Sage - Willborn

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#49

08/24/22

I listened to Lustrocity II, ROOTS BEFORE BRANCHES, and Ascension Chamber this morning in my warehouse. 3 minutes for the customs, 7 for the Chambah.

I am noticing more so that some guys I’m working with study me when I’m not looking. Once I became aware of it, it suddenly became obvious.

At times, because of my highly sensitive nature empathically, I get mentally overwhelmed in public places, customer’s homes, etc. That’s a big reason I hate going shopping. If I avoid eye contact with people and stay aloof, I’m fine. But the moment I start studying people, it begins.

Literally nothing to do with any title I’m running, nobody run with that.

This is to say that I’m realizing that, just as I sense women’s attention on me, I can feel men’s. This isn’t really a eureka moment inasmuch as it’s dawning on me that my anxiety rarely has anything to do with me and what’s going on in my being; I’m generally pretty level.

I have been working on self protection methods more and more and my emotional life has been improving greatly. Staying away from porn, for example, is an immediate boost in my life. Not talking to people for a moment longer than the ‘twinge’ I get or the sinking feeling in my heart (I pay attention to that one) always keeps my energy pure and unmolested.

I journaled that I’m in an energy protecting phase. I’m experientially knowing more and more each day with each person I encounter if they’re energetically leeches or givers. I realized the other day that the way I am with people is the latter.

According to the law of polarity, how could I not attract those that want to take my energy?

Repolarization is going to be a focus of mine.

Onwards and ever upwards.

More later.

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#50

Ascension seems to be manifesting fast for the Sage.

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#51

And may it lead into an ever increasing ascending spiral, when it is time.

#52

I’m going to start asking myself, “Work out today and be sore tomorrow? Or waste my time and be regretful tomorrow?”

#53

So here I was, minding my own business and handling the back of the truck, moving things around when all of a sudden, I hear loud, chipper female voices sounding like they’re right next to my truck.

Normally, my first impulse would be to go see if they’re cute. I twitched, shrugged and continued my business.

I finished up and as I’m bringing down the lift gate, I saw that two girls were next to my truck, going in and out of the car.

They were both cute, but the lightskin one had BEWTY.

I glanced appreciatively at her and her friend and started working on the fridge I brought down. As I was pulling the straps off, I glanced up again and saw them staring at me with a smile. Their window was down.

“Heyyyyyy”

“Hey ladies, how’s it goin’?”

Roots Before Branches song just came on Spotify, lol serendipitous

I looked them both in the eyes, with just a hint of a smile as I was kinda focused on not engaging, but alas. For they were cute.

As I was continuing to work on the fridge, I kept getting the sense to look and sure enough, even through the now closed, tinted windows, I could see the lightskin in the passenger beaming at me.

The white girl looked similar to the one I’m getting over, ironically but neither here nor there.

Each time we made eye contact, I couldn’t help but grin to myself under my hat and eventually, they noticed me grinning and I think that got them excited.

My lead came out around this time. He likes to make fun of my ‘lack of success’ with a couple of girls that I stopped talking to and conveniently ignores the many more ‘success’ stories so as he walked up, I nodded towards the car and said, “Looks like I have a fan club out here.”

He didn’t see what I meant at first but he afterwards told me that they had rolled up the window when he came out but dropped it afterwards.

When he noticed, he couldn’t help grinning.

The customer came out right after and just as my lead said, “You wanna go see if they wanna -”, we could hear the white chick yell out, “SHE WANTS TO KNOW IF YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND?!”

We were out of visual sight, around the other side of the truck, for reference.

My lead and I both grinned at each other and I popped my head around the corner and shook my head in a negative.

But alas, for I am a professional and the customer was right next to me waiting for his fridge to be dollied.

Fun stuff.

Lustrocity II

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#54

Para mi drafts en el futuro.

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#55

muy buena idea! También lo he pensado y creo que lo haré dentro de un par de ciclos.

#56

I might :wink:

#57

08/25/22

I had my second meeting today with other investors in this venture that I’m now a part of. Nothing too serious, just a discussion of what my role will be, how I can contribute best on my end, how we want to expand from where we are, and so on.

I remember that after it ended, I sat back in my booth at Denny’s (I had just gotten off of work a bit before and that was the closest place I could reach) and felt immense satisfaction and pleasure at the realization that I can now finally call myself an investor and that it’s in something that I was a part of the creation of.

