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#93

So already the releases of STKS have nuked my entire plans, and we’re only halfway through.

Early thoughts so far: QL will, unfortunately, be departing my stack for good, for the first time in 14 months. Ultimate Programmer is just too appealing for me to ignore, and I’ll be able to remove the Index Gate module from the custom and replace it with something that I previously wanted to be removed. Machine: Action perhaps? Or Asclepius?

While I do like the idea of having Inner Circle in my custom, something needs to make way for Genesis. Perhaps replacing the True Sell core with the True Sell module, and replacing Temptation with Genesis could be the way to go about it. I also think I want to add Total Nonchalence as well, so if I use the new program instead of Khan then Achilles’ Heel will be replaced with Total Nonchalence (which is redundant if Khan stays in the stack).

#94

I’ve been washing out since Saturday and today, I had an eye-opening meeting with my boss. All I can say is that the world works in incredible and interesting ways.

So, I’ve decided to eject Daredevil from my stack. It is time to embrace Chosen, after having delayed it for so long. Here are the new ideas I have for the 2 customs I plan to order this weekend:

Kaizen but not actually Kaizen tbh
Intellect:
Core: Ultimate Programmer
APS: Head
Book Blitz
Polyglot

Work & Productivity:
Core: Mogul
Job Seeker
Lifeblood Fable
Financial Success Reality Shifter
Victory’s Call

Energy Development:
Core: Spartan
Negative Energy Transmutation
Inner Blaze
Inner Gasoline
The Architect
Metamorphosis

Boosters:
Cosmic Navigator
Carpe Diem Ascended
Deep Sleep
Eye of the Storm
Foundation

Not Daredevil Tings:

Cores:
Chosen
Sex & Seduction
Genesis

Social:
Storyteller
Ebon Manuever
Gentleman’s Speech
Sexual Manifestation
Song of Joy
Total Nonchalance

Influence:
Direct Influencing Aura
Gloryseeker
Entranced

Feel Good:
Joie de Vivre
Gratitude Embodiment
Harmonic Singularity
Inner Voice

Boosters:
Achilles’ Heel
Dominion
Subconscious Flow
Cosmic Navigator

The last sub in the stack will either be Fire’s Friday release, Khan stage 1 or Chosen From Within. I know I expressed frustration with myself for not embracing Khan sooner but to be quite honest, CFW might lowkey be just as tough as Total Breakdown AND it will help with executing the goals I have with my Chosen custom. I’m excited for the customs to come in, I plan to order them Saturday (when the official releases are done).

This washout may last quite a bit of time but that’s no problem. It’s good to have a long washout once in awhile, it’ll help me execute quite a bit in the future.

Edit: Think I might just do a 1 day delivery for 100$ extra, if there’s any time that I could be impatient and begin to focus on executing it would be with that new Chosen custom definitely.

#95

AAaaaaaaand fuck the plans from above hahahahaha

Nothing like the greatest module pack ever released to completely chuck my plans out of a window. Good shit.

King’s Radiance, Power Talk, Mimisbrunner, Stonelike are absolute musts. You Are Not Alone is so tempting to include as well.

Think I should just update the work custom and then keep it simple and run Chosen & Genesis on the side. Then, again, I know that fucking May 27th sub is coming out and Saint is hyping it up way too fucking much. I feel stuck smh

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#96

So just from a quick glance, I know for a fact that Power Talk needs to be in the social custom (replace Entranced/Instant Spark). I want Stonelike to replace Harmonic Singularity as well. I feel that You Are Not Alone is perfect as well, but where the hell does it go? Joie De Vivre, I guess?

Mimisbrunnr and Treasure Finder need to be included in the other sub, but I literally cannot think of what should be replaced. I wonder if Treasure Finder should replace FSRS, think it will.

I just need to figure out where, for the life of me, should Mimisbrunnr go. None of these modules are expendable. Polyglot, I guess, would be the most expendable?

" The ability to always make the most correct decisions is a veritable superpower in its own right."

Can’t ignore that line from the copy.

#97

I need to change.

I’m grateful for the position I’m in.

I’ve become an expert at doing things in one way for my entire life. I’m very good at doing it that way, it’s clear. But the vast majority of people aren’t like that.

If I want to ascend, if I want to be a leader, I need to be able to relate to the vast majority. I need to be able to understand them, empathize with them.

I’ve been so focused on presenting myself as better, what I failed to realize is that that’s what people already see anyway. That’s how they feel anyway.

I’m so self critical that I didn’t see it before, but it’s been made so clear to me now. And it’s starting to become a problem, because people aren’t able to relate to me.

What I’ve been focusing on so far, is what I already have in spades. What holds me back is what I need to focus on.

Chosen, LBFH, S&S. It’s clear to me that this 2nd custom needs to focus on this aspect of positivity, love, kindness and empathy; if I want to succeed the right way, I need to be of the righteous.

