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#181

Rest day.

Things have been going pretty good. I’ve enjoyed the working days, with all the progress I’ve been able to make. My last run of DR:LD was set to 1 minute, and it proved to be a good choice as it did not disrupt the flow of my day!

The last few days have been excellent for my social media page as well, since I’ve been able to work with a few businesses. My friends who I invited along were very thankful they could join! I’m also happy to see how far I’ve progressed in my social media hobby. Makes me think life is good.

DR:LD with its current settings has not been disruptive. However, I should say that I have only run two loops of it so far, with a third one tomorrow. It is much less dominating my life than DR—when I ran DR, a lot of my life was dedicated around healing. Here DR:LD is able to slot in while I can continue to go through enjoying life!

#182

Profound. Would you be willing to enter this as part of a product review on the DR:LD page?

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#183

Potentially, however I must run it for an extended period of time before I can review the product. While DR:LD has been able to run without disrupting my day, I am unable to comment as to what exactly it’s healed (if anything). That’s tough, because my successful healing runs in the past have dealt with things that were very much in my face, so the healing of such showed itself as strongly.

Here I can say DR:LD worked if I get what I’m looking for from TW. However, would TW have worked if DR:LD wasn’t a part of my stack? Probably, given the powerful nature of QTKS and the healing intrinsic in any ZP script. Is DR:LD enabling the process to happen more quickly? From my understanding of that title, a successful run of it should enable such however I currently do not have a way to assess that mainly since we’re early in its run.

Perhaps the one indicator of it doing something was around myself revisiting racial preferences in dating (as part of the multicultural society I am in) and me reconsidering whether I’d date people of certain races. I opened up what I’d consider, understanding that the circumstances in which my preferences first formed do not universally apply and that in certain environments it’s more likely for me to meet the right people who are from those newly reconsidered races.

Another potential indicator is me re-examining the way I view dating apps and how I may want to change those perspectives in order to get myself to use them often. I recognized through one of my conversations recently that the rather cavalier attitude I (and some of my friends old) about such apps are likely not conducive to their daily use—how can I show up every day to use the apps, much less study how to master them (“online game”) if I am holding opinions that would make me not want to use such apps? While they are not the perfect pathway to meeting people, they are certainly an avenue that some people (including a few I know) have had success through and there’s an entire resource I have access to that’d help me be much better at them, should I invest time in that resource. I can revise my own beliefs to improve my own usage of the apps.

Anyway, tomorrow i will be running TW, DR:LD and AsCh all together and I am curious to see what transpires. Perhaps I will also throw in a loop of UpX at 3 mins and test the shorter duration to see what happens, too.

#184

Listened:

  • TW (30s)
  • DR:LD (1 min)
  • UpX (3 min)

I want to journal more often. I recall the days of the mid-pandemic when I’d be journaling every day. It was especially useful back then, when I had a lot of time to introspect and I needed to process everything Dragon Reborn was taking me through.

Right now, the things being healed are much more subtle. DR:LD is certainly doing something to make TW work better (and UpX too, but it was already working so well so I can’t say much there—and honestly, UpX has made all my working days better) but it is hard to articulate precisely what unless I write it all out.

I am currently living in a great era of peace. On Sunday a good friend advised me to look more closely at what I’ve been writing about to see if I can spot trends in what is enabling this. Certainly my current stack has something to do with it, seeing as TW itself is reshaping my self-image and DR:LD is removing even more blocks. A brief look at the successes of today:

  • A fairly productive workday. I got a decent amount of engineering done despite it being a meeting-heavy day. Additionally, I formulated several ways for us to redo a certain product so that we target it better towards the key objectives we’d like to attain. I’m more confident now that we can achieve alignment with key stakeholders on my team so that our next version of it is impactful. My guess is that UpX is helping me developing this kind of thinking even though the title is stated to be around coding. There’s a cognitive boost at play.
  • I was able to attend another event related to my social media business because I discovered a last-minute invite from a group chat I’m a part of but check fairly infrequently. Good for me, I got to meet some new people who are a part of the same interest and learn a few things about how they got to progress in that field. Event itself was awesome, too.

I overall say I enjoy my life, though I occasionally wonder if things like pmo (which has been on the decline, not that motivated for it) may mask certain feelings. Simultaneously, though, those seem to have not gotten in the way of progress being made by the subs. But the main angle I want to take is that when I perceive my life as a happy one, I imagine all sorts of things…but not some of the vices that I may engage in. To me, that suggests that I could just drop those things altogether and it wouldn’t be an issue. So I should just do that, especially since dropping them can bring their own benefits. The obvious benefit is more time, and my energy won’t fluctuate as much (yes, I feel my subs improve that a bit already, but I should do whatever I can to help)! There are a lot of other benefits I have written about, I just need to make sure that I properly place my attention on those so I stand firm in the avoidance of the vices I have in mind. So I set the intention to change my focus here.

