I ran 5min LB and 5min GLM.
A good balance of feminine acceptance and masculine resilience.
I am going strong with my daily self care routine:
-Full body oil massage for lubrication and protection of outer layers of the body.
-Joints exercises releasing trapped air
-5 tibetans for flexibility, strength and release of trapped energy and increased energy flow.
-Mantras chanting for activation of energy centers and release of deep energy blocks and tapping into my inner self.
-Cooking multi grain muesli with fruits, nuts, spices and homemade ghee for extra deep lubrication and nourishment inside the body.
-Homemade caffeine free spiced chai with a spoon of ghee in it.
I’ve never had so much energy and clarity in my life, I can feel great progress in my self discovery everyday.
I tried a loop of LB and GLM again yesterday but I’m not sure at this point that subliminals are necessary for me.
I am doing other kinds of meditations that I will not mention publicly here that are helping me tap into my higher cosmic self and restructuring my entire being all the way to my genetic makeup, and this is a reason that subliminals don’t really have such a powerful impact on me anymore, they have the kind of impact that a good strong conversation with a friend would have, for comparison’s sake.
Life has never felt better and this is only the begining, I am being prepared for something much bigger, the blindfolds will come off soon, could be months, could be another year or two, but the timeframe doesn’t matter anymore I am enjoying so much the way my life is unfolding at the moment.
Peace and love to all and best wishes on your journeys of self improvement.
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Hottest days of the whole summer in Oslo, it’s 28c unbelievable!! It was just 19c few days ago, crazy jump!
I’m leaving tomorrow for a one week retreat in kundalini yoga with that same master, it’s a two hour drive close to the border with Sweden, a beautiful retreat center in the forest.
Everyday keeps giving so much, I was talking today with my best friend about how happy and incredible the unfolding of our life has been and continues to be, it’s like every moment is holding more and more juice, my lifelong depression and feeling of longing for a better life, a more healed empowered version of myself is getting smashed in the teeth, I’m finally enjoying every moment so much that I can release expectations and it’s a feedback loop of releasing and realizing the perfection of my life even with the things that are still holding me back, realizing the perfection of the timing of my unfolding self and the recognition of the experiences necessary to go forward.
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Back from ‘Kundalini retreat’.
Only two things I can say about it.
When the two opposite forces are resolved, a third force arises, the innate intelligence of the absolute for the service of all.
Only the shed tears of my oneness-heart can truly do justice to the experience I just had during this week.
And tears were shed, fires were burned, the earth shook, and our spirit strong and tall stood firm in the truth of the eternal moment.
Om Shanti Shanti Shanti
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Writing a journal is so interesting, reading previous posts and remembering what head space I was in is fascinating.
I’ve had a great week, daily discipline on point, it’s been over a month now of this focused routine, I also added 3 rounds of sun salutations along the 5 tibetans practice.
A few days ago I cleared up my room and switched up furniture, I had been wanting to do this for over 6 months and I also finally took off the ugly flower wallpaper on the ceiling that’s been bothering me since I moved in here last year. The vibe is super clear and uplifted now, I threw away lots of junk and stuff I’ve held on for years, I feel so renewed and comfortable in this space and my meditative practice can go deeper.
I haven’t experienced a “down” in my mood in a while now and the awareness of my higher wider self is growing and I feel that I am less and less affected by older more negative emotions/vibrations/thought patterns whether my own or other’s.
I have been running on and off mostly LB and Sanguine with a little GLM, I can’t feel the subs affecting me as much as I used to due to increased overall awareness and energy but I do notice subtle effects when I go about my life, I still see it as a great help at this point to keep this part of my being (deeper mind) positively influenced to counteract all the negative subconscious influences I get exposed to unknowingly and knowingly in the world as well as unconsciously picking up from other people when going about my day in the city.
I see subs as a positive thought-shower now.
