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#167

Listened:

  • Truly Wanted (30s)
  • Ultimate Programmer X (3 min)

Deferred to end of day (not listened yet):

  • Revelation of Dreams (1 min)

So I switched it up a bit. I shorted the duration of UpX to see if it’d help, given the interesting boost I have gotten in running TW for much less time. I also deferred running RoD to until I’m close to bedtime, so I am not dealing with that scripting during the day.

Observations:

  • Again, primarily women in the gym during my morning lift.
  • I complete my lift considerably faster than usual, especially given the morning time. However, I was also motivated by the fact that I woke up later than usual and I wanted to start working soon!
  • Programming activity was pretty limited today given what I had to do at work. However, when I did get the opportunity I found myself really getting into it, getting focused and excited to work on my favorite part of the job. I know for a fact my odd start time for work, along with the work-from-home environment and the evening event slightly shortening my workday contributed to the relative productivity. But I will say that even in the non-programming stuff I did today, I handled it gracefully.
  • I do not find that my releasing my sexual energy by myself is a problem energetically during the day, or even with regards to a good deal of my results (it seems my energetic body recovers too quickly for me to see much of the old downsides). My voice is doing pretty good right now, for example. However, it is annoying because it wastes time and doesn’t provide much benefit. I intend to cut it out. Best way to do that is to keep looking towards the benefits of holding onto that energy, of the lifestyle where I have complete abstinence from that (and instead have a life full of fun times with women :wink: ).

In the evening I got to do something fun for my hobby and brought a friend to join me. He brought his girlfriend who I had not met before and we got along well (I attribute Truly Wanted and me not caring much about trying to be attractive—though be friendly—to this result). It turned out she had the same hobby as me so the conversation amongst us for the evening was pretty good! Especially so, when I explained the origins of that hobby (it gets fairly personal and deep in ways people wouldn’t expect for what is typically seen as a lighthearted and fun thing).

It was a notable moment for me because I got to share this story once more. It reflects a fairly significant time period in my life. I’ve shared it one other time this year—and that was seven months ago now (I even remember the date because this journal entry mentioned the “good lunch hangout with a friend” where I shared that story). Both of them remarked on how introspective I can be, and how I have a truly unique perspective they haven’t heard before. She appreciated being able to hear the story, especially in light of a similar challenge she had in the past that was related to the same hobby. What’s interesting is that my guy friend has known me for sometime yet had not heard of this origin story until today.

He remarked how it’s interesting when one realizes that there are other people who have all sorts of struggles and challenges happen behind them, and it’s not apparent most of the time because it’s not shared.

It made me remember that I’ve had a lot happen over the past several years to get to where I am today. Very appreciate of myself.

#168

Rest day.

Pretty good day, although work is relentless. Tomorrow’s a listening day and I hope to enjoy the results!

#169

Rest day.

Just checking in today, to keep up the momentum. It’s a fairly lazy day—main point of interest was exploring a town that’s in my area. I hadn’t been there before and its downtown seemed cool, so I visited with a friend. Not much in the way of my subs today, although there was a girl at the gym who I wondered about. It’s a girl I approached in the past (near the beginning of this year) but haven’t talked to since as she had seemed uninterested. To be honest, I’m not that interested in doing anything there unless she talks to me first.

My wishes:

  • AsCh gets updated to ZPv2 MAX.
  • We hear about what will make ZPv3 different from ZPv2.
  • More details on the financial title that’s being worked on
  • My stomach gets back to normal (bad bloating as of late)
  • I get a massive raise :joy:
#170

Listened:

  • TW (1 min)
  • UpX (3 min)
  • RoD (30s)
  • AsCh (3 min 30s)

The highlights of today:

  • I got many hours of sleep thanks to a sleep supplement I took the previous night. It’s the same supplement I got off of early this year. I bought it with some caution to use on weekends and perhaps on Wednesdays (the day of my most intense workout, so I’d like the best recovery).
  • I restarted my dermaneedling routine for my face. I had been doing it every week for sometime to grow my beard, however it dropped off during the summer. With how empty today was, I decided it was time to try again.