Anyway, an interesting moment came up earlier when I heard from my parents about my friend’s recent engagement. I’d seen it before, so that’s not news. I got messaging that at this point isn’t that new. Mainly comments from them (and relayed comments from others around) about how “I’m next” :joy:. Truly not news, there are a few times this year and a time late last year where such comments came up. Of course they suggested that I will find someone who will be right for me.

I believe so too, but it may not be in the way they think :joy:. I already know that their parameters would be different from mine. Though there is that one person from the community that I was considering inviting to one of my events, that’s more just to be friends. I do not have expectations for more than that. While I do find her attractive, I am unsure as to whether there’s the basis for a long-term relationship. Not to mention, I may be on the opposite side of the country before such a thing can form (no long-distance, sorry).

Let’s talk about that move. I’m facing it, the desire is now getting stronger because I do think a change in environment has large potential to bring about change in me because I’ve never lived outside of this area. While I am enjoying this time of peace—a time that has gone on pretty long (over two months now), I know that the only constant in life is change. If in some magical scenario this time of peace continues in its magnitude and strength all the way to the time I’d move, the trip itself becomes the factor of change. However, I think even if it continued as is to that time, I’d still want to move. I’m just hanging out at this “local maximum” in my life and letting things come to me. However, eventually the time and desire for adventure and new experiences will arrive. I’m so grateful that I have a friend who is willing to move all the way there with me, as (among many things) I feel secure in knowing that I can do a move and not have to be in a new place alone, all by myself.

I enjoyed journaling this time and I feel there’s more to uncover should I give myself the time and space more often.

#185

I want to do a crazy experiment tomorrow. Run TW, DR:LD and AsCh at their full durations, then take a week-long break from subs.

#186

I did this today and surprisingly I have no obvious recon (by pre-QTKS standards).

#187

Would you look at that! I’m back from yet another adventure, and today also marks the last day of my washout. It will have been 8 days since I ran any subs, where my last listen was:

  • TW (15 min)
  • DR:LD (15 min)
  • AsCh (7 min)

You got that right! I ran the titles at their full duration before doing this long washout to see what would happen. At the very least, I can say I dealt with no serious recon—I can thank QTKS technology in TW with that one. Anyway, so what happened? I was out on a trip during most of that time frame. I went back to the same city I did my last trip in, now for work-related reasons. I was getting lots of encouragement to move to that city (I was already considering it and shared that idea with my coworkers) and some of them thought it was a good idea. Some of them were even considering moving there!

Now, I didn’t exactly put myself in situations where TW would shine a lot (e.g. in nightlife). Just hung out with either coworkers or with friends who live in the city during that trip. Did get to meet some friends of friends, so that was nice. And I got more comfortable with the idea of moving.

What prompted today’s entry is the thread on the advanced social sub. Right now I could benefit from such a sub. However, in my move to a new city where I would know few people, I’d definitely benefit from it. A focus on that drive to be outgoing, knowing concrete social skills and putting them into action and truly developing social success is something I’ve been progressing towards for years now. I want all social interactions to be effortlessly successful!

It seems that SC is working on an upgraded True Social that is much more advanced!

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#188

I Wish I Could Say

I wish I could share the following with certain people. I simply can’t tell them due to what it entails—a big shift in my life, my location, and my choices.

…

I’ve had a lot of challenges. More than most people around me know. The members of SC and especially of the readers of my journals know that I’ve had a fair bit of inner turmoil throughout the past few years. However, I’d say that’s an understatement. I’ve had such turmoil throughout my entire life. I’ve been searching so long for inner peace, for lasting happiness. To truly know my place in the world and then to achieve it. In this tumultuous world, I’ve looked within to understand my identity and my capability for change. To see to it that I can fully come to terms with my past and then move forward to accomplish my goals and fill in the gaps. In a way, to catch up to other people on things some might say I “should have had long by now.” For today, one of those key things is a relationship.

But look, that was on the back burner for a long time as I focused on accomplishments in other areas, such as my career. Did that tradeoff result in massive success? Yes, I do think so. It’s worked out for me in the domains that I’ve focused on. The ones I truly believed I had to do something about.

I could go on about this, but the fact remains that I’m currently not in a relationship…and I’m not actively looking right now either. Sure I have one of the apps on my phone, but I just haven’t been diligent about it. That I could change by starting to consciously build the habit of using it so that when I do become serious I have the base behavior ready to go—I could even start doing that tomorrow, because I wouldn’t mind having some fun ( :stuck_out_tongue: ) but it wouldn’t be for a serious LTR which I’d say is the end goal. Anyways, all of this begs the question, why is this the case?

