I’ll finish my previous post, but I just found out that I have another little Sage (or Sagette 
) to look forward to!! ❤🔥:zap:
It’s kinda funny because one of the first thoughts I had after the initial flurry was that this shattered my roadmap worse than Ascension ZP dropping from the sky the other day 
Definitely gotta return to my previous, previous post
So, this occurred during the period of time I lost interest in posting on the forum, so I’ll have to recall from memory.
Basically, I noticed back when I was on campus doing in person classes, I noticed that the instructor was very much fixated on me, from day one.
Not so much that he called on me, though I’m sure it would have developed into this if I hadn’t begun avoiding eye contact at eye moments. But that’s exactly it: focused, almost like he was magnetized to my face, eye contact, while he would be giving a lecture. He would stare at me while talking, sorta trail off at times, scan the room while talking again and return to my face very soon after that.
The cycle would continue the whole night. It got uncomfortable pretty quickly, 'cause I didn’t want other students noticing and thinking he’s favoring me.
And he’s not the only one. The other instructor, just about the complete opposite of the other in personality AND looks and background, was EXACTLY the same way both nights he was filling in for the other one, while he was out on COVID.
More on this later, it’s one of the most interesting things that’s happened on Chosen.
Hopefully I finish my other damn post before that
Quick post before sleep and responding to @Trader.
My lady and I had sex. Very low duration in comparison to my preference but the reason I mention it is that I had it confirmed for me that DIAMOND works for Q customs.
She kept saying how it feels so good, or the infamous ‘fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh’ that girls make.
So in this case, I’ll allow quality over quantity.
I’m pretty sure my package has somewhat lengthened but I’m POSITIVE my girth has increased since I started Wanted ZP. I was looking at it this morning idly wondering if my morning wood would go down before I rode my Ninja to work when I noticed it. I’m definitely thicker. That was the intention I set, anyway, as I’m not lacking when I stand up.
Mrs. Palpatine: “yesssssssssss”
That’s not you? Sounds suspithly Sithy to me…
Edit: @Trader, i figured I’d share the hilarious picture that hit my mental canvas as soon as I put down my phone and closed my eyes.
Palpatine, huddled in the dark towering over an indistinct form, being the Senate and all that entails, thrusting maniacally whilst sneering: “yessssssss!”
Then we cut to a better view of what he’s unlimited powering.
Mrs. Senate, in the process of being huddled and oblivious to proceedings above her with eyes rolled back to the whites, and the indistinct form in question, gasping: “yesssssssssssss!!”
It’s the voices for me.
And finally, my age shows… good night 
Gotta get this one out of my head in order to reflect on it more tomorrow in a koan-esque fashion.
People are going to think things about me that I don’t like. People do think things about me that I don’t like. People have thought things about me that I don’t like.
What does that have to do with me?
Thank you, late o’clock brain.
1/22/22
New stack: Stark and Limitless ZP x Pygmalion’s Momentum Qv2.
Ran Limitless first, Stark just started
I chose Stark over EMPEROR and my SoL line because I desire Stark for both work benefits and my trade school.
How’s your health? Your arm? Your back? Your ankle?
My bodily pain has totally receded, including with my arm.
My head has cleared of the COVID related brain fog and headaches.
My back likewise feels far better, I’m glad you asked.
My ankle has just about fully healed. I get no trouble from it besides when a small animal or child cuts into my path and then I immediately detect a phantom pain that I associate with the fear of fracturing it once again.
I’ll have to add that into the list of things in my process to dis-identify with
Thanks for asking 
apologies for that one post you edited the other night.
I’m beginning to feel the tell-tale feelings of cognitive processing as I’m on my way home from Cedar City, so hopefully I’ll be able to take a nap when I get home. The processing usually feels like a bit of sleepiness and reduced mental clarity (temporary).
It took several hours so that’s interesting.
Note: I’m not driving.
1/23/21
I woke up this morning with the realization that I had spent an unknown amount of time in a sort of ‘between’, I’m which I had a bunch of ideas generating like crazy. Unfortunately, i don’t recall any of them.
I also woke up thinking about a certain older Latina I work with, which was unexpected. I haven’t thought of her like that in quite some time.
I’m feeling aspirations of success in various areas increasing.
1/25/22
I’ve gotten $30 in tips and we’re barely halfway through the route. It seems to me that Stark is helping me to manifest more money.
I’m really looking forward to seeing the updated objectives on this title.
I’m detecting tumult in my inner surrounding my sense of status. Very much background but I’m too aware of my self to not notice it.
I may choose to do another rest day tomorrow if I haven’t seen a change.
