Today was 4 mins of Ascension Chamber.
I’ve been feeling pretty alright. I didn’t sink back into the feelings again like I thought was going to happen. 5 more days in this listening cycle. I’m pretty content to settle in for the long haul now.
I’ve had moments not days of feelings lately.
Today 4:30 min of my custom.
Later as the day went on I got into some anger. Nothing where I needed to vent or take it out on anything. I just did my usual and focused on my work, it’s physical and nothing much came of it.
It was the first time I really noticed same day recon. I think it used to happen like the day after or the next listening day. So I guess that could mean that things are moving faster with the shorter listening times maybe.
I just tried to talk to a family member. It seems to be they’re still focused on everything that’s wrong. I used to not know why I felt the way I did or why I had certain thoughts coming up around them. I always just avoided them since I’ve been an adult.
I was talking about how my dad had money right to a point, he was a great saver of money. He didn’t have the piece of investing though. Then the person I was coming back to hits back with well you can lose everything in investments, etc etc. After a brief discussion of how it’s our beliefs that run our personal shows or realities. We don’t even know they’re beliefs, to us it is that way, it is reality. It’s not a thought or belief!
So then I realized what was going on, I’m always planting seeds and I keep it to the simplest and most basic of concepts. Maybe hoping someday they’ll hear something that the outside world is not our happiness or misery and that’s why we get into trouble. The world seems to tend towards the unwanted while you can get yourself into the flow and really be happy and live the life you want, maybe you can’t direct how or why or when, but once you start to get it, you know it’s not about forcing it.
So anyway, I didn’t get mad. I just agreed and said yes, you’re right. Investing is not good. You shouldn’t do it. And they just agreed and remained in their kind of worn out tired victim state. So I came down to make this post and get in a quick sunday workout to get the blood flowing and get some of those feel good molecules or chemicals running through the system!
I did get to talk to a really pleasant guy today. Met this Canuck at the gas pump today and had a lil chit chat. So I am feeling better and the layers are getting peeled off, to use the cliche. lol.
I hope it’s okay for me to share but here’s a podcast that really lets me see a bit more clearly in the money dept. Dan Kennedy's Magnetic Marketing Podcast: Wealth Attraction Dos & Don'ts
I got ghosted by a sibling a few years back because I was really into listening to The Richest Man in Babylon and told him he should start saving. I guess I should have sent him the numbers of that compounding interest stuff, he was young enough to do what I wish I’d done in terms of that.
I’m pretty content now, in that I am not feeling bad about having the right people. Well when my goals become clearer I’m sure I’ll bump into the right people, that’s how it seems to go. In the meantime I focus on my health and fitness goals, staying consistent building strength and resiliency. To me it seems like that’s the easiest thing in my control and I like working out anyway.
Also I was at the grocery yesterday and noticed people once again starting to receive me very positively. I’ll attribute that to my inner vibe and continued work on staying relaxed and letting go as soon as I’m aware of things coming up. Plus I’m really not having as much attachment or aversion to things, it’s just I gotta go to the store, well I go. No getting in my head about it.
4:30 of LBFH and DRLD this am.
I’ve been feeling mostly good. Things aren’t getting to me. Kind of cool breezin’. I went to the store today and saw an old friend from school walking in as I was walking out. I said hey what’s up and just kept on moving. I was impressed with myself because there wasn’t any attachment but still some goodwill. I wasn’t out to impress or even in that kind of mindset. Just out doing some quick shopping. I think he was with his mom and he kinda looked like the life was worn out of him a bit. I know he’s got a few kids and all that.
He was somebody who saw me a few years back when I first had the audacity to walk around in the world with a feeling of love. He actually looked scared at that time and he quit the job like right away but he was somebody who couldn’t stick with a job for some reason, and believe it or not people some people seemed scared of me. This was before love bomb and I think it was shortly after when I discovered subliminal club. I went with Ascension Chamber and I got a $20 tip but a lot of people just hated my status, even though I was care free feeling love and really in that flow of spiritual kind of place. Eventually I got broken down by all the negative toxic treatment and judgement. I’ll never ever go back to that placed I worked, not for anything.