I started this year with a rather aggressive stack and the attitude that I’d be going out all the time. The idea is that through various events and trying to be as social as possible I’d meet people and also find someone (rough of a challenge that can be for some people). Closer to the middle of the year I even got some high-quality photos that could help me out immensely on the apps. My career is going well, my desired side interest became much bigger this year, I took my fitness to new heights and I’ve gotten closer to a fair amount of new people.

And of course, I defeated the 20-year-long issue that had resided within me for so long. I call it a type of burden. Some might say it was a trauma. I sometimes hesitate to call it as such out of concern doing so trivializes others’ traumas or that it is a way for me to play the victim game. Whatever its accurate term is, it had been a part of my life and I thought it was going to be a part of me forever. I am already so old, I thought. How can it change at this point? But it did, and I truly have to thank Dragon Reborn for that one.

The conclusion of that issue and the brief one that occurred in the summer is what’s led to the current era (starting around August): the era of inner peace. That inner peace I was looking for so long has been here for the past few months. The current state I’m in where nearly everything is better than ever before—especially internally—is what I want to enjoy. I want to stop and smell the roses for a while. I truly wish to enjoy this peace, this happiness. I want to let all the goodness roll in. In this era of peace, I’ve seen great career advancements, and my social media interest risen to new heights. I go about my days enjoying the time I have to myself and with my friends. I’ve enjoyed all the travels. This state I’m in is so good and I want to cherish it. I don’t want to disturb this peace by now trying to look for a relationship in a region that is infamously busted when it comes to dating. I want to enjoy what I have right now.

What’s left for me is the cultivation of my character, of a proper relationship. I have wondered for quite some time about the idea of moving out of this area I’ve lived in my entire life. And now, I’ve decided that next year I will move to THAT city. It makes even less sense for me to try looking for an LTR here, save for the (relatively uncommon) case where I find one where the other person is willing to move to that other city with me.

The only constant in life is change. This time period of enjoying all the blessings I have in life will transition into a new one at some point. Certainly, the move will be a forcing function for that as I go into a new city with few people and with social/romantic goals in mind. There will come a point where the internal motivation will rise up again to drive me towards a relationship, and I’ll actively look again. Right now, however, I am in such a great time period of life that I must enjoy, and that I want to cherish. I want to remember my final days of living in this area with great positivity, not with sadness or in recollection of failed efforts to give myself an excuse not to move out of the area. I have looked for the state of happiness and here it is.

So until then…allow me to enjoy the peace.

What’s Next?

Yeah, that was a lot. Even more is coming up, though it’s a personal improvement project. I’ll be embarking on a water fast once again to deal with weight and some odd health issues. I’m really looking forward to seeing how that goes given the frame I’ve built up throughout this year with weightlifting! I’ve mastered the skill of water fasting already so this shouldn’t be an issue. It’s that I have to deal with several things during it:

  • Subliminal runs: I’ll still run something. Tomorrow, I will do my final loop of TW, UpX, and AsCh at their full durations then take a break from them during the fast. During the fast, I’ll be running short loops of DR:LD; while my body undergoes profound physical change during the fast I’ll jog the brain only a bit as far as subs go.
  • Trip planning. I have a fantastic trip next year that needs a lot of logistics figured out. Additionally, there are a few things I need to do for my next trip which is…less than a month away :joy: Yeah, A LOT of trips going on.

I’m very excited for the fast as I intend to lose a lot of fat and bring out more of the goodness that Wanted Black (in my custom) has been scripting into me. I also wonder how it’ll affect my brain and whether it’ll allow me to process subs and do mental healing better moving forward.

Silent readers, I wonder what your thoughts are on all this! :slight_smile:

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#189

Ran the new WB (“Wanted Black November 2023 ZP”) today at 5 minutes, no recon. I guess the QTKS custom changed the way I process things.

My plan on Saturday: SSX, WB, and AsCh all at their max durations, then take a relatively long break.

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#190

No recon from the above run. Though I wonder if my drive changed as a result of it, there are too many factors going on for me to tell.

I’m thinking I can run one more loop of SSX and WB at full durations tomorrow, then do a two-week washout.

#191

Just finished this run. Honestly SC has really done themselves well. I got no recon from doing these full duration runs. @Forum_Ambassadors

Now let’s see what occurs with two weeks of processing.

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#192

Hey everyone, today marks my first time listening since the last run. I was out of country within those two weeks and visiting relatives, so I didn’t expect much to happen in the way of the subs I ran. I did try using the apps while abroad and would get matches and some short convos out of them, but ultimately stuff didn’t go anywhere. That’s fine since my trip wasn’t about that stuff—it was focused on visiting family.

So now I have listened to (all at full duration):

  • WB
  • UpX
  • SSX

Minimal recon from these, thanks to NSE. However I wonder if my sex drive was affected at all by it… Anyway, today was a slow day as I adjusted to the usual working day. I did visit the doctor to get ready for a future trip, although I unfortunately needed to reschedule some shots to another time. That irks me since it gets closer to the expiration of the current insurance plan by which I can visit said doctor. I better be sure not to mess that one up.

