness and being present and ability to tap into my fun side and just be in the moment. Then I’d probably add CFW in my LBFH custom for next year.
My stack was digging deep the past couple days. Yesterday was peak recon. I was feeling a little angry but I was at work. I had some insights and then had some really good luck. So I will say I had a level up. Maybe I’m not done with the junk but maybe kind of settled until the next round shows up.
Today I listened to 1:30 of my custom. No mood boost, probably because I woke up after 4 hours of sleep stayed up an hour or two and then got a few more hours of sleep. So I’m groggy and tired. Normally I’d have gone to the store and on a drive by now. But I think I will just do the store tomorrow instead.
Oh I almost forgot I had a really intense nightmare and I actually got out of bed and it woke me up.
Also, I’m kind of settled on my next custom being LBFH and CWON. I think it will hit the spot for the emotional world and positivity and just overall boost to whatever other titles or goals I have in my life. I’m slow stepping into something like Khan in the future. Also I like Chosen but at this point it’s still about my foundation rather than being a leader of others. I still like being independent while I uncover what my true goals and sense of purpose are. So that sounds like Genesis is right up my alley. Too many titles to choose from.
Yep. I’m still solid on my plan of LBFH/CWON custom to start the new year with.
These 1:30 listens are pretty strong. I have definitely been getting recon at times. But it’s the kind of recon that is like smashing through the limiting belief. So I don’t know if I have a preference. But intellectually I do prefer the short loops because my mind has less to process and more time to manifest. I haven’t had any major results but I am aware that the results can be so natural that the most noticeable thing can, at times, be the recon.
I was focusing on building strength with pullups and dips and deadlifts. I was only doing isometric full strength holds at each of the 3 points, the start, the middle and the full extension point of the exercises since I can’t do reps yet. I have definitely noticed my strength increase over the last month.
I have been feeling worn down between working out and my jobs. This week I basically took the week off. Just focused on light cardio warm up and then The Mcgill Big 3 for the core and to keep my back healthy and pain free. Building up really slowly.
I don’t want to give up on the strength portion but it might be better for me to just find a body bulletproofing routine for healthy joints and mobility to build a base. I’d just focus on that for the winter and then try and build up that max strength. I also might move to easier progressions on the pullups and dips and do higher reps and slowly increase the difficulty with progression and lowering reps.
So I still haven’t dialed in my workout but by going for what I wanted it shows me what I really need to work on to get to where I want to be. I’m definitely approaching it with the slow and steady route because my job is physical and I like to stay healthy and fresh.
I was ready to update my custom to get the latest Spartan core but after hearing there’s a new Survival Instinct core on the way, now I’ve got to wait for that and just upgrade both cores in one go.
I lost one of my jobs, I was ghosted out of a job. I’m going too far with this ghosting business. I learned some lessons.
Maybe I needed to learn some tough lessons yet to gain clarity for me to really make the most out of any anti-manipulation scripting and finding the right people and opportunity scripting. I’m definitely grateful that I had this job for the last year. I’ve grown so much in the year, and that’s me noticing it in myself. I’m much more composed and even have had days with basically zero anxiety and I’m just in the moment doing my work.
I feel a resolve and I know things will work out, how or why I don’t know at this time. In a time like this I wish I was one of those people who can just force things and make a plan and bulldoze my way through it. That hasn’t gone well for me. What’s gone best for me is just being okay with not knowing. Doing my best to let go of any “negative” feelings, even the positive ones as well. From that formless source arises the solution and the best I can do is to get into alignment with that.
It has been a pattern that around my birthday I either don’t have a job or I’m starting a new job. I’m not sure what that’s about but if I had to guess it’s about freedom. Freedom to me is not being confined to a job anyway. This job I lost was 6 days a week and I’d have to find my own replacement if I needed time off. I’m sure having some time off will give me some rest and clarity, I still have a weekend job. They pay me no questions asked, I send them my invoice and the check is ready for me when I get there, hassle free.
Today I was out for a drive hoping to maybe get some clarity or that good idea to solve my situation. Well I didn’t get one, I don’t feel like I need one immediately anyway. I did notice that there were a few gorgeous, women like the kind you would assume are married to guys with good jobs and can pay all the bills and take vacations and all that. Well, a few of these women caught my attention when THEY looked at me, that’s why I noticed them. They made that eye contact. So there’s some appeal to me. I’m thinking it’s the LBFH and DRLD combo.
Which brings me to I just can’t give up on LBFH. In my situation I’d think Genesis would be great. Genesis and DRLD combo since my job situation is up in the air. I’m getting results from LBFH and certainly won’t give up my custom, I’m still thinking and feeling that I will finish out the year with my stack as is.
But it seems people have gotten some great insights and gains from even just one cycle with Genesis.
Update: I purchased Ascended Mogul. My new plan is to drop LBFH and DRLD from here forward. I will only listen to my custom and AM and Ascension Chamber to finish out the year.
I’ve been more tired this cycle. I think it’s because DRLD finally got through a layer and has gone deeper. Like I said sometimes I do get the good side of feeling really good, positive manifestations and feeling unlimited and open to more possibilities.
