[STACKED] Raphael's EmperorQ Testing + Emperor Fitness ST1

[Lion]

Day 12:

• Dream: The part of the dream I can remember starts from me running towards my class in a university in a far east country (possibly Japan). My dad’s running before me for some reason and am telling him that we got a discount for my stem cell treatment (which I got to know the previous day). Also a Japanese woman was guiding us towards our destination. And before I stepped into my class, she offered me some packets of mouth freshners and a very pretty smile. I accepted them before knocking on the door to my classroom. The teacher there said that the class is over but I insisted that I come in. When he said okay, I entered and were greeting some of my classmates when one of them took one of my packets of mouth freshners without asking me. That made me ask him to put it back, which he did. After this, I exited the class and it felt like the university was in a huge mall. And there I was looking for the rest room and ended up finding one attached to an Indian restaurant. I entered the place and saw an Englishman who was sitting there and I assumed that he was the caretaker. He pointed me to the urinal (which funnily enough looked like a mailbox) and while I was doing my stuff, I asked him about something. He replied to me but I couldn’t hear what he was saying. And I excused myself like I do in real life. That I couldn’t hear him cause my ears weren’t okay and added that my eyes were having issues too (which felt like some weird kind of memory filing where I was coming to terms with the fact that I was getting tired of affirming my disability and needed to stop giving excuses for myself). After this, I went outside and saw that the cart which contained my bags and other items, was waiting for me but it was missing my pillows. When I saw some Japanese workers nearby, I asked them about the pillows and they told me that they had to take them since they are responsible for every pillow they see in their area and if I took these pillows from another area, am supposed it give it to the workers in that area.

And that’s when I woke up to the sound of my alarm ringing. Some dream that was. And I quickly typed it out in Evernote before the dream escaped me.

• Was able to do 20 minutes of meditation

• Kept my keto diet

• Did Semen Retention for the day and also didn’t watch porn

• Did read but not enough

Easier to keep to one’s resolutions when there are only few in the list. Better to be strong in a few habits first and then pick other good habits instead of trying to master all the good habits at once.

[Lion]

Day 13:

• Dream 1: This was a strange jumbled dream where the only thing I could remember was trying to romantically seduce the porn star Sunny Leone who is a regular woman in this dream. (oh yeah. The key word is “Romantically” . Not in a sexually attractive way though. Kinda like a movie where the hero spouts some dialogue where the actress falls for the speech but doesn’t happen in real life). For some reason she plays a conservative married woman in this scene and am her ex-boyfriend from her past. But the “Seduction” doesn’t work (probably because am not running Sex Mastery right now lol). And her husband is on trial for God knows what. And I remember the judge telling him “If you are telepathic, why couldn’t you catch what she was thinking?”. Like I said, a very jumbled up dream.

• Dream 2: Where I give the printout of airline tickets to my mother and she ends up tearing it up later without knowing it. I got pissed off in this dream and whined about why she did that instead of thinking that I could print it up again. This was followed by some strange race to the airport which I don’t remember anything about except the fact that it was strange.

• Woke up before the alarm clock went off and felt the need to relieve myself. Went to the restroom. Did my thing. And went back to bed but couldn’t sleep. So did my meditation early in the morning after which it was already time to start the day.

• Read a couple of pages of a book today. But spent more time on youtube. Need to correct this.

• Could keep my Semen Retention streak even though I was tempted to watch porn and jerk off. Ended up being able to control myself by thinking that I should at least be able to keep my goals since they were not too many. That helped since I knew I didn’t have to put too much effort into achieving a lot but to at least do these few things.

[Lion]

Day 14:

• Dream: The was an interesting dream. I was observing this teacher (not seen before) physically abusing the students in my class by making them pass through some sort of painful trials. It wasn’t as straight as beating them with a stick. More like situations you see in movies like “the hunger games” and “maze runner”. Finally, I couldn’t take it anymore and ended up pinning his hands back on a wall to stop him. The interesting thing I noticed was that he had 4 hands in total so i was basically holding 2 of his hands in each of my hands. Am guessing the meaning of the dream had some something to do with my anti-authoritarian feelings from school and home.

[Lion]

• Did my daily meditation in the morning and kept my NoPMO streak.

• Didn’t need to keep my keto diet today cause it was a cheat day.

• Completed reading the book Sapiens. What’s my next read? Will let you know tomorrow.