After a few days break from subs and overall very light exposure the last 3 weeks I ran LBFH today and my mood greatly improved, I enjoyed it all day and felt very light and happy, it’s so different than LB and feels more potent to me right now, I guess because it spreads love around so I feel a strong flow of outgoing positive energy instead of a more introverted self centered love, more circulation of energy feels more satisfying, from the inside out, I wonder what the combo LB and LBFH would feel like.
Later in the day I felt an urge to use subs again more seriously and the inspiration that came was Phoenix. It’s a very potent deeply transforming and fast acting sub + the reframing of the past feature is exactly what I’m looking for right now to dive deeper and clear older sticky layers in my energy field.
I didn’t use it for very long when I got it, I think not even one cycle but I remember powerful effects so I ran a full loop tonight and holy cow I went straight into a trance like state and felt a very positive relaxing current of energy going all the way down my spine, it was very enjoyable and the whole loop went by very quickly.
I feel peaceful and focused, I’m looking forward to running a cycle with this, I want to stick to only one sub or two at most, it’s difficult to choose, I’ll let myself be guided throughout as usual and not limit myself to what the official instructions are since those are general safe posts.
I’m tempted to try the hammer method from Subzero, I read somewhere he runs loooots of loops, I wouldn’t do as much as he does but I’m tempted by a more intense experiment, I’ll see how I feel about this and if it comes naturally one of these days, not sure it’s necessary for me.
Good thing is I know very well by now how the subs affect me and because of very high flow factor I get immediate results and full loops has never been an issue.
Symptom of overexposure is clear to me, it’s a very uncomfortable brain overdrive, fog, mental agitation and the only symptom that is hard to dodge and only sleep alleviates it.
Recon is easy to deal with because of the intense focus on spiritual pursuit these last 15 years I am very familiar with my edge/shadows/pains/weaknesses/blocks, so recon is a great way for me to participate more actively in the integration, take a deep breath and surf the wave underwater taking me to wonderful new uncharted lands once I’m back above the surface whereas no recon usually means I’m riding a very positive upward wave taking in the glory of the sunshine and the view on the horizon.
I’m going for another dose of subs today to create a strong imprint and will take 2 days off after this.
8min Phoenix
1min LB
1min LBFH
Second day off subs today.
I woke up in the middle of the night with kundalini activation, very excited, I’m getting to a big pocket of old very painful feelings, once it bursts it will be life changing, reality shifting to a very great extent, it’s scary and exciting, I’ve been waiting my whole life and putting so much effort for this, it’s getting real and I’m looking forward for bubbles to pop.
I also went this morning to a three hour kundalini tantra yoga class with my favorite master, this was her last class in Norway for the year, she is going back to Bali in a few days and will come back next august as usual. It was powerful and intense as usual, lots of release and integration to be had for the next day or two.
The world is about to experience the greatest event in history, it’s happening soon and the whole world will talk about it, to me it means the beginning of the most delightful time in my life, I’m looking forward for it to happen so I can share more about it and what it means for all of us.
I had massive cravings yesterday, some emotional stuff coming out of nowhere I was eyeing cakes as if I had spent last years on a desert island with no food, crazy, so I indulged and ate a lot of candies, sweets, ice cream, coffee and pizza.
I also went crazy with subs and listened to a full loop of Paragon at first, and then went on to small loops from 1-5min of LB, LBFH, Primal, Phoenix, BDLM and full loop Ascension Chamber throughout the day.
I remember the previous evening looking at the subs I own and trying to decide what to listen to and out of 14 I own I really wanted to run at least 10 of them very much.
I want to listen to more today but I will try to resist the temptation and let everything bloom for a couple of days until I make a decision to either run specific subs or not run any sub at all until I can decide clearly what I need.
Right now I’m in a state of wanting everything!!
I feel truly amazing today. I’ve done more exercises than usual both in my physical practice and spiritual practice.
I feel full of energy and very grounded, full of love and positivity.
