3/28/22
Listening to My Secret Garden by Nancy Friday. Previously to this, I was listening to The Story of My Life by Giacomo Casanova. I was not aware of the darker, less known aspects of his story and a few Google searches later caused me to reevaluate some of the boyish admiration I have had for his character as I knew it, as well as some other libertines.
My sweet little AC/IC custom I’m plottin’.
Ascension Chamber Core
Inner Circle Core
Informaticon
Inner Voice
Mosaic
Alexander’s Play
Gorgeous Manifestor
Divine Will
Jupiter
Tyrant
Yggdrasil
I’ll probably not add much here at all, and the one I’m considering taking out or replacing entirely is Alexander’s Play.
I got an email the other day from my school about a part time job that was available.
I saw the email in my notifications and, though the preview seemed like something I wasn’t interested in, I decided to click it. I sent a message to the email that was provided on the 23rd and the lady responded today. The response seemed good so, seems legit. If so, that’ll be easy money added to the coffers.
Well then…
So i don’t think I’ve commented on ST1 of QL a single time on my own journal since I’ve started it.
I’ve noticed something strange. When I do my spiritual work that has a lot of vocal repetition of verses, later I’ll ‘hear’ my thoughts repeating segments. I’ve seen listened and it’ll go on and repeat things I don’t remember, from… Remote memory?
Not versed enough in neurological terms to say.
I’ve mentioned elsewhere that I’ve seen dissolving of learning fears that I’ve had since childhood. I used to be called the most intelligent one in my family as a kid and I loathed it. The older kids would pick on me and make fun of me (strange, looking back) and the younger ones would look up to me.
I was usually the smartest one in my class (never from my own perspective but what was told to me) and I hated it. I would be hanging out with some kids and I would use a word that they hadn’t heard before, or that was ‘big’. Suddenly, I was the nerd. The geek. The know it all.
So, I started actively trying to dumb myself down around others. I started cussing more (no regrets there, until I had a very observant kid), started using small, simple words instead of my vocabulary - that I worked pretty damn hard to build reading all of those damn books, shame on me - and I think that’s when I started becoming a really sarcastic, dry humored kid.
I’m not going to say that QL ST1 has healed all of my learning challenges at all. But I will say it reminded me of how I got to the place I was, at least in part. All of that porn back then probably wasn’t useful 
My memory is certainly improving on Quantum Limitless. I’ve been playing it pretty consistently at the recommended pace until this last week, which I was skipping a few days on in favor of squeezing some loops of the customs in before the wash out I’m currently in. It’ll be interesting to see/feel how ST1 blooms here, ZP wash outs have been rewarding thus far.
Speaking of washouts. I almost invariably seem to experience a huge sense of mental clarity and freedom during the washout, right around day 3 I think. Maybe 2. I’ll have to look around and see if there’s any update on the three day washout experiment.
What else have I noticed… I seem to get a nudge if I’m forgetting something important. QL, idk, but since I haven’t had Sage in my stack for awhile, I’ll tentatively give that one to QL. It’s a physical/mental sensation, a little itch that I will do more in the future to take note of and develop.
I’ll have to update this one with further insight.
This one is acting quick. As the quoted post a couple entries above indicates, the money aspect of this is working fast. I didn’t note in my journal but I’m very sure that the day I played my annoyingly unnamed Emperor custom, I got $45 in tips. It was dry before that for a bit.
I thought I was good at noticing if women are attracted to me before but now, I seem to just read their body language. One girl that I work with today was paying just a bit more attention to me than normal and I decided to trust my intuition and turn and look at her if I felt someone looking, and I caught her at least three times in five minutes gazing at me sidelong and then turning away quickly
Sultan is causing me to be comfortable spending money. Random side note but today on the way to Utah, I decided to focus on money coming to me and FELT the vibration of money in great amount to me. It was a surprising sensation and I sort of choked it by my reaction to it and didn’t regain it, but, if you had asked me yesterday what that felt like, I wouldn’t have guessed what I felt. But I felt that shit.
Organization Perfected. This may be QL but I doubt it based on the time of development, but I’m sure it certainly is helping. My mind is becoming way more ordered. I can manage things going on in my brain a bit better over being the ‘conductor of chaos’ I feel like at times.
More later
Edit: oh yeah! My posture is definitely improved again, it feels different than the one I noticed using Chosen 
which i wanna add into my stack again at some point.
Note to self, washout complete on Friday. I’ve got a pretty strong urge to listen to my titles but I’m not going to.
The lady I mentioned that I emailed about the position seems to be interested in moving forward with me, so we’ll see what happens.
These modules, lmao…
Yesterday was a freaking stressssful day with my girl. Your boy left his phone at home on accident and my girl, being a most enterprising young woman, took the liberty of going through my shit.
She ended up finding a screenshot that I took of a conversation between myself and this light skin girl that I took down a couple times when I was in the CR England school. My lady and I weren’t together at the time, but she wanted to get back with me and I wanted to be on my wild oats sown shit.
Well, not necessarily the easiest thing to see lol. But, the only reason I bring it up here is to note that as soon as she sent me the screenshot (I have a Samsung Galaxy Watch Classic 4) and I saw it, my heart dropped and then I got an immense sense of relief and calm. I was actually really glad it came out cuz this female was the only one I hadn’t told my girl about, in one of those rare moments of weakness when I reflexively lied later down the road, when her and I were reconnecting and told her that I hadn’t fucked around with any female besides the ones she knew of. The silly reasoning at the time of panic was that I figured what she didn’t know couldn’t hurt her and I didn’t want her to keep me from my kid by getting booty tickled over that.
