So my Ascension Chamber run today seems to have activated yesterday’s 2:30 loop of my Custom. I was really in the flow physically and dialed in mentally - just a quiet mind pretty much. Second half of my workday I had more anxiety. The second half there are more people around coming and going and it’s in a high traffic area. Because there’s still some of that anxiety around people at times, I’m pretty set on my LBFH one core custom. It’s really aimed at getting me over the rest of my holdbacks. But I will probably be surprised the longer I run my stack as is with DRLD. So I am set on the custom but it’s on the backburner because I’d ideally like to go four cycles as is before changing anything.
I’m going to say at 2 listening days into this cycle and only making it to 2:30 I’m having some recon.
Today was listening day of LBFH and DRLD.
I think that’s just the nature of DRLD. I always held back from using it in the past and those were probably my limits speaking. So far it’s okay but I had a bout of anxiety for maybe two hours until I finally released on it. Then the mind stayed mostly quiet after that.
I will keep an eye on it. If it gets too intense I’d probably keep the listens to 3-5 minutes. But I think since I broke through this one, the incremental 30 seconds was a great idea. I’ll turn up to 3 mins on Monday my next day with my custom.
I’m considering switching back to Chosen for my next couple cycles. I don’t want to drop DRLD for at least 4 cycles and it’s been 4 cycles with LBFH. My custom stays for at least 12 cycles.
So my rotator slot may be LBFH and Chosen until I feel like I’m happy with DRLD results then I’d make my next custom.
Something coming up lately is that I’d like to meet the right people for me who stick around. Maybe it’s just life where you hit it off with people for awhile and then since you’re doing your inner work and development those people end up dropping off. But my LBFH custom is attractive for this reason, I’d like to add in the love without attachment and attachment destroyer modules.
I still wish I had more juice on Code of Loyalty Module in my custom. Inner Circle would probably boost this. But so might Chosen. I’d consider Chosen From Within but not with DRLD in my stack.
Heck, at this point I’ll keep Heartsong in the running. I felt like the healing will pay great dividends for me.
End of day update:
Lol. For all my feeling low about my people situations, I went into a sandwich place to pick up my order. As I was leaving I hear the one cute chick working say to the older one, I like him, and the older one agreed and said I do too! ahahaha.
Today was listening day- 3 mins of my SI/Spartan custom. I feel really light with it. I feel like I could probably stick to 15 minutes at this point.
DRLD seems to be pretty potent in that I’m guessing it to be the number one source of recon with LBFH. So that means it’s doing its job. The ride is a little bumpy and I expected that.
So I’m kind of settled in on my plan for the next cycle. Bring back chosen and add in Inner Circle. I will rotate that every 2 cycles I’m thinking with LBFH DRLD. My custom is the non-negotiable until I get to 12 cycles.
At that point I’d want to try out Wanted Black solo for a couple cycles.
Still in recon. It’s in the form of planning my next stack. I keep switching around, oh maybe I should go with Wanted again. Maybe Primal Seduction, lol.
I won’t take it too seriously as I have 2 weeks left in this cycle. Other than that I’m really tired today.
For me it’s safe to say that DRLD is the real deal. I’m probably going to keep it in my stack for four cycles in a row. So that leaves me with deciding on what to switch out LBFH for.
I’m really considering parking everything at 3 minutes to finish out the rest of this cycle.
I also still consider sticking with LBFH. If I get that self love nailed I think that will just open all the doors. I know I’ll go back to it if I switch it out at some point.
Plus I do think if I had the self-love nailed I wouldn’t have all this conflict about not having friends. So there is definitely some healing going on there and that’s why the recon in the form of wanting to switch titles thus switching up the focus.
After reading the objective of LBFH and DRLD I think it’s a no-brainer. Just stay the course and ride it on out. DRLD does have Attract allies and resources necessary for your journey, including mentors, friends, books, and opportunities.
The story for me has been that anxiety was my biggest limiter, along with lack of self love.
So the DRLD LBFH is proving to be a challenging but welcome ‘journey.’
Today I found myself with a much quiet mind after having had some recon and anxiety kick in. I kind of think it was the kind where your problems come to the surface to be dealt with. It was just nice to have some clarity and just quietness of mind and a sense of openness again.
I was so tired for most of the day but I did an easy workout and I think that really helped also. After that it was smooth sailing for me for the rest of the day/evening.
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First listen of LBFH and DRLD at 3 minutes this AM. Nothing to report yet. Smooth sailing.
I’m kind of thinking that my next title is going to be Rebirth. I am set on LBFH and I think Rebirth could really help me out after blowing through some limitations Rebirth will help me really break free from any unhelpful self-image. Since DRLD is pretty potent I’m fine with rotating that out with Rebirth.
3:30 of my custom and since it’s Friday, 3:30 of Ascension Chamber.
Got news that I’m taking a hit to my pocket book, at least from my current jobs. I became my own boss in order to continue with my pt gigs. It turns out that one of the jobs is getting cut pretty much in half in terms of what I was making when I had a boss and was a clock in employee.
So I’m patient and fine with it. I like the work. I’m just being patient and going to let DRLD work its magic, my whole stack really. I can handle for a couple months as is. I wasn’t too concerned with some of the objectives of DRLD in terms of having a vision etc. But that’s definitely going to help me out now. I’ll need to come up with something and create opportunity for myself moving forward.
Still feeling some of the tiredness since introducing DRLD into the mix. So the breakthrough hasn’t happened there just yet.
I have noticed the fierceness coming back. I think it’s the SI/Spartan custom where I’ve experienced that before but I noticed that it really is a fierceness towards my limitations. I think this is definitely DRLD influence. 
I think the recon peaked for me yesterday. I was a little crabby until I realized what was going on then I laughed about it. But I was still a little moody for the day. Things weren’t going as smoothly as usual but I was grateful that 99% it’s pretty smooth sailing with things. So nothing really got to me and I just did my work as normal.
I was wishing I’d had 6 cycles of PCC under my belt. I didn’t know ghosting in business was a thing but I’ve been getting ghosted about my payment. We reached an agreement and I was told I’d get paid the rest tomorrow and for going on 3 days I haven’t heard a thing from them now.
I also think my stack is working on these things. I do have 6 cycles of manipulus in my custom under my belt. I’m on cycle 2 of DRLD and that will boost that even more because one of the objectives is something about stopping being manipulated. So I’m being patient and just seeing how things unfold at this point. I know that my stack could be ironing things out and if I have to find something else in a couple months I think I could manage. That’s where I also wish I was on Inner Circle, but DRLD has a little bit of that and my custom too and LBFH, so I’m hoping in a couple months things will really be coming together.
this am was my first listen of lbfh and drld at 3:30. It’s been a smooth sailing day until this evening. Now I’m feeling a little sad. haha. I laugh because it’s a ride. At this point I know just staying the course is the best move but switching LBFH with something less healing is attractive. I’ve got chosen or cwon, but if it comes down to it I’d rotate with Chosen. I could do a 2 cycle rotation with LBFH and Chosen just to get a break from wringing out the stuff that LBFH gets to.
At this point Emperor is attractive as well. Business and more focused on my goals rather than socializing would be good for the winter.
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4 minutes of my custom today. Nothing to note so far.
I still think I might have to just ride it out with my stack as is for at least another cycle. I think LBFH is what I need more than anything and to have all the objectives nailed, will level me up further than anything else could.
I think this is where experience shines. It would be easy to switch to S&S and I’d still come back to LBFH. I think I’ll just use some will power and just stick with it.
I’m not having to deal with shit heads like I was. Now I’ve been noticing some interest or attraction from women. So I’ll take that as things are working and I’m still having feelings come up, which says things are being worked on. So it’s best to just stay the course once again and really go for it and maximize what I can gain from LBFH.
I think DRLD will have unexpected results for me in helping me to build and execute my vision. So I just need to give things more time and enjoy the successes also.
