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#361

On another note.

Stark ZP. Why I didn’t give Stark a chance before, I have no id-

Okay, bull. I know exactly why and it’s because I allowed some of the misinformation about the title (keyword: feminine) to cause me to discard it each and every time I visited the Main or Q stores. Yet another point in favor of not letting other’s opinions/beliefs get in the way of my experiencing reality.

Anyways. Stark ZP has turned me into a very efficient worker. I’ve been a hard worker since I joined the job market ten years ago. This was in response to my adopted family constantly chiding me for my laziness, or joking i would end up homeless and that I’d never make it.

My adopted dad once told me that he doesn’t know how I’ll make it in life. That really hurt at the time. It still has an effect on me but not so much anymore.

And, guess who ended up homeless living out of his Jeep? T’was I. It’s amazing how things told to us when we’re young affect the reality we create

But, though I’ve always tried to work smarter than harder, I’ve recently noticed since introducing myself to Stark ZP that I’m very, very efficient in my work. Everything I do, from managing the back of the truck, opening appliances, prepping them, dollying them inside of the home, conversing with customers, etc etc…

All of it is done with absolutely wonderful precision and timing. I’ve tweaked my program without much thought and seen benefits almost immediately.

More on this later.

I also have to remember to note the socializing aspect that I believe I started on the Main ZP thread

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#362

We’re the sum total of our Life experiences. If that was all there was to the equation, I’d say there is no point to life.

I would prefer to consider it as, we’re the sum total of our Life choices. We change our life when we change our choices.

Change the inner, and everything else flows. We can’t change our life without changing our choices.

And that takes a choice.

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#363

I’m not sure when I’ll be able to run this stack purely in ZP. But this stack is optimal for who I think I am.

Stark ZP x Wanted ZP x Sage Immortal ZP.

A Stark, Ascension and Chosen ZP custom would be an optimal build in my opinion.

#364

Same. Not necessarily feminine but the Unisex. I was like, MEEEH. At that time I had my fragile masculinity threatened by that.

Good to see you overcame it as well!

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#365

1/28/22

I woke this morning with the song ‘Bellaquita’ running in my head. I also had the line, “God will not be mocked” running around in my head.

I was reaaally tired when I first got up. Like, I considered not taking a shower so that way I could just lay there for an additional 15 minutes.

As usual, ever since Ascension Qv2 turned me into a morning person and my career customs have boosted my drive, I couldn’t do it. Literally. Couldn’t.

So, I got up and trudged around my apartment barely conscious, running my morning mantra through my mind while gathering my work and bike shit. I then went into the bathroom to take a shower, played ‘Bellaquita’ on Spotify to sate my brain and immediately, I began to feel a trickle of my energy returning.

I wasn’t thinking about it but I stood there in the mirror admiring my body. I realized that I had harbored a limiting view of my body for most of my life.

“It’s okay to want to take care of your body, but trying to look good is wrong.”

“It’s ego that makes you want to look good.”

“Who are you trying to impress? Why do you think that’s okay?”

Type shit.

The beginnings of the realization started yesterday and came to a climax as I found myself dancing in the mirror enjoying my ability to move my body sensually.

Oh yeah, he’s hella open on this journal

But anyways, yeah. I’m glad I saw that in myself. Back to my energy.

I’m sitting there in the mirror, marveling over my body and the music made me want to move. So, I’m sitting there sluggish and irritated that my sense of duty causes me to want to work instead of call off (funny when I type it) and my body just starts moving of its own accord.

I started singing the lyrics and immediately felt optimism beginning to build within me, nigh on enthusiasm.

I hopped in the shower and by the time I got out a few minutes later I was damn near perfectly fine in available energy levels.

Kissed my girl, hopped on my bike and took off.

Boi I was smaaaaaaaaashin’ through Vegas. I got to work very, very quickly and had no worries of cops. Verily I tell you, t’was not a cop on the streets.