To think about:

  • I was not very talkative today. It was interesting to observe this. We’re coming up on nearly three weeks since the end of that trip and it appears I’ve settled into a state where I am not seeking to be so social. However, I look back at my previous entries recently and realize that I am looking too much at how today has gone specifically.

My wish: to be a more naturally talkative and social being. To be one who is very well cultured and knowledgeable about all sorts of things that let me relate to others. To have friends be reaching out to me and taking me on new adventures. To overall be more motivated when it comes to my adventures.

Takeaways:

  • I am going to settle on running TW for 30s for a bit. This gives me more observable results than at 1 min.
  • I need to start setting limits on my working time. While it has been helpful and sometimes necessary to stay late at work over the past few weeks, it has not given me the room to keep progressing outside of work. For one, I need to book accommodations for my big trip in the future.
#171

Listened:

  • TW (30s)
  • UpX (5 min)

Deferred: RoD (30s)

Running TW at 30s, I definitely see cool results. It was evident in the behavior of those around me at work today. People being more receptive to my thoughts and ideas, and I feel like I can talk more openly. Synergizes well with UpX given my job function. No problems with running UpX at 5 minutes, it’s a great sub that helps me be quite productive!

However, I wish there was a way for me to figure out when would be a good time to move up in duration from 30s to 1 min for TW. My last two runs of TW at 1 min weren’t that interesting, so I moved back down.

So far, the least interesting part of my stack has been RoD. Based off of my sleep analytics I cannot say I am satisfied with my run of RoD so far. In fact, I have considered dropping it from my stack.

So I call upon a few people to help me pick out a third sub that could play nicely with the rest of my stack. What could I be looking for? Well, my main painpoint right now is “not being into game” when it comes to women. I see all these materials about online game when it comes to the apps, and even potential bootcamps/etc for the in-person interactions. I am of course running my QTKS custom Truly Wanted (Wanted Black + IC as cores) to make myself more attractive, and did put in quite a bit of verbal scripting.

However, it has not quite made me the person who goes up to women and start flirting with them. I do see that this is a design of WB.

The beauty of Wanted Black lies in its simplicity – you just have to be yourself. There’s no need to put on a facade or engage in elaborate performances. It amplifies your innate qualities, infusing your persona with a mysterious edge that commands attention.

Still I wonder, am I really going to achieve the success I am looking for while I am just myself and letting my custom take me on the ride? As powerful as my custom is designed to be, I genuinely wonder sometimes if I should have something else in my stack. It is not like I have had those amazing results with women like the people who report on the main Wanted Black thread. The weird part is, I am not even worried about it. I do know I give myself all sorts of reasons for my current situation, such as:

  • I live in an area that has more guys than girls
  • Girls I meet often tend to be in relationships
  • My current lifestyle (e.g. after work, on the weekends) is not that conducive to meeting completely new people.
  • Due to the idiosyncracies of the sub-community I’m in, considering people from there is not a good idea (even if I do know them to be single). I will say that as I write this, there is one person whom I wish to know better—but only if it happens in an organic matter (while we may be connected on social media I would not say that we are even friends right now).

FYI: I started running Truly Wanted in Mid-August.

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#172

Listened:

  • TW (30s)
  • UpX (5 min)
  • RoD (1 min)

So far, TW @ 30s seems to be the sweet spot as far as duration. I notice some result from it each time. Today I got a number from someone off the apps, though it was in response to an ultimatum-type text I sent a few days ago. It’s kind of interesting since it’s been a few weeks since we matched yet no conversation has happened. People at work continue to be receptive and I’m enjoying that.

It makes me think that I’ve got to get myself to go out there and be more social. I am starting to think that perhaps my third sub in the stack should be something related to a social goal! While I have been enjoying all this time I’ve had to myself lately, I should at the least hang out with my friends more! The fire in the belly for it just hasn’t been there. Is Wanted Black making me passive? I don’t think so, but it may have gotten me to focus on the things I already like!

One clear result: Businesses have been reaching out to me or have been receptive to me reaching out for collaborations. In fact, there are currently 4 that I am planning for (it’s the highest I’ve had to concurrently plan for in the entire page’s history). This to me is an indication that my custom, particularly with “The Spotlight” module is working! That module must be boosting my social media adventures.

