Risky and KHAN¹ºº¹

Journals - Major Programs
#1

I am done with Emperor now, I was aiming for a year but did 11 months (Emperor, Limitless, IG). I grew alot and achieved many of my goals. Fitness I made big progress in losing 15kg, but there is a way to go, hence Spartan.

  • Push that masculine oomph!
  • Fitness (I want to first cut to 80kg, improve endurance/conditoning and run 10k sub 60 and then build muscles)
  • I also want to keep leveling up my career and look for alternate wealth paths instead of regular employee. It feels like there is a limit there.

Anyway, I am open to get to know myself more, what I want out of life and go after it like a hyena. I am open to what I learn about myself and where the path changes to something different. Khan stays, but how it all plays out will be interesting. Like a good movie.

For instance I found it very interesting that Emperor got me to work on self-love, meditation and a 3 step face routine. It doesn’t feel like something an Emperor does. But this is why ZP is so good, you’ll unravel your authentic self and try different things and figure it out, ZP helps you min-max your potential. Min-max YOU, i.e. the Zero Point. (imo).

Khan - Spartan Apex Warrior - Third I’ll keep flexible. I’m leaning towards IG or Bald Shroud™ initially.

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#2

Night 1

Khan ST1
Spartan: AWF
03:00

Good day, I went for an outdoor run today. I got a way to go, my endurance is shabby. It was a recon run and I have a route planned out.

Feeling the power and resilience of Spartan. I am not after the tingles, but I’m not denying them either. Feeling the desire for physical excellence growing.

Processing around gaming/streaming.

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#3

Night 2
Processing day :slight_smile:

Sore in my legs from the run yesterday. This is good!

Games and stream went better today. I got a new follower and 3 chatters. If you got tips from your own journey/experience in social-media/streaming please share. :slight_smile: I am being humble and trying to learn.

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#4

What’s your strategy? Like with previous run - 3 mins for first 3 cycles, then adding 1 minute?

Will you be rotating Khan stages? Are you planning to use Khan for 4 years like you described in previous journal?

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#5

Right now I’m thinking to increase by 3 minutes each round until sweet spot. Either that or do it like last time as you described.

In retrospect my status with Emperor rose steady and people were nice to me and respectful and I couldn’t understand why at times. I expected that people would ”challenge” a rise, but it was steady, smooth yet felt surreal. I think it was the slow duration increase.

Another lesson is that I know I can’t just raise the duration consistently like a robot, because at some point the recon becomes too much and I should stick to that sweet spot or slightly less, until I’ve worked through some major growth.

4 years was based on the idea of increasing by 1 minute each cycle, in the case of Khan it means each complete run through all stages rotated. This might take much longer with the lessons above. Growth is not always linear and like clockwork, imo.

I’m not sure exactly what to do yet. But I know I will rotate each stage in order each cycle for the same duration, and then after ST4 increase the duration. The other subs if I’m consistent with them will follow the same duration.

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#6

Night 3
Bald Shroud
03:00

I love my new grill. My clothes smell of cooked meat. I feel primal. Lol

Went for a 3K run today. It was tough but we got through. I walked 10k+ steps too. Later during the night I studied 2 hours for a certificate and did some journaling.

Eating more vegetables.

Processing around saying no to people. That’s beauty of life, you can pursue your own happiness and the others can to. I am not going to cancel my pursuit for your pursuit if it’s not a clear win/win and you’re some random dude online. You’re free to not like it. I don’t know why I want to say no and also make sure you like it. Lol That’s stupid.

Processing around wasting time on meaningless things. Goals or meaningful activities only.

Also processing around being present in my day to day actions and engagements. Unnecessary to cook food and ruminate on the next days stream.

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#7

Night 4
Processing day.

Met multiple neighbours and had small talk. Some of them are developers as well, which is cool. Passive networking. :smirk:

Streamed some today, no new chatters, but I kept the vibe going and had fun. Although the room got super heated, my CPU crashed because of BF6. Screw BF6, we’re sticking to cs.

Processing around self-sabotage like staying up way too late.

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#8

Night 5
Khan ST1
Spartan AWF
03:00

Some journaling, fixing with my PC, family time and had one hour certification study. I missed my run today, which is pretty disappointing.

Reading books, just finished The Virtue Of Selfishness and started The 6 Pillars of Self-esteem. A big goal for me is higher self-worth/esteem/love on this journey.

#9

Night 6
Processing day

Ran 3K today again and it felt much easier and I never stopped once. :+1: SPARTA! Lol

Later in the night I went in to the city for a concert. I felt the concert sucked and I was looking forward to it so much, and every one around me seemed hype. Anyway, I don’t waste time, so I spent the whole concert feeling the peer pressure and herd mentality and worked on slowly letting it go.

