Washout Day 1.
Thank god, my mind has been so active lately. So many emotions and thoughts keep coming up. Iāve found it quite difficult to stay present lately.
Recons been strong. Hopefully my mind can play catch-up now that itās washout time
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I keep thinking about everything I hate about myself. I canāt stop. Itās just one thought after another, Iām so angry right now. Itās like I have all these invisible chains holding me down and I canāt move. Iām stuck. My mind wants me to change but I donāt know what actions to take.
Itās driving me insane.
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Reframe those thoughtsā¦ They are coming up one by one because you are taking steps towards getting over them. They are a sure sign that you are on the right path, beacuse you would not be this aware of them if they would stay repressed in your darkest corners.
Yes they look ugly and unwanted, but learn to love them and let your attachment to them go. Use humor, learn to laugh at yourself, the comedy of life, look at your serious face in the mirror, how mad you are and repeat it to yourself until you canāt stand just laughing at yourself and how silly you lookā¦
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Thank you!! I needed this
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Iām gonna lose my shit. I have so much anger right now, I can hardly control it
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My minds been so negative lately. Iām afraid Iām gonna manifest some bad events. Iām genuinely afraid. My life feels like itās crashing down.
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Hope youāre feeling better, bro. I understand the feeling! Hang in there - youāll be better soon.
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Do you suggest that removing Yggdrasil if one is running ME and AC? I am building customs and itās really hard to know which results enhancement modules to add. Iāve heard many folks speak highly about Mosaic, DEUS, and Yggdrasil.
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@SpikeDaMai If you can try not to remove Yggdrasil in my opinion.
I think Mosaic is a must or of great consideration if running Mindās Eye and Ascension Chamber or even changing stacks often after a ZP 21 day cycle. Mosaic for integrating subs & modules in a stack.
With DEUS I am not able to comment on that as I have never tried that.
Omnidimensional is a pretty popular result enhancer too.
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Thanks a lot for your input! I have kept Yggdrasil in there but will strongly consider adding in Mosaic as per your message.
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Thanks man. Recons starting to slowly fade away now 
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Wonderful! Just the way you were talking there I thought Iād check in on you 
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How is things going now? Ill be following this journal. Im working on what sounds like a similar problem. Im a tall goodlooking kid but i have insane social anxiety, and still feel like the kid i was in High school where i was not the best looking
I can tag u in my current journal if you would like to take a look
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Things are getting better now. Just got hit with a huge wave of recon.
Yeah sounds like weāre in a similar situation, I know what itās like.
Yeah for sure, Iād love to take a look!
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If you really need iron frame, swap out sub model alpha for it.
I think in your situation, sub model alpha might make you over analyze social interactions but with iron frame your frame control just becomes more natural.
It might reach a point you just subconsciously reframe any situation even possibly your thoughts and your mindset in any way you like.
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Wow, I never thought of it like that. Good idea! I think Iām going to do this
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- StarkQ
- True Social
- Lion IV
- Dominion
- Alpha of Alpha
- Iron Frame
- Rogue
- Dragons tongue
- Story teller
- Song of joy
- Emperorās voice
- Furious accent
- Natural winner
- Lifeblood Fable
- Invincible presence
- Ethereal presence
- Entranced
- Elegance
- Jupiter
- Mosaic
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What do you think about adding attachment destroyer to your custom?
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Wow, never saw that module before. I quite like it
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Damn man youāve got a crazy combination here
Iād like to see how this plays out. Youāre unfiltered, witty and best of all itās your personal type of humor tailor suited to who you are.
And then this
Just relax and watch people get addicted to you 
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