Risky and KHAN¹ºº¹

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#81

C2 day 8
Processing day

Trust the process. These are the sensations, feelings and thoughts of expansion. This is it!

I’m really feeling like I’m getting the hang of processing and recon. I can’t put a word on it. I’m not entirely sure I got the full picture. But I’m excited!

My taoism practice is going great. I love it!

Mindset shifts. Perspective shifts. Physical shifts. It’s going great.

I should note the external results better, I’m very bad at that. To be honest, I care more about the internal results.

Work is going great. I also feel like I have this high respect/regard from everyone at work. It’s perhaps status, but it’s weird. It feels surreal. Sleep habits are not perfect, but more consistent. Discipline is better.

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#82

C2 D9
03:00 K2
03:00 Regen

Bills, bills, bills.

#83

C2 D10
Processing day

Night and morning with coping. Resist nothing.

Take action, let go, trust.

I’m ready to expand.

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#84

Here, take some AI slop describing my state with the khans

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#85

Keep it up brotha. I find Khan can actually be lonely because it’s situating oneself at the top of a some type of hierarchy of skills or value and that relentless action puts me in another class. You got this and keep kicking ass.

:fire: :muscle:t5:

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#86

Thanks king :crown:

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#87

Damn, that looks epic! I like that idea of using AI art to describe your inner state.

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#88

C2 - Day 11
03:00 - Khan Black ST2

I worked like 4 hours on a issue a customer reported at work. I did half of it off work, but I question whether that was a good idea or not. Some might view it as bad prioritisation and had use its resources. Like ”free work”. I’ve been dealing with this dissonance today.

It’s a process. I’m evolving and getting better.

C2 - Day 12
Processing day

My taoist is making me wanna play a Panda monk in Mist of Pandaria :panda_face::tanabata_tree:

C2 - Day 13
03:00 - Khan ST2
03:00 - Dragon Reborn: Regeneration

Heaven splitting action!
Earth shattering action!

This has been on my mind lately. I had this intense lust mixed with recon as I was laying in bed in the morning. Bursting energy, that caused anxiety or was triggered by anxiety. Then I had the thought of, do something, anything. And I experienced I think a deeper understanding of how one can transmute sexual energy.

I just took action, all day.

A wise person here once wrote ”If you run Khan or Emperor, just make sure you take action like a mad man, even if you don’t know what you’re doing…”. That inspired me as well.

Together with my DAO practices, the energy and action taking is more grounded. It’s not just heaven splitting, it’s also earth shattering. It’s both.

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#89

C2 - Day 14
Processing day

The business of growth be really up and down.

I was in bed, but the energy I had came from nowhere, and it felt like I could go for 10k run and then work 8 hours afterwards. It felt endless. Most likely from the two Khans, and perhaps related to Khan Black specifically, although both deal with sexual energy and drive.

Next day I wake up really tired. Like I need 2-3 more hours of sleep. Make coffee, start working.

Around lunch, I do my taichi/breathwork. feeling really good. In flow at work. Vibing to some salsa garcon. Thinking that I should learn to salsa and unlock the hips. Worked overtime again.

After work, house chores then recon emerges and I just sit with it, breath through it. It wasn’t pleasant.

Up and down. It’s a dance, and I want to salsa. :dancer:

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#90

Tuesday C2D15
03:00 - Khan Black ST2

Got very positive feedback by my project manager and how I’m the personified developer of the company and it’s values. Curious, learning, taking responsibility and sharing knowledge. Someone who wants to improve and does so. Someone who doesn’t only delivers and has huge drive but also bring energy and and contribute to the whole team.

As usual lately, my days are filled with ups and downs. That’s the business of growth, in my experience. I’m just trying to ride the waves, because it’s all part of the process of growth. One moment I’m getting positive feedback, dancing salsa (trying to, I don’t know how lol) and the next moments I’m in deep anxiety and stress.

Look at nature, it’s not all sunshine and cute baby animals.