I get to work and fuck. I felt like a beacon. Chosen/Stark influence fuh shizzle cause I felt and still feel it. And when I reached work, I noticed that my sense of status was right back to where it was a few days ago but even more optimized, natural, assimilated.

I interacted with just about everyone in a flurry of buoyant, beautiful, bountiful joy. I feel like I brought up the majority of people I spoke to for even a few seconds and THAT is badass.

I realized yesterday, similar to how I told @Invictus on the Main Stark ZP thread the other day, that I have a gift with my tongue. I realized that with my level of awareness and skill with my words, I can absolutely destroy just about anyone if they lack proper self awareness and esteem.

Of course, my name is Sage, not Bane (my former go to when I was young, along with Ninjistic). So immediately, I sensed the spectrum of potential and realized that I also have a natural skill at building people up at any given moment.

My mentor once slipped and called me an ‘elevator’ and clammed up and refused to divulge more

So, me being me I of course immediately decided that I’d rather build people up as much as I can when they’re in my presence rather than being ‘clever’ or proving that I am untouchable with the gab so ‘be careful around me’.

This morning, then, was a very rewarding experience. I have more but this post would be very, very long so I’ll leave that tangent alone as of now.

My girl was agreeable to me going to the gym when I told her my intentions this morning. Big surprise, tbh. Usually her first thing is, “But the over there are gonna be all over you.”

Heartsong ZP

I’m going to harp on my increased work efficiency for awhile I sense. But for good reason. Stark ZP has a stronger, more clear and efficient boost on my skill in my work than the combination of my work customs and Limit Destroyer combined.

@SaintSovereign, you hearted one of my Limit Destroyer posts from awhile back so this tag is to bring this to your attention in case its useful for you and Fire in any way.

Stark ZP has boosted my productivity, drive, efficiency and ability to come up with solutions immediately for an issue. Customers that watch me while I’m doing my do have more than once -since I’ve added Stark ZP - said that I make that look so easy, or that it looks like I’ve been doing this awhile. Well that’s no friggin accident as I do everything in my power naturally to look as smooth and effortless at everything that I do that it looks like I’m gliding.

A guy I used to work with used to call me Smooth Operator because it seemed like I just flowed in everything I did, from work to women to socializing and so on. He gave me that name after I introduced him to the veritable, mythic goddess that is Sade.

And yes, that is the reason for the name of my custom.

But yeah. Like I said yesterday. Stark works for me and I regret internalizing misinformation regarding it.

I’m typing this with Swype as things are flying to my mind to note (Limitless ZP) and my fingers can barely keep up, and the energy that I have feels very similar to being a tad bit over caffeinated. Like I said to the one guy that I’m not going to tag on the post I had RV edit the other day because I let my humanity slip, I can go from one mood of brimming with energy, positively feeling like I could burst to more subtle, thoughtful, grounded energy.

I didn’t mention to him that I do this at will. Stark ZP has optimized this in such a natural, seamless way that if I didn’t know better, I’d assume that its because of my semen retention habits.

But I do know better, and I’m not one to ‘think around’ results I see.

My work superiors show respect for me. As can be seen through most of my posts, I am humorous about just about anything. That extends to anything my boss’s may tell me, even if I don’t care for what they have to say. In other words - and this could be in part due to both my natural personality and my use of Dragon Tongue - I can quite literally reframe any situation to where the end results in me walking away after dropping a very smooth line and everyone I’m walking away from busting a gut shaking their heads in wonder.

I’ve said before that I resonate with Spiderman in a lot of ways, especially his friggin ability to talk shit in the most dire circumstances. That’s me and has been me since I was just a wee lad. Many have hated me for that. Most have loved it.

Stark ZP, man.

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#366

I guess that last post was still long af.

Stark ZP x Wanted ZP. I was musing the other day (random fact: my social media tags used to always be ‘strangemusings’ as a play on ‘Strange Music’) and I personally feel like Stark and Wanted can be to each other what Primal and S&S became to Primal Seduction.

