Seraphim’s 2024 journal

Journals - Major Programs
#41

Day 4 of 12.
Khan ST4 15 min
DD 7 min
Primal 7 min.

Workout: Partial range pull-ups 3x10
L-sit pull-ups 1x7.

I like to stick with 2 and sub hop the 3rd title freely. These 3 are another great combo. I don’t know the scripts and haven’t read much of the synergy thread but my guess is DD has a synergy module in it as it was advertised to blend well with any stack. Just my speculation.

Here’s what I like from the Khan copy.

A two-fold function will be developed on ST4 – a complete, true independence, self-sufficiency and self-reliance is created, ensuring that no matter what the situation is, you will be able to handle it. But at the same time, Khan ST4 has extensive social and professional manifestation, helping you expand your network and create powerful strategic connections that advance all your ambitions. Combined, this creates a profound synergistic effect of true independence and yet being able to sway kingdoms with your words and connections.

And from the objectives list.

  • Develop natural leadership qualities and sharpen your strategic planning abilities, planning your conquests and endeavors with the acumen and foresight of a true Khan.
  • Master handling conflicts assertively and effectively, maintaining control and respect in challenging situations.
  • Strengthen your resilience to face challenges head-on, using obstacles as stepping stones towards your personal and professional goals.
  • Enhance your ability to make swift, intuitive decisions, trusting in your inner wisdom and judgment for optimal outcomes.
  • Encourage self-sufficiency and independence, fostering autonomy and a strong sense of self-reliance.
  • Actively expand your social and professional networks, making strategic connections that advance your personal and career ambitions.
  • Align your habits, environment, and relationships with a lifestyle that reflects abundance, success, and an elevated status, embodying the essence of a successful Khan.
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#42

On night shift this week.

I’ve been been utilizing the N/S supervisor as a mentor in how to deal with people and also how to present issues to management in the most effective manner. I’ve had a couple of long visits with him this week.

We brainstormed a few ideas regarding an ongoing issue regarding air quality so he wrote an email and sent it to the big bosses with 3 possible solutions to the problem and made it sound like all 3 ideas were mine even though the 3rd idea was his.

This reinforces the motto of taking action to speed up results. The only “action” I initially took was approaching him regarding supervision skills. It’s unknown the after effects of the email sent but at the very least I have learned a lot the past few days and feel meaning, purpose, and momentum.

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#43

May 1 day 5 of 12 listening days.
Khan ST4 15 min.
Primal and DD 9 min each.

Workout: Standing OH press 135x8. Decided to not go with 155 due to wrist pain that’s been off and on for awhile.
Pronation curls 3x35x16.
Band push downs 3x20.

These 3 subs seem like a hyper masculine stack for me which is what I want. As long as it doesn’t make me too aggressive which so far it hasn’t. DD helps add social fluidity to Khan and combined with Primal it helps with having fun in general.

If I listen to hard rock on my morning commute I tend to drive more aggressively. It really helps get me fired up for the day but I have to consciously guide patience while driving to hard rock through.
On the way home it’s country to help wind down.

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#44

May 9. Listening day 9 of 12
Khan ST4 and DD 15 min each.
ASBR 7 min.

Signed up for an improv class. It runs every Sunday in June. It’s level 1 of 4. Not sure if I will complete all 4 levels. Level 1 should give me an idea.

Doing it to increase my social skills and I felt inspired to try it out from listening to various podcasts. Looking forward to it, should be fun.

Did toastmasters for a year back in 2013/2014. It was good for learning public speaking and getting over the fear of it. The topics were boring after awhile. I did win a speech contest though which was cool.

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#45

This short animated film called the Kingdom has some powerful symbolism in it regarding the dark and the light.

Almost makes me want to run something like The Alchemist once it’s updated which hopefully isn’t for awhile as I want to stay on Khan ST4 for a few months at least.

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#46

the animation is fire!

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#47

May 10 rest/processing day.
Experienced anger at work for the morning. Was frustrated with the shitty job I was doing. Was thinking I’m better than this shit. After lunch it cleared up and felt better.

May 11: Khan ST4/Chosen 15 min each. DD 7 min.
Workout. LB squat 315x8. Current goal is 315x10.

Overall it’s been a pretty good day. Got out of that same task from yesterday and over to the assembly side. Have had good flow today.

Sometimes I feel trapped in my job. It’s a good paying low stress job but still feel trapped due to mortgage payments. Not hurting for cash just not as well off as I want.

Would love to become location independent and spend more time in Mexico/Latin America especially during the winter. Just unsure how to get to that point just yet. I would have to 10x my stock portfolio to make enough to leave my current position.

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#48

May 13, listening day 11 of 12.
Khan ST4 15 min,
Chosen 9 min, DD 7 min.

Every 6 weeks at work I read the morning meeting agenda which includes a safety or knowledge share at the end of it. I always look forward to my turn and try to think up a good story to tell. There’s roughly 20 people there and 1 or 2 supervisors.