I’m having such a hard time deciding what to do for my next cycle. It seems there’s no choice so I will be bringing Ascended Mogul on board. Intellectually I think just my custom and AM for a cycle. But I still don’t want to give up LBFH or DRLD. At this point if I make the smart choice I’m keeping DRLD at 30 seconds only. It’ll just help me get through any AM limits and as much as I think I’m in for some more recon on AM, I just have to grin and bear it. The worst of it may be a cycle or two and there are always those good sides that come with the challenges.
But based on right now and the tiredness. I would just go with 2 titles next cycle. my custom and AM. Just to make it as smooth as possible and get a breather if that’s possible starting on a new title such as AM.
I’m rolling to the finish line of this cycle on E, but just the other day I was feeling like energy was freed up. If I think about it, I started the day feeling pretty great actually. Could also be that seasonal change into hibernation season, lol. So getting myself to workout has not been as easy as it has been.
Today was 1:30 of my custom. I have 2 listening days left in this cycle.
I’m just not having easy time with my next cycle. I don’t want to give up LBFH or DRLD and my custom is non-negotiable.
But I do feel like it’s time for me to get on to AM for 4 cycles. DRLD would probably boost the results but I think it would also boost the recon from AM. With LBFH I’m not sure, how that would play. I want to keep the positive benefits but at the same time DRLD and LBFH are both good for positive manifestations.
But it’s been 5 cycles with LBFH this round. So I can be okay without LBFH and reasses after a few cycles. I still have 4 cycles until I’ve made it to 12 cycles with my custom. I think at that point I’d be okay with rotating it possibly.
It still seems like a necessity for me to start AM. I just don’t want to give anything else up either.
1:30 of LBFH and DRLD this am.
Yesterday I went to a different store and people were smiling at me, even guys. I got things sorted out so I have my job for another month. I’ve a applied to a few jobs where i’d get paid more doing pretty much the same thing. Might have to work more hours but that just means more money. It might come at a cost to my working out though.
This week was kind of a deload week. I stuck with the absolute basics. I’m feeling sore and I did not even work out like I normally do in a week. Maybe I need to increase my calories on eating days. I do intermittent fasting also and keto.
I’m definitely coming to the end of this cycle pretty tired. I have one listening day and then it’s 5 days off.
I’m planning to stick to my stack as is once again. I just can’t give up on it yet because each time I read the objectives of my titles, I know I need to keep going. I’ve put in this much time and it’s better to keep going rather than start over on another title. I’m still in foundational mode and who knows it could take another year.
I just know I haven’t squeezed all the juice I can from my stack and I’m gonna keep going for it.
It finally hit me. Since I can’t get myself to give up my stack, as there’s no good reason to. I will just custom out LBFH and DRLD. I’ll just add those modules that I’ve been wanting to get on. So I can spice things up again and once I get customized I won’t want to switch!
Also I’ve been wanting to mention that I feel like I have storyteller in my stack somewhere. I don’t think I do. I have just noticed that I seem to be able to tell stories now and that used to be a limitation I thought I had. “I’m not good at telling stories.” So that story seems to have gotten wiped out or diminished pretty nicely. I always considered myself a writer more than a speaker but I feel like I’m better at verbal story now. I know my writing can use some cleaning up for sure, but it’s just not been a big priority.
I’ve decided to move forward on my next custom. I will have LBFH and DRLD as the cores so the only thing that changes in my stack is the customization of adding modules into the mix. Once again focused on my foundation. Definitely pinpointed to what is really necessary to get me to the next level of my personal evolution.
So I don’t know if the order is too big of a deal but here’s the list:
LBFH Core
DRLD Core
Depths of Love
Chosen of Venus
Love Without Attachment
Long Range Seduction
Rogue
Furious Ascent
Song of Joy
Stonelike
Inner Voice
Foundation
Eye of the Storm
Safety Net
You Are Not Alone
Lifeblood Fable
Solitude
Formless Clarity
Tyrant
Merger of Worlds
Today is my last listening day before the standard 5 days of no listening.
I haven’t listened yet. It’s always been my priority like as soon as I wake up I do my listens. But this last week I’ve been forgetting until late afternoon. But I’ve had things to do and it’s no big deal.
I wasn’t able to get myself to change any titles yet. I know I still have some touch ups to do. That will come with more time. I decided to custom LBFH and DRLD and just boost the power with some modules that I think will cover those areas I need some extra work on.
I still have some bad thought habits. I don’t identify with them but at the same time they’re not helpful besides teaching me that they really are just thoughts. I think Inner Voice (Edit: I meant to type Foundation, but it seems to be a nod from the other than conscious and Inner Voice might actually be a crucial piece for me) and Eye of The Storm will really help to do away with it. I also added Inner Voice to have a more positive and helpful inner voice instead. Plus feeling safe is still something I can work on. Rogue, Furious ascent will also help this goal to push me past any of those old habits, stories, limitations.
