Setting up this journal ahead of time.
New stack is RoM, UA, and Wanted.
I’ve come to learn I don’t feel I have a purpose in life because I consider myself insignificant. More specifically I don’t have a strong connection to my needs, wants, or desires.
I’ve kind of been running subs over the years grasping at straws trying to convince myself the goals were what I really wanted. But it always felt forced. Like I was trying to achieve some outer goals to just justify my existence vs having everything flow out from the internal.
Hoping that RoM helps me connect with my subconscious more and things become clearer. I don’t think all my goals have been a mistake, but there’s a lack of clarity and focus as well as doubts. It’s hard to have any sort of direction in life if you can’t even connect with yourself to know. I’ve basically spent most my life shoving away how I felt just to function in the world and I’m tired of it.
Confusion mostly these days because everything I did in the past was someone else’s agenda or influence, never my own. So it’s a bit odd being at a point having lived to 31 and realizing I don’t even know myself.