I can tell the others enjoy it when it’s my turn to read/share. Today the supervisor made a joke regarding my story from yesterday that also got a good laugh.

It is so worth working towards the mastery of story telling. It’s a good feeling being able to captivate a small crowd for a few min. My talks are usually 3-5 min whereas others are 30 seconds. I always use it as an opportunity to practice storytelling.

Would love to expand on this to take it further and become a professional speaker one day. Not sure how to go about it just yet but will any take opportunities that come my way.

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#49

May 14, processing day.
ETWTP 15 min, oops. Tomorrow is last day of cycle.

Today ETWTP seemed to magnify the harshness of Khan in a way. Read the objectives prior to the listen and some of them seem to parallel each other.

It was more IDGAF today than usual, perhaps a bit too much but it still felt good.

At the meeting this morning I got a shout out from one of the other techs that I helped yesterday, saying I had an aura of calm strong presence which made him feel at ease for a task he was unfamiliar with. He himself is a competent tech. Sounded like a good description of the Khan/Chosen combo.

Next cycle will most likely be Khan ST4/Chosen/DD.
Will drop ASBR as a main title but will probably run a booster mini loop of it here and there and of course boosters loops of PN.

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#50

May 16 first day of washout.

Had a dream last night in which it was revealed to me that I’m somewhat envious of others that have nice new trucks and campers. Thought I was over petty feelings of envy but it must be a subconscious feeling.

Surrenderd my feelings of envy to the divine.

While parked waiting for the bank to open I ran a 3 min loop of HOM and during the loop my boss texted about some OT so I signed up for an extra 6 hours tomorrow cha Ching.

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#51

I’ve only ran main programs thus far with subclub. If I were to build a wealth custom I would seriously consider ASBR and E:HOM. Haven’t read much of the Synergy thread yet but some of those seem pretty cool.

Ran both today during a day off as a test and cause it’s Friday why not. Today went quite well at work. Visited with people I normally don’t. My people skills were elevated more so today.

I put through a couple of trades today as well. Covered call contracts. Had more conviction putting them through today. Sometimes I hesitate or will put a limit order in well above asking price in hope that the stock will move enough to fill the order. Didn’t waste too much time trying to get the best price and I definitely didn’t get the best price of the day but that’s ok.

For those that don’t know a covered call contract is signing a contract to sell 100 shares of a stock at a certain price for a premium. If the stock price is above the strike price at expiration date then the shares get sold for that price. Either way I keep the premium from the sale of the contract.

I could see ASBR and HOM synergizing very well. The fame aura from SB would help with the building of strategic connections in HOM.

I also like the strategic connections building in Khan. Then there’s Daredevil for the story telling and voice enhancing effects. Perhaps a Khan/DD/Chosen custom one day too.

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#52

May 25. Listening day 3 of 12.
Khan ST4/Chosen 15 min each.
DD 7 min.

Workout pause squat 3x185x5. Deload day. Could probably use a deload week for sub usage too. This is the 5th day of current cycle and haven’t taken a day off yet. First rest day was WB/PN, second rest day ASBR/HOM 7 min each.

Poor sleep last night possibly due to over exposure. Will definitely take tomorrow off.

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#53

May 26: Rest/Processing day.

May 27. Listening day 4 of 12.
Khan ST4 10:30, DD/ASBR 6 min each.

Khan/Chosen/DD does resonate with who I want to become. Swapped Chosen with ASBR for today as a test. Could use the money scripting in SB and I do have Improv course coming up. Will closely monitor this and if I seem too harsh will swap back to Chosen.

Workout: Bobby Kennedy pull up/push up challenge.
50 pull ups/100 push ups. Have to complete all the pull-ups first before moving to push ups.

The challenge for men is 5:00 and for women 10:00.
I came in at 9:53, barely beating the women’s standard wow.

I don’t train pull-ups nearly enough so my standard was chin over the bar but not all the way down to dead hang.

Finished 25 pull-ups around 1:20. 50 took 6:20. Started with 5’s then from 30-50 were all singles. Gave myself 1 no rep but had there been a form judge I would have got 3-4 no reps.

Push ups went 25, 20, 10’s, then 5’s.

RFK can do this challenge in around 5 minutes. Couldn’t find footage of his pull-ups but his push up form wasn’t quite full ROM that’s why I allowed partial ROM on my pull ups.

May 25 was a rough morning due to recon/overexposure. Recon passed after lunch.

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#54

Today May 28 processing day.

One of our large rebuild components (40,000 lbs) has been in the yard a few weeks broken in half literally. They had to engineer a stand and come up with a plan to tear it apart safely.

Yesterday morning I found out I got nominated to disassemble it along with a young inexperienced but cool guy. We were having a meeting in 2 hours with supervisors and an engineer to go over the procedure.

In the couple hours before the meeting I calculated the weight of it minus the missing/broken components. Long story short is they altered their plans due to my preparation and conviction in my ideas.

