Day 11 - C1 - Listening
khan black st1 - 03:00
There’s no going back. 
Today I had my first solo facilitation session where I led a group of people in a workshop. Nice to be on this end and see what’s it like.
Massive epiphanies. Journaling. Profusely. Private journal.
Day 12 - C1 - Processing…
Unfocused day at work. The black.
I received a lot of love today. The white.
Life is like milky chocolate. I’m enjoying the combination.
Day 13 - C1 - Listening
Khan ST1 - 03:00
Dragon Reborn: Regeneration - 03:00
Long day…
I got positive feedback from a colleague today for my yearly performance review. I wonder who else left feedback. People are so friendly and smiling with me.
Besides the clouds of fatigue, it’s been a pretty sunny day. I’ve worked multiple late nights in a row related to work projects and you can’t escape the need for sleep for too long. Time to relax.
I was also very warm, anxious and had trouble focusing. Something is going on. Lol
Day 14 - C1 - Processing
Noticing a different flavour to sexuality. Hacking away at shame and evolving by relationship with my sexuality.
Day 15 - C1 - Processing
Took another rest day. Life’s teaching me a lesson the only way I take it, the hard way. Lol
I’m definitely dealing with the bigger responsibilities at work. Taking on more leadership roles and behavior. That comes with the discomfort of change, fear of the new, and I just need to remind myself of that.
Day 16 - C1 - Listening
Khan Black ST1 - 03:00
Copium mate.
Day 17 - C1 - Processing day
I’m getting curious about mens work and was pondering if this could be a way for me to give back. A path of purpose and passion, helping lonely and broken men. It’s messed up.
Anyway, this run has been anything but a ”spa”. Because it seems to me that the spa has made my body to relax and let things come to the surface, which is great, but the surface has had a storm. I just need to deal with it.
You realise why suppression is a thing and how much bs is buried.
I’m on the verge of another growth spurt, I just gotta remain steadfast.
Day 18 - Listening day
Khan ST1 and DR: Regeneration - 03:00 each
Did some QiGong on my lunch break and it felt nice. Exactly the energy boost and relaxation I needed.
I need moar action now.
Day 19 - C1 - Processing day
Good day overall. Signed up for a Daoism courses now too. Really enjoyed the last session.
Take action like a mad man.
Accept and acknowledge the recon, then focus back on action and goals.
Day 20 - C1 - Listening day
Khan Black ST1 - 03:00
Had a stressful morning because I messed up. So I didn’t get to do my new morning routine. It’s fine. Perfection was never sexy.
Getting back up on that horse and trying again is super sexy. Lol
I wanted to do a QiGong exercise and some breathwork in the morning.
Anyway, tomorrow is washout, then we’re heading to ST2. 🤸
Day 21 - C1 - Washout
Washout begins!
Feeling good. As I’ve taken up more leadership and responsibility at work I’ve realised the importance of focus, prioritisation and organisation. As I’m new to this there is a learning curve and I hope I’ll grow in this area.
Also, proper sleep is important. I guess my respect for my time is growing. It did already start with Emp but now it’s more real in a sense, like I have no choice but to adapt this high ROI mindset.
Day 22 - C1 - Washout II
My DAO practice and journey is going great. The recon comes and goes, I feel I have leveled up my processing. More acceptance. Less resistance. More flow. It’s a process.
Feeling excited. 
Just after 3 days of consistent dao stuff and I feel more connected to my body and have a calmer mind.
Sleep hygiene is still not in place. I’m focusing on that as well. 
Working on Louxi Aobu, a taichi move.
Work is going great. I just keep leveling up, face challenges and recon, stay steadfast and gain knowledge, more status and more responsibility. Giving me even more chances to raise the value I bring and opportunities I can keep leveling up with.
DR: Reg is definitely giving be more calm and joy. I accept both good and bad emotions. Less resistance. Improving emotional regulation and emotional intelligence.
Day 23 - C1 - Washout III
A mix of challenge and glory. 
I did mess up my sleep, I think I have an idea what to do about it.
Taoist practices going great. I am in love. Trying not to push myself too much, but I want to do it all day lol. Taichi walk, practice Zhang Zhuang. Patience is key.
I have alot coming up this week, so I need to make sure I sleep well tonight, that’s this weekends main goal.
Also, I say it again, Wanted line is advanced bro. The wanted aura and way of seduction is not for everyone, not for beginners or people who don’t take action.
It’s like telling someone to be themselves. Depending on where they are at in their journey, that advice can both be detrimental or highly effective. It could be helpful or it could actually be self-sabotage.
You could just stick to the program for a year. It will eventually be worked out, but until then, stop sweating it. You’re not there yet, you will get there eventually. So what? If you can’t be patient, don’t run the program.
This is all just my opinion.
Cycle 2 starts tomorrow. Khan ST2 and Khan Black ST2, and regeneration.
It’s been great. I’m ready, ultra processing. Massive expansion. Growth. Thriving. Up. Whatever it takes, we’re leveling up.
I’m actually pretty sore from taichi. Lol
Heaven splitting action.
Cycle 2 - Day 1 - Listening
Great day at work. Some processing, some insights. Fun.
I do my best. As long as I do my best I’m pleased and okay with myself.
Expansion
Thriving
Growth
Ultra
Cycle 2 - Day 2 - Ultra-fast processing
Today’s expression:
”And?”
Or
”So?”
It’s dark humour. Stop taking yourself so seriously.
I read a journal page of mine, full of insight and vulnerability and courage to admit flaws and strength to take action and do the work.
But today, I read that and think:
”And?”
”So?”
”So what?”
Cycle 2 - Day 3
Work work
Cycle 2 - Day 4
Processing…
I am so tired dude… A lot of processing and growth, deep roots I’m building. I hope.
About streaming, it’s a fun idea, but I don’t have time for it and I also don’t enjoy the “entertain the chat” thing. I just want to chill. Played some ARC Raiders and I realized I am too wiped to even play that game lol. Competitive games take so much energy from me. I guess because I am competitive by nature and can’t just chill. I gotta play well!
A lot of processing.
My TAOIST practices are going well. Starting slow, a good idea, seeing what fire wrote in the other topic. Building a foundation.
“When nothing is done, nothing is left undone.”
ExPaNsIoN
gRoWtH
ThRiViNg
lIvInG
Everything is in order, just processing. It’s part of the journey.
C2 D5
03:00 K2
03:00 DR: Regen
Processing heavy.
C2 - D6
Processing day
The culmination of these past days have been about coming to terms with the fact that I’m at my deep core very narcissistic and selfish. Something I’ve been suppressing and all the other good stuff that comes with that. Like compensating for it by people pleasing and so on…
The suppressing of this is very taxing. I’m ready to be more authentic.
Perhaps selfishness is the innate nature of all humans, but I can only speak for myself and on myself.
Some shadow work I guess.