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#91

Name: Khan’s Edge
Type: Legendary Broadsword
Class: Khan
Level Requirement: 20
Stats: 500 STR, 500 DOM
Description: Forged in the fires of recon and imbued with sexual energy, this blade strikes with precision and relentless discipline.

Keep leveling up and you’ll unlock the level 30 chestplate, hahaha.

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#92

Oh legendary warrior, your have bested me at obtaining the rarest of weapons. Legend has it that only the mighty may wield it, a lesser man may be scorched by the flames of recon.

May you legends echo in the annals of time and inspire many more down this arduous but rewarding path.

Glory to the man of action !!!

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#93

You forgot to add something

Class: Growth Type Weapon

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#94
Khan unlocks

Optional Upgrade (Level 40):

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Name: Khan’s Wrath
Type: Mythic Broadsword
Class: Khan
Level Requirement: 40
Stats: 750 STR, 750 DOM, 300 SEX
Unique Passive: Aura of Conquest - life’s challenges feel compelled to submit in your presence.
Special effect: Doubles DOM stats
Description: Unleashes a shockwave of status and sexual charisma, leaving colleagues inspired, and women trembling.

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Name: Khan’s Bulwark
Type: Legendary Chestplate
Class: Khan
Level Requirement: 30
Stats: 450 STR, 450 DOM, 150 SEX
Unique Passive: Ward of Authority - your presence inspires confidence and respect wherever you go.
Special Effect: Increases DOM stat by 50% when engaged in taking action.
Description: Forged from molten steel and infused with the essence of conquest and irresistible dominance, it molds to the wearer’s form, radiating raw sexual power and authority. Every curve commands attention, as all who behold you feel the undeniable weight of your social dominance.

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Name: Amulet of Primal Sexuality
Type: Legendary Amulet
Class: Khan
Level Requirement: 35
Stats: 500 SEX, 150 DOM, 200 CHA
Unique Passive: Primal Aura - amplifies your sexual energy, making others intuitively drawn to you.
Special effect: Channels raw sexual energy into motivation, focus, and effortless magnetism, enhancing all social and romantic interactions.
Description: Forged to harness the raw currents of desire, this amulet radiates irresistible energy, converting sexuality into raw power and invincibility.

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#95

This got me :rofl: because it’s so true and that episode where I was feeling recon/lust felt like textbook anxious → cope → fap cycle.

This looks like the start of a new mega gaming/fantasy franchise. :innocent:

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#96

dats what i call my peanits

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#97

Wednesday C2D16
00:00 - Processing day

Expansion. Growth. Alignment. Thriving. Ultra-fast results and processing. Level up! Let’s go! Let’s go!

FOMO: what I miss out on I make up for in focus and depth.

#98

Thursday C2D17
03:00 - Khan ST2
03:00 - Dragon Reborn: Regeneration

Turkish Yoghurt + Banana + Honey/fruits/berries = LETS GO!!

why am I feeling good? Why am I questioning this? Embrace the wave, because it’s a wave, and another wave might come down. We embrace it like a log floating in the sea of life :ocean: 🪵

I’ve noticed myself dancing more to music. Lol I feel more alive physically. :ok_hand:

I don’t think you understand passion… it’s the dance of duality.

#99

Friday C2D18
00:00 - Processing day

Xmas party and I feel everyone is eye licking me on the dance floor. Not sure if delusional or not lol

And as always when it’s this intense, I want to run wanted. There is something intoxicating with feeling wanted. I guess it’s such a contrast to the younger years. It’s on one hand curiosity, on the other one, validation seeking bs.

I will stick to this, no matter what. But I’ll probably commit in the future to wanted. It feels like a bad decision stirred by validation seeking behavior, but I guess I gotta trust my intuition. It says in a year from now, run wanted for a year.

Reality is saying run IG again, because man, people are literally treating me like the ”miracle worker” mentioned in the copy. It’s surreal, because I don’t understand. But I must have grown massively with it in such subtle ways I didn’t notice.

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#100

Saturday C2D19
03:00 - Khan Black ST2

A partly derp day and partly cozy day with a mini xmas-family-thing.

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