My family member that I live with has been on their habit of making me out to be wrong about everything. I know consciously they’re not doing it, it’s just bad habit. There’s some slight reaction but luckily I’m going to work and I can focus on my work for a couple hours. I won’t make the mistake of trying to talk with this person for a few hours.
I’d really like to test out some of these new modules like you are not alone, there’s one for being safe if you’re kind of on edge of societys beliefs or something. Looks interesting. I think it could be worth it to do a LBFH custom but I’d keep it minimal I think. Just 5 modules maybe. I’d be using it for at least 6 cycles but it’s a tough choice yet.
For some reason from my experience, the best titles for me have been LBFH and Chosen, the other best title was Primal Seduction Iron Throne. I would’ve thought that the more positive titles resonate better for me but PSIT throws some unknown into the mix. Not sure what it means.
Once again I’m leaning towards making a LBFH custom, single Core.
It’s interesting because I want to add in those solitude modules and also add in the transcendental connection and you are never alone type modules. As much as I love solitude there seems to be some healing I could benefit from there. Also will throw in the love without attachment and attachment destroyer. So I’ll probably end up with more than 5 modules when all is said and done.
I’ve got my custom ready. But I’ll have to purchase in batches. So it’s looking like it’ll be pushed to the new year. I’ll start the year with a new LBFH custom in the mix if all goes as planned.
In the meantime I just might alternate between Chosen and LBFH until then. Kind of an inside/outside rotation to keep things interesting.
I will chalk it up once again to recon. After reading through the objectives on LBFH and DRLD, it’s in my best interest to stay the course.
I was really considering switching out LBFH but again, I need to stick with it. It will benefit me more to stay with it as long as I can. I’ll plan to do 4 cycles with DRLD and everything as is before reconsidering. When the new Rebirth arrives I will try that and switch it with DRLD.
Listened to 5 mins of my custom. I’m feeling great. Life is beautiful. My 5 day break with no subs begins today.
I just took a scan through the Wanted Black thread again. I’m feeling kind of like some of that. I mean just happy and not out seeking, just more relaxed and at ease. I have been seeing beautiful ladies everywhere lately. Haven’t manifested any that I get to talk to yet. Also still lucky and finding great deals on things I want with very little effort, things just work out.
I think I’ve broken through a wall with LBFH. I was again feeling pretty good today. I went to the store and I was noticing some of those Chosen type effects on others, where they’d drop their inner resistance like they knew they were safe with me or something. I still noticed my own resistance and so I’m thinking Primal and LBFH would be a good custom for me. I don’t see myself giving up on DRLD or my custom anytime soon.
I am going to use the $50 rebuild option on my custom to get the latest updated version of Spartan. So that could potentially cover some of what I think Primal would give me and would hold me over.
Also I think Rebirth would be more beneficial for me at this point. Seems to be still some attachment to old stories,beliefs, but alas those could also be considered limitations and thus DRLD just needs some time to keep at it.
Well now I’m really leaning towards jumping in and getting Primal. I’m just coming off of 4 cycles with LBFH and I still want to just stay on my stack no change. But Primal is kind of calling to me. It seems like it would be the perfect time to get some of Primal’s calm and groundedness while at the same time working on some other issues from a more masculine perspective. Plus I’d get that bloom from LBFH.
Update: I purchased Primal. So I will be adding in Primal for four cycles. I’m actually considering to take a washout on my custom- I’ve done 6 cycles with it and I’m thinking take a cycle off of it. See what the bloom is like and come back for 6 more cycles with the updated Spartan core in the mix.
So that would give me one cycle to really get after Primal, LBFH, and DRLD.
I’m thinking a 10 day break before starting up again. Since I’m switching out my custom for at least one cycle with Primal. I’m kind of excited about it.