So adding ASBR yesterday ended up being an intuitively great choice.

Just this morning I reread a birthday card from last august from my parents and it brought me to tears. I just didn’t let the compliments sink in at first read.

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#55

For the past 2 days at work an older fellow has mentioned to me if I ever were to perform at YukYuks to let him know when as he would come and watch me. “I just find you funny” he says.

I said as a matter of fact I have an improv course coming up next month.

When I was 16 I stayed with a family in the US for 8 months due to problems I was having at home. The mother of the house used to always tell me there’s a comedian just waiting to come out of you. She also knew I had a lot of anger inside back then. I carried that anger till a couple years ago.

Hmmm wait a minute I started with subclub a couple years ago. Must be a coincidence :grin:.

I’m free of so much that used to hold me back. My status at work is rising. The general branch manager who I see twice a year checked out my Linked In profile last week.

Big dream are a brewin. They are bigger than climbing the corporate ladder too.

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#56

May 29 listening day 5 of 12.
Khan ST4 7 min. DD/ASBR 5 min each.

Seen this video on inflation last night. About how the govt wants inflation to pay off the national debt. Scrolling through the comments are mostly negative about govt corruption etc but for some reason this video actually gave me hope. My mortgage payments will be a smaller % of my take home pay as wages rise along with inflation.

I also realized that I shouldn’t put to much importance in just fiat currencies.

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#57

May 31 listening day 6 of 12.
Khan ST4 9 min
Primal/DD 8 min each.
Workout: Squat 2x275x5. Didn’t feel like pushing it to the max.

I’ve decided that it’s no longer my vision to move up to lead hand/supervisor at my current place of work. The problem I would have with it is enforcing peckerhead rules that I don’t agree with. Don’t think I could be congruent if I had to pretend to be somebody I’m not. All for a marginal pay increase.

The 2 days I was involved in an out of the ordinary job were very fulfilling. When I’m doing routine tasks I can get into a flow state and find fulfillment that way but when there are roadblocks due to bullshit rules blocking my flow then it’s rather unfulfilling.

I would be much more fulfilled going back to the field where I can be an ace troubleshooter.

I have a couple of trips planned this summer as well as improv the first 4 Sundays in June. If the improv is something I want to continue as in completing all 4 levels then it’s probably in my best interest to stay at my current role as it’s quite flexible for exchanging days off. If I don’t continue improv after June then will look to get back into the field after August.

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#58

June 6 listening day 9 of 12.
Khan ST4/E:TWTP 15 min each. DD 5 min.

On night shift this week. Been feeling like I have no power at work lately. Will be running E:TWTP as part of my stack the rest of this cycle.

Interestingly I’ve been feeling more spiritual tonight. Came across an affirmation to Center oneself when one feels like they are under attack from dark forces and it goes like this.

I know who I am in truth

I know what I am in truth

I know how I serve in truth

I am here I am here I am here.

I have come in love

I am love.

I believe it is from Paul Selig.

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#59

June 7 processing day.

Have been planning to get some bodywork/rust repair done on my truck for a few months now. It’s a 2007 Toyota tundra 5.7L. With the price and questionable reliability of new trucks decided to patch it up and keep it another 5 years.

Been putting off topping up my investing account this year thinking I’d need the cash for the repair bill.

Picked up the truck today and turned in the rental car. $3600 CAD for the repair and rental bill combined. My income tax return was $1900 and I got an unexpected carbon tax refund of $1000 (I am strongly opposed to a carbon tax btw). Also some recent overtime bumped my last cheque an extra $1000.

In a way it seems like I got the body work done for free as the bulk of the cash came from unexpected sources in a way as I somewhat expected to have to pay extra income tax this year instead of a nice return. Or at least that’s how I choose to frame it anyway.

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#60

June 8. Khan ST4/E:TWTP 15 min each. DD 5 min.

This marks the 2 year anniversary of subclub use. While playing the loops I read through the first 2 weeks of my written journal while working DR ST1. Ended up laughing out loud several times at the absurdity of it all. It sure wasn’t fun at the time but it’s fun to look back on it with humor and gratitude now.

My life looks different now. Back then my LTR was falling apart and it all felt hopeless because I felt like I couldn’t afford to live on my own. Was also paying child support back the and that is done now. Have my own place and a passionate lover that I am exclusive to. Neither one of us want to move in together because the being apart keeps the magic alive.

Perhaps it’s cyclical but last year at the 1 yr subclub anniversary I was starting to feel very good with confirmation that the subs really do work and now a year later starting to feel really dialed in again.

At one time I contemplated burning that journal due to fear of embarrassment if someone were to ever read it. Now I don’t give a shit. Don’t plan on showing it to anyone but if someone happened to read it I would feel no shame about any of it.

I now have an unshakable belief in myself that no matter what life throws at me, no matter what

I WILL PREVAIL!

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