As usual, I am not quite sure what to think of RoD. Perhaps what I can do is with my “new parameters” test (see below) I can remove RoD from my stack for a week and see if my sleep changes. If it stays the same, that suggests RoD wasn’t helping much and I can move on from it.

What’s Next?

Well, my next run is on Saturday. This is where I get to try out a new set of parameters:

  • UpX (3 min). I’ll try this out for a week to give it a fair chance, to see if I notice any difference.
  • RoD: Drop from stack. Maybe on Saturday I’ll run True Social, not sure.

Ideas for third title:

  • True Social (Social booster)
  • Daredevil (well, I ran this last year and it didn’t get me that far…)
  • Libertine (redundant, not even ZPv2 Max)
  • Sex & Seduction (directly based on outer game, but its scripting is so old!)
  • Heartsong (…still not great thinking about how I had this in another custom for so long and it yielded so little. So I am wary of touching this again for a while, at least not until after ZPv3).

From the WB thread I got this comment. Don’t worry, I did not forget.

I think my bullet points earlier mostly lean into the second category: “those that are formed from just unchallenged pattern recognition going a little off the rails.” I will say that statistically, it is true there are more guys in the immediate area, so that’s not made up. However, the other stuff can be changed should I want that to be the case. I have to change what I am doing. The “sub-community” part does fall into the “protect us in some way” category, and it’s not really something I worry about changing since it’s not a priority for me to look into that community. Still would be nice to get to know that person better, but I won’t get over my head about it.

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#173

In that case I’d recommend Dragon Reborn Limit Destroyer. That one is really good at helping you challenge beliefs of all kinds.

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#174

@Fractal_Explorer i am curious as to how that would stack with WB! The only healing sub I’ve done all year is DR ST4.

#175

I did run it for a bit with WB. But I determined it was too much for me and switched to SE.

During the time I did run it, it got me to really question long held beliefs. You really have to be ready for it and call yourself out on your faulty beliefs. It’ll shake things up, WB already kind of does that too. That’s why I had mentioned in my initial post you have to identify what type of beliefs you hold. I think DRLD was too intense for me, it moved fast but my sense of safety was up in the air and it caused a lot of anxiety.

All that to say. If you can handle it, it’ll help you blast through WB sticking points. But you definitely have to be honest with where you’re at and how much you can handle.

#176

Listened:

  • TW (30s)
  • True Social (5 min)
  • AsCh (3 min 30s)

Yes, you read that right. I did something a bit different today by running True Social, in light of the game night me and my friend were hosting at our place. I didn’t run UpX to make processing room for this, and I basically dropped RoD in order to allow for this. I dropped RoD primarily because I felt it was not helping in the ways I had hoped for. While I certainly perceive much more of my dreams now than I did before RoD, the time to fall asleep and the duration of sleep was what I was looking to improve upon the most. Unfortunately, those two stats (which I’ve tracked for years with the help of an app) haven’t improved much from the average.

As I write these words I see that there have been quite a few titles I’ve tried now that I drop due to results or relevancy. I don’t feel that bad given their price and my income. Nice to support SC’s development. I do want to try a sleep title again when we are sometime past the introduction of ZPv3 (wonder how Paragon Sleep will be then)! Anyway…

I do think True Social was operating in the background during tonight’s event. Quite engaging and I think it was playing nicely with IC/WB (the two cores of my custom). The one girl who stopped by very briefly was very welcoming to me (despite the rather interesting way the group hangout she was in way back in many months ago—and yes, that was the last time) and took the initiative to get my number. She also added some funny details for her contact info on my phone. Not a person I’m interested in romantically but I think we can be friends, so I would like to meet up with her in the future. Perhaps her other roommates can join us for a future game night. (And quite a few other people too, but that’s a discussion I’ll save for another journal entry)!

I am cautiously optimistic about what it can do. It got me to shine when I needed it to, but during the day leading up to the event things were a bit boring. What do I mean? I seem to have developed a homebody character since late July, (which is the time when I entered a new era of relative inner peace following the end of the thread then—documented in this very journal)! So I don’t go out as much. But I feel I should be more outgoing, which is why I decided to experiment with True Social today. I did not feel a need to be more outgoing, but I did do better when I was in the right environment. I guess I just have to go to more of these environments in lack of such a natural impetus.