I’m also having issues with my lady as I’m ‘in trouble’ over a dream that she had this morning. I was upset for a bit, especially once the resulting conversation resulted in her claiming she’s leaving.
I have very little patience for these games so I’ve not responded to anything she’s sent since that message, and her messages changed from petty ‘go fuck that *****, you got what you wanted’ to her saying she doesn’t want to break up, but…
Insert blame that’s all on me.
Nah. It’s about time I recalibrate this relationship once and for all. I’ve barely got time to play games that I want to play, I’ll be sparing none for insecurity.
The situation with my lady resolved well. I listened to her concerns on topics and she received what I had to say well.
As soon as I got home, I told her to come lay down with me as I simply wanted to hold her until she went to sleep.
This led to some pretty intimate sex. I value intimacy and I rediscovered that yesterday. She came twice and I allowed myself to let loose too.
While I detest conflict that starts in the way it did, in the end it actually helped us become closer.
I told her that I had zero intention of having sex when we first laid down and that I had just wanted to hold her and she replied that that was her intention all along.
Heathen.
1/26/22
Running Limitless and Stark ZP, in that order.
I believe that we ended up with $40 each at the end of the day.
Reading Master Keys to Spiritual Freedom while listening to this and other music by Florian Bur while en route.
@AlexanderGraves on another thread triggered a realization in me.
I realized that there is work to be done. I realized that I have work to do. And I also realize that I haven’t been working towards my ultimate objectives with all that I have with what i have available.
My mentor used to ask me in his annoyingly loving way, “What are you working towards? What do you want? And are you doing everything that you can to make it happen?”
I never was able to say yes.
To give myself some credit, I did and still do quite a lot on an inner level every day. Some days I see and feel progress. Others, it feels like I’ve barely moved. But it’s all worthy.
Regardless. I’m not doing enough.
I never ignore when someone reflects what I have been feeling building in my own consciousness because no matter the medium (or, forum), it’s valid.
So, thank you for the inadvertent catalytic trigger, my friend. I bookmarked your post the other day about the YouTube channels you recommended and followed their channel so I can check them out over the weekend.
Now.
I’m fairly certain that Stark in conjunction with the rest of my current stack as well as previous, recent stacks, has been leading me to Be. Be more. Be my best. I care nothing for being THE best anymore, for what is that? Who is that? The best in comparison to…?
What one man can do, any man can do. There’s no ultimate level here on Earth. I mean… There is but isn’t? Basically, when I’ve reached THE ultimate level, namely, oneness with All, then I’ll say, “Yea. That’s the stuff.”
But I lived a decent amount of my twenties trying to surpass others. I once had a goal to be the wisest man on Earth. I wanted to surpass Solomon. What metric exists for this?
Then, I wanted to surpass Jesus.
Bro. How?!
And so on.
I came to a realization in recent times that I have projected ultimate levels onto others and somewhat deified otherwise normal individuals. Disobeying the Second Commandment.
Oh yeah, Moses was a target too. I wanted to be the greatest prophet
I see the patterns and I’m more than willing to change.
I do a lot of self examination and the thing I keep coming to is a fear of taking a step forward in which there is no turning back. A somewhat silly analogy but…
It’s like when a man is having sex. It’s all fun and games until he reaches that ‘point of no return’ and couldn’t stop if he wanted to.
I’m both excited to reach that point and terrified.
In this, the fear extends to each aspect of my life, so the feeling is a bit encompassing. But this post so far is in relation to my Christhood goals. Useful.
I’ve experienced in my short life rejection, derision, scorn, and all sorts of manifestations from others that time and time again, I’ve risen above and continued on the path I’ve set for myself, only to be brought back down by certain people.
My mentor years ago once had me consider what these manifestations mean. What individuals in history receive(d) this treatment? Is it not a ‘crucifixion’ of sorts?
Fear, doubt, worry. All things that are blocking my direct experience of my Higher Self and ultimately, my connection with the Creator. Why?
Anyways. I needed to get this out and get over the fear of what people may think seeing “Christhood”. I could give a f*** and unfortunately, my mortal identity still somewhat does.
Eh.
I have a fire within me that I’ve witnessed many times. It has been blown on, stamped on, and many have attempted to snuff it. I’ve been brought down several times in my life regarding my pursuit of who I am and I realized a few months ago that I accepted this and allowed dualistic individuals to project their limited sense of identity onto me.
Never again.
I’ve learned from my Soaring (as I call it) in the past and I’ve learned where I can change. That’s the important part. But no thing on Earth will come become me and Me again.
