• I noticed this morning that my flacidity has more validity
Part of the reason that these synchronicities are bothering me is because normally I’m very good at discerning outer signs.
For example. I used to talk to a girl named Grace. I would always know if she was thinking about me or about to hit me up. I would see her name on license plates, billboards, blah blah blah. The same thing with countless other people. I almost always know when someone is thinking about me.
I’ve been talking with Palpy about the situation. I’m walking into the gas station and what do I see? A freaking gorgeous girl wearing glasses exactly like the girl in question wearing a bucket hat and she somewhat favors her. The last I saw the girl, I bought myself a bucket hat. I wore it like 5 seconds and she commandeered it and I never saw it again (looked better on her anyway).
When I see people/signs that remind me of someone, I usually get an idea of what is needed. If they need to talk, if they’re going through shit and want my attention/advice, whatever. I have a clue and I’m usually accurate. Sometimes I’ll get an impression that they’re about to text me and then ‘vvbbt vbbbt’ goes the telefonó.
This is such an unusual round of days and days of constant reminders that keep saying she’s thinking of me, she misses me, she needs me, whatever whatever.
I haven’t questioned my intuition this much for so long 
Edit: And now of course as I’m leaving the gas station, some lady is wearing identical pants to some flowery pants that she wore a couple times that I adored.
I wonder what the Himalayan Mountains are like this time of year…
Hey man great journal I’m enjoying reading this immensely
Just wanted to add I agree one hundred percent with something you mentioned earlier
Wanted + Primal and wanted +primal seduction did more for me then either one of those three subs alone.
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One ninja to another, your PS results almost convinced me to have Lustrocity II have PS and Wanted together.
However, the third one is the charm 
Thanks for reading, I’m glad you appreciate my journey thus far. There’s far more to come.
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08/23
Yesterday - L-II and ROOTS BEFORE BRANCHES 3 minutes.
Forgot to use Ascension Chamber this Monday.
I’m getting a feeling I remember noting in my previous journal; somebody’s dying inside of me. My sense is that I’m dying to old beliefs, particularly surrounding women, because directly behind the feeling (which isn’t as unpleasant as it may seem) is a newer feeling of detachment.
Yesterday, while working with Mother Mary I came to the insight that, “If I want to manifest the woman of my dreams, I have shift 98% of my beliefs surrounding her.”
Today when I got home from work, I decided to work out instead of just chilling. I think I’ve been doing every bodily exercise I can think of for about two hours now 
feels good though.
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08/24/22
I listened to Lustrocity II, ROOTS BEFORE BRANCHES, and Ascension Chamber this morning in my warehouse. 3 minutes for the customs, 7 for the Chambah.
I am noticing more so that some guys I’m working with study me when I’m not looking. Once I became aware of it, it suddenly became obvious.
At times, because of my highly sensitive nature empathically, I get mentally overwhelmed in public places, customer’s homes, etc. That’s a big reason I hate going shopping. If I avoid eye contact with people and stay aloof, I’m fine. But the moment I start studying people, it begins.
Literally nothing to do with any title I’m running, nobody run with that.
This is to say that I’m realizing that, just as I sense women’s attention on me, I can feel men’s. This isn’t really a eureka moment inasmuch as it’s dawning on me that my anxiety rarely has anything to do with me and what’s going on in my being; I’m generally pretty level.
I have been working on self protection methods more and more and my emotional life has been improving greatly. Staying away from porn, for example, is an immediate boost in my life. Not talking to people for a moment longer than the ‘twinge’ I get or the sinking feeling in my heart (I pay attention to that one) always keeps my energy pure and unmolested.
I journaled that I’m in an energy protecting phase. I’m experientially knowing more and more each day with each person I encounter if they’re energetically leeches or givers. I realized the other day that the way I am with people is the latter.
According to the law of polarity, how could I not attract those that want to take my energy?
Repolarization is going to be a focus of mine.