This is interesting. I am not sure how to gauge this. Have you run other healing titles? As someone who has run Dragon Reborn—once through all four stages as Q/Qv2 and another time as ZPv2 ST4 for one rotation earlier this year to defeat what I now realize was a deep-seated issue stemming from childhood—I can say healing titles are pretty tough, but I’ve also handled the most challenging one. However, that last time had the benefit of having that time of the year dedicated to dealing with healing. Honestly, I was considering having healing come into the picture for its own dedicated time once again next year, though I would like to know from @Forum_Ambassadors whether DR:LD or DR would be better to throw into my stack. The main concern with doing DR (despite my familiarity with it now) is that it might try to address everything instead of the stuff most relevant to WB.

#177

It’s different for every individual. I’ve had to learn the signs of when something isn’t working or I need to pivot with the subs. Otherwise I just keep running into a brick wall and overwhelm myself and shut down. I’ve run healing titles before, but DR was one I could never make it through. As someone that never learned proper emotional regulation it was not a good idea for me.

DRLD isn’t full on internal healing. It’s got a lot of push to it. I think it would stack well with WB. Remember I think it was back with Q titles they ditched the healing scripting in titles because it slowed things down. DR will probably slow down WB momentum, just the nature of elaborate healing titles.

It’s been my belief for a while now it’s best to focus completely on healing with a time limit, exclusively on action oriented subs, or very light healing to help overcome challenges. Mixing heavy healing and action seems to result in diminished results on both ends.

#178

In 50 words or less, what do you want to accomplish?

#179

Sunday Reflections

Let’s start off this entry with a great question asked by @RVConsultant.

Remove everything that’s getting in the way of me fully acting out the script and success of Wanted Black, and to allow myself to move to a new level of prosperity. I wish to allow this while the rest of my life flows smoothly. (44 words)

My main issue with throwing in a healing sub right now is that it could be incredibly descriptive. This is based off of my experiences with healing subs so far, which is not that much to be honest. My only successful healing runs so far have been around Dragon Reborn, which is the most powerful (and general) healing sub offered at SC. I have not run any other healing title for a long time. What I am most concerned with by running a healing sub right now is that while I may clear out internal limits getting in the way of WB from executing faster, I may wreck the rest of my life in progress. And there is a lot I do enjoy about my current life.

You see, since the end of July I entered my latest era of relative peace with where I’m at in life. The weeks since then have gone by with contentment. I enjoy my days (though the weekdays currently have a bit more work than I’d like them to), even if a lot of it is spent by myself doing solitary hobbies. Whether that’s watching the shows, learning through interesting videos or (moreso recently) advancing my social media related hobby, I find that I have a lot in life to be thankful for. I consider myself to be at a relative stable point and in these past two months I’ve been enjoying it. And why wouldn’t I? There are plenty who would be very jealous at the kinds of success I’ve had in various aspects of my life.

Look, I’m even going to present one of my projects to the C-suite of my company in the near future. (Mind you—this project was done before I even started UpX. Career stuff has always gone pretty good, so that’s why career-related titles haven’t been a part of my stack for most of my subliminal history)

Really, what am I missing in my life? It’s just two things:

  • Owning a house. To be honest, I don’t care about doing this for a while. I’d rather not make this kind of purchase until I’m sure of a few things, including the one below. My subliminal stack hasn’t much to do with it so let’s set this aside for now.
  • Having a satisfying relationship.

I thought that sometime in the past two months the impetus for me to go out there and do things would kick up to a high level would happen. It hasn’t though, and I do not feel bad about that either. It’s good that I have not carried around such feelings day-to-day (I’m pretty tired of that nonsense and as I write this out, I realize I should be careful of what I wish for). I know such feelings can be powerful motivations for change, however, so at the same time I wonder “what’s going to motivate me this time?” I acknowledge that I have observed results from my subliminal stack—especially with the QTKS sub which features WB (and basically eliminated the most obvious recon from my entire stack). However, the results are not as grand as I’d like them to be. I want to move faster.