I’m also proud of the fact that I had the money to do so immediately, and also jump on someone else’s percentage when they backed out last minute and still have money enough to be good until next pay period, no matter what bills hit :moneybag:

I’ve had the drive and desire ever since I resumed Emperor months back, and I’ve just delayed myself. Time and time again, I’ve encountered people in my work that are very well off that tell me about this investment or this one and I always tell myself I’ll look into it, but I haven’t. And then find out that, nah. Should have done that :rofl:

But as soon as I decided to fully take back my own life a few months ago, that’s when I saw changes and opportunities immediately become apparent.

I have to become as self sufficient as possible, both materially and psychologically, mentally and emotionally. And that will mean letting go of all of the self imposed limits that I have within myself towards life. That’s where RBB comes in. My kid looks up to me and he’s very observant. I wanna be a great example for him.

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#58

Que bueno, me pregunto cómo afectará tu vida romántica particular :wink:

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#59

That one should do ya pretty good!

#60

Imagino que como en ocasiones anteriores, mejorará de maneras insospechadas y calientes :rofl: :rofl:

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#61

What are you noticing from Victory’s Call and ROI?

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#63

T-II and RBB, 3 minutes.

Saturday and Sunday are my rest days. Monday, I’m going to rotate my stack to Sagittarium II and RBB, unless a better insight comes through.

#64

Meant to respond to this earlier. I’ll come back to this.

#65

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I keep finding recently that things that I knew I wanted I’m now ambivalent towards. Things I considered immaterial to what I want are making things I wanted before seem immaterial.

I keep coming to the realization that every conclusion I’ve come to was not ‘it’.

It’s becoming more and more apparent to me that that which I’ve considered ‘true’ for many is not the truth for the few. The many are fewer than I’ve feared.

As soon as I get over the consuming fear of accepting that I don’t know shit about this or that, it becomes far easier to learn. I become a much better platform for new insight.

As soon as I’ve been willing to accept that I don’t need this or that person, this or that idea, this or that habit, new branches suddenly appear as if by fate, by destiny.

#66

The ability to listen to the inner going ons without being moved this way or that is the perfect space for self transcendence.

#67

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I’m grateful this came through.

In the past three days, I’ve been over and over feeling inside, underneath or in-between confusion with people, the insight come through in various ways that…

“Wait. I have nothing to prove here.”

“I’ve got nothing to prove to these people.”

“Wait wait wait. Okay. He’s accepted as the authority around here. That’s fine. I don’t need to ‘rebel’ in any way to show him he’s not my authority, do I? No. I don’t. But neither do I want to kiss anyone’s ass. Okay. Be me, then.”

“These people are watching me go by on my bike. Eh, no need to speed up. I don’t have to pop a wheelie. They see it, it’s smooth. Back to enjoying myself.”

Or, when I receive the multitude of compliments of how I work and how easy I make it look, normally I’ll just respond with whatever flippant remark comes to mind, usually self-deprecating in a light manner as I don’t actually like flattery. Somebody usually wants a favor or me to get to like them, and my job is best done not doing any favors and does not require anyone to like me.

So when I see people watching me admiringly when I’m in a flow, if I feel the sneaky ego-pride rearing its head, I repeat over and over in my head, “What one can do, all can do.”

One of my favorite, favorite mantras of all time, by the way. It goes hand in hand with where there is a will, there is a way.

One of the greatest to ever do it did say, “Greater works than these.”

As Sadhguru might say… Isn’t it?

#68

What One Can Do…

Anger, jealousy, bitterness, victim and bully mentality, poverty and wealth consciousness and so much more…

What do they all have in common?

They all start with us.

Where do they start?

In how we perceive something. Sometimes it is more mental, sometimes it is quite emotional. It’s all in our personal psychology.

How did it start?

At some point in this life (or another, if you’re oh so savvy), we accept that we can do some things and we ‘accept’ that we can’t do others. We internalize this and it becomes our truth. A truth built on a foundation of sand.

Musing time, nothing final here…

Anger is the acceptance that someone or something has the ability and right to cause you to feel like you have so few options, it’s time to fix the issue by breaking it.

Jealousy is the acceptance that someone or something has an ability or right that you don’t possess, to be or do something you want to do.

“I hate that fool. He gets all the girls and look at me. When will it be my turn? What’s he got that I don’t?”

The only way to get out of anger, of bitter jealousy is to acknowledge first that the problem is not him, her, them or anyone. It’s what you accept to be true and have yet to question.

Inner ‘truth’ into inner ‘opinion’ into ‘inner…’?

Dissolve the lies that give a sense of separation between you and the ‘you’ that is desired, and that ‘you’ is born.