I still have a feeling like I want to do something. I want to get into action and make things happen, yet I just don’t know what. I had some insights about how just knowing what you want seems to be one of the main components. The how isn’t so important. My life experience tells me that when you’re clear on what you want the hows and the whys take care of themselves. Yea, you do the action but it’s not forced instead it’s from that insight or inspiration or intuition, even just common sense.
I’m feeling pretty tired yet. I think this could be DRLD. It’s not overwhelming and I take it as part of the process. I have to stick with it since I have the opportunity now and if I have to come to a period of action and work in the future, it won’t be a big deal because I’ll have gotten through the worst of the storms already.
I got my LBFH DRLD custom settled. Off to build. 
In 50 words or less, what do you want this custom to help you with?
My finalized list in order:
LBFH Core
Path of Forgiveness
Solitude
Foundation
Eye of The Storm
Stonelike
Formless Clarity
Lion IV
Inner Voice
Safety Net
You Are Not Alone
Lifeblood Fable
Song of Joy
Depths of Love
Chosen of Venus
Love Without Attachment
Long-Range Seduction
Tyrant
The Merger of Worlds
DRLD Core
I’m really excited about this one. It just adds those extra touches that I felt were lacking- Some last touch ups on my inner game and solidity, and extra boost for finding and forming solid, positive relationships with the “right” people for me.Also Tyrant and The Merger of Worlds to increase my awareness and ability to “manifest”.
I think it’s definitely based on things I liked about Chosen and Chosen from within but it’s more general than being about leadership and more focused on my “inner game” as I like to call it, with a touch of spirituality.
I know that Path of Forgiveness could be the single module responsible for some massive change. I consider myself a love and peace kind of guy, but lately I’ve been seeing that I have things I haven’t let go of. Things that could be considered repressed rage, of being wronged and having suppressed it. So I think this will be a huge leap forward for me.
I was really nervous yesterday. Today is day 3 of no listening. So I think I finally got through this round of recon. No major manifestations besides just feeling clearer and freer.
Still a little tired. I’m still not back to working out how I was a month ago. I’m still staying consistent by sticking to the very basics. I’m fine with it, I’m still getting my workouts in and my strength is increasing. It’s coming up to winter months so for now conditioning and athletic type training isn’t my main priority.
So I’ll just focus on strength and basic cardio and flexibility for this month. I’ll just take it slow and steady for awhile.
I applied for a job more hours and same kind of situation I already have. I didn’t even get an interview. I actually was kind of looking forward to getting that new job, but I’m also fine with staying put to finish out the year. Kind of in a holding pattern for now and my new custom really has me excited and I’m fine keeping my work situation as is until I get a chance to really dig in with my custom and open up some new doors for life and opportunity and adventure.
Tomorrow is my new cycle. Will be cycle 8 with my custom. I’m excited to get started again. I’ll also have my newest custom on board at some point. There’s a chance I might have to listen to LBFH and DRLD as store titles if my custom hasn’t been delivered by then.
I’ll be keeping my listening time at 1:30, that’s one minute thirty seconds.
I think my newest custom will help me unlock more of the potential of my original custom for sure.
Today was LBFH and DRLD store versions as my custom hasn’t arrived yet.
I haven’t noticed much so far. It’s only the second listening day of my new cycle.
I’m really looking forward to adding the LBFH/DRLD custom into the mix.
I have been able to pick up my workouts this week already. I’m still taking it slow and sticking to the basics to maintain consistency.
I did notice another change in my physique the other day. I’ve been back to basics bare minimum training for a few weeks. So it was a nice surprise to see even that has helped me make progress. It also helped motivate me to keep it up. I have not been able to do full rep chin ups or dips yet and my goal is to be able to do reps. So that’s what I do on Monday focused on pure strength one set. I even added in a set of single leg deadlifts for a total of 3 sets of pure strength on monday.
My new LBFH/DRLD custom has arrived!
I won’t get to listen to it until Saturday.
I made the mistake of reading some more wanted black reports. I just need to keep in mind that to end the last cycle I was getting increased smiles and attention from some attractive women.
Plus I’m planning on Ascended Mogul and PCC as my next title, whenever I feel like I’m ready for a change from my Survival Instinct/Spartan custom. I would rather focus on making that money and setting myself up to be able to have a more adventurous life in terms of traveling and having money for dates and whatever else I want. From what I’ve read, Ascended Mogul could tame my desires for dating, or at least put them on the backburner while I get that money.
When the new Survival Instinct core arrives it could make things tricky, I’ll update my custom and so I’ll have two new updated cores in that one.
PS: I’ve been noticing some resistance today. So I’m going to listen to my new custom at 30 seconds for this entire cycle and keep my SI/Spartan custom at 1:30. I’m not sure but I might just keep it at 30 seconds for the rest of the year to make it through the holidays with minimal recon and stress.
So far this cycle I’ve had some moments of crankiness but I almost can’t remember it!
My plan is to do 15 mins of my new custom for my first listen and then 30 seconds for the rest of the cycle. I’m buckling up for a possible rough ride but there’s also so much goodness that I’m taking the chance. My first listen of my new custom will be Saturday.