Perhaps I am yet again hiding something else from myself? Is this the moment in which the impetus I was looking for arrives? What will it take?

To put it in mathematical terms, check out this graph illustrating maxima and minima:
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I think that in the last two months I’ve been enjoying my time at a local maximum, where things are great across all the parts of my life that currently are here. But the absolute maximum would have those in addition to the relationship and whatnot. I asked myself this question the other day:

Is it possible to imagine my life being as it is right now, difference being I’m in a relationship?

The answer is, yes it is possible! However I will admit that it is sometimes not easy to hold that visual. The reason being that sometimes I think that I have to be changing myself (as a person) a lot in order for a relationship to happen. I think that I conflate the idea of changing the way I present myself to people I’d be interested in/vice versa (e.g. flirting and ways to communicate with women) with changing myself as a person (e.g. core beliefs). Based off of this reasoning and the bullet points I shared earlier I say that yes, there are some limiting beliefs that are held right now. I’d be lying if I said I was comfortable blaming everything on external circumstances. In the midst of all the homebody behavior I haven’t even been studying game (whether for the online apps or for real life)!

Dragon Reborn ST4, while very powerful is broadly focused and is likely to be disruptive. The current situation is unlike the earlier time this year when I had an internal challenge that strongly gripped my daily life. In other words, I need something that is very focused to the subtle blockers that are currently at hand.

So because of all this, now I’m starting to take @Fractal_Explorer’s suggestion to run DR:LD seriously. I want to give it a chance, so I intend to run it tomorrow. It’s alright if it takes over from what True Social was going to do, because True Social just amplifies the “life of the party scripting” that’s already in Wanted Black.

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#180

What are your thoughts right now about DR:LD?

#181

Rest day.

Things have been going pretty good. I’ve enjoyed the working days, with all the progress I’ve been able to make. My last run of DR:LD was set to 1 minute, and it proved to be a good choice as it did not disrupt the flow of my day!

The last few days have been excellent for my social media page as well, since I’ve been able to work with a few businesses. My friends who I invited along were very thankful they could join! I’m also happy to see how far I’ve progressed in my social media hobby. Makes me think life is good.

DR:LD with its current settings has not been disruptive. However, I should say that I have only run two loops of it so far, with a third one tomorrow. It is much less dominating my life than DR—when I ran DR, a lot of my life was dedicated around healing. Here DR:LD is able to slot in while I can continue to go through enjoying life!

#182

Profound. Would you be willing to enter this as part of a product review on the DR:LD page?

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#183

Potentially, however I must run it for an extended period of time before I can review the product. While DR:LD has been able to run without disrupting my day, I am unable to comment as to what exactly it’s healed (if anything). That’s tough, because my successful healing runs in the past have dealt with things that were very much in my face, so the healing of such showed itself as strongly.

Here I can say DR:LD worked if I get what I’m looking for from TW. However, would TW have worked if DR:LD wasn’t a part of my stack? Probably, given the powerful nature of QTKS and the healing intrinsic in any ZP script. Is DR:LD enabling the process to happen more quickly? From my understanding of that title, a successful run of it should enable such however I currently do not have a way to assess that mainly since we’re early in its run.

Perhaps the one indicator of it doing something was around myself revisiting racial preferences in dating (as part of the multicultural society I am in) and me reconsidering whether I’d date people of certain races. I opened up what I’d consider, understanding that the circumstances in which my preferences first formed do not universally apply and that in certain environments it’s more likely for me to meet the right people who are from those newly reconsidered races.

Another potential indicator is me re-examining the way I view dating apps and how I may want to change those perspectives in order to get myself to use them often. I recognized through one of my conversations recently that the rather cavalier attitude I (and some of my friends old) about such apps are likely not conducive to their daily use—how can I show up every day to use the apps, much less study how to master them (“online game”) if I am holding opinions that would make me not want to use such apps? While they are not the perfect pathway to meeting people, they are certainly an avenue that some people (including a few I know) have had success through and there’s an entire resource I have access to that’d help me be much better at them, should I invest time in that resource. I can revise my own beliefs to improve my own usage of the apps.

Anyway, tomorrow i will be running TW, DR:LD and AsCh all together and I am curious to see what transpires. Perhaps I will also throw in a loop of UpX at 3 mins and test the shorter duration to see what happens, too.

