[SOLO] Tarmicle's Journey with The Incredible Experimental EmperorQ

Subliminal Club LABS: Public Experimental Testing
#13

Day 3
Loops: 7
Versions: Ultrasonic only

Today has been a more balanced experience. EmperorQ felt different. You guys probably know what I’m talking about. Let’s get into it.

Career

  • Today has been also a productive day. I felt the urge to close all loops. I simply could not let a task to remain open. A little less commitment than yesterday but, still, a great day.

  • Intense strategic thinking. I’m noticing my thoughts are more and more deliberate and strategic. Machiavellian, even. I’m constantly planning and evaluating. That’s something that I used to do before, but now it’s more intense.

  • Remember the colleague I “mentored” yesterday? Today someone made a comment about my role at the company. Surprisingly I didn’t care, I didn’t feel attacked like I generally feel. The comment just brush off of me. I didn’t care. I thought it was just too stupid to care. Most importantly, the colleague in I mentored stood by my side. She answered the comment for myself, defending me. Coincidence?

  • I feel a constant urge to get things done, but I must confess the feeling is way less pronounced than Emperor4. With Emperor4 I was literally trying stuff just to see what happened. Zero fucks given. EmperorQ is way softer, less raw power and more sophisticated, perhaps? I liked the raw power I felt with EmperorQ and I miss it here a little bit. I still feel a little restrain sometimes. We’ll see, we’re just at the beginning.

  • I find myself wanting to help my team members a little more than I use to. I fell that’s my rensponsability.

Social

  • Oddly, I don’t feel constant sexual attraction, at least not as when I was running Khan. I don’t even try with girls because I know I’m going to get them (oh boy, did I just said that? :joy: Well, I’m just being 100% honest). Maybe it’s just because they’re not 8-9 or 10.

  • Sometimes I’m very attracted to a girl, but two minutes later I don’t care that much. It’s like my sexual instincts are coming and going in stretches. Does it make sense?

  • Sometimes I jus want to speak my mind, even if that’s not appropriate. Sometimes I want to share my deepest thoughts. I can’t care less about what others think. This is incredible. I always ALWAYS gave 100 fucks about what others thought of me. Trying to be liked. Now, I don’t care. I seem awkward? I don’t care. I always wanted to be this way. But I must be careful not to take this too far. Interesting.

Personal Relationships

  • I feel more dominant with my wife. This evening she was a little bitchy. Don’t know why. Normally I would let my insecurities kick in and I’d try to cheer her up, trying to be “a good husband”, please her, making everything even worse. Not today. She was being a bitch, I didn’t care. I realized she was just testing me: “Is this guy being shaken by me?”. Not today. Surprisingly, she opened herself after a while and returned to her feminine.

We’ll see what tomorrow brings.

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#14

I do have that very often. I look at their eyes and I just fell in love. 2 minutes later, looking from a wider angle where I see her whole body, I often lose interest.

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#15

Day 4
Loops: 7
Versions: Ultrasonic only

Enter, The Commander.

Career

  • Turns out, I’m starting to get itchy about people slacking around and wasting their time. Today I literally told one of my colleague: “Stop shitting around and do it”. With a smile, but I meant it. Well, she did! Can it be better than this?

  • My hunger levels are higher than usual. Interestingly, though, I’ve been more regular with my meals. I don’t like to eat between meals and I’m craving structure and predictability in my eating habits.

  • Today I had what I think it was my first meaningful manifestation! I had a big EUREKA! moment at work. I’ve found a useful framework that will save me a ton of time. It seems EmperorQ is helping me with my creativity and lateral thinking. Is it more heavy on the Limitless side?

  • All of sudden, I want to speak in public. Now that’s a new one! Me? :joy: Soon I’ll have to present our company’s new brand strategy. Normally, I’d just make a document and discuss it with my the team. This time I prepared a freaking speech! With slides and all. I also often imagine myself speaking to a crowd, motivating people.

Social

  • Remember that guy who like to made jokes about everybody (including me)? He stopped doing that with me. I can feel his respect towards me, now. I can feel he understood who’s the alpha. I can’t explain it guys. I just see from his body language he gave up, he stopped trying and acknowledged my dominance. This is incredible! Have you ever felt this way?

We’ll see what tomorrow brings.

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#16

I am hardly finding time to read all the journals I want as life is pretty busy right now. But I do come back to read yours every day. There are some parallels I see in our journey, where I either think: Oh so true, that is something I noticed too! or which inspire me to push forward in certain areas. Keep going, with those daily updates!

