Tomorrow is last day of this cycle 
Last day of this cycle, ran Khan Black ST1 for 15 minutes to end the cycle. Usually I only run microloops.
I was thinking of switching GMX: Aimbot with Primal next cycle, but no, I want to squeeze these even more. So next cycle we continue with Khan ST4, Khan Black ST1 and GMX: Aimbot.
Relax, enjoy wasting time.
Really, trying to control everything I end up shooting myself in the foot.
If you try hard, you die hard. It’s spiritual.
Set intentions. Meditate. Let go. Relax.
Washout begins 
Some thoughts:
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Life is now. You are you now.
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I feel like my thoughts and emotions have slowed down that I catch myself thinking outrageous things and just accepting them as facts when they are just limiting beliefs. Perhaps it’s not that they have slowed down but my impulse control and reaction have gotten better.
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I enjoy the sensations in the body, especially the bubbly euphoric ones, just soaking in them when they appear. Feeling good more often.
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Habitual behaviours are just there because it’sa habit, been noticing and being aware of how I operate in different situations. Specially notice how much I engage in self-deprecation and self-attack. Awareness is first step.
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I feel cooler.
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Yeah of course… it’s cold in Sweden right now 
Damn what is happening to me… am I turning into @Deadpool sidekick 
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No worries mate you will get paid at the end of the month 
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I thought you’d say I have to post at least 2 memes in the memes thread a day to get paid 
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Haha yep it’s cold now 
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Last day of washout
Bad sleep hygien man, I slept like 4 hours last night. How hard will sleep be on KB ST3 LUL
I think I just got so much sexual energy running around and my mind is all over the place at the speed of light which is why meditation is important I think. But it’s hard to sit down and watch the breath right now lol
But I must incorporate that.
Anyway, cheers to round 2 of KB ST1 and Khan ST4 and 3rd cycle of GMX: Aimbot.
A couple days ago I got 28 kills with the revolver (R. 357) in one round. Which is an insane number, highest kills I’ve gotten in a round on The Finals, AND it was a revolver which is far from being meta. 
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Did a simple 10 minute meditation and feel much better. This is important, get it in your head man!
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Hype is real bro! Well see what get released tomorrow. yesterday I played 3 minutes of Khan and Aimbot. Today is rest.
Still trying to improve my sleep hygiene 
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Wow, what a release show! 🫣
I’m currently on Khan ST4, Khan Black ST1 and Aimbot. Going to finish this cycle off and then decide how I want to do with Khan, if I want and think I can handle starting over with the new version. Stark Black Reality also looks interesting, very interesting, especially the fame part.
Today: 3 minutes of Khan Black ST1.
I’ve been enjoying microcosmic orbits on the bus on the way to work. I don’t always have time to sit down and meditate, so I’ll just try to use everything around me in my practice instead. Sitting in a bus, taking a pomodoro break and do a full body scan or just meditate in the breath. It’ll have to do. Can’t be worse than no action, right?
Micro loops, micro actions, macro life!
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Actually, starting over.
Running Khan Black ST1, Khan ST1 (the new one) and switching Aimbot most likely for Stark, now that I’ve done 2 cycles.
Today Khan Black ST1 [03:00] followed by Khan ST1 [03:00].
Let the breakdown commence.
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Hello recon my old friend.
2 days ago I randomly stumbled on an interesting hypnosis and I tried a hypnosis.
Yesterday I was watching a stand up comedy and the guy had a story about how hypnosis helped him quit smoking and snacking constantly. He used to listen to the hypnosis every night and sleep to it.
I never do that and my problem with hypnosis is that I fall asleep so fast. I thought that would hinder the hypnosis.
But perhaps this is the way, two birds with one stone. I’ll get hypnotised and also fall asleep at night. Perfect!
I don’t know, the coincidence of stumbling on a hypnosis and then a guy talks about that it worked even if he fell asleep solved an issue I have had with hypnosis. It felt like a NSE moment.
Anyway, KB 1 and new Khan 1 are doing their thing today. Hello recon my old friend.
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The fact that these two are just one day apart is kind of hilarious : )
Nice stack! Love to see so many peeps getting on Khan train
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Hats off to you my fellow Khan connoisseur! Yeah khan is great and I’ve only ran one cycle through before. 
how much Khan have you done?
I knew what I was going to get from running these two thicc-boys. I haven’t had recon in a while and was missing it a bit 
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Never ran it myself but had my eyes on it for over three years now. I will begin running Khan in few days though. Super excited!
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Wow I really thought you had alot of experience on it because I’ve seen you dig that vibe. 
i just assumed you had run it. But I was the same, my favourite topics were khan topics, then I went for it.
Looking forward to your journey with it
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You made my day man : ) Thank you
Ill watch your journal closely as well
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A Stark Black Reality 03:00
Rest day today. I have many interesting thoughts today that aren’t new, but today I’ve realised how my understanding of them has gotten deeper or let’s say I’ve gotten closer to the core meaning.
It’s like you read a book and get no value and then a year later you read the same book and it becomes your Bible. You can’t believe how the principle flew past you in the past.
I felt super calm yet highly sociable today. My focus at work was solid. I woke up really dreading the day, but the day flew by. Calm, focused, yet loose. No anxiety. No self-attack.
This is going to be a great year, for sure.
It’s like my usual processes like thoughts and feelings are slower and I can catch myself using false limiting beliefs and/or an reactionary, and can switch it up in the moment. Which is nice.
And funny thing is that I’m running KB1, K1 and Stark Black Reality. I should be having stomach ache from anxiety right now and be manic. My usual recon manifestations. But I’m cool man, cucumber cool.
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