Onwards and ever upwards.
More later.
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Ascension seems to be manifesting fast for the Sage.
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And may it lead into an ever increasing ascending spiral, when it is time.
I’m going to start asking myself, “Work out today and be sore tomorrow? Or waste my time and be regretful tomorrow?”
So here I was, minding my own business and handling the back of the truck, moving things around when all of a sudden, I hear loud, chipper female voices sounding like they’re right next to my truck.
Normally, my first impulse would be to go see if they’re cute. I twitched, shrugged and continued my business.
I finished up and as I’m bringing down the lift gate, I saw that two girls were next to my truck, going in and out of the car.
They were both cute, but the lightskin one had BEWTY.
I glanced appreciatively at her and her friend and started working on the fridge I brought down. As I was pulling the straps off, I glanced up again and saw them staring at me with a smile. Their window was down.
“Heyyyyyy”
“Hey ladies, how’s it goin’?”
Roots Before Branches song just came on Spotify, lol serendipitous
I looked them both in the eyes, with just a hint of a smile as I was kinda focused on not engaging, but alas. For they were cute.
As I was continuing to work on the fridge, I kept getting the sense to look and sure enough, even through the now closed, tinted windows, I could see the lightskin in the passenger beaming at me.
The white girl looked similar to the one I’m getting over, ironically but neither here nor there.
Each time we made eye contact, I couldn’t help but grin to myself under my hat and eventually, they noticed me grinning and I think that got them excited.
My lead came out around this time. He likes to make fun of my ‘lack of success’ with a couple of girls that I stopped talking to and conveniently ignores the many more ‘success’ stories so as he walked up, I nodded towards the car and said, “Looks like I have a fan club out here.”
He didn’t see what I meant at first but he afterwards told me that they had rolled up the window when he came out but dropped it afterwards.
When he noticed, he couldn’t help grinning.
The customer came out right after and just as my lead said, “You wanna go see if they wanna -”, we could hear the white chick yell out, “SHE WANTS TO KNOW IF YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND?!”
We were out of visual sight, around the other side of the truck, for reference.
My lead and I both grinned at each other and I popped my head around the corner and shook my head in a negative.
But alas, for I am a professional and the customer was right next to me waiting for his fridge to be dollied.
Fun stuff.
Lustrocity II
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Para mi drafts en el futuro.
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muy buena idea! También lo he pensado y creo que lo haré dentro de un par de ciclos.
I might
08/25/22
I had my second meeting today with other investors in this venture that I’m now a part of. Nothing too serious, just a discussion of what my role will be, how I can contribute best on my end, how we want to expand from where we are, and so on.
I remember that after it ended, I sat back in my booth at Denny’s (I had just gotten off of work a bit before and that was the closest place I could reach) and felt immense satisfaction and pleasure at the realization that I can now finally call myself an investor and that it’s in something that I was a part of the creation of.
I’m also proud of the fact that I had the money to do so immediately, and also jump on someone else’s percentage when they backed out last minute and still have money enough to be good until next pay period, no matter what bills hit 
I’ve had the drive and desire ever since I resumed Emperor months back, and I’ve just delayed myself. Time and time again, I’ve encountered people in my work that are very well off that tell me about this investment or this one and I always tell myself I’ll look into it, but I haven’t. And then find out that, nah. Should have done that
But as soon as I decided to fully take back my own life a few months ago, that’s when I saw changes and opportunities immediately become apparent.
I have to become as self sufficient as possible, both materially and psychologically, mentally and emotionally. And that will mean letting go of all of the self imposed limits that I have within myself towards life. That’s where RBB comes in. My kid looks up to me and he’s very observant. I wanna be a great example for him.
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Que bueno, me pregunto cómo afectará tu vida romántica particular
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That one should do ya pretty good!
Imagino que como en ocasiones anteriores, mejorará de maneras insospechadas y calientes
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