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#17

Thank you brother! I appreciated it very much. I also look forward to read your journal every day. :slight_smile:

That’s the same thing I thought about your experience. Especially regarding the differences with Khan, which it seems we both feel more or less in the same way. :slight_smile:

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#18

Day 5
Loops: 8
Versions: Ultrasonic only

“Okay, how can we improve this?”

Career

Today, something odd happened at work.

I’m not going to annoy you with details, I’ll just sum up what happened.

Me and my CEO we were working together on a graphic project, which she approved. So, I shared it and made it public. She said “I think we’re good” and I meant just that: we’re good, let’s proceed.

So I did.

Before, I’d probably double check if the project had a green light.

This time I didn’t. I felt that was the most intelligent thing to do and I just went for it.

Turns out, she wanted to think that through a little more.

As a result, I was called in her office and she went on saying that I, well, screwed up.

Do you know what’s the best part?

Normally, I’d freak out. “Oh my god, what I was thinking!” I would feel embarrassed.

Well, not this time.

She went on explaining that we had a communication problem (although she is never available, even after my several requests).

I was completely unaffected.

I said: “Okay, next time it’s better if we understand each other better. Because by your actions I took that as a green light”.

She started giving up excuses, I just felt her embarrassment.

I didn’t budge. I was completely calmed and relaxed.

Not happy, se decided to show the project to the whole team, asking for the opinion of everyone. I am no graphic designer, but I like to make stuff with Illustrator from time to time. So I offered myself to create this project (even though I told her she’d better hire a professional).

The whole team went on and judged the design. Nobody liked it. Every single one went on explaining what was wrong about it.

In another life, I’d freak out. I’d felt hurt, embarrassed, judged. I’d feel so bad that I’d probably been hurt for days and probably build up extreme resentment.

Instead, this time I just said: “Okay, how can we improve this?”

I was detached.

In the end I said: “See, you should have hired a professional. Like I said.”

Guys, this is incredible. You can’t imagine the liberation I’m experiencing. I feel confident, I feel superior. If THAT didn’t affect me, nothing can’t hurt my confidence. Not anymore. I simply don’t give a shit about people’s opinion and all I care is the final result.

@SaintSovereign and @Fire you did something incredible. It’s just a few days and you fixed years of bullshit that I took with me since forever.

Thank you! :slight_smile:

Social

  • As mentioned, I now feel extremely confident and dominant around people. Yet, I’m respectful, I am not arrogant. I used to be, when I felt hurt. Now, I am fearless, relentless, unforgiving but I do I enjoy leading people forward. This is only the beginning with EmperorQ, and also a test, but I know at this very moment EmperoQ is giving me the tools to achieve my goals as a manager and as a leader.

  • I feel like I don’t belong to my team. They’re good people but I can’t help but see them as different. We’re playing totally different games.

Have you guys ever felt that?

We’ll see what tomorrow brings.

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[STACKED] The King Test EmperorQ
#19

Day 6
Loops: 9-10
Versions: Ultrasonic only

Libido and Revenge.

Social

  • Yesterday I had dinner with my colleagues. I felt relaxed and confident. Overall I enjoyed the night out. At one point however, there’s this wannabe alpha (the funny guy) who starts to mock me as he does with everybody. Normally, I’d just laugh with the jokes and play along. This time I don’t. Every time he makes a joke on me, I mock him back. However, my jokes aren’t that witty and creative. Actually a couple are a little lame. But I always counterattack, now. And yet, I’m holding back. I feel bad about hurting people, because maybe I always been the kid bullies loved to make fun of and I don’t want to do it. I just feel superior to this shit. I don’t feel that need to show how much cool I am. So, I hold back. However, I need to counterattack or people will never know what lines cannot be crossed. Do you guys ever experienced a similar situation?

  • I feel more compassionate towards others. I’m guessing EmperorQ has a module for that. Specifically, I feel in need to help people grow and accomplish stuff.

  • Today at work things changed a bit. Time to revenge! I just came up with a joke that was a little mean for the funny guy. I didn’t want to say that at first (see above). This time however I dropped the bomb. He just repeated what I said and laughed. He just couldn’t answer it. It felt good, then I hated it. Is this how insecure-aggressive people feel every time? In constant need to show off? I can’t stand it. It’s just stupid. Still, we interact in a workplace. I can’t just say “enough of your bullshit”. You’ve got to take it with style. To be 100% honest, I don’t feel I belong with this people. I want more responsibility.

Personal Relationships

  • Surprisingly my libido is low. I feel like I’m not getting the stimuli I’m after. I don’t feel attraction to the majority of women I meet. With Khan, I’d feel sexual attraction even for my female colleagues and my CEO. But now I don’t feel it anymore. Could it be that I’m raising my bar with women? Could it be that EmperorQ is suggesting me that I deserve more?

