Reclaiming my power - A Journal by MatAlexander305

Congratulations on your progress!

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Thank you! :grin:

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Social anxiety is ruining my life

Or should I say “has been” for a solid 4 years now.

I’ve been a bit underwhelmed at my results from Stark and True social. Mostly in terms of social skills.

It’s like my subconscious is being pushed to seek ways to be more social, more confident, more charismatic etc.

But theirs this huge roadblock. And this road block isn’t just a roadblock. It’s a whole iceberg. This sh!t goes deep and I think this is why DR keeps popping up in my head. I can’t even put it into words, it’s difficult to even recall the life I lived 4-5 years ago.
(I actually think this is part of the problem).

I keep wanting to move ahead, but theirs this invisible force holding me down. It’s like I walk around with 45lb plate everywhere I go. It’s exhausting, gaining momentum is hard, and losing it is even worse.

I am a deeply wounded man, a deep healing is required here. None of these programs are going to get me what I want if I can’t heal from all my past wounds.

When I run DR, keep me in your prayers.

I’m gonna need it

4.10.22 :upside_down_face:

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@Athanaxos :point_up:

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How are you @Matalexander305 ? Are you over COVID?

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Hey @RVconsultant

I’m doing alright, just going through it with recon. I am over covid now. It wasn’t too bad—kind of like a cold that wouldn’t go away + a lot of fatigue.

Being off work for a week gave me time for deep reflection, and it’s made me realize how much I ignore my real problems. The ones that hold me back the most.

As you probably discerned from my last post, I’m done with living like this. So I’m going to bite the bullet and run DR.

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This is good news.

As for fatigue, @Leandros would you like to comment on anything you know about to bust out of post-covid fatigue?

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Post covid fatigue is easy curable in 6 hours

Take 1 Gramm of NAC = N-Acetyl-Cysteine

I helped a couple of people who had it long time (18 months) in one day the where running around.

:wink:

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Funny you mention that @Dragon-Lesson

I’ve been taking NAC 1200 - 2400 mg a day for the last 2 months.

The fatigue is gone now :grin:

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Perfecto

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I got my driver’s license today!

Oh my lord, I was so nervous. Even though I knew I would pass and all would be fine, it was hard to keep my cool.

While awaiting my tester, my nerves were starting to get to me. My heart was racing; it was reminiscent of the days I had to do oral presentations in class—literally my worst fear.

So I just started telling myself
“You’re too strong; you’re too smart, you’re too good, you’re too calm, you’re too confident, you’re too sexy.”

Just hyping myself up with absurd affirmations :joy:

Needless to say, it worked, LOL

As soon as I started driving, everything calmed down, and I did exceptionally well. Damn near perfect.

“You did well, very well actually” I liked that part

So tonight, I’m going bowling with my friend, his girl and some of her friends. Instead of listening before bed, I decided to run True Social just now. I got another 6 hours until we leave, so I’m waiting to see if and when it kicks in.

Curious to see how this night will unfold…

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Congratulations! :partying_face:

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:+1: well done…congrats also

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Thank you!! :grin: @FireDragon @Seeker

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You’re welcome.

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Huuge congratulations mate! :grin:

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Thank you @Athanaxos :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:

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Wow, I’m at the gym right now and for the first time I can actually feel True Social’s aura.

I feel so warm and friendly right now

T minus 2 hours…

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Congratz, I got mine after 3 tries after having argued about stupid stuff the first 2 tries, and the third time I was like; don’t upset the guy :joy:

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LOOL, I know how you feel :joy: My tester was so uptight, I asked him if we were turning at the light and he was like “PLEASE AWAIT MY INTRUCTION!” Like chill…Then two seconds later he tells me to turn smhh :sweat_smile:

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