I got about 4-5 hours of sleep last night. I was just awake as normal all night. It’s starting to catch up with me now. So I’ll be having some pre-workout before work to keep me going. I’m not sure why I was up all night. That pretty much never happens where I’ll stay up the entire night like that. Sometimes when I get into ketosis after being on a break I can stay up later but not up all night.
Day 3 of my 5 day break. I had a little recon, very light. It also could have been staying up all night a couple nights ago- finally caught up to me.
I’ve decided that I’m going to stick with my stack as is. One more cycle will make it 4 cycles as is. Then I’m sure I’ll stay on LBFH because one more is 6, then I might be like well I’m this close to 6 cycles with DRLD what’s 2 more?
I just don’t want to drop my custom because of the modules I’ve got in there. That’s why I originally made it. I’m seeing some results and things seem to be just starting to get good.
I might even do Sanguine:The Elixir after four cycles of DRLD. But I really could benefit from Primal in helping me get clear on the dating/sex stuff. Then I’d want to do Heartsong. I think I still want that Sanguine: The Elixir before Wanted Black. At some point I think I still need to get to that stage 1 of EOG.
But I’m set on my stack as is for at least another cycle.
My plan for the next cycle is 3 minutes listening time for each listen on the first 7 days. Next 7 days will bump to 4 mins on all listens. And the final 7 days of the listening cycle will be 5 minute listens on all titles.
I want to spend more time with the shorter times instead of adding 30 seconds each listen. The less time to process due to shorter listening time seems like it could mean quicker manifestation. Or maybe I just start over at :30 seconds and just keep bumping 30 seconds up to 5 mins again.
I decided to stick with 3 mins of the custom for now. So today was 3 mins custom.
I plan to start at 30 seconds and increase 30 seconds each listen with my store titles- LBFH and DRLD.
Then I think I will finish out the cycle with everything at 3 mins. That’s what I’m thinking so far.
I do think LBFH is really changing me on subtle levels. So it’s just a matter of sticking with it as long as I can.
So I am happy with my stack and I think the wanting to change titles is just a form of recon, a resistance to the positive changes. So for now I’m back to the mindset of finishing out the year as is because it can only get better.
Update: I went to the store after posting. I was at the checkout just relaxing, nothing on my mind. Just noticing some things. I noticed some people with vibes that weren’t for me, noticed one guy staring at me for some reason. I just kept on relaxing no attachment or aversion. Then I notice somebody standing in line behind me. Finally I look and it’s a cute chick, we make eye contact and she’s definitely impressed with me. Like the kind of stuff I saw with Chosen. So the key really is non-reaction and non-attachment to outcomes.
today 30 seconds of LBFH and DRLD.
I’m thinking that my next custom might be foundational once again. Something that I’d ran 6-12 cycles. I think LBFH and Ascension would be good. Though I could always use that Mogul aspect as well with Ascended Mogul.
One of the places I work for hasn’t gotten back to me in like 3 weeks. Heard nothing from them. We had a deal where if they prepay me they could get a discount. They agreed and then ghosted. But I did get paid for my first month- I actually charged them double because when I took over as my own boss I didn’t know they were only getting charged for one hour instead of the two that I actually work. I was always getting paid for my time worked when I was working for someone else. No wonder they had a hard time paying me on time.
So my plan is to bill them on the first as usual but charge them one hour per day worked and give them a discount to makeup for the misunderstanding to start the month. Then after this charge them as normal with no discount. The discount they were getting from my boss was a pre-pay discount. They don’t pre-pay me there’s no discount. So there’s the potential that we could part ways depending on how the next two months with paying me goes.
I’m not excited about having to go back into a regular work situation. But I’m feeling good and more solid and secure. I certainly would walk away from any negative type of situation if there’s jealous judgemental types. I just won’t do it anymore.
I’ve come to the conclusion that Ascension is an absolute must for me and the next crucial step in my growth. I plan to customize LBFH and Ascension. I can’t give up LBFH and I’d like to give Ascension 6-12 cycles, so in my book it’s a no-brainer.