  • It’s been almost a week since I last masturbate. Normally I’d masturbate at least every 2-3 days. Interesting.

Career

  • Today at work, I set aside my tasks for a couple of hours, instead I carried out a couple of personal projects. At first I thought: “Are you crazy? You want to become a manager; how are you supposed to get a promotion if you do personal stuff at work?” Well the answers is: because my efficiency allows me to do so. I’ve always valued efficiency. But now, with EmperorQ, the way I’m experiencing the manifestations and my own thinking, I start to see inefficiency as something that pulls time and energy away from me. So if my current work is about waiting for feedback or doing trivial, supportive tasks which don’t add to the end result of the project, I’d rather use this time to do stuff meaningful for my life. And if my tasks at work end up to pile up because of this, I’m confident I’ll use my energy and efficiency to compensate for this. I don’t know if that makes even sense, I’m just putting down what I’m experiencing, my thoughts and feelings.

  • Since yesterday I conceded myself a night out, I got home pretty late and I didn’t get much sleep. Surprisingly, this morning I had the same energy as every other day.

  • I just realized I suddenly stopped doing negative self-talk. And I think it’s been a couple of days now. Amazing. Even when I try to do negative self-talk—the kind I always used to do—I think to myself: “thats bullshit”.

We’ll see what tomorrow brings.

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#20

Outstanding report. I can’t say too much, but you’re definitely executing the script as intended.

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#21

Thanks @SaintSovereign! Well, all I’m doing is sharing what’s happening to me during the day, as well as my thoughts and feelings :slight_smile:

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#22

Day 7
Loops: 6
Versions: Ultrasonic only

Dominance, Fear and Tears

Personal Relationships

Last night, something sad happened.

Every time I get home, my wife jumps into my arms. I love it. It’s the best moment in my entire day. Last night, was no exception.

So I get home, my wife hugs me and kisses me. I have to workout, but I’m tired. The night before I hadn’t much sleep. I decide to skip my day, so I can stay with my wife a bit more.

The night goes beautifully. We laugh. We’re having a great time together.

At one moment, however, things take a bad turn. We talk about something we hear at the TV. We share opinions. We confront. The conversation heats up. We argue. We fight for the dumbest thing in the world. She’s angry.

I approach her. I had a couple of glass of wine.

She says: “leave me alone!” and goes away from me. I take her arm. I’m in the heat of the moment and I’m not thinking straight. But one thing I know.

All I want in this moment is to DOMINATE her.

I grab both of her arms. My grip is so tight that she can barely move. She punches me on my chest. She’s screaming. “I’m gonna kick you in your balls”, she says and so she does.

But I don’t move. I let her go. She goes in the corner. She cries. “You hurt me”, she says in tears.

I come back to myself. I say: “I’m sorry… I’m so sorry… I just wanted to calm you down. I wanted you to feel my strength so you’d calm down”. “All you did was scare me”.

At firsts, I didn’t want to tell you this. I’m so embarrassed. I feel shame for myself for what happened. But in the end I decided I’d write about this because there’s one thing I must share with you.

Which is that EmperorQ is very powerful. And with power comes responsibility, like Uncle Ben used to say.

Understand: I am NOT saying that EmperorQ will make you want to beat women. It didn’t in my case. Yet, I felt the need to dominate very clearly. So happens that I was a little drunk and my conscious mind couldn’t see the difference between positive dominance and aggressive dominance. The line was a little blurred.

I’m not sure but, I think EmperorQ is neutral. It doesn’t know what is good, and what is bad.

YOU have to know that.

Sometimes this isn’t easy. But imagine what you could do knowing that you have this power already within you. All you need to do is set a direction, a good one, unleash it and see reality bending before you.

I shall learn from this experience and use it to enhance my awareness.

By the way, me and my wife we made peace. Usually, she would still be angry now. I don’t know. Today she’s been as loving as she can be. We’re having fun as usual. I’m not completely excluding that she liked that dominance, a little bit.

Career

  • Today I studied for my upcoming exam. I’ve found no problem concentrating and had a productive morning. No work today so I don’t have much news in this regard. I’ll get back to the office on Monday.

  • I think my spending habits are improving. This morning I made a saving plan for the year.

Social

  • This morning we went shopping, my wife and I. I am definitely more confident around people I don’t know, now.

  • Swagger walk! :stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye:

  • Extreme eye contact. I have a feeling people are almost intimidated by my look?

  • I slept very well this night. I don’t sleep more, but I sleep more deeply.

  • Except a dream about my CEO a few days go, I haven’t had any dreams in the last couple of days. That’s a pity, I’d really like to remember them.

We’ll see what tomorrow brings.