Stupid.
I also immediately regretted the lie and kicked myself at the time, but I wanted to see it through cuz I figured if I came clean, everything else I’d ever told her would be suspect.
Stupid.
So, when I saw that and realized that she knew, I honestly felt great. Well, before all of the drama that came off it. I don’t necessarily feel that she deserved to know what I did when I was single and seeking to come together with many like Pringles (I’ve gotta remember that spontaneous picture, that’s friggin great), but I felt guilty about it for the last nearly 3 years, because I lied to her. I would simply tell her at this point to mind her business, if I could go back 
I hate lying to people and I hate when people think I’m a liar.
So, lots of irritation and stress throughout my work day but underlying it all was relief. Fast forward to when I got home, we talked it out, things escalated verbally very briefly, she apologized for some of the barbs she through at me and we cleared up some misunderstandings.
Her discovering that and then a couple of other things served as a catalyst to us touching on pain I hadn’t found a way to release and revealing something that didn’t even need to be hidden. Her perspective also changed on that time period as well, so there was healing.
I feel like our relationship went up a couple of notches, at the end of the day. And when she picked me up for school, she was wearing a sexy ass Ms. Santa lingerie set, switched to the passenger and teased me all the way home. Once we got there, I put my kid down and then took her down with some pretty friggin mutually mind blowing sex. It ended with us coming together, which makes like the third time in almost 7 years.
I started my cycle again on April 1st with 5 minutes each of my Emperor and IG II customs. I decided that I’m going to move on to QL ST2 today.
I listened to QL ST 2 on Sunday, April 3rd. I think I started this cycle with my customs on April 1st, since I didn’t note that.
With Quantum Limitless, thanks to an idea from @BeautifulSoulGoddess I’ve been using Elevate as a form of action and a way to track my results. Admittedly, I fell off of it until yesterday, but I’m committed now.
While doing the work outs, I can feel areas in my forehead and temple shifting, especially with more difficult questions. At the same time, I can tell QL is active because each and every question I wasn’t familiar with or had forgotten since high school has been noticeably easier to internalize, in terms of understanding the concept of how to do it in the future.
I’ve also picked back up on my DuoLingo. I’m tired of realizing every six months that, “If only I stuck on Spanish this or that time, I’d be way further along.”
Mas luego.
What is Elevate?
Elevate is an app on the Play Store. I’m not sure if it is available on iOS, but I believe that it is similar to Luminosity.
From the app description:
Brain training games to improve your mind skills — Math, word, & memory puzzles.
Elevate is a brain training program designed to improve speaking abilities, processing speed, memory skills, mental math, and more. Each person is provided with their own personalized learning program that adjusts over time to maximize results.
The more you train with Elevate, the more you’ll improve critical cognitive skills that are proven to boost productivity, earning power, and self-confidence. 90%+ report improved vocabulary, memory, math skills, and overall mental sharpness when they frequently use Elevate to challenge their minds. Elevate is for everyone. Your age or profession don’t matter. Adults from all backgrounds can benefit from our app.
Elevate offers a 7-day free trial as well as a free version. To access the free version, tap the X in the upper left-hand corner after you sign up for an account.
I see. Thank you for elaborating.
Awsome I’m so glad you gave it a try ! I’m sure it will be exciting to see your progress 
Yesterday was the play date for my two customs. I completed my Elevate workout, did a couple of lessons on DuoLingo and ran Strong Medicine from iAwake while doing breathing exercises using Calm.
The Rational Male is a very interesting book.
04/07/21
Listened to ST2, did an Elevate workout while listening. Going to continue on with Elevate and some Duolingo.
I wanna note that since adding ST2 to my stack, studying is actually fun and something I look forward to.
More later.
My ability to guess what someone is about to say has been boosted. Since I was a young boy, I’ve been that guy that can finish someone’s sentence or find that word they’re looking for with little effort.
That got annoying to some people so I over time forced myself to keep it in check. It’s popping up hella nowadays which is the only reason I remember.
Whether that is pattern recognition or intuition, I can’t say.
I also when I’m relearning something I’ve forgotten can tell that recall is way more efficient.
Yesterday in lab, wiring 2 3-way switches, a single-pole switch and a half-hot /switched receptacle had the weird experience of knowing that I knew how to do this, but being unable to get the completed, non-structured mental image to be reflected on the project we were doing but I kept getting mental spurts of, “Waitafugginminute, ohhhh”, and then I would lose it after a couple of seconds.
That wasn’t the best example to follow my assertion that my recall is better but I’ll come back later with further insights as they come.
I’m looking forward to seeing further developments with this stage.
I played 12:39 of ST 2 today. When I played the two customs (gotta name my Emperor custom dammit 
} I do believe I listened for the full duration. I’m thinking that I’ll keep my customs at around 10 minutes each from now on as I did experience some moderate recon yesterday that disappeared around when I was heading home from work some time around noon.
Now that I’ve caught up on notes for future me, what I mean by the quoted segment is that on my way home from work, I truly look forward to studying my text book and I get enthusiastic looking up electrician shit on YouTube.
I can’t quite say I’ve studied every time I felt the urge but hey, work in progress.