[Lion]

Day 15:

• The dream from last night was splintered when I was trying to recall it in the morning. What I remember was that a group of us (made up of random people and me) were playing a competitive sport on the scale of hunger games but not violent. I remember only 2 scenes from it. In one of it, I somehow escaped from a building that had a metal shutter on one side and an empty movie theater on the other. The second scene involved me playing a game that had me and a mini-hulk shooting up some items to get points. And that was it.

• Couldn’t do a complete keto diet today since there were some leftover from my cheat day yesterday. But that was only for breakfast so it was okay.

• Did meditation and NoPMO

• Was wondering what book to read next. The combination of not feeling like reading a book while at the same time having 1 credit on my Audible subscription, gave me the idea to get The Rationale Male audio book (the first book in the series). Also, I was watching the latest video by Rollo Tommasi and Rian Stone. And listening to them discuss the Iron Rules of Tomassi from the perspective of how others misinterpret the Red Pill, made me realize that I needed a better understanding of it myself. I find myself reverting back to the blue pill unconsciously, not getting the RP properly, and listening to The Rationale Male on Audible will definitely help get it imprinted into my subconscious.

[Lion]

• And also this realization today which I commented in another thread:

The PMO/Masturbation Question

Another way I am motivating myself to continue NoPMO these days is telling myself that Semen Retention increases the power of my immune system which is good for the body to resist diseases like the corona virus.

Other than that, we do have many other benefits like increased energy, confidence, deeper voice, sexual attractiveness, testosterone, law of attraction (manifesting powers do increase), etc. Reminding myself of these benefits also helps me to remain on the path.

These days, am giving myself smaller number of goals so that I can master a few habits and then when I have done so, add other habits I want to master. And one of those first few habits is Semen Retention.

[Lion]

Day 16:

• The dream I had yesterday was very forthcoming of my habit to blame my mother for the lack of success in my life. That she was holding me back by her insistence that I follow the “tradition” of living with my parents. It’s a very cultural thing among us to live with family. As much as others want to dictate how my life should be, it is eventually upto me to decide what I want. Because people like to tell me that I am selfish. But won’t admit that they are selfish too.

• Everything else went nice and smooth today. Did my meditation/diet/NoPMO/listening to The Rationale Male

• Experienced hard erections when I woke up after a nap today in the afternoon.

[Lion]

Day 17:

• Dreams: My dreams are getting weirder by the day. This time I dreamt that I was one among a group of ghosts who were actually murdered when we were alive. And to get revenge on the 5 people who murdered us, the rest of us ghosts planned to spook the murderers by appearing as someone else (who was familiar to the criminal) in front of them and opening a door and disappearing after passing through the door and turning left or right. So when the said murderer passed through the door, he wouldn’t see us and it would be a scare for him. I advised them to just vanish through the door and spook the onlooking homicidal maniacs that way. This idea was accepted unanonymously. Haha. Or more like Muahaha.

• I noticed that the past few days I have been unconsciously placing my tongue correctly on the roof of my mouth without having to put too much thought into it. This is a good sign cause it has been a couple of months since I adopted the habit of mewing and it’s good to see that am doing it mostly automatically now. Would love to see some changes in my looks thanks to that. But mostly am doing for the long term benefits and to correct my breathing.

• Figured out how to simultaneously play my stack and youtube videos/audible books. I installed an app called Rocket Music Player (bought the ad free version for Rs 10). This player has a setting in it which allows it to play even though other audio/video apps are playing. Then installed another app called Sound Assistant from the Samsung Galaxy Store. This app helps to adjust the volume of several different apps at various volumes (so that I can play my stack at a lower volume while listening to YouTube or audio books at a normal “audible” volume). There is a setting where you have to add these apps on Sound Assistant to be able to adjust these volumes.

• The above setup helped me to listen to my EmperorQ + Emperor Fitness ST1 stack for longer during the day. Listening to other stuff (whether entertainment or educational) while at the same time knowing that my subconscious was being programmed, was a good feeling).

• Felt a bit more hungry thanks to the extra time I played my stack today. So cheated a bit on my keto diet. But not so much.

• Two lessons from listening to The Rationale Male today : One is that “Porn/Masturbation is a buffer against rejection from women. It’s escapism. Just one more reason to give such habits up”. And secondly, “Men get Confidence from having options. Options of women and money. So in order to be confident, a man just needs to date multiple women at the same time and have multiple sources of Income. That way, if any woman or income is gone, we have not put all our eggs in one basket, so to speak.”