That’s more than likely a subjective feeling. I think I wrote it somewhere else but my optimal stack, limiting myself to three simple, non-custom titles is easily Stark x Wanted x Sage Immortal.

I have a plan I’m formulating regarding a more experimental cycle. I’ve played it rather safe with my loops and schedule since Emperor Q humbled me one time. I think that would have been around 6 back to back loops back then.

I’m considering rotating Stark and Chosen every 21 days. Wanted would be rotated with Heartsong, Limitless would be rotated with Sage.

After I typed that, I felt a sense of peace with it, taking note for future Sage

Saint, I already tagged you above and I dislike tagging y’all too much so if you see that, lemme know what your thoughts are.

#367

I just finished my loop of Smooth Operator before I submitted the last post.

So, continuing my last post’s direction, Smooth Operator would be in use rather than Wanted ZP for a month or two in this rotation.

  1. Stark ZP x Smooth Operator x Limitless ZP

  2. Chosen ZP x Heartsong ZP (oh, how I wanna experience you) x Sage Immortal ZP

  3. Stark ZP x Smooth Operator x Limitless ZP

  4. Chosen ZP x Heartsong ZP x Sage Immortal ZP

And then, eventually:

Stark ZP x Wanted ZP x Limitless ZP

Chosen x Heartsong ZP x Sage Immortal ZP

#368

I’m sort of irritated with myself.

I’ve not been living life to its highest potential with my subliminal use. The reason I say this is, the only thing I’ve failed to do that I set an intention for with SIM’s (I can’t get behind ‘SG’ for Sage Immortal, sorry) release is quitting weed.

Quite literally, I’m probably not getting the best results that I’m capable of because of recreational habits. Saint has said more than once that, particularly with auric subliminals, weed isn’t recommended for the state shifting aspect.

I think about this every day.

I’m not going to re-up. Yesterday, i was very much irritated because I didn’t smoke in the evening as is my habit but I’m gonna grit though it.

#369

Today’s mood for me could be translated roughly into a desire to fuck this world up, but in a good way, like…

‘Destroying’ my lady’s no-no squares.

I wanna change a shit load of things about myself and this is a direct result of the temporary identity crisis I went through yesterday after I posted my musings on how active I am in changing shit in my life.

This seems to be a forum wide thing as I’ve seen it in Palpy, JCast, and a few others. I daresay even Saint is experiencing this.

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#370

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Issa mood.

#371

I discovered this in my private notes on my phone, from about 5 years ago.
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Women are highly intrigued by a man of magnetic mystery. A man with an inner calm that is unmistakable, unshakable, untouchable, unbreakable. A man who isn’t impressed with her pretty face, or her pretty nails, and isn’t so easily swayed by her flaunting of her flesh recklessly and shamelessly to a man she has scarcely met. And this is why I don’t like the club scene. A woman who is that way may be just having fun. And that is not for me to judge. However, I am going to truly take a magnifying glass to my greatest pleasure and downfall, my past thoughts and feelings towards sex and how it is outpictured in my reality. The things I will look for consist of specific identity of different feelings and impressions towards sex and pull them apart piece by piece and truly dissect my sexuality and place it back together through auto-suggestion, visualizing, spoken word and thought action and intent.

Very. Fucking. Interesting. This was a time period when I was working on channeling higher insight.

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#372

1/29/22

I have a cold, frigid, calculating anger within that crept up in the last hour that worries me more than if I was experiencing white-hot burning rage. I can deal with the latter. I haven’t felt this type of anger in years.

Imma be exerting my body while working today a bit more than necessary to counter this, at least I hope.

I have been experiencing anger and mood drops in sync with my girlfriend’s mood throughout her day (pregnancy, man…), even though we’re states apart at times, but I don’t think this is from her.

If I don’t improve by the time I get home, I’ll take an extra rest day before using my ZP titles.

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#373

The icy storm has passed. I feel clear mentally and emotionally but a bit drained.