I think Ascension is an absolute must for me before even Genesis or Primal or anything else. Even before I’d go back to the Chosen line.
I’d like to have my custom ready to go once I reach 12 cycles of my current custom. I would then cycle the SI/Spartan custom on and off depending on what my goals are. I’d probably just rotate it on and off for the sake of maintenance.
Today is my friday loop of Ascension Chamber. I’m thinking I’ll just start at 30 seconds again and increase 30 seconds each listen.
3 mins of my custom and 30 seconds of my store titles LBFH and DRLD. I’ve only listened to those 1 time each so far in this cycle. It’s proving to be very potent. I’ve been having loads of dreams, no pun intended, this week already. It’s almost like when I first start a new title I notice the dreams pick up but they taper off.
I’m really on the side that shorter listening times means there is less to process so the results and manifestation come quicker. For me part of that might be dreams. I know I tend to get the trailer effect when I do 15 minutes with a new title but it kind of fades off. So that very well could be a sign that I’m getting backed up on processing. So I’m sticking to shorter times and am impressed.
P.S. I’m kind of remembering how weird some of the dreams that I remember were last night. Definitely getting some work in from that survival instinct/spartan custom. Battle type situations.
Today I listened to my SI/Spartan custom for 1:30-One minute, thirty seconds… I got a great mood boost. I think this is Joie De Vivre popping through for sure.
“Enjoying life, loving your ambitions, having fun working towards your goals, walking your journey with joy. It is a great gift in life. Joie de Vivre helps you achieve this gift.”
When I last listened at 3 mins I didn’t get a mood boost. Maybe got slightly moody if anything.
To end the night I’m getting some of that fierceness coming through. It’s bed time now. I think I’m going to stick to 1:30 of my custom for the rest of the cycle. I’m guessing The Boundary is in play. Probably in combo with Fenrir and Fearsome also.
I haven’t dialed in my supporting titles of LBFH and DRLD. Maybe I’ll stick to the same time of 1:30.
1 minute of LBFH and DRLD.
I’m starting to feel really good at times. Also there’s still some wanting to do something, not knowing what just yet. Like I want to be living and I think it’s just more of that unsettledness, wanting to be doing instead of being. So I would like something that gets me more in the flow, a quiet mind and in touch with the here and now.
I think LBFH would work on that with it’s tranquility scripting. So in actuality I tend to think that is just LBFH doing its work. I definitely need more time with it. That will also be helpful when the wanting to switch titles recon comes on again. lol. After typing that, that’s what it could be! The wanting to switch and this feeling that I’ve had come on from time to time, it’s sort of the same thing. Wanting to do something but not knowing what, like wanting to switch titles even though I haven’t mastered my current titles.
I definitely have a few modules in mind for my LBFH/Ascension custom for aiding in the spiritual contentment I guess. The Flow and The Sanctuary I think? and even the solitude module.
1:30 of my custom.
Lost of weird dreams lately. I don’t remember them all. Last night the one I kind of remember is the ex-oneitis situation I had. She was in like mcdonalds and was sitting across the way and I was sitting there by the window and I was naked from the waist down. So I didn’t want her to see me. ahahaha. I laugh because I kind of get what it’s about but doesn’t make sense yet. The unconscious junk. I have been feeling mostly at peace with the situation finally. It’s just kind of like having a sticky piece of paper stuck to your shoe and trying to shake it off kind of thing. Not quite over but mostly over so it really doesn’t make any difference at this point.
A little seeming financial pressure has been dropped into my lap. Nothing catastrophic but could lead to me tightening my belt in the lead up to tax time.
No ideas yet. Been kind of considering that maybe I would like to find a regular part time job for awhile to supplement my cleaning gigs. I don’t want anymore cleaning because that would mean I’d have to back off on my work outs, which is one of my favorite things. Towards the end of the week I sometimes take 3 days in a row off my workouts, just keep it to like loosening up and warm up type stuff.