[Lion]

Day 18:

• Don’t remember any of my dreams to report.

• Had to cancel my flight to get my second stem cell treatment done (for my eyes). Can’t risk my dad’s health (since he’s travelling with me) just because am in a hurry. Will have to wait awhile to know when we can postpone this plan to. Was a bit pissed off an hour back as I made the phone calls to the hospital and cancelled the tickets online. But now am in acceptance mode.

[Lion]

• In all this confusion, I forgot to mention that I ran Khan ST1 Total Breakdown all day today (along with simultaneously listening to youtube). Felt the need for some mental reset. I do intuitively feel the need to do that once in a while. But resuming my EmperorQ + Emperor Fitness ST1 stack from tonight onwards.

[Lion]

Day 19:

• I don’t remember the whole dream but the part that I do is where my mom shows me a room which she renovated. It was nice and I told her it looked good. The funny part is that she actually changed the interior decor of one of the rooms of our home around two days ago so it felt like a memory. The only difference was that the room in the dream was a place I have never seen before.

• I was still highly disappointed having to cancel today’s flight. But getting more accepting of it and moving on.

• Felt that I was carrying a lot of emotional burdens from the past. I tried to let go of it and felt most of it evaporate while I did some visualisation letting go of my mistakes and illnesses.

• Writing this just after I did my 20 minute meditation.

[Lion]

• Relapsed from Semen Retention and Porn but didn’t feel crappy at all. No beating myself up. Not even a tiny bit. So that at least is an improvement.

[Tomcat]

My congratulations! I think that any guilt, shame around any sex activity is what hinders our creativity and a joy of life. Btw, I recommend to read Alexander Lowen books, for example Joy (and others). It helped me to clear some shame issues.

[Lion]

I absolutely agree, @Tomcat. Thanks for the book recommendation. Will definitely check it out.

[Lion]

Day 20:

• Added the Aegis subliminal to my EmperorQ+Emperor Fitness ST1 stack. No viral issues at all so thought I would help speed up the removal of COVID.

• Felt a slight tingling in my knees 3 times. Each time it lasted only a few seconds (possibly 2 or 3 seconds). I first felt it in the morning when my playlist was running EmperorQ (before even knowing that Aegis was in the works). And the other two times when running Aegis. For a moment I was wondering whether my growth plates where being opened up lol. Would love a height increase.

[Lion]

Day 21:

• The sequence of dreams I had yesterday night were all connected by a common plot. I don’t remember all of them but one involved me trying to flirt with a woman who was flirting with me but somehow ended up making her annoyed. I didn’t feel bad about it though. And the second was a long trip trying to get to a place using loads of buses since one bus wasn’t enough to go directly to the desired destination. I don’t remember whether I reached the place or not.

• With the quarantine in India and having all the shops closed on Sunday, I decided to resurrect the One Meal A Day (OMAD) diet. It went very well. I even reduced the amount I eat on my Sunday cheat meal so am pretty proud of that. Have also planned to level up and do OMAD+Keto on the weekdays. Interesting to note that my past identity of being a foodie is slowly eroding away. As much as I love food, am realizing that there is more pleasure to be had in a healthy body.

• Did NOT practice Meditation for 2 days. So will restart that tomorrow.

[Lion]

• Now that I think of it, it is possible that Aegis inspired me to start OMAD+Keto. It is known that both of them improve our immune system and that too much eating weakens our immunity. No wonder that it subtly pushed me to try this out. It felt very natural too without any internal resistance.

[Lion]

Day 22:

• Have been waking up for 2 days with a feeling of thirst on my lips and throat. Since am playing these subs both day and night, I need to drink more water. I already drink 3 litres of water a day due to doctor’s orders but with the subs, I might need more.

• Other than that, I do feel excellent in terms of health.

• I don’t feel as hungry as before while practicing OMAD. I have 2 cups of green tea with lemon (no sugar ofcourse) in the morning and afternoon. In addition to loads of water.

[Lion]

• Had an urge to reorganize my living space since yesterday. Giving into the desire right now. Insert Limitless-movie-Bradley-Cooper-arranging-his-house-after-taking-NZT-montage like scene

[friday]

Here you go