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Main Discussion Thread - Q
#23

Thank you so much for sharing this. This forum should be a safe place where you can express all your feelings, results and also concerns without any judgements.

There are no relationships without fights. You should not be ashamed of what happened. You did not beat your wife and it sounds like you actually are really in love with her.

I admire that you expressed yourself, made sure there is no miscommunication by sharing your thoughts and by being vulnerable. That’s a great quality to have. Be proud of that. Also, you seemed to calm your wife down with that openness leading to her expressing her thoughts. That’s some genuine communication between you two.

Yes, EmperorQ is very powerful, it makes you question yourself, your actions and at the same time, it tells you the boldest powerful guy on this planet. This is an emotionally irritable cocktail which can easily lead to such events. While the newer version has support scripting that makes you experience less reconciliation, reconciliation is still happening even if it is subtle. On my first day of listening to EmperorQ, I had a major fight. I ended up shouting and at the end crying like a baby. EmperorQ is no easy subliminal to run, we cannot forget that.

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#24

Beautiful action taking and very detailed journal, great job man!

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#25

Thank you for being honest and sharing that. It’s helpful to see both sides of the subliminal

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#26

For this very reason I’m so grateful of being here, sharing my journey with you guys and also learning from your experiences. :slight_smile:

Thank you for your kind words and understanding. :slight_smile:

Yes, absolutely.

Thank you for sharing that. It seems that EmperorQ made a powerful impact on your emotions as well. I’d love to hear more about it, if you’re comfortable with sharing it.

Thank you @Flake_And_Milk I appreciate it :slight_smile:

Thank you @ALoveSupreme. I agree. That originally the reason why in the end I decided to share the story with you, :slight_smile:

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#27

I posted it in my journal but wasn’t so detailed as you.

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#28

Oh, sure. I remember I read about it in your journal. I didn’t remember that was the same event, which happened on the fist day. :slight_smile:

I’m glad everything is ok now. :slight_smile: It happens to me as well. I believe that we react emotionally to events that matters greatly to us. The fact that you opened yourself to her and you were honest only shows your maturity, your courage and that you love her very much. Also you expressed your reasons clearly, which is also a great sign of how much you value yourself and that you’re shaping your reality.

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#29

Thank you :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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#30

Day 8
Loops: 9 (also run while sleeping)
Versions: Ultrasonic only

Serenity, Power Games and Cookies

Personal Relationships

  • Today I did something unexpected of me. I made cookies! Now, I won’t lie to you, I’m not that good at cooking. I’d call my cooking skills “essentials”, and that’s a compliment! Still, it was fun and I had a good laugh with my wife with all that flower and chocolate.

  • I spent the whole afternoon with my wife and our dog. We had a walk and watch a TV shows. Usually, I’d feel a generalized sense of personal power. Today, I had the opposite feelings. I felt warmth, bond and serenity.

  • This morning I woke up feeling very well rested. I used to sleep a bit more and yet felt sleepy. Today, my stress levels are really low and I feel alert, yet calm.

Career

  • Today wasn’t work day. Still, I worked the entire morning here at home. There was something I had to do at the office but forgot, so I did it today. Normally I would just wait until tomorrow and do it at the office. This time I decided to do it anyway, even if it wasn’t a work day. On Friday I used the time at the office to do some personal work. At home today I did work I’m supposed to do at the office. Could it be that I just manifested my confidence to catch up with work? I had some issues with some tools; normally I’d feel irritated by it. This time, all I felt was focus, flow, no emotions. Very interesting. I wonder how cool it would be, if my work days and my days off would make no difference. Being at work wouldn’t be so frustrating because I could carry on other projects during dead times, and being at home could ignite inspiration for meaningful work. Interesting!

  • Overall, I feel a subtle sense of possibility and discovery. I love this feeling!

  • I’d love to make a speech! I feel the need to lead and inspire people and this feeling is getting stronger and stronger as the days pass.

  • Interestingly, I’m inspired by stories of sacrifice, war and honor. I’ve found myself surfing online in the last couple of days, looking for war stories, diplomacy, strategy both at court and in the battlefield, and so on. Especially from the Roman Empire. Can’t tell you why. I’m more attracted to intrigues, social ability as well as pure violence. I seek info about it and also in entertainment (I started watching shows like The Last Kingdom , Vikings and Rome). Now that I think about this, I think I just realized I’m very much attracted to POWER.

We’ll see what tomorrow brings.

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#31

Wow @Tarmicle… thank you very much for your journal entries, very detailed, raw and unfiltered. EmperorQ looks like an absolute beast of a subliminal.

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#32

Thanks @Michel! To be honest, all I’m doing is describe my day :slight_smile: Your journal on the other hand, is extremely insightful. I love to read your entries :slight_smile:

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