#98

Core: Mogul
Core: Index Gate
Core: Genesis

APS: Head
Book Blitz
Mimisbrunnr
Job Seeker

Eye of the Storm
Treasure Finder
Victory’s Call
Extreme Exercise Motivation
Carpe Diem Ascended

Negative Energy Transmutation
Inner Blaze
Inner Gasoline
The Architect
Metamorphosis

Cosmic Navigator
Achilles’ Heel
Deep Sleep

Core: Chosen
Core: Love Bomb for Humanity
Core: Sex & Seduction

Power Talk
Stonelike
You Are Not Alone
Gentleman’s Speech
Storyteller

Ebon Manuever
Song of Joy
Cosmic Navigator
Jupiter
Subconscious Flow

Direct Influencing Aura
Gloryseeker
Gratitude Embodiment
Lifeblood Fable
Total Nonchalence

Sexual Manifestation
Enchanting Smile

Turned the plans of these 2 customs around completely. I think I’ve found what I’ve been looking for. Not sure when I’ll order however, but I’ve realized that I don’t need more alpha scripting right now. What I need to do if I want to succeed, is to be able to learn how to love again.

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#99

I bought it. Bold move, considering the release of the big sub tonight. But I feel ready.

1-day express.

I’ve named it ‘Eudaimonia’; it’s a concept from Ancient Greek & Roman philosophy that refers to the ultimate good, the telos of our being and what we strive towards. Ultimate happiness, ultimate goodness, a good life. It’s Aristotelian in its core.

Eudaimonia is also a key concept in the philosophy of the Stoics, who believed in eudaimonia being the by-product of living a life of the highest virtue; a life lived virtuously and within reason, is a good life.

The greatest of the Stoics is a popular ancient figure, the philosopher-king himself Marcus Aurelius. When I envision the execution of this subliminal, I envision Marcus Aurelius in mind, and Cyrus the Great in action.

We spend so much time grandstanding, figuring out how to assert our dominance over others in the fight for control. The results that we strive for in those actions can be easily acquired with half the effort and twice the goodness if we substitute aggression for understanding, dominance for kindness, control for love.

I’ve spent too much time kicking myself down, as picking myself up was what I always thought was the best way to grow; sadly I assumed that others should follow suit. Why pick myself up when there are so many ready to extend their hands to me? Why should I not do the same for others?

Life is hard enough as it is. We don’t need to make it harder for ourselves, let alone others.

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#100

The custom’s here, I’m excited to begin this next cycle. I don’t take washouts this long usually so this stack will truly be a fresh start.

I also decided that I’m going to wait just a little bit before I buy the 2nd custom that I had plans for. The reason is that I want to run Khan Black and see how that goes; I have a lot of energy-related modules in the ‘pseudo-Kaizen’ build, so I wonder if embarking on the Khan Black journey will allow me to actually replace some of those modules with something else.

But because I can’t wait, I’m also going to run Genesis to see how that feels. Khan Black, Genesis and my new Chosen custom, Eudaimonia. I’m looking forward to it, this stack seems quite balanced in my eyes.

3 brand new subs, it’s like I’m asking for my brain to be cooked :sweat_smile: Maybe I should stick the 1 title per listening day, could be a good idea.

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#101

The FOMO is too much, screw “isolating the effects”. 2 titles, 7 minutes each, let’s go.

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#102

So I decided to run Eudaimonia (Chosen/LBFH/S&S) today and well, the effects were clear to see externally.

Internally, I haven’t felt much of a shift so far but externally, people were quite nice to me. People are definitely nice to me in general but today I felt more popular than usual I must say.

Now I’m running my first loop of Khan BBC, think I’ll have updates regarding that by tomorrow. I’m currently 6 minutes and 30 seconds into the loop and I already feel some time of ‘energy force’ coursing through my heart/chest, and warmth as well. Let’s see how that goes.

#103

So after 1 loop I am definitely feeling stronger sexual desire. I wonder what can be done to “harness” this.

Looking forward to Genesis + Eudaimonia on Wednesday.

#104

Man I’m feeling really happy and grateful about Eudaimonia, it has everything I need. It just feels so good and it has aspects of so many different cores that I wanted to try out. Power Talk and You Are Not Alone allow me to get the PCC and Inner Circle fix that I otherwise would have missed out on.

I’m just looking forward to the future, and I want to keep running this custom for a long time. It just feels so good and at the same time, I feel like there’s so much work that it can address for me. This alongside the KBBC journey and Genesis might just be my perfect lift-off, as long as I commit to this stack for the rest of 2023 (Genesis will be replaced with a custom but that custom will include Genesis).

Feeling very blessed right now.

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#105

Had to drop these bars somewhere.

#106

I blame my incessant yapping lately on Song of Joy, what an annoying module :joy: I might just rebuild Eudaimonia and replace that module for something else, but other than that it’s been great.

