Sage - Where There Is A Will

[Sage_Ninjistic]

I’m also beginning to allow myself to see my higher potential at my job.

Previous to now, I haven’t entertained any real notion of becoming a driver.

We have drivers, who are the leads. They interact most with the customer, as they are the ones who initially knock on the door, talk to the customer, plan the way in (usually, unless you know what you’re doing as a helper) and - and here’s the past hesitation - are responsible for installation of the appliance(s).

Then we have helpers (my position) that handles everything to do before the appliance goes into the house (taking it off the truck, prepping it, and usually dollying it into the home, setting it up for the lead to install, and so on) and everything having to do with taking the old appliances, if there are any, out of the home and getting it onto the truck and secured.

I’ve hesitated because I was unsure of my ability to do the job without mistakes that would be costly. In other words, the ol’ perfectionist trauma.

This seems to be fading as I’ve caught myself considering my options with my company, if I stay with them for any length of time.

[Sage_Ninjistic]

@Sage_Ninjistic

Every day I’ve woken up with Chosen, I’ve felt an eager desire to be of service to someone else with no requirement of a return service, and i think that’s amazing. It honestly makes me emotional so, ya mi voy

I look forward to when I can try my new experimental pattern and bring Chosen and Sage Immortal back around.

[Sage_Ninjistic]

I’m noticing that guys are drawn to me at school.

Outside in the smoking area, I’ve not gone outside one single time without being surrounded by a minimum of 3 dudes wanting my opinion on something, complimenting my bike, and just shooting the shit.

Some fine ass girl walking with her man was staring at me as they were walking back inside. I felt her watching me even though I was mostly distracted (I’m really not called Ninjistic in my personal life for no reason)

I’m tempted to talk about her nice derriere but eh, I see beautiful women every day and get hit on often. It’s, I think they say, par for the course at this point.

I do notice that my instructor isn’t staring at me the same way as he was before. Chosen and Sage are about the only things missing from my old stack when I first started here, but I’d have to verify that. I do remember that I attributed that to Chosen.

[Sage_Ninjistic]

I keep getting this urge to explore my childhood desire to become an inventor. Definitely Stark at play. The litany of ideas that I’ve had throughout my life are coming back to me.

[Sage_Ninjistic]

[Sage_Ninjistic]

I got my girl flowers out of nowhere, getting them delivered to her work without letting her know.

When they arrived:

My girl: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE FLOWERS!!! I LOVE THEM. I’M CRYING RN. LOL

Me: Chu welcome fluffy cheeks ❤‍🔥

Her: ALL THE GIRLS WERE LIKE AWWWWW!!! IM SO THANKFUL BABE LIKE U HAVE NO IDEA. U WANT THAT SUCKY SUCKY HUH? LOL

Me: Now that you mention it…

Her: SHIT AT THIS POINT IMA SWALLOW THE WHOLE DICK

Me: Ooo, promises promises you’re worth more than those flowers can convey but we’ll work up to that

Her: AWWW THANK U BABY. I WISH I CAN HUG U RIGHT NOW

Smooth Operator Qv2

[TheSunlightCaller]

Sagittarius here​:+1:

[Sage_Ninjistic]

November or December?

[Sage_Ninjistic]

2/2/22

Day of allowing, looking at them numbers.

Running Smooth Operator, one loop. I’m not sure when I’ll increase that from just the one, if ever.

I’m going to work on my use of foul language in my personal life, both for my own sake and my kids.

[Sage_Ninjistic]

I will begin consciously acknowledging fears I’ve had in my life.

I have a fear of being the smartest person in the room.

[TheSunlightCaller]

December 5

[Sage_Ninjistic]

Not sure when I was supposed to take my washout so until i track down my last washout imma take awhile off subliminals.

[Sage_Ninjistic]

@Sage_Ninjistic

1/22/22

New stack: Stark and Limitless ZP x Pygmalion’s Momentum Qv2.

Ran Limitless first, Stark just started

I chose Stark over EMPEROR and my SoL line because I desire Stark for both work benefits and my trade school.

I think that this is when I finished my last washout but, seeing as I don’t really care to dig through the posts or do the math from the first washout, I’m going to take a week off of all subliminals. Just to allow bloom and decide on a couple of stack ideas.

[Malkuth]

@Sage_Ninjistic

It matches my personal process and desires so perfectly that, like I said the other day, at times I’m wondering if it IS the title or simply a blossoming of…me.

Sounds like you may have found one of your titles.

[Sage_Ninjistic]

One thing I’ve never been willing to face is my natural charisma. I’ve been told I’m charismatic and never really accepted it because I tied me being charismatic into being ‘manipulative’. If that makes sense.

I try to not exhibit any behavior towards anyone I encounter that seems, for me, to be influencing them in a manner that is out of their control to respond to, given some of my abilities. I guess you could say I walk on egg shells at times. It’s something for me to resolve and soon because it’s a very tiring catch 22.

I simply try to do what I can to not subvert another’s free will. I likely have seen the many charismatic individuals that have used their talents throughout history to lead people down a path that ‘seems right unto a man but leads to death’ and internalized that to mean charisma is wrong to utilize.

I have had similar related mindsets towards seduction. I still hold some of this.

Stark, then, seems to have removed the blinders that I have towards my charisma in a sense and helped me to naturally express that charisma. Stark’s influence is one that I didn’t expect to mesh so very well with who I am.

Everyone around me growing up told me that they could easily see me running a corporation or being at a high powered job with Google or, later, Amazon. I resisted these things because I hated the idea that people thought I belonged behind a desk, not that I couldn’t do it. I see that now.

People to this day tell me I should pursue a career in psychology or working with children. I resist these for similar reasons.

I’ve been having a lot of things coming up that I’ve had to question and examine lately.

[Malkuth]

It’s that inseparable association between Power (on the one hand) and Influence (on the other).

Charisma and Personal Power must be natural to you.

You can’t erase that, but a good solution is to balance it. Every power has its counterparts. In this case, I’d say it’s Empathy and so-called Theory of Mind (i.e., the capacity to accurately imagine another’s subjective experience). Those (and also Ethical Development, which you’re already demonstrating) are the counterweights you can add to be sure that your power is not used harmfully.

[Seeker]

@Sage_Ninjistic

given some of my abilities

What are your abilities?

[Sage_Ninjistic]

Once bitten, twice shy.

Beyond my empathic nature and that which comes with it, I don’t think I’ll be opening myself up for what comes of revealing that sort of thing online, my friend.

Nothing personal. Well… Actually, I guess it’s very personal. Lol.

[Seeker]

Okay.

[Sage_Ninjistic]

2/7/22

Habithub app notification:

The greatest mistake you can make in life is continually fearing that you will make one…

-Elbert Hubbard

I am resuming my use of decrees and invocations. I fell off of this and now, I have a better comparison of the benefits of working with the higher beings that we all have available to us as opposed to not.

I have not used any subliminals since February 2nd, so this would be my 5th day of ‘washing out’. Over the past couple of days, my mind has been very clear and light, which reminds me that I’ve been so very consistently using these titles on a consistent basis that I’ve gotten accustomed to constantly having a feeling of processing and heaviness that many others will understand.

Seeing this, and considering the fact that truly less is more using these titles, I may increase the space between loops to either an additional or two additional days.

So rather than every other day, I am considering:

1: (Monday)- Title(s)

2: (Thursday/Friday) - Title(s)

And so on.