SargeMaximus: Heart of Man (Heartsong, Primal, Executive, Paragon Ultima)

Journals - Major Programs
#41

So right now it feels like the calm before a storm. Also noticing I’m yearning for my idealistic “sorrowful” days. That’s when I was my most creative and when I wrote my book that I ended up self-publishing.

Just a few months ago I thought I was going back into that space again as I was writing and making art again but now I feel very rational and cold. Not sure if it’s me shedding a negative outlook or stonewalling Heartsong.

In other news my stock portfolio went up 2.94% today. Very pleased. I do believe my long positions are correct but seeing it happen is scary and exciting.

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#42

Yes. What is this? I too wonder about it. Is sorrow the creative juice of INFJs? Used to write a lot in that state. Even my funny stuff was more hilarious when am sad.

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#43

Yeah I think so because I always get super creative and can go on and on and very deep with it too

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#44

Back on the subs today. Heartsong and Primal Seduction. Still have some tinnitus but it seems it’s there on it’s own and since I know there are no ultrasonics in these two masked files, I’m playing them.

I do continue to think PS may not be what I’m after tho. In my mind PS is a dog chasing a car whereas I’m looking for a sub that will help me be a Sun. The sun doesn’t have to do anything, planets just revolve around it. I know you guys will say “That’s Wanted!!” But I think most of what Wanted has in it I already do, and the anti-porn elements will just be something I have to spend mental energy on combatting.

Just like with PS how I find myself drifting into trying to seduce women doing different things and the net effect is a weak frame that no girl wants it seems. I’ll give it another week and if things continue I’ll stop PS and re-assess.

#45

Just got back from getting groceries. Saw 2 instances of guys with tank tops and backwards baseball caps with cute gf’s. One guy was auschwich skinny, the other was built but not a body builder. Heavy set but not fat. Anyhow here’s me like a moron in my “style”. I swear women don’t care about good style, they like the “jobless highschool boy” look.

Anyhow, just as I got back to my car once I was done there were 2 guys near it. I didn’t get a good look at them. But the one yells “How are you wearing leather?! Man that’s hot!” I was wearing my leather jacket of course, and I assume his meaning was “it’s too hot out here to wear leather” but it seems like a bit of a Freudian slip and perhaps this guy is gay or bi.

Anyhow, that’s all for today. Staying home again because it is indeed hot out. It’s also Canada day.

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#46

Maybe an alpha sub instead of a seduction sub?

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#47

Yes I think so. Maybe Primal but then I’ll need a sub for attracting and manifesting women. Thinking Libertine for that. Stack would be Heartsong, Primal, Libertine, Executive

#48

Sounds good :+1: let’s see how it goes.

#49

I’ll have to wait tho. Havent worked at all this week due to the heat so don’t have the funds atm

#50

Oh OK. A few extra rest days wouldn’t hurt.

#51

I’m off my rest days. I used PS and Heartsong today

#52

I think Libertine would be great for you. Should get a lot more IOIs and weed out the time wasters.

#53

Especially with your style being more direct I feel like it complements that direct style perfectly putting your aura into that lustful state

#54

I hope so but in the past it seems direct is too much for daygame and I dont do bars. So I can only hope it works for online

#55

Felt some of my hate energy come back today. Mostly just annoyed at people.

When travelling home with my brother I ranted most of the way about how I hate socializing.

Definitely seem to be more like my old self these days. I’m assuming that’s Heartsong

#56

Still have slight barely noticeable tinnitus. Had it all day. I don’t want to have to stop the subs but perhaps I should for another day. It’s just today I think I started to get a handle on PS a bit and noticed some good aspects really shining through.

I’ll see how the tinnitus is tomorrow. It’s gotta be recon tho as I’ve only used the masked tracks on low volume this week.

#57

Are you looking to just pickup women or build an empire with one?

Also most women I know are somewhat attracted to looks, they care way more about personality and how you make them feel. The good ones have really good radars when someone is being inauthentic with them.

The hottest ones I know have their shit together and are either professionals or empire builders. You snag one or a couple of those up and you all could go really far in life. Have sex all over the world instead of in shitty apartments or medicore houses.

My two cents.

#58

Neither. I want to build an empire with MANY.

I’m always authentic, what’s your point?

Not sure what you’re getting at.

#59

Ehh ignore me. I can’t figure out how to write it out.

#60

In other news still got the tinnitus. Guess I’m off the subs for a while. Maybe I have an ear infection I dunno. It can’t be the masked subs