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#374

So, whatever I went through definitely resolved, at least for the moment. I think I know what it’s related to but it’s more than one thing.

Afterwards, I did notice my libido rise back up pretty quickly.

I’ve also noticed that during that period and after, I started noticing more women of my personal ideal. I have more than one type, and I’m seein’ a lot of 'em.

I’m also desiring more intimate with my girl. I actually miss her, which mildly concerns me (fear of attachment/abandonment, likely) and mostly excites me. I thought (to be continued, gotta drive)

#375

Getting a line up and getting my hair retwisted finally, then cleaning up the house with my lady.

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#376

I decided that though I feel fine to run Stark and Limitless ZPs, I’m going to allow myself another day of rest.

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#377

My lady told me that she’s been getting chills lately when we have sex lol that’s a new one for me.

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#378

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#379

1/31/22

Running Stark and Limitless ZPs, in that order, single loop.

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#380

I am paying more attention to my inner world rather than external results.

I have a huge power within me that was behind a thin, transparent wall that previous to this, I acknowledged only as warmth trickling into my sense of being.

Having allowed myself to dissolve the wall, or, more accurately, see that the wall never was, there’s a giant within me that has been patiently waiting for acknowledgement.

This giant - as I will from now on refer to it/me - has no kinetic attributes of anything along the spectrum of mal-intent towards anyone. Nor does it particularly care to be of service, in that sense.

It is simply potential energy, ready to go in any direction I choose, with no judgement of my actions. Any negativity or positivity I feel towards this ‘being’ is all on me.

This giant is revealed in my interactions with others whether I consciously acknowledge its being or not.

I’ve felt its reality more than once in my life. It has been the source of misery (seemingly) from others when I was growing up. Those that were threatened by my light.

I’ve been ridiculed and shamed due to my giant in younger years. I’ve been called blasphemous when I began to connect my giant with the reality of what it truly is, namely, my connection to higher power.

I once had the thought, a few years ago, ‘Does anybody ever ask Jesus how he’s doing? Do they care?’

And then I had one of those lightning flash moments of clarity and wondered, “Why HASN’T Jesus come back?”

I kept walking (I was walking everywhere at the time cause my Jeep was in the shop) and had the thought, “Well… Maybe he doesn’t need to. Maybe… Maybe there’s something I can do.”

So. I paused where I was and looked around with seemingly new perception. I looked at the trees and the buildings, the people going to and fro and felt something sliding into place.

I smiled and looked up at the sun which, though it was a very bright day in Riverside, California, was simply a warm light to me. And so I asked.

My life has never been the same. I wonder at times when it seems the darkest whether or not it was worth it.

It is and ever shall be. For I am more than I know and I will be greater than I ever was. I am. :man_shrugging:t4:

I was wrote a rap years ago that says something like:

:notes: "I gotta stop living life, impressing these people this shit isn’t right.

My disposition is fake and I might, change my position for fear that I’m right.

I’m angry and happy all at the same time, I say I’m okay when I’m know that I’m lying.

My instincts are telling me that I’ll be fine but my insides are empty, I know that I’m dying.

Am I dead already, who can decide?

Is it the mortician or is it my mind?

Can I decide to just simply survive through the day and the night with this pain in my life?

Guess I gotta move on, gotta stay strong, because after the darkness there follows the dawn.

The struggle is real and the lines have been drawn, there is warfare for the average John.

Oops, I mean Joe but what do I know I’m despairing about life at 22 years old.

Maybe I’m snug as hell feeling I’m cold, I’m introverted and I need to be bold.

This is a story that’ll never be told.

Even an open book has a few folds. A place, a space, a face that’ll never be known if someone does not take the time to behold…" :notes:

Even just reading that damn near a decade later brings up a helluva lot of things.

-sigh-

Release time.

But! Otherwise I’m feeling fine, fresh and fierce.

Edit: found the song on one of the apps I used to use to rap songs over.

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