#184

Listened:

  • TW (30s)
  • DR:LD (1 min)
  • UpX (3 min)

I want to journal more often. I recall the days of the mid-pandemic when I’d be journaling every day. It was especially useful back then, when I had a lot of time to introspect and I needed to process everything Dragon Reborn was taking me through.

Right now, the things being healed are much more subtle. DR:LD is certainly doing something to make TW work better (and UpX too, but it was already working so well so I can’t say much there—and honestly, UpX has made all my working days better) but it is hard to articulate precisely what unless I write it all out.

I am currently living in a great era of peace. On Sunday a good friend advised me to look more closely at what I’ve been writing about to see if I can spot trends in what is enabling this. Certainly my current stack has something to do with it, seeing as TW itself is reshaping my self-image and DR:LD is removing even more blocks. A brief look at the successes of today:

  • A fairly productive workday. I got a decent amount of engineering done despite it being a meeting-heavy day. Additionally, I formulated several ways for us to redo a certain product so that we target it better towards the key objectives we’d like to attain. I’m more confident now that we can achieve alignment with key stakeholders on my team so that our next version of it is impactful. My guess is that UpX is helping me developing this kind of thinking even though the title is stated to be around coding. There’s a cognitive boost at play.
  • I was able to attend another event related to my social media business because I discovered a last-minute invite from a group chat I’m a part of but check fairly infrequently. Good for me, I got to meet some new people who are a part of the same interest and learn a few things about how they got to progress in that field. Event itself was awesome, too.

I overall say I enjoy my life, though I occasionally wonder if things like pmo (which has been on the decline, not that motivated for it) may mask certain feelings. Simultaneously, though, those seem to have not gotten in the way of progress being made by the subs. But the main angle I want to take is that when I perceive my life as a happy one, I imagine all sorts of things…but not some of the vices that I may engage in. To me, that suggests that I could just drop those things altogether and it wouldn’t be an issue. So I should just do that, especially since dropping them can bring their own benefits. The obvious benefit is more time, and my energy won’t fluctuate as much (yes, I feel my subs improve that a bit already, but I should do whatever I can to help)! There are a lot of other benefits I have written about, I just need to make sure that I properly place my attention on those so I stand firm in the avoidance of the vices I have in mind. So I set the intention to change my focus here.

Anyway, an interesting moment came up earlier when I heard from my parents about my friend’s recent engagement. I’d seen it before, so that’s not news. I got messaging that at this point isn’t that new. Mainly comments from them (and relayed comments from others around) about how “I’m next” :joy:. Truly not news, there are a few times this year and a time late last year where such comments came up. Of course they suggested that I will find someone who will be right for me.

I believe so too, but it may not be in the way they think :joy:. I already know that their parameters would be different from mine. Though there is that one person from the community that I was considering inviting to one of my events, that’s more just to be friends. I do not have expectations for more than that. While I do find her attractive, I am unsure as to whether there’s the basis for a long-term relationship. Not to mention, I may be on the opposite side of the country before such a thing can form (no long-distance, sorry).

Let’s talk about that move. I’m facing it, the desire is now getting stronger because I do think a change in environment has large potential to bring about change in me because I’ve never lived outside of this area. While I am enjoying this time of peace—a time that has gone on pretty long (over two months now), I know that the only constant in life is change. If in some magical scenario this time of peace continues in its magnitude and strength all the way to the time I’d move, the trip itself becomes the factor of change. However, I think even if it continued as is to that time, I’d still want to move. I’m just hanging out at this “local maximum” in my life and letting things come to me. However, eventually the time and desire for adventure and new experiences will arrive. I’m so grateful that I have a friend who is willing to move all the way there with me, as (among many things) I feel secure in knowing that I can do a move and not have to be in a new place alone, all by myself.

I enjoyed journaling this time and I feel there’s more to uncover should I give myself the time and space more often.

#185

I want to do a crazy experiment tomorrow. Run TW, DR:LD and AsCh at their full durations, then take a week-long break from subs.

#186

I did this today and surprisingly I have no obvious recon (by pre-QTKS standards).