My thoughts are my thoughts. I belong to me. If I don’t like something I don’t. Self-worth comes from within.

I guess TB is breaking down the bs social conditioning that is holding me back.

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#10

Night 7
Bald Shroud 03:00

Slow day, got back home after spending the night in a friends apartment closer to the concert.

Grilling some chicken breasts and vegetables. Was really nice. :blush:

Finished my learning for the next certificate. I will build two-three simple projects to practice what I’ve learned, then watch/read knowledge from a different source about the subject and then book the exam. Should be able to get it done this week.

#11

Night 8
Processing day

Something is bubbling in the water. :see_no_evil:

Way more comfortable being authentic and assertive lately. I love it.

Processing around:

  • Mindful spending (owning a house, you get bills to pay)
  • Desire to make more money (with the above)
  • Streaming dream fears
  • Boundaries
  • Being conscious, not the woo woo spiritual bypass kind, but actually asking myself the hard questions of where I want to be, where I am, why I am where I am and what am I going to do about it?

Wake up!

Currently reading The 6 Pillars Of Self-esteem.
I streamed today and got 7 unique views. I need to figure out how to get more views.

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#12

Nigth 9
Khan ST1 - 03:00
Spartan: AWF - 03:00

Processing dude.
I must handle my sleep better, it’s vital.

Cut the weeds. Focus on the goals.

Went for a 3KM run today and I pushed past my last limit, which felt great. I pushed more than I set out to do.

If chasing a goal and you feel you’re not moving as fast or it feels like an uphill battle, find the breaks. You have your feet on both the gas and the break. Example, “What are the disadvantages of this goal?”. Write a full A4 page, then analyze it efterwards. What’s going on?

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#13

Night 10
Processing day

Focus and execute. I’ve been slacking today. It’s part of the journey. Time to lock back in.

#14

Night 11
Bald Shroud - 03:00

Processing

The desperation of making it on Twitch is incongruent with Khan and Spartan. I gotta work on that. Punish me daddy until I align. Beat the weakness out of me. Lol

I’m worthy, just watch.

#15

Bruh you need to chill rofl

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#16

LMAO

Night 12
Processing day

I saw this topic around agency… That’s like that dentist scene in Fight Club. If Tyler Durden threatens you like that you will get it done. 100%. 100 X Agency. So, what does that tell you about your excuses?

Streamed today and started recording and editing again. We got this!

I’ve been really enjoying the grill. Getting my proteins from meat has never been easier and felt so awesome. I smell like grilled meat.

Need to focus down on my goals more.

Been spending less time on random activities and forums. Goals man, if you’re to tired to work on your goals doomscrolling and readin ain’t gonna take you closer to your goals. You need rest!

#17

Night 13
Khan ST1 - 04:52
Spartan: AWF - 03:00

For whom, by whom?

Intent + Freedom from outcome is hard sometimes. Certain goals are incongruent, they need to be reframed.

Example: I want people to like me and follow my socials. One can come from a place of neediness and one from a place of abundance and sharing. One is I want, it could be fun, but I’m be okay anyway if I don’t get it. One is, I need it, or I’ll die.

Time to go cyborg with the diet to finish the goal. I’m going to eat the same stuff weekly. Like a robot.

I feel overwhelmed, but I think this is just increased responsibility, increased personal standards and with that comes increased anxiety and discomfort. But soon enough I’ll adapt and it will feel like my new comfort zone.

#18

Night 14
Processing day, planned, shopped and cooked food for 3 days, calories counted. Going well so far.

Night 15
Bald Shroud - 03:00

Back to work and first day of my meal plan/prep. Why do healthy food taste so bad lol? Is it because my taste buds have been bombardier by high corn syrup poison for years? Ah well, I’ll get it back.

Taking my power back.

Streaming wise, I don’t know even how to proceed. Doubt is in my head. Fear. I just want a plan with guarantee that I’ll make it. But that’s just wishful thinking. Perhaps even wrong thinking. I should do it because it’s fun, even if success is not guaranteed.

Shoulds are dangerous. Things are confusing, I’m going through some big evolution probably.

#19

Night 16
Having a rough time around streaming that takes the fun out of it. Hmm perhaps recon. I need to figure it out.

Went for another run today before work.

#20

Night 17
Another work day. I noticed something while scheduling some stuff in my calendar. I have no free play fun time lol

Everything is always for a goal, a means to an end. I don’t think that’s quite healthy, innit? I don’t know.

I might add in some slots for being a pure raw lazy caveman. For balance, of course.

I feel better today about the streaming. I just want it so bad but felt so overwhelmed because I can’t see a clear path towards success. The area feels like a giant mountain to climb.

My meal preps are going well. I love how it simplifies my life by having ready food boxes to eat and hit my calories for the day. It’s awesome.

Also booked a certificate exam. Wish me luck. :four_leaf_clover: