Had some strange dream this night… except for a sexual one which is the norm lately.
My mood is quite good, energy not that much though.
I’ve not seen much in terms of attracion lately. But it’s also true that I’m in social situations pretty much only on the weekends.
I’ve noticed that while a week ego when looking at the mirror my mind went “I look awesome”, now the opposite is true, I find mylsef looking for defects etc…
Maybe some recon 
I woke up quite early and did some meditation.
The mood isn’t bad, but it’s quite “flat”. Yesterday there was a party to which I was invited but I preferred to stay at home.
Although in Primal and Wanted I don’t feel particularly inspired by being social.
I’m also struggling to keep myself clean from porn, I guess it’s due to my “blank” mood. I am still able to observe the thought of looking and let them go. They are definitely more frequent lately though.
While a few weeks ago there was a certainty that something was changing due to the two subs, now, as I said yesterday, I’m not so sure.
I woke up in quite a bit of anxiety.
Yesterday evening I was at a friend house for dinner. There was other people too and I felt out of place almost all the time.
Then this morning I started the day mulling over me not being good in these situation, but also about my work etc…
Then I did some meditation and the day got better. I did a various duties and now my mood is almost opposite than this morning.
I’ve also been able to really wind down and relax through out the day.
The mood is up again… yay!
Today felt good in my body, and relaxed attention throughout the day.
I’ve started waking up a bit early in the morning to be able to meditate a bit in the morning too.
This usually set up the tone of the day for me.
On the sexual side, not having a woman right now, I can just say that everytime I woke up during the night my friend is already very awake lol
Strangely I’m seeing much less interest from womans then I was seeing on the previous cycles? Maybe I was more alert before?
I woke up quite realxed and in good mood.
My sexual practices still going and I guess I’m getting a bit more sensitive to energy moving around my body when aroused.
Thoughts about porn are less then a week ago, and that’s good.
I’m currently not recognizing anything else that’s obviously coming from the two subs.
Lately I remember several dreams I have.
When I was younger it was normal for me, and often became lucid dreams. In recent years, however, this was not the case.
Now I’m remembering them quite easily, and in the last few days some are particularly strange.
I wonder if it’s because of this
This night after one of these I woke up and had a hard time getting back to sleep. I’m actually quite asleep today.
This afternoon I did some sexual practice and to my surprise I had no control over my arousal… maybe because I haven’t ejaculated for several days?
Soon after I felt frustration because I’m using two titles that should work on this, in particular Wanted.
Yesterday I saw my ex. As mentioned above, we have started seeing each other off and on over the last few months.
Most of the time it was for a simple chat or something to eat together.
Yesterday we went to a show because they had given her tickets.
After that we had to eat something together.
Anyway after the show we ended up talking about us he would like to try again in a relationship with me.
I started expressing all my doubts about it and his reaction was very emotional.
We ended up talking about it all night and it was exhausting… we skipped dinner entirely
For my part, I don’t have clear ideas, on the one hand I’m afraid of realizing over time that I’ve made a big mistake in letting her go. On the other hand, I have no illusions that past problems can recur.
Added to this is the doubt that he was wrong to continue seeing her.
I guess it’s good that some of the topics were discussed after all. But today my mood is pretty “blank” and I don’t know how to deal with the whole situation.
As an outsider, it is always difficult to contribute something, but I will try.
What are your feelings towards her? I think the strength of those feelings can determine whether it still makes sense or not. These interpersonal relationships are always the most difficult in life. I think we have all experienced something similar.
Probably a second meeting will bring even more clarity.
Yes, but I’m glad you write
That why I was still seeing her… I still have love for her and I guess I’ll always do, but unfortunately I don’t think that would suffice to start over again.
Actually we have already done this, and the second time we where together I was still trying to “adjust” things, while she was completely exausthed and we decided to end it there.
Thank you. I didn’t know if it was appropriate to comment.
Of course, these are not the best conditions and nobody knows if it will work out the third time.
Only you can decide how much strength it cost you and how much it gives you to be with her again.
I think ultimately the feelings will decide the whole thing. At least it has always been like that with me. Of course, it can also be the wrong way. What says your gut feeling? Often you are not wrong with it.
I’m not sure. I have strong contrasting views about the whole thing
I can well imagine that, but time will tell.
You always decide to the best of your knowledge and belief at a certain point in time. Whether it is right or wrong is always revealed later. That is the nature of things.
Good luck. 
Last day of this cycle, 4th of Primal, 2nd of Wanted.
I’ll probably wait till the end of washout (sunday) before doing the usal evaluation of the titles objectives, 'cause my mood isn’t so good now still, and right now doesn’t seem they are doing nothing.
Last night we spent some time with two girls, one of them seemed interested in me, we exchanged a few chats
Then later at the club I noticed other looks, nothing more. Honestly it wasn’t uncommon before either.
The last few days I don’t have a bad mood, I would call it contemplative. I didn’t have a craving for social situations etc.
I’m more driven to meditate instead, circulate sexual energy and those kind of practices.
However I push myself into situations where I can see the effect of the two titles, especially Wanted.
Tomorrow I’ll will update with subs objectives
Completed: 4th cycle of Primal, 2nd cycle of Wanted
Generate a sense of natural, very attractive dominance - 6/10
Enhance and improve your naturally charismatic attributes - 4/10
Romance manifestation — find yourself around women who are madly attracted to you - 2/10
Develop a highly sexual, sensual, sexy, carefree attitude with women - 3/10
Eradication of social anxiety and approach anxiety in particular (mental worry and anxiousness over every detail in the interaction) - 3/10
Experience complete nonchalance and enjoyment of everything you do, especially in social situations - 2/10
Eliminate all mental and emotional blockages preventing you from becoming a highly sexual, sensual and sexy man - 6/10
Develop a sense of relaxed optimism, knowing that all is well - 6/10, this one is lower then before
Enhance your ability to have fun and be a fun person - 4/10
Experience masterful automatic calibration in social situations - 2/10
Create a mental shield against any and all forms of perceived rejection — never feel sad after rejection, or let a past rejection prevent future romance / social attempts - Still don’t know ?/10
Easy kino and verbal escalation - 2/10
The uncanny ability to be physically and mentally completely relaxed at any moment - 5/10
Automatic passing of social testing - How can I know? ?/10
Extremely accurate social intuition and calibration - Maybe a bit better 3/10
Betterment of social status - 5/10
Develop an enigmatic aura of mystery around you that tantalizes, entrances and seduces others - 5/10 seems lowered now
Extensive physical shifting that is both guided by the most objectively attractive features your subconscious mind knows would look good on you, as well as your conscious guidance - ?/10, not noticing anything
Become the ultimate coquette — play the hot and cold game of seduction, making others swoon over you and desire you with all their heart - 2/10
Embrace paradox, imperfections and mysteries of human life without losing the strive for perfection — a quality that is of utmost attractiveness to all - 4/10
Use your personality, your life and who you truly are in the most attractive way possible, like an endless well of possibility that piques the interest of others - 1/10
Experience the nonchalance of a truly realized individual, one that has all the cards in their hands - Same as before, 4/10
Develop your desire for more sexuality, sensuality and romance, driving you to achieve more if you let it - 6/10 seems less then before
Attract and manifest romantic partners for the purposes of a monogamous relationship, or multiple sexual relationships - 5/10
Improve and enhance your seduction and sexual skills — perform better in bed, improved sexual stamina, overcome premature ejaculation - No, 1/10
Easily develop strong and assertive masculine body language and masculine voice - Seems less now 7/10
Easily develop assertive, strong masculine language skills and manner of speaking - Seems less now 8/10
Develop an extreme sense of internal power and strength - 6/10
Male sexual enhancement — increase penis size, erection strength and quality, staying power, etc - 5/10
General masculinity boost, including boosts in confidence, power, strength, invincibility, self-assuredness, and being comfortable in one’s own skin - 5/10 Feeling less confident
Relax into the sensual swirl of romance and seduction, become one with the dance of attraction - 3/10
So, basically I don’t see any of these improved, but some of them seems diminished 
I highlighted them by putting them in italics
If someone has suggestions, comments etc … I’m happy to hear
Interesting. I’d suggest maybe do a review of all the action you took for each cycle.
I’m not sure if I get what you mean, but…
If you mean if I did different actions between the various cycles, no they are more or less the same
I’ve been very thoughtful lately. The feeling of “everything will be fine” seems to have vanished, and I feel in doubt about my situation, financial, work, etc…
At the moment it doesn’t seem like a single thing in my life is falling into place.
I just keep going, no matter what life presents but there is this sense of but there is this mood of defiance towards life, God, the universe.
Yesterday I had something like a breakthrough during meditation. I have this shoulder pain from overtraining, I would say chronic.
During meditation I was finally able to surrender completely to the pain, merging my sense of self with it and then spreading it into the space around me, continuing to expand it to infinity.
My pain is gone from 80% to 20-30%.
My mood is a little better too today and I’m going to do what it takes to fix this shitty situation, little by little.
I still don’t notice much from the subs, but I’m not really focused on catching girls’ eyes or anything like that right now.
As mentioned above, I still don’t feel particularly social at the moment.
This is the 5th cycle of Primal, 3rd for Wanted. As suggested by @Samguy , I will consider adding Rebirth to the next ones to see if it makes any difference