Anyway, I’m going to continue on with the selection of titles as is. Though, with the next run I’ll drop everything down to 30s and work my way up to a good run time (likely 5 mins or less).

#193

This new title, PHOENIX (reworked Rebirth), has got me confused on what to do next. Were I to slot it into my stack, it’d replace UpX. Replacing UpX is OK given we’re in the last month and the programming-related items are fairly clear to me. I also know that subliminals stay in my system for a while, since we have word from Saint that subliminal processing can last several weeks. So the new stack hypothetically is:

  • Phoenix
  • SSX
  • WB

I want to experience a profound transformation in my stack’s romantic elements, so I’ve been waiting for an updated Rebirth. Now, would switching to Phoneix get in the way of the following?

  • Launching everything I need to launch at work by the deadline (end of next week)
  • Being productive in my additional work item after launches through end of the month
  • Being able to have a compensation-related discussion with a higher-up (even as-is, the conversation is not necessarily guaranteed to result in anything—it’s just that I want to try)
  • Having good hangouts with people
  • Avoiding pmo (relatively infrequent nowadays, also doesn’t affect me much though it annoys me in its time wasting)
  • Making I overall maintain my happiness in these months (Dec-Jan)

Well, items 1 and 2 feature items which to me are fairly clear so I don’t think UpX is needed there. In fact, item 1’s path may already be outlined. Item 2 is clear to me since it involves a specific framework that I’m the author of, so I don’t think UpX is needed for cognitive functions. As to item 3, I plan to converse a little over a week from now. The run of UpX I did would still be processing then. It might actually benefit me to run Phoenix since it removes limiting beliefs. Items 4 and 5 benefit from Phoenix’s work on releasing constraints and fostering of nurturing environments. Item 6 can be worked on through Phoenix as well.

It seems to be a matter of ensuring I pick a reasonable runtime to begin with, and then gradually ramping up. I’ve noticed that with the NSE my tolerance for loops is much higher. After all, I ran the previous day’s subs at full duration.

My options for tomorrow’s run are:

  • Option 0: Stick with the current stack.
  • Option 1: Run Phoenix Solo for full duration
  • Option 2: Run new Phoenix stack at 1-3 mins per sub.

What to pick, @Forum_Ambassadors!

I should drop AsCh from my stack temporarily due to the changes that are going on in it.

#194

Someone had asked Fire a similar question and he said to run Dragon Reborn: Phoenix by itself for a while before adding it to your stack.

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#195

@Lion, that comment motivated this option! wonder if “a while” could be just a week. I have a lot of events with great food coming up, perhaps such could be noteworthy counters to any recon.

#196

In that case, it is better to postpone running Dragon Reborn: Phoenix to after the New Year.

#197

Ah, figures this is what I’d have to do. Thanks for the advice! Continuing with the usual stack.

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#198

I figured out what’s going on with SSX. Although I don’t experience the classic recon symptoms, I’ve kept on pmo’ing since I started my recent runs. I can certainly say it’s not because I was missing it or aching for it over the past two weeks while on vacation (never even thought about the stuff!). This must be because of my runs of SSX increasing my drive. It seems other people on the forum have reported something similar, too.

So I’m going to knock down the duration of SSX to 30s (already ran it for 1 min earlier today) until this particular issue improves. Ideally I can run SSX at 30s without feeling like I have to engage in the aforementioned activity before I move up to 1 min.

#199

Listened:

  • WB (30s)
  • SSX (30s)
  • UpX (30s)

A much more tolerable dose. My drive didn’t shoot up like crazy this time. Certainly it didn’t distract me from the things I needed to do today. Not that it was very much—the day was focused around planning for my long vacation, so I hung out with a longtime friend for most of the day. Got to enjoy good food, too. Speaking of which, I hope Wanted Black can raise my metabolism to the point where I do not get fat from all the awesome food I eat. That, and keep my motivation up for exercising daily. (I was already lifting 6x/week, now I am adding in cardio 7x/week—keep in mind, I very loosely did cardio a few days a week in the past). It’s become a necessity for me to be very active.

I need to get going with certain hobbies and with planning out my trip more aggresively.

Changes coming to Stack

My next run will feature UpX turned up to 7 mins, WB at 1 min and SSX at 30s. From previous journal entries I recall UpX and WB worked fine at such durations.

In January I’m going to run Rebirth solo for a bit, before stacking it with WB and SSX.

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#200

Listened:

  • UpX (7 min)
  • WB (1 min)
  • SSX (30s)

Hmm. I may need to knock down SSX to 10s, the lowest possible dose.

Update: may just drop SSX for a bit instead

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