I just remembered what I wrote on the Paragon thread a while back, that if one doesn’t know what sub to run then this one is a no brainer, gives a lot of energy and feelings of wellbeing and improve sleep which I really felt last night considering the amount of exposure I had to subs, I slept very very well, so I decided that I will run Paragon tomorrow in a traditional listening schedule until I figure out what other subs to run.
Paragon loop today makes me feel very heavy, it really is as if I’m 5kg more suddenly, it’s hard to move around but I’m also enjoying how slow I feel in my movement, makes me feel more grounded.
I also decided to just keep going with Phoenix so I ran one loop of it as well.
I will try sticking to these two for a cycle see what Phoenix can bring up and add short loops of other titles as boosters, I’m thinking mostly LB/LBFH and GLM.
Yesterday 1min LB and 1min LBFH
Today 15min Phoenix and 15min Sanguine The Elixir
Today on my second day off subs.
Since the temperatures have started falling and the summer vibe is over I’m spending way more time inside and a lot of time on the forum, my use of subs has also increased but at the same time is very eclectic, all over the place, I look at the subs I own and I just see how each of them has something great to offer so I can’t pick one and end up exposing myself to many of them in short periods of time.
Which is why I have to take 2 days off subs again.
A healer I met a week ago told me she could see I’m going to have a huge breakthrough this autumn, that my root and sacral chakras will open and I will finally have access to my creative energy and it will help me see clearly what I really want to do in my life, it will give me direction which is something I’ve lacked my entire life.
Needless to say I am very excited for the future!!
One full loop Phoenix.
This is the only sub I seem to be able to stick with these days.
Followed by 5min Godlike Masculinity
+Full loop Sanguine the Elixir
Two day ago: 1 loop Paragon + 1min LB
Today: 1 loop Phoenix + 1 loop Sanguine Elixir
Before listening I looked at my sub playlist and still wasn’t sure what to run, I meditated for a little while and went for the ones I have already listened to for a week now, Phoenix and Sanguine Elixir, I seem to be stabilizing on listening to these 2 as main titles for now.
I’m having a hard time finding a stability at the moment, whether it’s choosing what subs to listen to or anything else in my life.
I feel really good from this combo so far.
I felt like running another sub today instead of a rest day so I went ahead with one loop of GLM, it gave me an instant boost of energy and clarity, my mood is greatly uplifted and I feel strong and pumped as if I had just done a workout, amazing sub.
I had an unexpected invite to lunch with my friend’s family so I ran a booster dose of both LBFH and Daredevil 1min each, it was very uplifting and exactly what I needed to help me get more socially excited/invested in the interactions.
I now feel the few subs listened to for two days in a row piling up and a light overexposure symptom in the form of overly active mental energy, I will take my own advice I posted on a different thread and lie down for an hour in complete silence to process it all in deep relaxation, I’m looking forward to the dive, let’s goooo!!
After lying down for an hour I feel so refreshed and integrated, it’s truly amazing, deep relaxation with awareness is the best kind of meditation for me at this point in my journey, I get to process so much in such a short amount of time.
I had dinner and afterwards a proper meditation sitting for 40min and I just feel really great, I’m about to have another hour meditation now because I’m working on a special project for the planet on different dimensions for the last week which explains all the ups and downs and agitation I’ve been through, but it’s starting to stabilize and something major has opened, things are about to get really exciting in the world.
I had a random dream with D Trump two nights ago, I felt the danger surrounding his presence and told my friend we should stay far from him because it feels very unsafe around him as in he is getting a lot of attention from dangerous threatening sources.
Weird because politics and the world through media lens is something I care the least about and pay no attention to and do not follow. The only thing I saw about this was 2 weeks ago a youtube thumbnail saying there was some shooting attempt at him, which explains my dream.
I sort of like the guy, I find him funny, and if he is getting that much bad attention I guess he must be doing something right, not a political judgement whatsoever, because I’ve never seen anyone in my life applying to be a president and actually deserving that role, which is the reason I never voted and played this silly game.
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