Ran my first loop of Genesis, and definitely enjoyed the boost of productivity that came with it. I’m gonna commit to KBBC for the healing to see where that goes, but I think I’m gonna stick with the custom I planned out here (even if Inner Gasoline is redundant with KBBC in the stack):

Tempted to add something like Facial Morphing instead of Inner Gasoline but that would stick out like a sore thumb.

Also want to add that Genesis LB scripting might definitely be doing its thing, someone who’s quite bitchy at work was much nicer today.

#107

So it seems to me that the company CEO, who’s a very nice and down-to-earth person, doesn’t like me. Don’t know if it’s a culture-fit thing (which was what I heard) or just something about him not liking my personality, which was the impression I got today.

Interesting to see how this will pan out. This place is ultimately a launching pad for me and nothing else, I just need to be smart. I shouldn’t show off my personality to everyone all the time, I have to be a lot more methodical. No more auto-piloting my way through life.

Also think it’s time to make that custom. Still gonna keep on running Genesis and I’ll throw it in the new custom, but to be honest I’m not sure if it’s worth it; I like the idea of adding QL4 or Spartan in there instead but I just feel like Genesis is key for me to round out my base.

Anyway, this is only week 1 of this current stack. June 19 should be the first loop of my updated job custom, so I should be ready to order by June 13.

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#108

Its strange but im having this awakening too, the first law of power “never outshine the master” is showing it’s face.

While i stare at coach and think “im so shiny, he’s probably thinking about how cool i am, loving me more by the second” hes probably thinking

“fuck, this guy tries so hard, its really annoying, he’s probably trying to steal my position.”

its easy to forget that they got egos too, they want money, romance, validation… They arent just sitting back waiting to be our fans.

it was a bitter awakening for me but since it’s been a few days since i awoke to it, it seems more and more like a freeing breathe of fresh air, i NO LONGER have to invest any mental energy trying to be shiny, i can be me, i dont have to kiss ass, i can be me, i dont have to try and be funny or witty, i can be me, unapologetically.

And when it comes time to move past them and onto my own benefits, i can do so ruthlessly and without a second thought

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#109

That’s very interesting that you say that, because I genuinely feel that I’m not investing any energy into “being shiny” (as you put it). I am just being myself completely.

And it’s odd that the CEO would act like that, I noticed it when I realized he was avoiding eye contact with me. But this is someone who’s a very nice guy, he’s significantly taller than me, he’s jacked, handsome and fucking rich, a real “chad” in the flesh; why the fuck would this dude feel like I’m “outshining” him? It’s quite confusing to me.

I am just trying to be me always. I don’t want to live un-authentically, so it’s a shame that the most important person at my workplace doesn’t seem to like me very much.

Then again, my boss did tell me in a meeting a few weeks ago about how I’m unaware of how much I come across as being “superior” without even realizing it. My ex of 5 years would also always tell me how completely oblivious I was to the effect I would have around others. My autism knows no bounds :joy:

I think LBFH has made me realize that it’s hard for me to take a non-critical view of myself. My perfectionist mindset never has me feeling satisfied, but I’m also a lot more advanced than I realize at times.

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#110

You’re just too charismatic brah, remember that the whole tall chad thing, it’s a crutch, it’s a blessing but also a curse, it could be daunting to see someone who’s textbook less chad than you coming off as someone with more internal stability and swagger, it literally could feel like you’re a phony.

Screw your boss man, also everything you described is how my coach treats me, he avoids eye contact with me for a long time, promised me to give me a fight but then finds excuses to not give me a fight, he’s got this dude fighting soon who hasn’t showed up to training in months and is fat, the last 10 people who fought for him, only one girl keeps winning, everyone else has lost, first round knockout, it really does seem like he has his own agenda.

A good story that sticks in my mind is about a watch given by a grandpa to his grandson that is taken to a pawn shop, where they offer 100 dollars, he takes it to a watch shop and they offer 200, taken to a museum, they offer half a million. If you’re in the wrong place, your value will go unnoticed

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#111

Yeah that’s fascinating, thank you for these wise words.

Just to be clear, my boss didn’t say it in a negative way; she was saying it in a similar way to you, and from a place of wanting to help me develop and grow in the future. The CEO is a different person, my boss’ boss if you will.

I hope you find a new gym soon, because this is ridiculous. Be careful, don’t waste your time in the wrong place as there have been many great fighters that weren’t able to showcase their true level because of bad coaches, managers, etc. Emmanuel Augustus is the first name that pops into my mind as a perfect example of that.

Thanks for sharing that, very wise words once again brother.

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#112

Man I feel lonely.

Feel like everyone’s got a pack, a tribe, people they know, a crew, I don’t.

I know how to socialize, how to talk, I’ve got “friends” but I don’t really.

I love the compliments I’ve been getting on my body lately, everyone telling me that I’m jacked now, but I miss the community spirit I had at my Muay Thai gym. Again, over there it was the same thing but at least I could somewhat feel like I was with a group of friends, even if it was only during training and nothing else.

Hm. Mixed emotions right now.

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