Yea the healing is at work. I’ve some long forgotten memories pop up occasionally. I forgot how shitty people could be and how they would go out of their way to complain about you and ruin your reputation without ever speaking to you. And if they did speak to you with lack of respect and you wouldn’t take that from them, they’d still complain to your boss like it’s their right to treat workers like shit.
I’ve had moments of realizing that yea, I’ve come a long way. An almost boring life now is something I’m happy with! If the things I’ve got to deal with are what they are, that’s nothing compared to some things I’ve had to deal with in the past.
I definitely still have to add PCC if I want to get back into being in a coworker or dealing with people environment. I just think it’s a necessity. Just based on how being a legit person who was based in love and just got metaphorically beat down and ran out of all my past jobs due to just negativity of others and not be willing to take that kind of treatment.
I might never get back into a normal work situation. I definitely want to be independent and that’s best for mental health and everything else, freedom. I will go back to Chosen and PCC at some point. Wanted Black just might surprise me though, I’m planning for a solo run next year after 12 cycles of my custom. In the meantime I will stay as is in my stack. It’s foundational.
I’m feeling better about things and more confident and just noticing more that yea, I’ve come a long way. I’m feeling appreciative about it, finally able to sort of let my hair down if you will. Not all the way there just yet but certainly having those moments.
Evening update: Now I’m having some anger come on. That kind where your mind replays an old situation and sometimes it gets to the point where I just say out loud what I should have said then. I guess I was a nice guy doormat. I thought I was keeping the peace, yet nobody would have put up with what I did, so why did I? I’ve always been a treat others how you want to be treated. Well I leave people alone, but I made the mistake of finding some happiness within and that triggered people. Maybe the world is different these days. We hear all the time of people waking up. I know in my personal world things are quieting down for sure.
Definitely some healing and revamping going on. Yea it’s best for me to stick through it. So I’ll just plan on the same stack for 6 more cycles.
End of day update: I’m feeling really good now. LBFH seems to be really coming through with the just good positive vibes for myself.
The rainbow after the rain. 
I just stayed present and my mind was pretty quiet while I was working. Everything just working perfectly.
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So after ending the night and starting today feeling really great, the healing cycle begins again. I’m feeling some slight sad feelings coming up. Some different memories. Nothing major, I was hoping that that LBFH goodness would last longer but now we’re just starting the cycle again! Which is fine because it just gets better and lasts longer the more that gets cleared or healed.
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Today was 4 mins of Ascension Chamber.
I’ve been feeling pretty alright. I didn’t sink back into the feelings again like I thought was going to happen. 5 more days in this listening cycle. I’m pretty content to settle in for the long haul now.
I’ve had moments not days of feelings lately.
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Today 4:30 min of my custom.
Later as the day went on I got into some anger. Nothing where I needed to vent or take it out on anything. I just did my usual and focused on my work, it’s physical and nothing much came of it.
It was the first time I really noticed same day recon. I think it used to happen like the day after or the next listening day. So I guess that could mean that things are moving faster with the shorter listening times maybe.
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I just tried to talk to a family member. It seems to be they’re still focused on everything that’s wrong. I used to not know why I felt the way I did or why I had certain thoughts coming up around them. I always just avoided them since I’ve been an adult.
I was talking about how my dad had money right to a point, he was a great saver of money. He didn’t have the piece of investing though. Then the person I was coming back to hits back with well you can lose everything in investments, etc etc. After a brief discussion of how it’s our beliefs that run our personal shows or realities. We don’t even know they’re beliefs, to us it is that way, it is reality. It’s not a thought or belief!
So then I realized what was going on, I’m always planting seeds and I keep it to the simplest and most basic of concepts. Maybe hoping someday they’ll hear something that the outside world is not our happiness or misery and that’s why we get into trouble. The world seems to tend towards the unwanted while you can get yourself into the flow and really be happy and live the life you want, maybe you can’t direct how or why or when, but once you start to get it, you know it’s not about forcing it.
