Pushing myself so much means one little oppsie or negative event can push me down hard. For us gamers, it’s like playing a glass cannon character in the hardcore version of a game. It’s cool and fun and exhilarating until that boss hits you with a critical strike.
Recon is easy, until life punches you in the face. 
I need to tune it back a little bit after this second cycle of KB1, K1 and ASBR. Next cycle I’m either going to only run the Khans or just tune down the listening duration.
First cycle I did 30sec and 3 minute loops. Second cycle I did 6 minutes loops and it was rough when things around me got intense together with this. But I was thinking this is where Khans are made, pressure = diamond. But even a diamond has a pressure limit no?
Next cycle I’m keep going but with 30 seconds loops. I love this combo so far, the realisation have been subtle but profound. I feel the most charming ever, even though I’m doing 2x ST1 and running around like a zombie, dealing with lemons life throws at me. I feel very funny, very social, very charming, very popular and cool. I like it, I just need to slow down a bit.
I just now started a Zhang Zuang practice and continued my energetic breath practice. It’s amazing, I want more. But once again, pace yourself. I tend to overcompensate with insane goals and expectations on me, and overcorrection, so I really need to pace myself.
We have read that running a healing title makes it overpowers the other titles in your stack. But what if it’s two ST1? Maybe it’s not the best idea, but I’m already 2 cycles in.
Anyway, I’m busy growing and listening to subliminals and life, but wanted to leave something here to mark the end of the second cycle.
Khan on!
PS: Also when you’e pushing the limits like this, you are so run down and if you’re also engaging with energetic practices and increasing your energetic awareness, you realise how much mental bandwidth and energy things cost. When you’re resources are exhausted you realise that the most basic things in life are so draining.
You realise that this TV show or that favourite subreddit, costs, and you question if it’s worth it. You get a totally different perspective and a better understanding of why certain things are draining and so on. It’s hard to notice this when you’re full of energy and life is like a Disney movie. It’s a refreshing perspective. Then again I probably have a kink for this pushing the limit and burning out. I’m doing some existential kink meditation and trying to understand this more.
A Recon Beer Cheer