So anyway, I didn’t get mad. I just agreed and said yes, you’re right. Investing is not good. You shouldn’t do it. And they just agreed and remained in their kind of worn out tired victim state. So I came down to make this post and get in a quick sunday workout to get the blood flowing and get some of those feel good molecules or chemicals running through the system!
I did get to talk to a really pleasant guy today. Met this Canuck at the gas pump today and had a lil chit chat. So I am feeling better and the layers are getting peeled off, to use the cliche. lol.
I hope it’s okay for me to share but here’s a podcast that really lets me see a bit more clearly in the money dept. Dan Kennedy's Magnetic Marketing Podcast: Wealth Attraction Dos & Don'ts
I got ghosted by a sibling a few years back because I was really into listening to The Richest Man in Babylon and told him he should start saving. I guess I should have sent him the numbers of that compounding interest stuff, he was young enough to do what I wish I’d done in terms of that.
I’m pretty content now, in that I am not feeling bad about having the right people. Well when my goals become clearer I’m sure I’ll bump into the right people, that’s how it seems to go. In the meantime I focus on my health and fitness goals, staying consistent building strength and resiliency. To me it seems like that’s the easiest thing in my control and I like working out anyway.
Also I was at the grocery yesterday and noticed people once again starting to receive me very positively. I’ll attribute that to my inner vibe and continued work on staying relaxed and letting go as soon as I’m aware of things coming up. Plus I’m really not having as much attachment or aversion to things, it’s just I gotta go to the store, well I go. No getting in my head about it.
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4:30 of LBFH and DRLD this am.
I’ve been feeling mostly good. Things aren’t getting to me. Kind of cool breezin’. I went to the store today and saw an old friend from school walking in as I was walking out. I said hey what’s up and just kept on moving. I was impressed with myself because there wasn’t any attachment but still some goodwill. I wasn’t out to impress or even in that kind of mindset. Just out doing some quick shopping. I think he was with his mom and he kinda looked like the life was worn out of him a bit. I know he’s got a few kids and all that.
He was somebody who saw me a few years back when I first had the audacity to walk around in the world with a feeling of love. He actually looked scared at that time and he quit the job like right away but he was somebody who couldn’t stick with a job for some reason, and believe it or not people some people seemed scared of me. This was before love bomb and I think it was shortly after when I discovered subliminal club. I went with Ascension Chamber and I got a $20 tip but a lot of people just hated my status, even though I was care free feeling love and really in that flow of spiritual kind of place. Eventually I got broken down by all the negative toxic treatment and judgement. I’ll never ever go back to that placed I worked, not for anything.
My family member that I live with has been on their habit of making me out to be wrong about everything. I know consciously they’re not doing it, it’s just bad habit. There’s some slight reaction but luckily I’m going to work and I can focus on my work for a couple hours. I won’t make the mistake of trying to talk with this person for a few hours.
I’d really like to test out some of these new modules like you are not alone, there’s one for being safe if you’re kind of on edge of societys beliefs or something. Looks interesting. I think it could be worth it to do a LBFH custom but I’d keep it minimal I think. Just 5 modules maybe. I’d be using it for at least 6 cycles but it’s a tough choice yet.
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For some reason from my experience, the best titles for me have been LBFH and Chosen, the other best title was Primal Seduction Iron Throne. I would’ve thought that the more positive titles resonate better for me but PSIT throws some unknown into the mix. Not sure what it means.
Once again I’m leaning towards making a LBFH custom, single Core.
It’s interesting because I want to add in those solitude modules and also add in the transcendental connection and you are never alone type modules. As much as I love solitude there seems to be some healing I could benefit from there. Also will throw in the love without attachment and attachment destroyer. So I’ll probably end up with more than 5 modules when all is said and done.
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I’ve got my custom ready. But I’ll have to purchase in batches. So it’s looking like it’ll be pushed to the new year. I’ll start the year with a new LBFH custom in the mix if all goes as planned.
In the meantime I just might alternate between Chosen and LBFH until then. Kind of an inside/outside rotation to keep things interesting.